Im going to be slowly and progressively moving to this account now http://www.furaffinity.net/user/airisu/

because the FA database finally let me have my real name, a long time ago when I first made my account here my name was unavailable for some odd reason.

So all you awesome watchers out there, thank you, if you want to continue seeing my art, please watch my other account, because once I finish this transition, I'm deleting this account.

This is my last journal entry on this account..

Aroooooooowww!!!

Pay the extra money for better internet, trust me, its worth it.

Reply to this journal and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

I updated yay.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1fQxTCf6P0I&feature=player_profilepage


watch and rate please! ;3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWMfb3akH_c&feature=player_profilepage

enjoy...

I am a beast ;3

Little bit left of the side line
my life's but a shadow in our time
gone amiss are the virtues that bind us
not too long before it blinds us
losing my grip that undoes this bliss
I cant see anything
through this mist
little bit more this path that confounds me
the light you shed only skips around me
little bit more, my feelings gone
every time I think
I turn out wrong
seasons go, and seasons come
a new chance to undo
what we have done
all regrets I have just
wash away
I've lost all meaning
in what I say
tell me please, one more time
is death the truth and life a lie?

okay so I went to uber with my frenzy barb not knowing that 18456 attack rating isnt effective enough. I managed to own mephisto easy as usual, but then I got to diablo and spend literally half an hour swinging at him, it was a stalemate, he wasnt dying, and niether was I. it was one of those epic moments that kinda pisses one off. So I logged out, grabbed my smiter, raped diablo, and got my torch! WHOO ;3

fucking paladins

end

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XuCIfhGbheM

video my friend beto shot of our band wake of chaos playing our song called "see you again" the audio is LIVE but the video is edited. we did this in only 2 hours, so yeah theres so obvious fuck ups, and its our first time ever practicing this song xD.
turns out what my brother and dad said about sam wanting to boot me for not being religious isnt true, thank god.

lyrics by me
lyrics edited by sam
music by sam

Redrumwolf - inked and partway colored.

I am accepting commissions


status list

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/mattrix/ 1/3 complete, payment not received yet

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/redrumwolf/ 1/5 complete


sorry guys for taking so long ;/ despite all the post graduation bullshit there's no excuses for my lack of effort.

Favorites
Color: thats hard to say nowadays
Beverage: whatever I feel like drinking
Movie: white wolf(national geographic) wolves at our door and miyazaki films
Musical: fuck that
Board Game: chess or checkers
Computer: whatever runs decently
Game to Roleplay: I have no idea
Animal: wolves <

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<3
Sport: no thanks unless you count diablo 2 as a sport ;D
Book: any jack london book
Flower: thats hard to say, I like lots of flowers

A Day In The Life..
School:
Typical Mood: calm and secluded
Usually Found?: in my room
Collects: anything wolf

Have You Ever...
Been kissed: no
Done drugs: never
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: yep
Eaten sushi: Yes
Been on stage: Yeah, played at a talent show and at a bbq
Been in a car accident:

This or That
Cold or Hot: Cold hands down, I hate heat ;(
Blue or Red: Red
Rain or Snow: both at the same time!
Wool or Cotton: none
Private or Public School: im done with school
Chocolate or Plain Milk: either
Celsius or Fahrenheit: I can calculate both
Spring or Fall: Fall.
Science or History: Science.
Math or English: English.

"Love Life"
Do you like somebody?: Yep
Do they know?: I tell her every day
Do you want them?: every waking moment
Are they hot?: shes the most beautiful thing ever.

Random
Who do you e-mail the most? I dont really email
Who do you IM the most? none of your buisiness
Who are you talking to now? no one
Are you currently in love? Definately
Is this survey lame? Completely

In 24 hours have you...
...Showered? yes
...Had a serious talk? yes
...Hugged someone? no
...Gotten along with your parents? indeed
...Fought with a friend? nope
...Done something kind for someone? Yes.

Do You Like To...
Give hugs? depends on who and im hugging and my mood
Give back rubs? only 1 individual in my life could get me to do that ;3
Take walks in the rain? Yes
Cook? Yep
Eat? what the hell kinda dumb question is that?
Sleep? all the time

Who..
..Knows you the best? My whitewolf
..Have you known the longest? My parents and whitewolf
..Do you know the most about? Im not sure
..Do you consider your friend? inangus and sam
..Is most likely to end up in jail? I have no clue
..Can you go to with your problems? whitewolf, parents
..Do you want to get to know better? My artistic and musical idols
..Do you spend the most time with? Whitewolf (if I can)

Have You...
..Been to a concert? Yep
..Loved someone so much it made you cry? Yes... and sometimes I still do
..Cheated on a test? a couple times
..Ever stalked someone? nah
..Done something you regret? miserably
..Been in an online relationship? yep

Random Questions
Single or Hooked? kinda inbetween
What is your worst habit? I dont have habits
Scariest moment?
Do you swear too much? not really anymore
How do you feel about homosexuality? I dont care
Where are you right now? My "den"
Are you sitting anyone? what the heck?
What song are you listening to? I was no where near ready when all it ended, so I hope we could find a new day, I cannot live without you
What is the last thing you said? havent spoken a work today
What are the last four digits of your phone number? I dont have a phone
What was the last thing you ate? cerial
If you were a crayon, what color would you be? red
What's the weather like right now? TOO freaking hot D:
What do you feel like doing? Drawing some pictures <3

I'll cradle my feelings
but the scars left by you
just keep on bleeding
it doesnt seem to me
the years believe in healing
now the scars infecting me
become a new desease
that drowns out the gravity
and the goodness of my dreams
only now
I wish you could see me
and feel the things I feel
maybe then you'll try to save
whats left of the good in me

Im left to cradle
disorder left by you
I find rekindled despair
and the fires of hate anew

My heart beats so much
reluctance in my viens
and im left to anticipate
eternal dismay


Im stuck in
this cradle
as hollow as the lies in you
Im trapped in
my sorrow, my moment of joy
is ruined by you

I'll cradle my feelings
but the scars left by you
just keep on bleeding
it doesnt seem to me
the years believe in healing

Now matter how much I try
I cant seem to convince you
time's on my side
eventually
unity
will be mine
the more I try
is the more you lie
step by step
your mind becomes
out of sight
I wish we could see
eye to eye

Im not just
hangin by a thread
(hangin by a thread)
I want to
just run away
(just run away)
(hangin by a thead)
I see you taking your own life
(your own life)
(hangin by a thread)

I hear your
cries in the dark
(cries in the dark)
and your just
hangin by a thread
(hangin by a thread)
you need to
just stay alive
(stay alive)
hangin by a thread

theres no way to convince you
theres no turning backwards
choices not in sight
have we lost the fight?
(have we lost the fight?)

Im not just
hangin by a thread
(hangin by a thread)
I want to
just run away
(just run away)
(hangin by a thead)
I see you taking your own life
(your own life)
(hangin by a thread)

I hear your
cries in the dark
(cries in the dark)
and your just
hangin by a thread
(hangin by a thread)
you need to
just stay alive
(stay alive)
hangin by a thread

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A song I wrote and came up with the music a couple days ago, and its freaking awesome I cant wait til sam and I record it, its probly my best song yet.

https://secure.defenders.org/site/Advocacy?pagename=homepage&page=UserAction&id=1303&autologin=true&s_einterest=C3C4&JServSessionIdr006=hfhvvpvw02.app23a

I live in Idaho, some backup would be appreciated. Im sure the odds of the new president listening are greater than the old one.

Thank you all

~Airisu

You've persecuted us for centuries
eliminated us for the scene
for what reasons, we'll never know
bloody carnage obscene
the moral of your ways
is more twisted than filth
why you murder us? we'll never know
blood over a puppets' coat

we linger to this very day
few have helped us out
through our prehistoric range
man inhabits with lust and greed
expanding even more without guilt
the green paper you call money
it's more important than my life?
the blood rushing through my veins
and image and sight
this world will never be
what my bloodline once knew
in this grim future
of persecution and abuse
politics is used to lie
for the murder you will wrought
killing us from airplanes
what more do you want?
the flakes of winter drift down
over the blood stained snow
an empty desolate land
it is the humans throne

thought you cannot see it
this world is not your own
my life is as even as yours
so why look down on me?
as in insignificant being
why am I so less to you?
In the grand scheme of things
I have a body mind and soul
and cannot speak your language
or cry tears of salt
but I still feel the pain
of the bullet in my skin
of the pups you have murdered
as you packed up their mother

The wind brushes through the pines
as the sun glistens on the snow
my life is very limited
but one must know
is my life worth taking?
For greed and show

...........................................

Im accepting commissions because my bass guitar just recently starting "buzzing" and it just really sucks :( I need to save up to get it looked at and hopefully fixed.
Im doing ball point pen sketch of whatever the patron wants for 5$ with 2$ shipping if that is desired.

business is appreciated!

~Airisu

I Fear…

[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single forever
[x] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[x] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[ ] fish
[ ] spiders
[ ] flowers or other plants

Total so far: 3

[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] deep water
[ ] snakes
[ ] silk
[ ] the ocean
[x] failure
[ ] success
[ ] thunder/lightning
[ ] frogs/toads
[ ] my boyfriends/girlfriends dad
[ ] boyfriends/girlfriends mom
[ ] rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow

Total so far: 3

[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] crossing hanging bridges
[x] death
[ ] heaven
[ ] being robbed
[ ] falling
[ ] clowns
[ ] dolls - Porcelin ones at least
[x] large crowds of people
[ ] men
[ ] women
[x] having great responsibilities
[x] doctors, including dentists - Hospitals in general
[ ] tornadoes

Total so far: 7

[ ] hurricanes
[x] incurable diseases
[ ] sharks
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] ghosts
[ ] poverty
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains
[ ] odd numbers
[ ] even numbers
[ ] being alone
[x] becoming blind
[x] becoming deaf
[ ] growing up

Total so far: 10

[ ] creepy noises in the night
[ ] bee stings
[x] not accomplishing my dreams/goals
[x] needles
[ ] blood
[ ] dinosaurs
[ ] the welcome mat
[ ] high speed
[ ] throwing up
[ ] falling in love
[ ] super secret
[ ] the past
[ ] being hated
[ ] Being fat
[ ] being skinny

Total = 12

SEVEN THINGS YOU WILL FIND IN YOUR ROOM:
1. TV
2. ps2
3.computer
4. Many pencils
5. Bass guitar & amp
6. lots of cloths
7. Dvds

SIX RELATIONSHIP QUESTIONS:
1. Do you like anyone? I dont know
2. Does someone like you? I have some suspicions of who may
3. Last kiss? I never romantically kissed someone be4
5. Been cheated on? nope
6. Want a relationship? yep
7. Wanna get married? I dont believe in marrage

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN’T LIVE WITHOUT:
1. art
2.music
3. food
4. water
5. my inspirations ;3 -eyes you wearily-
6. computer...
7. video games

SEVEN OTHER THINGS - DO YOU:
1. Believe in God? depends
2. Had a dream come true? fuck no ;3
3. Read the newspaper? nope
4. Get enough sleep everyday? nope
5. Have a best friend? Nope
6. Take a bath daily? fuck no
7. Wish on stars? ... thats just gay ;3

SEVEN HAVE YOU EVERS:
1. Fallen in love? yep
2. Kissed someone of the same sex? nope
3. Hooked up with someone who had a gf/bf? nope
4. Been to a Bonfire? yep
5. Ran away from home? lots of times
6. Played strip poker? nope
7. Pulled an all nighter? yep

SEVEN THINGS IN THE LAST 24 HOURS HAVE YOU:
1. Cried? nope
2. Had fun? kinda ;3
3. Been kissed? nope
4. Felt stupid? yep
5. Talked to an ex? yep
6. Missed someone? yep
7. Listened to music? hellz yeah

school started, I have nothing to do other than homework, so I figured I'd start taking commissions again. Im doing inked line art for 6 bucks a pop of whatever, no backgrounds though.

thats about all.

I ended up finding another scanner in the garadge I didnt know about. Talk about stress, I was wigging out because I love posting furry arts here, especially ones im getting paid for :D

So now everything is cool for the moment, I hope this scanner lasts.

alright I dont know what the deal is here, I went to scan an inked comission this morning and the program refuses to work. Its an epson scanner, and it says this when I click on the icon

escndc.exe - application error

The instruction at 0x00971591 reference memory at 0x001fc000. the memory could not be written. Click ok to terminate program.


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I've tried reinstalling it and switching usb cords... I have no idea whats going on and im too fuckin broke to afford a new scanner right now -_-

last day of school and I can finally NEVER open a math book again! hells yeah, I passed geometry with a C barely... Thank god or whatever devine force helped me because that class was hell for my brain... and since summer is here I can laze and work part time, mostly likely at an art or music store I hope. Also Im still taking comissions for those few interested on the side.. To help pay for a new bass so I can finally have a decent instrument to practice the things I need to like harmonics and tapping solos...

I still have one more year, but luckily NO fucking math, my senior year is gonna be as smooth as ice :3

Cya all later furry faces :3

~Acen Airisu

im doing quick sketch comissions for 5 bucks of 1 characters, 7 $ if you want 2 chars in the same scene, I wanna keep them simple, I will do yiffs too. I desperately need some extra cash.

Business is appreciated! :D

thanks all!