I want to make small updates for the commssion and here's it:


- For "add one character more" the price has droped by half. Example instand 10€ for a second character, it will cost now 5€

- I also offer to draw NSFW pictures for a certain price, but as sketch, I will not draw that

- Because I had few, who are funny to me, to order a commission, but refuse to pay it, I'll make bit pressure. If the commission is given and 10 days goes without to paying it, the price will rise by 10% more and if 15 days goes without to paying it, than 20%. And if the commissioner let the rudeness to me, than I'll will block it permament

I don't want to make you scared for the "blocking", but it's for me really annoying, to wait the payment, because the commissioner, don't want or will to pay it and call me, that I'm impatient, because I want my money. I don't draw any commissions, if I don't get paid


...soo, that's the small updates for the commission

Well...I lost my motivation to draw pictures, so i decided to took a small break and the break was 3-4 months long. Beside, I had RL problems with mental issues, where I couldn't motivate myself for drawing pictures or begin online here. I'll started slowly to draw some pictures again, but can't really say, when I can upload new pictures.

(And for the info, this isn't an april fools joke)

if someone saw or read this journal, without ignoring it, you'll get the informations:








Gifts only for friends or for who gives commissions

- I stop doing gifts for fun, the only times, where I makes gifts are for (good) friends or if someone give some commission. It's means more, if someone gives example 2, 3 or 4 comissions, than I'll make for the commi a second pic for free, just like a gift...with the meaning, that I appreciate the support


Discord

If someone notice, why I'm inative on discord, is the reason, that I lost my password for the my first account and created a second account, nearly 3 years ago, but what I want to tell is, that I only accept good or trustful friends, the rest, I'll ignore the request or remove someone from the second account. If you want to chat my, than only here via notes


Communication to the community, yes or no? (Warning: mild strong Vent)

I'm hornest, this all feel like dead area and I'm not sure, if I want to communicate someone or If I wrote some small storys under the pictures, because I have the feeling, that nobody cares, what I write Whatever on pictures or on journal, I get very very rarely feedbacks. Even with +400 watches, it's still feels like, that my profile is a lost place. And now, I'm thinking, if i still open the comments or if I should block the comments, like: "Why not block the comments, if nobody in the community cares". That's also a reason, why I wasn't really acrtive here, just because with the feeling, that I don't have a community and that makes my mood and my motivation very down...



If you finish here, than I want to thanks you for the time and care, that you road the journal and wish you a great day

I had a spontaneous break, after I lose my motivation. I will not be so active in the first days, but I try upload some pics in the coming days

Since a long time ago, the YT algorithm offers me videos, that I never saw, somethimes videos, which I find interesting or videos where I though, uhh...thanks and bye. But since the last weeks, YT shows me (maybe spams me) mostly the videos from "The Owl House" and "Helluva Boss" and I asked, HOW...How can YT can show me videos from these 2 shows, which never conect the content, what I saw. Ok, I think, that the both shows has some fans, but still have no plan, why YT shows me everyday videos of it. The content, which I mostly saw are gaming content (or conect gaming content to everything?). Feels kinda strange

But is this normal, that YT shows content, which never conects, what you saw? Or if this happend to you sometimes or mostly?

...I dunno why, but I have the feeling, that YT want to push me to the shows, because I never saw a single Episode from these shows...other questions, I keep it or myself

After the journal, I found someone, where I could about my "problem". I also got comments, that tried to change my negative view or says, that i'd get the kindness, if i'm kind.

I notice now, it was a bit overreaction for me, but I needed at the moment little help

I'm calm now after the talk, the comments and the sleep. I really appreciate the comments, that I got, that some wanted to help me and want to thanks everyone, where took the time for that.

After my illness, I coming back and have again the feeling, why I'm friendly to someone, that don't give a fuck. Especially to someone, where I have some contacts. I planing to unwatch (or even block) someone, just for the reason, "Fuck you, I have enough to being friendly to you"

Honestly, does it even matter to be kind?

After nearly 5 years drawing pictures here, I finally open the gate for the coming short announcement:

From now, I'll offer commissions and in soon, I'll upload later the price list for the commissions. If someone is interest, send me a note. I haven't really much experience, so forgive me, if I need more time or questions, if something isn't clear for me


But it also means, that trade is now very limited, or better says, that trade is more only for the friends. It could be, that I offer the trades for the public, but if I did that, than rarely. And the trades, that are left, they still working on these trades

In short says: commission is open & trade is (for the public) closed!

1. 0 motivation
Because a lack of motivation, i was for few days inactive


2. New rule for trade
Because many asked me for a trade (an this was long ago) and non show care about that, i stop for the first the trade. Only 2 trades, need i to finish it. But if i finish the trades, the trade will be more restricted. That means, not everybody can trade with me. I'll think, if i creat a list, where can ask me for a trade or trust my gut feeling

- trade for  tomtasiasun is finished (on 19/06)

- trade for  thelatiosmaster is finished (on 17/06)

and sorry, if this takes a long time


3. Planing doing commission

I really planing to do commission. I could need some money for that, but thers one problem. I have no idea, how that works or if this is useful. If someone know, let me know (via note or comment)

Before you ask, why I was inactive for a 1/2 year, it's easy: It was all too much for me.

A great artist and also a friend left here and we had a conversation, which didn't end so nicely and I felt for that pretty bad. My mood was down, than wanna talk to other good friends of mine, but had the impression, they didn't took my problem serious or ignored my problem. Combined with other problems, which I had, I had the feeling, that I'm in a wrong place or I'm the most hated person here. Before I gonna insane for that, I cut the line and took a big break. It didn't matter to me, if someone was worried, because I really doubt, that someone will notice that, that I'm inactive.

I really played my thoughts, to leave here without to tell someone...The most of my good friends that I met, aren't active anymore or are anywhere active, that I don't have opportunity, to talk to him/her. That this all feels like, that I'm lonely and the others I met, doesn't seem to be kind to me (I don't look to someone)


And the big break was necessary for me. I just was forgot this for a long moment

1. Actually, I wanted to upload a small picture, because 4 years ago, I started to draw pictures on DA. And yesterday was the "Lugia-day" and wanted to draw a silly picture, which I drewed 2 years ago. But due to a lack of motivation and time, I couldn't finish it on time

2. I plan to draw MAYBE some pictures about Animal Crossing. But if I draw that, than mostly casual pictures, what I think about, like some cat villagers in a box or Raymond in casual clothes, "Internets favourit" clothes and my favourit clothes. I could draw some inflation pictures or something else, but I'm not really sure, if I really want to draw that. But how I said, I'm thinking about that

3. I'll try to upload some pictures, but I couldn't upload much, because my reserve is slowly being used up. So don't be suprised, if I don't upload it often

Well, I have some problems with my scanner, because it's hard to find my PC and also cost me more time to scan it...ok, more of my PC is the problem. That means, I can't uploads new pictures.

That also means, that Trade is for unknown time closed...or just maybe permamet closed, because I had again got trades, what was more request and personally said, I have enough of this. It doesn't makes fun, if I did my part and the other part dosen't. So...that's the reason, why I think, to closed the trades permament...this makes for me no fun

Seriously, something gives me, that I do something, but I don't know what...this makes my mentally pretty crazy, that I sometimes see things completely wrong, which makes me even crazier

I want to say in short:

Many things happened to me...I'm single now, someone where I known was ill, other problems...it feels, that everything stolles my joy or happiness and that feels, that I don't want to be here, because that someone ruin my day or life.
For everyone where I doin an art trade, don't worry, I don't forget it, but sorry that you have to wait bit longer...I'm really sorry for that...

Hey, if you wondered, wheres the +200 Watchers special is, I'll want to upload on the 20th or the 22nd Febuary, it fits much more for the number 2 and wanna, that fits really well, but I know, it's kinda a silly idea, but a good silly idea...for me <w<;

1. I wanted to put more folders in the groups, but apparently the maximum number has been reached and since I am not very sure what to remove or take over, I wanted to ask you what I think according to which folders I should delete or replace should, or any other idea how to change the orders-system?

2. I recently reached the +200 watchers and that is a milestone for me because I did not reach this number on my (closed) DA account. I have an idea about what to draw for this special, but what should I possibly draw for the +200 watchers special?

The artist  blaueseele makes his first art raffle. If you're interested, join it and read the rules, to be sure, that everything fits. The deadline is on 31st December, hurry up, if you wanna win.

Here's the link:

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9362007/

Good luck!

I know, I wasn't here for 2 months, because I have enough, that somebody ask me for a trade, which still did not come about and it gave me the impression that it was just a bad joke. I'm thinking that if someone should ask me, I will wait 3-4 weeks for a picture to come and if nothing comes, then I will probably block so that such experts can see that I'm not joking.Iif something comes up or takes a little longer, let me know in good time, but don't overdo it :/

I will also close "Requests" because there are probably some experts (non-artists) who will use it and I don't want to give any extra work. and me because I get suggestions that I don't like most or that I don't show any interest in. That is why it is why this one request has been in the work for so long <.<'

And no, I will not be more active, I will be just as less active as before...ok maybe not as inactive as before, but still. And I have hardly any motivation to take any pictures


In short:

- Who ask me for a trade, have 3-4 weeks time to make an art, or I block them (it's not a joke for me)
- Requests will be closed
- try to be 2% more active

I'm going to be much less active, if not barely, because I'm a little pissed off, that many ask me about an art trade, but virtually none shows any intrinsic or better said, that I need to show interest. Of 10 people who asked me, only one really interested, no one else. And that's exactly what I don't want me to be asked for, but still have to be interested, even though I have no guarantee that I will get a return. and all this kills my fun drawing pictures pretty hard

That's why I'll hardly be here so I will not relive the same shit. I will also decide for myself whether an art trade will come or not, although I want to do art trade, but those who have asked me, have now managed that it is now hardly fun.

And one more thing, those who have asked me for an art trade, but have never shown any interest or expect I start for no reason, don't expect me to be kind to you!

Sorry that I worked like an asshole, but I don't think that anyone took me seriously at all

I don't know, if you asked yorself, why I mostly uploads the pictures from any trades? The reason is, because is this the onlyest way, to get pictures from others.

Mostly I don't ask someone requests, because nearly nobody do that and (my main reason) maybe the artists think, that I'm a lazy artist, where asked everybody for free shit. And to get free pictures, is for me nearly impossible, because I don't have any luck, not even 1% luck for example for raffles or get some gifts from others

I also can't do commission, because I don't have paypal and It for me to expensive, to give 25€-40€ for single picture, where maybe in few years going be deleted. Besides, I'm not a rich person, where I can give 100 of commissions and neraly everybody do commissions for lot of money and mostly I'm really fucked

And collaboration...well, I never do that and I doubt, that someone wanna work with me for a single picture

Only trade is for me really suitable, that I asked for a picture and make as "thank you" also a picture, although some of me were crazy for something, that I asked them and of which I got nothing, but what should I do to get pictutres? I only can trade it, to get some thing, besides your an asshole to me, that I give for you and I get nothing from you '^'

Heyo,

I wanna say, that trade and requests (if you asked me) are open again, but I wanted to mention a few rules for the art trade:

- If you ask me about an art trade, then I expect you to upload your part first...don't worry, I can wait
- But if you expect me to upload first, then I'm threatening to block you
- If you ask me for an art trade, but have no interest, then no trade is likely to come between us and the same is also for requests

I want i have fun with art trading, but nevertheless was often disappointed, please don't be an asshole '^'


And I was planing to draw some sequence, like a progress in a single picture

If you like this idea, which sequence should I draw?

Let me now~

The following pics, that I need to upload:

- 1 request
- A special watchers pic (I wanna finally uploaded it -w-')
- maybe few other pics

Besides, trades and requests are closed now, I will tell you, when it's open

For the time the heat is over and i could start to do pics, but i don't feel to do pics. I can't describe it very good, but if I visit here, I have this feeling that these buddies upset me because we are different (I'm a Lati and the others are furrys) and I sometimes ripped off, that feels like a hate that I would like to attack, but I can't explain why I have this hate feeling...or is it because I don't feel well?

Now it's summer and the heat is comming back, but my PC is more "old" and is already happend, that i using it and suddenly turns off. And because, to doin pics on a old PC isn't so easy, that I can't do many pics in short time, because is always work hard, if i use the programm. in short: the heat makes my PC weak for pics

yay summer...

That moment, than the feeling is down as fuck, but a great friend/brother is coming back and the hope isn't destroyed anymore uwu

Welcome back  tgreenshadowkituos