I shut myself down builds the walls push everyone away cause well everyone does that to me. I'm lied to and pushed away why should I trust anyone again why should I open to anyone every again. You broke me you where the last to show me what everyone thinks of me just use me for what you want then throw me away. Good bye I'm done I'm going to be alone anyway so the walls are up and everyone is away from me so I don't bring everyone else down like you I just bring myself down in my hole deeper alone in the darkness.

So I've been injured at work the other week and I told all my friends. Of all the friends that I told there is only 4 that are helping me out with getting around and making sure I'm ok. I would have to say about 5 that at least call at least once every 3 days and they rest hasn't said shit. The rest would be people that I thought were friends that I've lent money to and NEVER asked for anything in return and I don't mean a few bucks I mean like $300 and more. Not even some of my family even cares. Hell my mom the cunt that she is hasn't even text me in over a fucking year to ask how I'm doing. Well now I do know who my true friends are. The least a friend could do is call and ask how is everything, you don't have to come over and hang but that is a plus cause what am I doing all day anyway, just sitting around waiting for nothing to happen. Hell one of my 'friends' had the nerve to ask me the day after I was injured if I could babysit her son since I was home doing nothing all day.

well i thought i would do this now. ive been here for a little bit of time and i love it here. i really not much of a writer and even worse at art but i love looking at other peoples stuff and their stories. i do hope i get to meet a lot you interesting furries.