hey~ long time no seee

gonna post the new acc here now so yeah
for now lmao

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gonna try and be reactive on that new one

edit: it's removed now ueu... I have moved to a new account, but I will keep checking back here for a month or a few months incase I missed something when transitioning to a new acc


is the new acc for when i start posting.

I'm gonna be trying to get inactive and not post on this one
aside from checking it here and there for refunds and such rn

im also removing the username in a few hrs or smth so ;;

I wanna start a new account and go from there. I dont like the name and I dont like how i made this acc

fresh start and actually commit if i do anything. I doubt I ever will.. I have a job so money wont be a worry for me. I dont wanna completely quit art

I wanna doodle for myself and make it fun again, and i still wanna post it and maybe make friends again... errrr furry art or art wise? idk

I dnot know if anyone is even interested to know if I do remake a new acc and such.. eeehhh idk. Thank you thank you. and very sorry for the messes Ive caused or made ;;

Hello! I hope I was able to get everyone. I know I got all to my knowledge and records except 1 person?

If I missed someone please let me know in a note with email, how much you paid and what you paid for. I reached out to everyone and even sent the refunds to those who didnt reply and I DID have their info.

Hello! I have been inactive for a few months. I want to start by apologizing for not completing my owed art and actually delivering them if they were!

If you have not received a message from me about a refund or the art and I owe you art, please note me with your email you paid with and the amount you had spent! I want to get those situated around the 2nd of June or sooner if the money can transfer. Today is my first paycheck for a week's worth and I wanted to use all of it on refunding everyone!
I was able to push my rent to next payday so I'm ok for now!

now on to some life info for these few months... if anyone is interested in reading...

My main thing I want to say is I was looking to quit commissions since I was able to find a job... just until I am mentally and physically doing better...
another thing is I was thinking of starting new... no comms, no empty promises, no overdue art, ect. Or to just maybe quit art altogether and leave the community or smth... I want to still do art, but art now seems like a chore and isn't fun. I haven't been able to complete a lot of art these few months until recently. I'd get one piece done after a few days...


I am still truly grateful for those who helped me get remi to a vet, I'm just very sorry I couldn't get it done and follow through with all the commissions I owed. Life hit me so hard and I struggled to get back up. After 2 or 3 months I had ran into some issues with roommates again, but this time it was more serious. I fell into despair and even deeper into depression and could do nothing but cry over it and play an unhealthy amount of xiv. It was my comfort along with remi to cope with everything. When i picked up the pen to draw id get frustrated trying to draw and ended up breaking my tablet... I had to get a new one but had no money... My sister soon found her way back into my life...

She offered me a new tablet if i did some things for her... which i agreed... soon enough my roommates chose to move and sell the trailer we were living in... all without a warning until the last month informed me... I was so panicked and scared I had no idea what to do... no money, nowhere to live, nothing... I vented to my sister about the situation and she offered to let me move in with her and her husband... but with a catch... I had to get a stable job that paid well and I wasn't allowed to use or pursue art as an option. So I looked for a job, applied, and got rejected for a whole month on repeat.. I was in a panic and no one wanted to hire me... I was running out of time and I was breaking down almost daily..

The month finally came and I got a job. My sister allowed me to move in and gave me first rent off. and my first paycheck (now second) i can pay for rent. We got here this month, I started my job last week and got paid for the one week today... With the money I wanted to celebrate by using it all to refund everyone... I felt horrible from all that happened. But I'm so grateful now to everyone who helped me. Those who helped me with remi, those who heard me out when I was depressed and panicked, and those who encouraged and helped me to get here.


I enjoy the job a little. I get paid ... well? and I am living in a great place... although rent is like 6xs the total my roommates and i paid in the trailer, I still am grateful im kicking and breathing with my dog somewhere safe and with a stable job I think I am doing ok in...

I am still extremely sorry for keeping people from their money or commissions... I will try to do better in communicating any issues or delays in the future!







If you have any questions about commissions or anything, please feel free to ask me here. My notes will now only be for the refunds I will need to complete when the money has been transferred!

edit: It's starting to become an emergency now. I really need some more money to be able to take Remi to the vet. it's been a few days and she hasnt relieved herself aside from urinating. I'm getting more and more worried it's getting worse. I did what I was told would help her but it hasnt worked. I really need to take her to the vet even more now. I think she's backed up again/ she refuses to eat anything and when she does it comes right back out...
the last time i went for this it was almost $400

I'm open to suggestions on what people may want if not listed...
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tos https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9330941/
payment-paypal

I'm really in need of some money so I'm gonna open for anything I can try to do!

clean sketches:
-headshot $6
-thigh-up $15 +$5 for nsfw (nude)

flat colot:
-headshot $12
-thigh-up $25 +$5 for nsfw (nude)
-small chibi $20
-100x100 pixel icon $10 (headshot)

please let me know what you would like and the design you'd like for it!

I... am starting to rethink things... or maybe im looking too into it? idk
i dont have a therapist or anyone to talk to about it who has... more experience with gender shit? all my close friends are cis REEE

i was having a genuine convo with someone about my gender... I started to rethink shit.. they were also questioning if i was a transman or not because of the things i said

I identified as a non-binary transman (originally just a transman because yeah)..... I started hormones for a few months and had to stop due to insurance and being broke lmao
so it started giving me more time to think about it...


I thought I was trans because I genuinely feel im not a woman... lol... but im also not completely a man? I do feel i am more comfy with identifying as a man than a woman? i dont wanna be seen as a woman at all.

I felt great livin life as a "man" and going by a male name- so on. hormones made me feel great to an extent... until i started to see i really wanna just... present as... anything i wanted... either neutral or fem or masc? so i gave myself the nonbinary label because fuck... but more time has passed and i think more about what i wanna wear and how i wanna present and be seen as... very different from when i originally said i was a transman.. I feel wrong being a man and im def am not a woman? dont wanna be seen as one? I thought i had to be at least one of the genders?

the person i spoke with recently said that non-binary really just seems more like what i am.. but now im thinking if it was a mistake to even think i was a transman? I enjoy being seen as a man but i also dont.... lmao
it feels like im playing a sick game of pretend with any of the two genders. i just... wanna be me.. lmao BUT IDK WHAT I AM>? kill me please

BUT i do really wanna get surgery tho? i want to get chest surgery... but with no nipples or anything. just... flat... not a man's chest// or a woman's chest... just F L A T.. and maybe later get bottom surgery when they dont look like ass. BUT i am also ok with my bottom part... kinda?

I was thinking maybe im just... nonbinary? only? but.. reee it was way easier to get hormones and shit when i just said i was a transman...

i also dont know about other genders either? lmao im pretty stupid and so fucking confused rn

https://discord.gg/Y55X3zQMUJ

I made another one. idk how to properly interact so.. lemme learn? idk
like the others i wanna make new friends.. hopefully
I dont have it really set up/ but if ya want something (channel, color, something) lmk

also if you play ffxiv and on primal lmk
id love to play with others as well uwu

EDIT: 18+ only please. i dont wanna be in charge of minors in there or whatever. if i catch yer a minor im blocking

I have been on for a short time and then leaving and not being active for days and repeat this a lot...
I have been having a lot of issues with my liviing lately. money is a huge part in this. lmao im broke af most the time and still rely on art for my liviing... sadly...

I also had lost my two mice this year and it's been such a battle to get through these months. I am... struggling mentally so much lol
I have no therapist. ive been off hormones for a few months as well... same with meds... because my doctors suck and wont listen to me no matter how much i beg
so no t for me :) (please kill me)

I'm completely out of it.. I'm just.. not having a cash money experience in life rn
;'')

I also have got some nice unhealthy habits that are wreckin this ass of mine. I also got another habit of not giving people their art until everyone's is done? :'') and I cant budge out of that one...

my stimmis were taken from debt collectors lmao
so i mean.. one plus is... i dont have debt anymore
aAaaaaaaaaaayyyyyy shoot me

im gonnnnaaaa try and be more active again becauseeee yes. I am loser and wanna still do art and wanna make more frands
uwu

My roomate blessed me with not letting me not pay rent on my birth month (let's see how long that lasts before she changes her mind) so i can do some more personal art and such? aaaaa?
but also ffxiv is my only happyness still so... reeeeeeeee i wanna spend time with frans playing good gam

I also wanna make a discord server again? but like... how many can i keep deleting and shit before yall get tired of me
lmao I JUST WANT IT TO BE EASIER TO TALK TO PPL
yikes

im not inviting the bird man~

I truly am sorry if I currently owe you art. I sadly have lost track of a lot of things recently.

If you have something I owe you, please note me with what you had gotten, the ref for the design, as well as the amount!

Again I am truly sorry for the wait and irresponsibility on my end!


If you do not see yourself on there and I owe you art, please NOTE me. Thank you!

https://youtu.be/aDQ3nfBbPWM

the last hour comes

I've been at the hospital for a week now and didn't have anything like my phone so I couldn't reply or read messages or look at submissions. I'm sorry

Hnnn
I'm better now though
And im just gonna nuke everything and try to reply to people soon ree. When I get home later hnn

I know not many care but... ree

if you purchase from me and you get an unkown fee or something, please inform me. do NOT go through with the payment. I'm having to solve and issue where I hadnt done anything to cause a fee, they got one, and now I'm looking like I gave them a fee. I dont gives fees to cover any charges. I only ask for the correct payment, nothing more, nothing less.

I use the same paypal.me link that i have with people in the past. In no way have I had issues with some unknown fees.

If you ever get one, please PLEASE inform me. do NOT go through with the payment if you are being charged more than what you need to pay!


I'm not planning on being accused of being a scammer or robber for a fee I had never seen or come across when using paypal!
I don't want a repeat of this issue.

just so this is handy dandy ready for anything!!

GENERAL TOS
my terms of service is (by commissioning me you agree to these terms):
→ I do not use paypal SOMETIMES. I WOULD USE COMMISS.IO OR STRIPE.
→ If you claim a slot, you must have the funds for it. Please do not claim if you do not have the funds. Slot will be revoked after one reminder after 24hrs
→ Commissions may be quick, but please be aware some may not. Please allow me at least 3 month to work on and deliver your commission.
→ If you would like a WIP, tell me. If not, I will complete the art without sending a WIP. Though in most cases I do send out WIP, even if it was not requested.
→ If there is no response from you, the commissioner, I will notify you the loss of the comm slot/spot. If you had already paid and I get no response for a week or so, I will refund the payment and not give you the completed art. If you do not respond after I deliver you the commission, I will still take it as you got and saw it was sent to you.
→ Everyone is entitled to a refund. If you paid and need me to refund, depending on the status of the art, will get one with or without a consequence.
-Refund if I have not started: no warning
-Refund after WIP sent: warning (2-3 warnings, depending on reasons, will be blacklisted or
blocked)+ the art will no longer be yours to have, use, re-post, etc. and may be
repurposed/used
-Refund when you receive the completed art: automatic blacklist or block (depending on the
reason) + the art will no longer be yours to have, use, re-post, etc. and may be repurposed/used
→ I can and will make changed if request that I made a mistake on, I will NOT redo a comm unless it was a mistake on my end. I send WIPs most the time for most commissions, if you approve it and change your mind after the comm is complete, that would not be my fault. If you would like changes, please tell me ahead of time when you are given the WIP.
→ I am allowed to decline a commission if I am unable to do or am uncomfortable doing.
→ Any art you get from me, free or not, must be properly credited to me when posting anywhere!
→ PLEASE BE AWARE: I may refund commissions!! I tend to come across a lot of personal, home, health etc. issue along the way. If I am unable to complete a comm I will inform you and refund you. I will also ask for a reply from you to know you are aware you were refunded.

DESIGN TOS
→ Some parts of the design may be used again in future designs. Please be aware
→ Do not sell the design for more than what you paid. In the case of traded designs to you or given for free, do NOT sell them unless you purchased art or made art for them.


_{Please do NOT put anything in the note section of the payment, nor accept or pay if you are having to pay more than the correct amount. And please tell me when it has been sent or if you are having any issues!
(im just putting this here for later... this has nothing to really do with the tos)}