After a while I began to realize who is there as a actual friend and who is there using me. And that's fine because it not happening again. You used my kindness and thought you get something out of me. But you're not and you wont.

Easy to say I have not done much here. I dont talk with anyone here, so feel like I'm just not gonna bother. For one I got to many other stuff I like to get and take care of (which I have) And as I said before. Don't really talk on here like I use to. (Not like people really talk to me anyways.) So probably gonna call it quits for the time being. I appreciate all the artist who did my recent pieces. I been losing more and more of my positive attitude. And I'm really feel like I'm just done with it all for the most part. I'll still like art because I still love looking but that probably about it. Most people know where to talk to me If they want to but, yeah... All I had to say.

I gotta say being positive is not easy. No matter how crummy your lifestyle may be or idiotic thing are or truly how pathetic I really am, I try to stay positive. I hate talking about my problem to people because it make me come off as a whiner because there plenty of other with worst situation then me by a long shot. I'm not good at talking to people about me the thing I like anymore because it always come down to... "Why bother. Must of you really don't care." Sorry If that may come off as condescending but, it's how I feel about my life in general. So yea I come off probably come off positive but, it's not easy either staying the strong one. So pay no mind to this. It's just my way of letting my stress out. Lol

If "some" maybe wondering if I'm still alive then yes... Yes, I am. I really haven't been messing with FA all that much lately. I don't talk to much people on here to begin with like I use to. So I gradually check but, I'm out as soon after and doing other stuff. I haven't commission in a very long time, or commission with many people probably my reason for not coming back very often.

Maybe next year after Monster Hunter World I'll try looking at some new commissions, but as of late I don't have many ideas for commissions so there is that too. But yeah, just wanted to "some" people know I'm alive and well.

Guess I'm learning this the hard with this, but a few people I commissioned and it's been more than 2 years I've been waiting on one commission. Now noted, I paid them immediately the money they ask for. And yet, I'm the one force waiting while I see a new art get posted from them. I'm being patient and not rude to them which is in my giving right to at this point. I can understand when life gets in the way. But if you can post a new art work frequently, would have been done by now.

Not to mention always opening for new stuff but never finished any of the things they need to. I just feel I deserve something for this or maybe Or should just refund my money back. I like their artwork. And I dont think yhey are bad people. It just come tothe point where good people like me who will pay get the bad end of the stick of those to want to rip artist off and now younger this situation. I mean it already been this long so maybe I should just bear with it... for now. And never bother with them again. Because It should have to really wait this long at all.

No, I'm not doing this for attention even though this is FA known for people posting journals for attention I just never know where to release this stress.... As much I try to keep a smile on my face and try to keep optimistic look. It's beginning to feel more and more like a facade, the older I grow. I'm bad with new friend or relationship (granted havent been in a relationship for 9 years). I'm constantly told I'm a screw up at work. I'm lacking in my appreance in many ways. I just pretty much suck at anything I do and mainly lazy. Feel like for 10+ years I haven't accomplished anything. But, I try and stay positive. I have 2 friends we still do thing together. Sometime I feel like is it worth being positive. My regulars customer say "I always have a smile on my face at work." But, what else am I suppose to do when all you know how to do is smile? I just wish I knew what to do to carry myself even further. But, Im afriad to leave my comfort zone. And I dont know if it smiles I make is real or fake anymore....

So today Atomic turned 4 years old today. I met new wonderful people in my life. I had some left people leave me out my life. But I'm still trying my best. I love to get to know everyone I have meet but I'm a really shy individual from the start. But I don't mind opening up to people if they true to let me. but now I'm just rambling about stuff that has nothing to do with my OC birthday.

Happy Birthday AtomicComet. you been the greatest thing this sorry little mind could come up with. ^w^

I know no one will read this but, Fuck it. I have look and I tried the best solution tried not looking so hard. And yet, the girl I been hoping to come and change my life around has not appeared to me. Is it because I'm not attractive? (possibly). Is it because I'm not cool?(definitely) I just want to love and be loved back. But I guess I'm not worthy of that feeling.

Everyday and night I been asking myself. "What is it that you want to do?" So far I'm still lost in my life and in the fandom, what is it that I truly want? Is is Love? Happiness? Fame? Friends? Someone to accepted me for who I am? So far I haven't done anything for myself that I can happy with. I'm not depress with what I have now but, I feel like I'm not moving forward in life and the fandom with anything. I just have to keep adventuring this on my own til I finally find my oasis. "I am the cowboy on my own trip." -Tyler, The Creator.

Well, it's getting closer to Anthrocon and this year I AM going. and I are looking if anyone has any available spots for roommate this year. If so let me know that would be great. Plz and Thank You

Monster Hunter 4 U is right around the corner. And still haven't had any luck finding other player who play MH3U on the Wii U or Destiny furs on PS4 still. I'm hoping I be able to find some fellow fur hunters and Destiny players. (Reason I'm posting this now, lol) If you want to find me on 3DS til I get the New 3DS because who know if my Nintendo Friend Code will change when I get one. Will still have my 3DS XL still but the new 3DS will be the main use. x3

Friend Code: 0989-2091-5045
PSN ID: MadHatterKat

HELP!! trying to sell a 360 Slim and Destiny. If you know who is looking that be awesome. X3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/6455537#

I don't know what it is but, people seem to find my character really great. All I see is a plan simply put, not convoluted fox like the million other common foxes in the community. Sometime I feel I could have did more, I could have thought of another creature but l, I always was dear to foxes not knowing the community is full of us already... lol. Maybe it just me.


I just don't see what everyone else is seeing in Atomic I guess, and I'm not complaining at all. It makes me happy people appreciate simplicity of my character. Just something I wanted to get off my chest.

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They probably going to be a few changes to my Fursona in the next few pictures. I decided to keep the stars on both side of the Fursona face. I wasn't sure if that would work, but I actually like now I seen some artist put it on my character. So tha will be the new thing for my character starting now xD

Press F5 for that spanky new avatar icon :3

Decided to do a TMI Tuesday for the first time since it my birthday and I just turn 25. So ask me what you want. And I will answer it with the best of my knowledge and power. ;3

Well, I decided to focus on my what need to bee down start from this point on forward. I will focus only on the games I have to finishes and need to finished and when I get a new one it only going to one game finish it then think about getting a new game when I'm done. No more electronics or computer spec updates. All out serious business. Starting with a few thing that need to be done with the car before I get rid of it next year. Getting ready for getting a fursuit and just saving as much as possible. I know I got a long road ahead of me with this one, but I'll do what I can if I have to kick my own ass not to do so. Wish me luck everyone :3

Well, i finally got Monster Hunter 3 last night along with GoW: Judgement. And i couldn't be more happier xD. Right now I'm just hopping im can find some Fur who play Monster Hunter and make some more Fur friends. Cause right now im dont have too many being shy in all and with my friend also being nervous aorund people in public it really hard to break the ice. So I'm hoping to find people who can get him as well as me out that shell. But , I'm getting off topic here, hehe. So, my fellow Furz, fellow Hunters and huntets who looking to play some Monster Hunter Trultimate xD

Well it is almost time it already a rocky start for me this month but it finally is here.... My first Fur Con in all my life, getting kinda nervous about this. I'm really excited about the fursuiter I will meet and I'm hopping I will see some familiar faces at the con. But most of all I can't can wait to get all the picture I been wanted to get with my DSLR now. The time has come. My camera will have finally have come to use for me. Let see how well my practice with my camera has held out on me. xDD

Alright I fail since yesterday but I'm going to stat fresh start third of January... I don't know how this is going to turn out for me but, It not going to be easy That like a smoker trying to stop smoking for me... lol But, I'm going to go for this and give it a shot to test my will power and strong can i manage without fapping. So are you game enough to manage a not fapping for a whole year? Let's find out.

Tis the Season to Kiss someone. Everyone has at least one person on FurAffinity who would LOVE to kiss you. So.. repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you? Even if your taken do this! *please?*

1. Cheek
2. Nose
3. Neck
4. Paws
5. Lips
6. Make-Out :)♥♥
7. Naughty Places
8. Skip The Kisses, Straight To Bed
9. In fursuit
10. Other_____________

I finally got my new phone, Razr Maxx Driod from Verizon. MY number if any one want to talk or text xD (615)347-9020