Wolfiethewierdo is going through a lot, lots of us are going to school and been busy, and I really want to help him out and I’ve been doing what I can, but believe he needs more. He’s been very lonely, he has a discord server, but I don’t know how to send links cause I’m on mobile, so if you can, ask him if you can join, I will do anything to help him. He’s been very emotionally tired and lonely. Please, I hate seeing him like this.

Also, sonar the scavenger is not allowed to post gore, which stinks cause that’s what she likes to do. It was her hobby, and it really hurts him and me that she can’t do it. She’s a really good person, don’t be afraid of her. Give her any kind of support you can. I have been doing all I can too, but I believe she needs more. Seeing them upset makes me feel extremely hurt for them too. I am emotionally attached to any friend I get or have, and I would die to make them happy. Please guys, help them out if you can. I hate seeing them like this.

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I JUST WENT FROM 40 TO 80 TODAY, THANK YOU GUYS SO MUCH!
Spyisdead and wofietheweirdo, thank you guys too for favoriting my stuff! It means so much, and everyone else too, I couldn’t see the older notifications cause it wouldn’t let me scroll down for some reason XD. Thank you guys so much!!

I realize some of my journals could be offensive and I’m so sorry about that. I’ll stop posting for awhile if it helps. I didn’t Mean to sound like a guilt person. I’m sorry everyone, I’m going to try whatever I can to fix stuff. If any of you know anything I can do to fix things, let me know, cause I hate hurting people. I messed up big time, and I’m so sorry.

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I seriously hope my jealousy doesn’t destroy me again, I’m not giving up so soon. I will keep attempting lotteries until I die.

I don’t know what’s wrong with me, I’m sorry everyone for everyone I’ve hurt. I get extremely jealous all the time, and it gets so bad to the point I can’t feel myself and I end up majorly hurting myself. It gets very messy. I hear lots of thoughts screaming at me saying “NO ONE WILL EVER LIKE YOU, YOULL NEVER WIN ANYTHING! KILL YOURSELF AND SET YOUR FRIENDS FREE! STOP ASKING FOR ART, YOULL NEVER GET IT. NO MATTER HOW HARD YOU TRY! DONT TRY TO GET PEOPLE TO DRAW FOR YOU!!! NO ONE SHOULD SUBMIT TO YOUR ABUSE” and stuff like that. The jealousy hurts me so much, and I hate feeling it cause I want to feel good for other people. Not selfish or whatever the word is. I punish myself a ton to try and give me what I deserve, but no amount of pain is even close to what I deserve. I’m a horrible person, I don’t draw for anyone, I am way to shy to talk to famous artist. I’m to tiny, and I’m just a bad friend in general, I would do anything to be a regular furry, and to be nice. This feeling gets so intense that I start freaking out and can’t feel myself, and it’s been happening a lot today. I want to be normal, also, when I do see art of my characters, when My friends draw for me and i see it, I feel much calmer, I feel... like an actual furry. Seeing my characters alive and in pictures make me feel like I belong. That I’m not hopeless. I’m dead serious, I cried for like the entire day when people help me like that. Is this how it feels to be a normal furry? I don’t know much cause I’m an idiot, but feeling so calm and beyond happy, like I could hug everyone in the world in just a minute, I feel all sorts of happiness and relief and excitement when I see my characters in art form. I don’t know if it’s a normal feeling or not. I’m the dumbest person in the universe, and I feel bad there’s beautiful artist all over this site, and then there’s me who’s all like “I’m hopeless I cant draw I need help blah blah blah” I would understand why no one would want to talk to me. I’m a horrible person and there’s nothing I can do to fix it.i can’t control when these feelings and urges to kill myself come, they just happen. I want to be a normal furry like everyone else. I hate having to be like this, I wish I could just draw and fix this. My jealousy goes through the roof when I lose a raffle or whatever it is. And when I see people opening up for commissions, my heart just stops and my blood turns into jealousy. I have no money, and can’t get a job cause I’m talentless. I feel so horrible for being like this, jealous and what not. i don’t want have to feel that. I love making others happy, and being so jealous on the inside makes me feel horrible. I’m trying to fix myself, I’m probably gonna take a nap soon to try and fix it. My mind is starting to blank out, so I might type more later. I’m sorry for being like this. I want to be nice to others and help out as much as I can. I’ve always wanted to do something big for furries, and help others out a ton. I’ll do anything to accomplish that, and heck, I’ll do anything to accomplish just being a furry. I’m gonna try to get better. If you can, please comment only if you want, I don’t care what you say, I just like seeing people. Seeing other furs makes me feel beyond happy. I hope this explains a lot, and I’ll try to explain more later. This is just a little bit of what’s been happening. I’ll try to fix it and explain more. I want to be a good person, and a real furry.

Hey guys, i wanted to tell everyone that a friend of mine molokaylke is doing adopts and stuff, and I’m trying to help share it. He didn’t tell me to do this, I wanted to do it on my own and help. https://www.furaffinity.net/user/molokalyke/ Is the link to there page.

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Hey, before I go to bed I wanted to ask what are your guys thoughts on this. I wanted to try and write one of my smallest stories out in written form. I was gonna write floofys adventure, and I made a super tiny example. This is the last 10 seconds of the cutscene of when Floofy and sulfur finally complete the ship, and fly back to the dragon planet, but get shot down by hunters, and then they get captured and sulfur is taken to a volcano area to be studied on, and Floofy is taken to a factory to be killed. Before they do, the ship downloaded a map of the area and shot it in paper form at Floofy, and he later realizes it and goes to find and save his friend. So yeah, here’s the small example I wrote


Floofy woke up in a cold like area, except this wasn’t what he was used to feeling. Not the cold of the fluffy snow, but a hard metallic draining feeling, draining every last piece of hope he had left. “SULFUR!!” He cried, “SULFUR WERE ARE YOU?!” he started to cry, he couldn’t help himself, but tears started flooding through his eyes. He never knew what to do on his own, he knew sulfur was his best friend, and he would never leave him. Everything felt like it was getting colder, the walls seemed like they where closing in. The bars on the cage felt like they where getting smaller and smaller. Floofy screamed for sulfur, but heard nothing. All he heard was the clanging of the machines, tearing apart innocent lives. “I’m sorry, sulfur, I tried to help you” he cried, barely able to get the words out, cause the amount of despair that was in his body wouldn’t let him think. He grabbed the bars and desperately tries to escape. “HEY, THAT FOX IS MAKING NOISE AGAIN” someone yelled. “IF HE KEEPS IT UP, WILL HAVE TO PUT HIM OUT NOW!” Floofy didn’t like the sound of that. It was hopeless. He lost his friend, and the ship. All because he wasn’t able to wake up sulfur in time, from his paralyzed fear from when the hunters found them. “If I could of just figured out the ship, like he knows, he would still be here” Floofy thought. “Now he’s gone, and who knows what there doing to him. I wonder if he even rememberes me.” Floofy stopped trying to escape, and he gave up. It was over. He curled into a ball and tried to get some sleep. As he dosed off, he felt something on his fur. He checked it out, and there was a piece of paper stuck on him. He took it off, and tried to unwrap it. When he finished, what he saw shocked him. He started to feel powerful again, like the dragon berries, his blood felt hope and power burning in it. When he looked at it, he noticed it was a map leading out of the factory! “The ship must of downloaded the layout of the area before we lost it!” Floofy thought. He was still curios to why the ship was even sent in the first place, or who sent it. But none of that mattered now, he knew what he had to do. It wasn’t gonna be easy. “I’m gonna get him back no matter what, he’s my best friend, and he’ll always be” the factory was huge, and had lots of hunters scattered around it. “This is very dangerous, but sulfur will always be my friend, and I’m going to save him no matter what it takes” Floofy waited for the hunters to leave, and he ran towards the cage bars as fast as he could. Over and over, he charged until he was squeezed between the bars. He ran with all his might, the determination of seeing his friend again flowing through his blood, he squeezed through, and began his journey to find his friend. What seemed like an end to a long and painful adventure, is just the beginning of a whole new one.

So there it is, if it’s good let me know, I want to write the entire thing, it’s my first time writing something and I hope I did good. It’s one of my smallest stories. Inspired from fox and the hound and Kirby’s return to dreamland, but the story is mostly original. I hope it looks good, I might try to write my bigger stories in the future.

I’m gonna post dumb memes in my scraps if that’s okay with everyone. There not as good as normal memes, cuz I don’t know how to make them, I just edit templates in my iPad photos

I had a question I wanted to ask, should I stop commenting on people’s stuff? I’m starting to feel that I ruin their day by commenting on there stuff, they see my comment and click my profile and see the train wreck that I am. I feel bad for anyone who has to put up with me. I want to be a nicer person, I want to be a good person too, I’m just broken. I hope I’m not ruining anyone’s day, cause I’d understand if your a artist that works really hard and some retard (me) pops up and can’t draw and is like “oh, is there anyway I could join your raffle, I’m new to this stuff, ah blah blah blah I’m an idiot” people who are legitimately in this fandom, making art and money for it shouldn’t have to suffer with someone like me, I shouldn’t be allowed to see them. I feel extremely bad for hurting people this way, and I wish there was something I could do to fix it. I don’t want to be this way, I just am :/

Dexter.98 made a artwork of my character for me, go check his stuff out and favorite all of it!!! Thank you so much!!!

THANK YOU EVERYONE! IT MEANS SO MUCH! also I hit go instead of enter so if you see a notification that says what my bad. Thank you everyone it means so much!!

Hey guys, I just wanted to say, I’m gonna be posting stuff in my scraps. Basically it’s just more better views of my already existing characters, so you don’t have to check it if you don’t want. I hope I can figure it out!

It it possible to win raffles, ask for commissions, or ych and all of that without any artist talent? Do I have to draw in order to do any of that? Also, in ych and commissions what does all the letters mean like ab or whatever they are. I’m sorry, I get super nervous and jealous very easily.

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Hey everyone, I just wanted to say, I absolutely love making parodies to songs, and I have made at least hundreds of them. I even made one for roydrinksmilk cause he was so nice to me. I recently got 10 watchers, and like I say, I see watchers as friends more then fans. I made a parody to a song called fireflies by owl city, not because of any memes, but because I’ve always loved owl city music. I worked very hard on this, and I hope I did good on it. It’s about how I want to be a furry and I hope I can fit in and make it to a con someday, and overcoming my stigma and accepting my self. If you like it, I’ll post more in the future, cause like I said, I have hundreds. I first wrote it in my iPad notes, then I copied it so I can paste it here. So anyways, here they are

Original song https://youtu.be/ytBR7ET_6uU )
(Intro)

I would not believe my eyes
If 10 watchers in surprise
Supported me as I fell asleep

Cause they fill my dark despair
And leave teardrops everywhere
Because I’ve never had anyone always, there

Id like to make my self believe
That I could be a, furry
It’s hard to say If ever could cause I’m afraid to be me
But every dream could ever be achieved


Cause I’d give a thousand hugs
To ten thousand other furs
And some might teach me how to draw

Its real hard to look ahead
When I cry beneath my bed,
But that was fixed when I got my first best friend

I’d like to make myself believe
That I could be a, furry
It’s hard to say if I ever could, cause I’m afraid to be me
But every dream could ever be achieved
As I fall asleep

Leave my screen on until its black
(Please say I’m allowed on here)
Cause I wish I could join in, in all the act
(Please say I’m allowed on here)
Why am I jealous, so easily.
(Please say I’m allowed on here)
When I’m far to nervous, to even be.

To ten watchers in surprise,
I’m weird cause Im really shy
I got misty eyed as they talked to me. (Talked to me)
But I’ll know where they all are
If my days get real bizarre
Cause I watched a few and there all in my heart

I’d like to make myself believe
That I could be a, furry
It’s hard to say if I ever could, cause I’m afraid to be me
But every dream could ever be achieved

(As I fall asleep)

I’d like to make myself believe
That I could be a, furry
It’s hard to say if I ever could, cause I’m afraid to be me
But every dream could ever be achieved
(As I fall asleep)


I’d like to make myself believe
That I could be a, furry
It’s hard to say if I ever could, cause I’m afraid to be me

But when I am, my life would be complete



So there’s the song. It’s easier to follow along if your on pc and open up the tab with that link, and read it along. If your on mobile or iPad like me, I just used SoundCloud cause owl city actually doesn't make you pay for SoundCloud plus or whatever it is. I know most people use Spotify, but I use SoundCloud cause it’s easier to find Nintendo music on it. If you want to me to post more of my parodies, let me know in a comment or note, either is fine with me.

Hi, yes I’m writing in this again. I just wanted to write somethings about me i here. I can’t draw at all, which I think all of you knew. I cry a lot, like a lot. I’ll get really emotional, and I love to make games in my head since I don’t know how to do anything, and in those games they all have emotional cutscenes and stuff. I have lots of melodies in my head, but I don’t know how to make music so I can’t do that :(. I don’t really have any talent at all pretty much. I’m pretty broke too, I don’t really have much money either. I’m very sensitive too, I was also diagnosed with that, and things will hurt for me usually more then it does for other people. (physically and emotionally) I’m incredibly shy, and it will take me awhile to build up courage to talk to people, but i love having friends. I will get emotional attached to basically anyone who notices me. I cry when they cry, get nervous if there not doing okay, and want to celebrate when there having a good day. I would do anything for them. I spend hours crying at night sometimes, cause I’m nervous I will never be accepted with my art disability, and I’ll never be able to meet other furs. I’m mostly afraid I’ll be kicked out of a con in the future, or be banned for not making art here. I might say sorry a lot too, I’m always afraid that I will upset someone. I have this massive jealousy feeling that takes over me sometimes too, and I hate it. I do whatever I can to fight it, but it’s more powerful then me. It strikes when I see other art or fursuits, and I hate it so much. I want to feel happy for people, I want to be nice, but my jealousy is taking over me, I wish I could kill it. I hope it dosent make me sound like a bat person, I don’t know why I have it. It gives me all sorts of thoughts like “DONT MAKE OTHERS DRAW FOR YOU, YOUR WORTHLESS! NO ONE WILL EVER WANT A FAILURE, IT RUINS THE FANDOM. THE WORLD IS BETTER WITHOUT YOU. DO THEM A FAVOR AND GET RID OF YOURSELF.” and so on. When I talk to people one here, it fights off the jealousy and panic. When I see comments I get so much happier for a minute. And notes make me super happy. I love people here, everyone is so talented in there own ways. I just want to be like everyone. I have lots of anxiety sometimes, and I really hate myself. I was diagnosed with depression in 2nd grade and that probably explains why I always hated myself. I have no memory of this, but my parents said I used to say in 2nd grade “I hate myself, let me die” or something like that, I can’t remember. I mostly remember the torment from the mental hospital I went to for attempted suicide, but I don’t like to talk about that. If you want to know more, if I have the courage I could respond to a note that you can send me. In 2nd grade and in 7th or 8th I went to a mental hospital. 2nd grade for suicide threats, and middle school for attempted suicide. I really love hugs though, I don’t know if I ever mentioned that. If I ever met someone from here, I’d hug them until I die or until they throw me away XD. I had this thing, it was like a story for real life, it was called the cosmic crime. Long story short, me not being able to draw breaks reality, cause every furry can draw except for me, and when reality realized when I couldn’t draw, the universe would delete itself (it’s a super long personal story I could write in the future) and I thought I could save everyone and make the world better if I killed my self. (These were after my suicide attempts, it was a few months before school closed) in middle school, I tried to kill myself cause I couldn’t stand myself any longer, so I wanted to put an end to myself once in for all. And let everyone be free from my disgusting self. I’m doing quite better here though, I’ve never had this much hope before, and I’ve never had a friend before either. A friend that understands me, and cares for me. Me and roydrinksmilk are very close right now, he’s been so kind to me. Please, definitely watch him or at least favorite all of his stuff. I also wrote this in my description too, just incase something happens or not everyone can see my journals. I’ll write more about this in the future, were kinda busy right now. One more thing, I love to write stories of my characters (In my head) I can’t really read that well, but I loooovee making stories about my characters. I have millions of stories I made. The one of dusk backstory, and creating his planet and achieving his dreams, the one where he saved a lot of dragons when he invented his “dragon ships” the one with my protogen character, the “virtual commanded galactic crisis” a story about what would happen if the command block lost control and deleted the multiverse. I can never get enough of making stories. It’s my absolute favorite. Thank you for reading this if you did, it means the world to me. Have a good day!

Hey everyone, I just wanted to ask a few questions about the site here. I also don’t need specific answers, any opinions of it would work to.

What is ych?
I know it stands for your character here, but do you draw it there or does that artist? I don’t really know what it means

What is drawing like?
I’ve always wondered, since I’ve never learnt, I’ve always wondered what it’s like for other people to get paid for doing that. Is it hard? Is you job fun? Is drawing fun for you guys, is it difficult? Does it take a long time? Do you need to make a ref sheet before asking commissioners? Can art be exhausting sometimes? Also, what and how do you draw on. I’ve always wondered how people draw so perfectly and it looks right out of a movie. Is it a pc app or something? Any info would be good, or just anyone’s opinion on drawing, I would love to know more about people on here!

How do adopts work?

I’ve never really understood the concept of adopts, I don’t know how it works. Does someone make a character, and lets someone else have it? Like selling a character? Or is it taking one of there characters they don’t want anymore and selling them.

What is the writing stuff?
Around a few months ago, like 1 in a half, I got a message from some sort of fur affinity writers thing, and I didn’t know what it was. I didn’t want to sound rude, so I didn’t respond. It said my name was added somewhere, but didn’t say I was in trouble. I love to write stories of my characters, and I have thousands of super long stories of them I made in my head. I made a movie in my head about one of the stories I had, and I played the whole thing in my head while listening to music, and 3 hours went by.

Is drawing required for furcons? Also, is there an age requirement?
I’ve heard about furry conventions before, and they sound like a dream come true. I’ve never been to one, or I’ve never really watch much videos of them cause I get extremely jealous and worry that I’ll never achieve my dream. (I don’t know why, but I have a jealousy problem that I hate. Whenever I see furry stuff, I get jealous and I hate that I do cause I feel like a terrible person for felling that, and I try to fight my jealousy and depression but there way stronger then me) I’ve always wondered, do you have to draw to be let in a furry convention? And since I can’t draw, does that mean I’m a failure? I hope it dosent, it’s been my life long dream to be a furry, and I’d do anything. I would cry happiness if I could be a furry. Do you have to draw in order to be let in? And if you can’t draw, does that mean your not a furry? And I wondered, do you have to wait till your a certain age to go to a con? I’ve always wanted to go to one with my friend, roydrinksmilk sometime. I know we live far away but we would hopefully figure something out in the future.

What are furry cons like?
I’ve also wondered, how do they usually go? I always love to picture and imagine me at one, in a fursuit of my dusk character, at a huge dance party while I’m at the dj area playing the one more time remix from trolls XD. I’m gonna be in junior year when school starts, so I don’t know if I would be allowed at them. What do you usually do at cons? I imagine there really fun. Also, do you need to have a fursuit to go to one?

How in the world do people get so many fursuits so easily.
Here’s a tricky question, I’ve seen a few thumbnails on YouTube showing there room with all there fursuits. Don’t those thighs cost like 6000 dollars? I have no idea how people just get them so easily, especially custom ones of there characters. I would cry happiness for the rest of my life to have a fursuit. Words cannot describe how much i hate myself XD. Also, I hear people MAKE there own fursuits too. That really blows me away, cause that just seems impossible to me. If you have any idea on how people get these so easily, please let me know. I used to think the average furry was a millionaire, but now I’m just confused. Any advice would be good.

What are art contents?
I looove wings of fire the book series, (I do it on audible cause I can’t read XD) and I see some videos from wings of fire fans saying “art contest” to someone’s character. Do furries do that too, and can only famous people do that? I’ve always wondered how they worked.

How does vrchat work?
I’ve heard of it before, but I hear people 3D model there own characters, and I can’t even draw a circle. Are there people who would make your characters for you, like commissions? And this is off topic, but how does every single furry I’ve ever seen draw so perfectly? Am I just messed up, or are there furries like me who can’t draw. I probably don’t think there are :(


I’ll probably add more questions in the future, if I can remember them. If anyone knows any of these answers, or has a friend or knows someone who does, please tell me. It would mean a lot to have some of these answered. Also, if anyone knows anything I can create my characters in without having to draw, let me know. (You don’t have too) and if you read this whole thing, thank you so much!! It means everything to me. I hope I can get to know everyone better, cause I love meeting new people here.