You know.. I had really looked forward to this game..

You spend several hours before you ever actually have to fight, let alone kill anyone... And those were the best part so far...

It is quickly descending into yet another game of "shoot them in the face".

Graphically the game is gorgeous. The universe is engaging and almost feels realistic. But I am so tired of shooting people in their fucking faces...

My grandmother will be going in for surgery in about 5 hours... It's one of those surgeries. The term tends to be "Caught between the devil and the deep blue sea."

If she doesn't have the surgery, shes going to die... probably in a way she would not want. but shes.. not a good candidate. She has very weak lungs... and putting her unconscious is necessary.. but horribly, horribly dangerous...

I spoke to her on the phone a moment ago....... she was.. indirect about it..... but basically she was telling me goodbye..

The surgery starts in 5 hours... I'm going to try to sleep, I just got off of work... I want to be there..... but I can't be there...I can't think about this anymore... I hope I have good news later...

Ingrediants:

Mountain Dew. I prefer to use diet. You won't be able to taste the difference. Heavily chilled.

Apples, sliced very thin. Preferably with a ceramic knife to prevent browning, bath in lemon juice to prevent browning.

Appletini powdered drink mix. Crystal Light makes this, you can also occasionally find sour apple koolaid. The latter of the two might be better.. atleast less syrupy, but have not tried it.

Apple juice/sour apple juice (*elective*)

Vessels.

If you want the punch to stay fizzy, you will be required to have a vessel that can be sealed air tight, preferably a large one, 5 qts or more.

A punch bowl. Frozen.

Now, before we get on to mixture, we need to talk about chemistry. What gives a soda its fizz is a chemical additive. Some use sodium bicarbonate (baking soda), others use more exotic variants which basically do the same thing. What happens is when the bicarb interacts with acids, they react, creating co2. To see this in it's rawest form, put a few table spoons of baking soda into a bowl, and add lemon juice. Well, soda pop will react in the same way if you introduce a new acid. This reaction will make an unholy mess if you are not careful. For an example, do a youtube search on "myntos and diet coke". Now, chemical reactions have a finite life span, and once the reaction is over, that is all you are going to get out of it. Which means if you are going to want bubbles in your punch, you will need to store your mix in a sealed container, and use it the day it is made, preferably with in the hour. If flat is fine with you, you can just add the ingredients to the bowl.

To mix.

This part is painfully easy. Basically you are just going to add all the ingredients together. I advise adding the apples first, you shouldn't need more then two. just enough to have apples floating around. Then add the powdered mix. You will need one tube of the mix for each bottle of soda. Then add the soda. This will create a lot of foam, which would be neat, kind of like a "cider".....but it will sink back in after just a few minutes, so don't count on it... just stir, or shake, to combine.

Now. Presentation always matters. I suggest taking some decent qulity apple juice, figure out divide it out into 7 different cups. add enough food coloring to each to make the 7 primary colors <roy g biv, red orange yellow green blue indigo violet> then pour each of these out into ice cube trays. you now have awesome rainbow icecubes that won't water down your punch... You can also make an ice bowl by doing the same thing, then inserting a bowl just slightly smaller into your punch bowl, with a cork on each of the four corners to keep the two from resting together at the bottom. Add one color, allow to freeze, add the next color, allow to freeze, and so on, till you have a ring of rainbow colored apple ice. Just for prism's sake, remember the color order. This method does require that you start a few days ahead of time though...

To prevent heat transference you will want to place your punch bowl on a rolled up towel, preferably also frozen the night before. this will insulate the bowl, and also create a small void at the bottom, in which you can place some led white fairy lights, which emit very little heat, but a lot of light. This will make your rainbowl glow which will be about 20% cooler.

Please note any variations you come up with, this is just a basic punch pallet, feel free to shake things up... <yes, you can add vodka to make you punch drunk, but I don't drink, so..>

EDIT TO ADD. IF YOU DO ADD ALCOHOL TO THIS, REMEMBER THAT MOUNTAIN DEW HAS THE HIGHEST PER VOLUME CAFFEINE OF ANY SODA, BESIDES ONES WHICH ARE MARKETED AS "ENERGY DRINKS". CAFFEINE EFFECTS THE WAY THE BODY ABSORBS ALCOHOL AND WILL BUCK YOU LIKE A RHINO!

And I couldn't help I Rainbow Dashed the firefly theme cause somebody posted a picture of her with the title Serenity. It goes like this.

Here I am, hand in hand, it is with my friends that I stand, it's 'cause of them that I fly free, no one will take "the sky" from me..

Show me down, into the black, to places where no ones come back, through burning land and boiling see, no one will take "the sky" from me..

Leave the past where it lays, deal with it another day, do I lose my soul or lose my dream? no one will take "the sky" from me..

I see the black, reaching out, but their songs drive away doubt, because of them I can still see, no one will take "the sky" from me..

Found a new dream, hand in hand, now it is with them I stand. There's no place that I can't be, since I found my Loyalty.

And no one will take my friends from me..

It may be demons! A dancing demon? No something isn't right there..

Sorry. Every time I say "I have a theory" that song pops into my head.

I think the reason we have been so long waiting for kh3 is because they are secretly working on a compilation, probably like kingdom hearts, chain of memories / 365-2, Kingdom Hearts 2, birth by sleep, maybe even kh3d, all to be released in HD on ps3 or else ps4..Or else sux box if thy really want to piss me off..

And then when they finally announce Kingdom Hearts 3, they will be like "Okay, so, we are working on this new addition to the series that we know our loyal fans have been waiting for for a very long time. <Ridiculously long time> And it might be another year before it's ready to come to market.......... In the mean time, I have this other thing I would like to announce, just to keep you busy in the mean time...and best of all, it will be out next month! <maybe>

Her name is Spectral Trip. She is a filly, not an "adult" pony..

Her coat that kind of blue purple plasma color you get from black lights shining on a white shirt...

Her mane and tail is streams of luminescent rainbow.

Her cutie mark is.......as yet undecided.

She has a pair of the XXgoggles on her forhead, and luminescent pink eyes. Her whole body glows faintly, as if emitting charged particles of manic energy.

She is studied in the Pinkie Pie arts, and has pink belt in physics bucking, and is on probation for fourth wall graffiti...........

I need to find an artist who does really good glow effects o,o

Nobody said anything. They didn't say "huh." or "that sucks" or even complain the way many do around here about ponies....

I thought it was good... *curls up..*

Well, I wrote it for my self anyway, who cares if nobody else likes it...

Someone do me a favor and sign up through this link

https://playhawken.com/?ref=10cuj6y1


2 more and I'm in! ^.^

Paradise of the Dead.

Jesus! These things just will not go down! - DAAAAD! you have to smite them in the head!

Okay. B(ritish)P(etroleum) created an ecological disaster the likes of which cannot be remembered in living, or recorded history, there is no clue, no theory, of how bad the damage was... and yet the government... OUR government goes to bat for them... sure they point fingers and say "dont fucking do it again"........But now Sony lets some peoples identity and card info slip, and they are being sued by different bodies around the world and throughout the country?

Hey ASSHOLES! If you are going to go after someone for fucking up people's credit, their bank accounts, and their lives, go after the mother fucking banks who caused the greatest economic collapse in several generations!

Or how about the hackers who are actually RESPONSIBLE! Maybe sony's security was shit. But nobody made a hand full of l33t kiddies take advantage of it!

From my opinion is where you end up playing as one of the little sisters...it actually makes me feel guilty for rescuing them...rescuing them to what? to being able to see the world for that horrible shitty place that Ryan invented?

I spent two games now...trying to identify exactly what it is that i see when i play this game... it is clearly something taken to the very extreme...at first i thought, maybe consumerism?..no..conservatism? surely not... nor socialism, not greed, nor lust, nor rage... even bioshock 2 which is, from beginning, to end, a liberal communal society concept..of existing, souly, and entirely, for the community..

Finally... I have identified what it is.. and it makes the game very unnerving when you view it this way... it is humanity... The nature of the man, the woman... it is every shadow of the human heart, flayed from flesh, laid bare and raw, oozing and festering before the players eyes... all the darkness in a man, made to glow with the searing light of charged neon...

My only real objection is that as, you only have one character, once you play the game through, the only real choice you have is..playing it again, through the same story, with just slightly different decisions to see how it turns out...

Nerf has joined with super soaker to make water based assault rifles *instead of the usual, foam dart based ones..)...they look bad @$$, they dont leak...and this year's model has replaced the previous fill and go architecture for a new clip based one..

That said...nerf weapons are vibrantly colored/day glow for a reason, and may not be strictly speaking "acceptable" for all neighborhoods....... hey...im not saying anything...except for that nerf guns look a little on the realistic side and maybe shouldnt be used when there are nervous cops around..but im not saying anything..

These water guns are awesome though... i cant wait for summer!

Today, this evening...i just had the sudden urge...to just bite the fuck out of someone's hand while they were waving it back and forth...

I wasn't irritable...angry..even hungry...they were just talking, and waving their hands...and i thought "hey.... that would be alot of fun to gnaw on"...

what the fuck?... i mean..no, seriously, WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT?!

Remember that show from the 90s where ex governor Schwarzenegger was a crime fighting super hero with a team of teenage friends who helped him fight off transforming robotic criminal ninjas? Yeah... me either...



Bet every episode begins with "when i was a boy in Austria, it was not a tumuh, and ends with a preachy moral lesson to the tune of "and knowing is half the battle"

Seriously... tell me this show does not belong in the 90s... or even the 80s...yes, that is right dear listener, i grew up with ren and stimpy, Clarissa explains it all, and wild and crazy kids.. so what...

My cubbish fuzzyness, in urban camo board shorts... bare tummy...and my short sleeve hoodie, because i heart it so much... With my Nerf Thunderstorm motorized hydro-machine pistol in one paw, and a pop-sickle/cream-sickle shaped like a combat knife in the other paw, or perhaps clenched between my teeth.. *cringes slightly at the thought of how that would feel....* in dynamic battle pose of course...oh...and da doggles...must not forget the doggles...

Came to mind earlier this evening...thought it would be cute..

***Warning: Dark/emo***

It has often been written, and more often mused, that on the road of life, you are joined by two constant companions..

Upon one shoulder, perched, the angel of morality, who is tasked to lead you towards grace. Upon the other shoulder lounges the angel of desire, tasked to draw you into sin.

The road of life is cast under a perpetual night. Deep in a dark wood. Overgrown, and untrue. Purity, and Desire, may be voices, calling to me in the dark.. but their words, both of them, are garbled, and lost in the echos of their own silence... No. My only constant companions on this journey, the two that have never left my side... are the torch, and the map.

The torch.. It's name is Hope... It lights my path, just far enough ahead to let me see some of the holes I might fall into..just some... and to make me feel, if ever so falsely, safe, as i walk that cold, dark path. The map.... how I hate the map...BURN IT!.. but that it will not take flame.. Cast it away then.. but for that it is stitched into my own skin... For the map.. it is titled "Regret", and shows me nothing, but the missteps, the roads not taken, the trips, the stumbles, the snares... how very little i have traveled, how very long the road before me.... and the destination... looming so far, so near...in the distance, like a gaping maw, waiting to be filled.

Which, though, I wonder is the greater curse?... The pain of the map.. or the torch that keeps me to it...

And now, I continue onward.

I have thought long and hard about this. And i have finally figured out why man exists...

It is written that on the seventh day, god saw that it was good, and rested...

On the eighth day. God looked around and said "but it could be better... but how?... I know, I must create a creature that exists for nothing but to find something to complain about! Surely this creature will find the tiniest of flaws in my grand design... Yes! And I shall call it Man Kind"

Tell me it doesn't make just a little too much sense..







And on the ninth day, God screamed OH JUST SHUT UP! *booooooom*

So... mein step Fuhrer... He is a conservative douche mark, he was born in the Philippines, and goes around yammering about how his family was part of the ruling class... Bullshit... Anyway...

So... Hes a Doctor. He washed out of private practice because he would go into the office, prop his feet up, and wait for his pay check, maybe seeing three or four patients a day...A FUCKING DAY...So he ends up working at the VA...

Well, he was one of the guys who believed whole fartedly, the party line of "we must give tax cuts to the rich, cutting the tax cuts of the rich is the only way!"... The only way to what, i dont know.... Maybe economic collapse... But mention raising taxes just to what they were before that shrub came in and fucked everything up? Oh, the screaming that would follow.

Diatribe about how the mud people are trying to redistribute the "well deserved wealth of the top class" and all..Bastard even ordered us all to vote for republicans, Well.. now the retardicans are in office... And do they intend to balance the budget? Lay off government workers, pay freezes, spending cuts, less hours, furloughs...

Oh well, right? Who cares if those lazy government employees get their fat checks and benefits cut.. they dont deserve that much money anyway!............... OH WAIT! DEAR OLD STEP DAD, AS AN EMPLOYEE OF THE VA, IS A GOVERNMENT EMPLOYEE, AND MAY BE FACING THE SAME BEAT DOWN! OOOOOOOPSIE!

Of course this means we are going to lose the house................. but in a way i feel like saying "you had to have this fucking mansion, you had to have marble and wood floors, the finest appliances, and lights to cover every square inch, and an entry way specifically designed to waste energy...you had to have your G-damn dick mobile... you deserve this"

Either way, im laughing my ass off tonight while hes tearing his hair out...

It sucks that i cannot draw to save my life...Cuz i keep getting all these great ideas for designs... *the comedy tragedy masks, only instead of human faces, they are llama faces, ie drama llamas! i could buy a house with the number of those shirts i could sell*

This is one that just occurred to me... two cartoon skunks dressed in the Daft Punk outfits, subtitled, "Daft Funk".

I know the furry ravers would eat them up like ecstasy...

And there is of course the caution sign with a stick figure riding an atomic warhead and waving a cowboy hat as though the bomb were a bucking bronco...

Probably captioned "Warning: *image* Made in the U.S.A." (America, FUCK YEAH!)

I am looking for some good ones for my phone.

Oh yeah... THATS why ive never been into multiplayer fps games.. Nobody works together, and the only thing comeing over my bluetooth headset is someone playing music..bad music, at top volume...Also is the fact that a fucking chain gun cant hit the broad side of uranus even if its dead center of your crosshairs...and of course i have to play engineer.. i mean, someone has to be able to stand guard while everyone else is fucking around...

Be fair guys. I know you devided to make it a special skill for certain player types, but no. Mark the fucking enemy combatants red, both their labels and their map blips. I know thats not how things work in the real world and i do not give a shit...And the sprinting. I CAN SPRINT FURTHER AND FASTER AND MORE HEAVILY LOADED THEN THESE POSERS! When you are being shot at, your blood is 90% adrenalin and 10% urine! dont tell me these guys have to stop sprinting because they get tired so easily..

*goes into alltel store to get a namebrand case for his cellphone.....*

"Yes. Could you give me an Otter Box for my Desire?"

*Face-palms immediately in front of the oblivious sales clerk*




Desire is the model of my phone.

That better not be its launch name...

It is going to have built in gps, camera, touch screen, and rear touch pad as well, a new concept that may or may not turn out well.. It will also be 3g, which makes it technically a gamers tablet. If sony isnt also making it 4g compatible they are fucking tools. No it isnt 3d, or atleast it hasnt been noted as being 3d... yet... it will likely depend on how well the 3ds takes off... also has the much called for second analog stick...

Now.. My main demand. Sony. Fucking listen. Right here. Right now. If you want me to buy this at or near launch. You. Will. Heed.

Technically the psp can be used as a ps3 and ps2 controller... It does a horribly shitty job of it and ultimately there is no good reason to bother. Incorporate. Make it a tool that not only works with the ps3, but also makes you WANT one, just TO use with your ps3.. For instance? Streaming audio directly from your ps3 into the portable so that you can plug in headphones or a head set and get to fraging. Make the screen relevant to the game you are playing, show maps. menus.. let you set your weapons to quick select.. i can think of hunreds or just let you use the touch screen as a precision input device... I want to see this thing developed for more then just something to carry around in the car with you or to fiddle with while waiting for class to start. Get to work!

How i hate them. Revile them. Loathe them.

Every day. Putting on that same deceitful mask. Look at me! Everything is fine! Yes! I am totally happy to see you here today, though you are rude, or vulgar. Crass, or apathetic. Stoned, or drunk. I meet you with this empty grin because it is all that I have left.

Every day I have someone walk in and try to start a conversation with me.... I cannot talk to you. As I am a representative of the business for which i work, I am not PERMITTED to have any opinions, viewpoints, or emotions. I cannot speak with you openly because if i say the wrong word, I GET FIRED. And the owner of the place gets sued.

Do people think ANYONE wants to bet reated like an npc? NO! But all I ask of you is that you come in. Attend your business. Atleast meat my false smile with the effort of a false smile of your own, and then LEAVE ME ALONE!.

I hate the forced smiles.....because they remind me how empty I feel behind them. Sometimes I feel that anger and fear are the only things I have left...

I've dreamed of being my other self plenty of times........fuzzy though he is that is how i see my self...........

Well... This is the first time ive actually dreamed about being a toon....... kind of ala bonkers/roger rabbit. You know, where there is a real sense of prejudice against toons..only this was in a school setting... kinda in forced desegregation, and none of the classes wanted any of the tunes.......

It even had Mickey Mouse...... who was a nice guy... but got abducted and dropped on an island somewhere with other uppity tunes......I imagine the dream was eventually going to be about rescuing him..but for the fact that there was a metal pipe clothes line set up there... and i thought "bamboo maybe, but why is there a metal clothes line on a deserted island?.............

Logic... the turpentine of dreams...when ever you start to analyze a dream from the inside, it falls apart...