Nothing I do or write is good, I don’t make original species or tribes or anything, all of my stories are dumb and inspired. Nothing I do is original. It’s all stupid. I’m the dumbest person in the Omniverse, heck all of existence actually. I can’t do anything and should be punished for this. Im sorry everyone.

I’m gonna quick post this before I’m taken over by jealousy again. I just wanted to ask, how do you all win raffels so much and so easily? So many people have won hundreds and I enter tons but never win any. Am I just unlucky? I don’t understand. I’m sorry for annoying anyone, it’s just raffles make me feel all sorts of emotions, since I can’t draw at all and I’m scared to ask people if they can draw, cause I’m afraid I’ll sound mean or selfish

Edit: I know this might sound horrible, but I wondered if anyone could help me win them. It’s just I can’t draw at all and I’m very emotional and everything. I just wanted to see more art, I’m sorry. I also wanted to win so I could feel special and everything. I know I’m a terrible person. I am also making a parody to the Reynolds pamphlet cause of what I’m doing. I’m horrible

Should I upload my parodies to songs in poems instead of journals?
(Mainly because I feel worthless and just want support)
I’m made a parody to the Hamilton main theme, it’s a long story, but sometime I can upload all my Hamilton parodies. It will explain a lot in my discord when I’m done making it.

My writing sucks

Hey guys, I’ve been thinking about it. I wanted to try to make my own discord server. It won’t be any good, but I want to try. And I wondered if anyone wanted to join? I’m gonna get help to make it from friends, but anyone is willing to join.

I forgot to post this earlier, but my friends are back :’) I’ve never been so happy, everything is finally good again! I’m so glad it is. Seriously, I’m beyond happy there okay. If I lost them I don’t know what I would do. I’m doing a lot better for now.

I just hurt everyone on discord and lost them all, I think they all want to quit now. They where my family to me and I lost them. I have never cried so much, I don’t know if I can continue to do this I lost all my will to live. I just lost all my friends. I’m so sorry. I’ll stay if you want, but I’m just sorry for what I done. I hope we can all still be friends.

I just wanted to say, I did write the prolog to one of my smallest stories. It was my first time writing it in words, it’s floofys adventure prolog. It’s kinda short (I think, I never wrote before,) it’s about 6 pages and I hope it’s good. I understand if it’s bad, my stuff is kinda dumb XD, I just don’t know how to upload stories, but I’m slowly figuring it out. Soon, today or a couple of days I might upload to prolog cause I finished writing it. Im sorry that it might be bad or short, it’s my first time. It’s my smallest story, cause it mainly focuses on two main characters, floofy and sulfur. I hope it’s good enough to be here! Again, sorry for being dumb and not uploading it earlier.

I saw a lot of your journals, and I just wanted to say thank you guys so much for the support, I’m crying so much right now, it means everything. I’m sorry I’m like this some times, my jealousy hates me. I hope we can all get to be amazing friends. You are all incredible people. Thank you :’)

What is the writers directory? A long time ago they asked me something but I didn’t respond, I was scared I was in trouble. If you have any info about it, let me know. I do write a ton and make huge stories with my characters, but I haven’t posted much of anything here, I posted barely anything here so I don’t really know what happened. And also, you can still respond to my other journal. My jealousy isn’t fully gone yet :’(

I don’t understand how everyone gets over a hundred watchers so easily. Is there anything I’m doing wrong? I’m sorry. It’s just jealousy taking over me and I don’t know what to do. I’m worried I’m to much of a failure for this place. I’m not popular enough or something, do I still mater even if I don’t have lots of watchers? I see everyone of my friends with lots of them, I think it might be because they draw, or something. I’m so sorry for sounding so bad, I just get attacked by jealousy and I can’t control it. I want to be a good person and help everyone I can. I will die for this community, I will do anything to give others the happiness they deserve. I’m just worried I’m not good enough. I feel hopeless a lot and like I don't matter at all. I’ll be okay, it’s just my jealousy hates me and I try to fight it as hard as I can. Is it because everything I post is not original? I’m sorry, I know nothing at all about fur affinity, literally nothing. So I don’t know what watcher really means, I think it’s like a friend or subscribe button or something. I just don’t get how everyone has so many. I’m sorry for being so worthless and like this, you all deserve so much better. I’m going to stay no matter what, it’s just I’m worried I’m never good enough for anyone. I feel like I suck at absolutely everything and my stories are bad, and since I can’t draw I will never be good enough. And my jealousy spikes and takes over. I just want to be like everyone else and have lots of watchers like them, I just want to fit in. I’m very sorry for being like this. I’m probably gonna lose everyone because of this, and I understand. I’m a terrible person and I deserve that. I’m extremely sorry guys. I’m not good at anything and I’m too stupid to figure out things. I’m not smart at all. I hope I’m good enough though, I just want to have watchers like them and I don’t know how, I’m extremely shy and everything, but I cry for hours everytime someone does watch me. I’m dead serious, anyone who does, I will care and support you for ever. I’ll always be there for you, no matter what. I just don’t understand why I am like this. My jealousy takes control without me knowing, and I feel so horrible that it does. I worry I will hurt others, not because it would make me look bad, but because I want everyone to have the happiness they deserve. This is a very amazing community and everyone deserves to be cared for. I’m sorry for being like this. I just feel like I’m not good enough and all that. I’m so sorry guys, I’m not like this in real life, I swear. I will always care for anyone and support them no matter what. Please comment anything you can, I’m desperate to know what to do, It might take me a bit to respond cause I’m going to sleep now, by the time of my writing this it’s 2:34 am.


Edit: I’m way too stupid to know how to do anything, so I can’t post. I don’t know how to upload stories, I’m way to shy to comment, I can’t do anything. I’m extremely dumb, I don’t even know what the download button is. Do I even deserve to be here? Do I even deserve to be alive? At all? My jealousy is getting more and more intense, and I don’t think I deserve anything, I’m no where near as good as the rest of you, no matter how hard I try

Testing

Is a idiot

How do you guys make comments and shouts with colors? The command is way to fucking long to fit
Edit: I can’t do fucking anything and I’m starting to lost it. Why am I so god damn worthless, why can’t I be like every other furry in the world, why am I so talentless and cant to shit. There’s literally nothing I’m good at. I dare you to try and find something I’m good at, I bet you can’t find anything. I’m sorry for being like this, it’s just I can’t do the most simple of things. Everyone else is extremely talented and then there’s me, who doesn’t even know how to color thighs or draw. I need to be punished. Should I give up entirely? I can’t do anything, I don’t know what to do, I wish I was good at something.

I’m the dumbest person and don’t know how to work ANYTHING on fur affinity, like the icon thing, color, all the other fancy shit too
But I think I may have gotten the color red working, I hope this works



I’m a idiot

WE FREAKING DID IT! THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH! I’m gonna make a huge project in my survival now cause of this
Thank you guys, I am crying so much in happiness :’)

Wolfies parents found out that he’s a furry. And I just wanted to say, please everyone help us help him. So much has happened to him. I am not what his parents think, I am here to help everyone and I am dead serious. Please don’t think of me in a bad way. I could give proof on discord too. I’ve always been deeply terrified of sex, alcohol, and drugs. They scare me so much, I once had a nightmare with them and I woke up screaming and didn’t go back to sleep for a few days. (I had trouble sleeping) I will never harm anyone, and I could give proof. Please don’t think of me badly guys. I just want to help and have friends. I’ve never cried so hard before