I know, my characters are made in the same themes. Still sometimes, I get the impression of certain characters get more attention, than others.
So I've got a few questions for those, who actually read this journal.
Which one of my characters do you like the most and why?

Also, another, less relevant question: which pokémon do you think would look good if I were to "Tuxify" them?
I always have ideas myself, but it would be fun to see if anyone else has ideas too.

When I feel sleepy, and I know I should go to sleep, because its worktime at the morning. However, I don't want to sleep, even if its difficult to keep my eyelids open (as well as type correctly), because for some unknown reason I feel, something bad is going to happen if I sleep.

Or might be just completely be gone from it even in the future.
Twitter is a place where I realize, there are tons of people around the world who hate me without even knowing my existence.
At the moment, Twitter is one of my prime source of stress. I already feel miserable enough due to real life stress and depression, I don't need the sight of people being toxic to eachother right now.
Even people I know from other sites have been showing a face, that got me feeling intimidated.

So yeah. That's all for now.

Was thinking about it for a while, but never really was sure about it.
On one hand, it is obvious, that the fox portaited in here is not my main sona.
In the other hand however, if I made a new account just to reflect my sona, my gallery would still not be any different from what I was having in terms of the theme I usually commission (everything would be reuploaded).
So... what am I supposed to do?

Well... here I am again venting about.
I should be sleeping, cuz in about 6 hours I'm waking up and going to work, but my thoughts just don't let me sleep.

It's been two months since my parents lost their job due to the pandemic forcing their workplaces to shut down. Leaving me the only person with a tiny amount of income in the household.
Even my workplace operates with a shortened opening time which means me (and my co-workers) working with shortened shifts.
Soon it will be at a point, where I will have to pay for everyone's rent, and even that cannot be sustained for long because of how small my own income is becoming.
Doesn't help, that I also should save up for a visit to the dentist's to get a plaque removal, because my teeth are becoming really ugly, and I genuinely am afraid of losing them within the next 1-2 years or even earlier (dentists cost a fortune in the UK).
The world is also just going shit, I really don't know if I can feel myself safe at any place on the planet. I really am losing faith in humanity, as well as losing the belief, that human nature is good. Its all about greed and pride and pointing fingers at each otherq, rather than tackling the actual source of problems.

I don't know what to do. I have a constant sense of fear inside me, like as the apocalypse is upon us. The feeling of everything around me ends sooner or later, and I just can't get over of the feeling of losing everything. Of losing myself. I feel like I'm getting lost in these whirlpools of bad feelings.
I want to cry, but I don't dare to. I don't know how to approach anything. I'm now starting to be afraid of emotions too.

If you did read this through: thank you for taking your time with my rambling.
I probably forgot to mention some things, but I'm so tired and sleepy. I will need to force myself to sleep now, or risk of being like an undead at work.

... and still the same loser.
Well, at least I played my first real main series pokémon game beforehand.

Can anyone answer that? Because I feel, I'm doing something wrong, that makes people dislike or just straight up ignore me. I don't know how to assert myself... or what to answer to certain questions, that makes me feel awkward...
Also just feeling simply unimportant and boring.
I neither can find joy in things, that I love... don't know how to turn things for the better, I'm just lost.

Its midnight, so that means, that now I'm officially 26. :D
I should probably go sleep now, cuz I want to wake up early, so I can get to the store by opening to get that Smash Bros. ^^"

Mainly cuz Smash Bros is coming out on that very same day, and its gonna be my very first Smash game I'll ever play. I gonna be bad.

Oh well, I guess I'll admit defeat for now. I'm not the kind of person, who could do anything against these kinds of things.

Well, I guess I might aswell post this one here.
This meme was made by  rednoodle.inc aaand since being a liquidshifter, imma do it:

Here's a little meme thing for all characters who are gooey, slimy and generally amorphous!
Let's see what kind of slimy guy you are…

What's your full name?
Tuxedo. But most people call me Tux.

Do you have a default form? Or do you take many forms? Any favorites?
My default form is an anthro, tuxedo-wearing wolf. Since I'm a liquidshifter I enjoy taking on other forms too be it real life creature, or any mythical ones. One of my favorite form I take is a Suicune.

Is that form/are those forms solid, a little bit melty or completely liquid?
Definitely solid. If you don't know me, you wouldn't be able to tell, I could melt.

Can you harden your goo to make weapons, armor or tools? Or at least make yourself more solid?
I guess, I could. After all I'm a liquidshifter. Only imagination and preferences would make limits on what I can do.

What are you made of? How would you describe your “goo?”
My "goo" is a strange one (see next answer), but for consistency, it would feel like paint.

How were you made? Do you even know? In a lab? Magic? Another gooey character? Etc.
From the essence of darkness being completer with the essence of light. (ask me in person for more details about that)

Sure a bullet might pass through you, but what would electricity do? Can you be frozen? Burned? Cemented? Dissolved with acid? Can someone simply drink you? Etc.
Fortunately, electricity is not a big deal for me. However, even though I take on lots of watertype's forms, I still really hate the cold. In cold, I'd find it harder to change my shape, as it has a stronger impact on me while being goopy. Brr~
Burned? C'mon, I have nice purple flames. Those puny lil' forest fires won't work on me. Warmth just helps me relax and meeeelllt. Well... except some cases.
Being drinked... I... wouldn't really suggest it. Not because I taste bad, but simply because I'm not into that kind of thing, and people should respect that.

Can you feel pain?
I feel emotional pain.

Do you need to breathe? Sleep? Eat? Do you get tired? Sick? Etc.
Sure. Most of these things do apply to me.

Can you morph into another person? Mimic an object perfectly? Or does everything still kind of have your colors and look like you?
Well, I can take the shape, but I'll still keep my colors and the tuxedo-belly feature. At least for other characters. I didn't really tried objects, except when I got compressed into a bowtie.

Can you assimilate others? Consume them?
Ugh, I wouldn't do such youkai-like things.

Can you regenerate? Do you need to consume matter to replace it or can you even get more goo if it’s lost?
I am able to regenerate by draining energy from other sources.

If someone touched you, are you slippery, sticky or somewhere in the middle?
You mean when I'm goopy? Somewhere inbetween. Some sticks on your finger, some drips off.

If you oozed around a corner, are you thick and slow flowing, thin and fast flowing or somewhere in between?
I'm usually thick, but not too slow flowing. I'm like a consistent paint.

If someone picked you up are you heavy, light or something like water?
Since my goop is like paint, I'd say its leaning towards the heavy side.

Are you hot, warm or cold to the touch?
I'm nice and warm to the touch.

What do you consume to live/grow? Do you even have to?
Mostly energy from other people. Like an energy vampire, but not draining them to make them faint/die.

What is your preferred way of movement? Walking? Oozing? Jumping? Etc.
I like walking and oozing too! However, I do have another trick up my sleeves if I have to leap great distances. *opens a personal wormhole*

Can you form tentacles? Extra limbs? Etc.
I could probably do that, but I'm comfortable just with what I've got. Aaand I'm not really into the whole tentacle thing.

How much concentration do you need to morph into complex shapes and do crazy things? Is even your default form difficult to maintain? Or can you for example melt and have 20 different tentacles doing 21 different things?
Nah, I just keep it simple. I like one form, I turn into it. I like another, I do that one. Also, I'm not really good at multitasking soooo...

If you become splattered, separated or even just split in two, how easy or difficult is it to reform? How do you make your pieces come back?
Usually my body tries to reconnect each separated parts, unless I'm totally liquid. Sometimes its just nice to puddle around with maybe a few droplets separated.

Anything else worth mentioning?
I can do many magical stuff. Mainly controlling the power of both light and darkness. Kinda keeping up the balance of the two. Buuuuut since my first component was a dark one, I can only hold for a certain amount of time in the natural light before I'd uncontrollably begin to melt.




First of all: I've never ever did such memes before, and so anything and everything I've stated are subject to change. ^w^"
I was having a good time doing it. Let me know what you guys think. If you even read it. X3

Yeah, I just got 25 years old! And I'm still feeling so immature in life. X3
Also, probably gonna sleep in a couple of hours, cuz I'll be working until the evening. ><

Still exciting to say the word "century" in my age. :D

Gonna be 25 in less than a week now (on the 7th, but I didn't have time to write this journal yesterday, to make it a one week "preparation" for myself), so its again time, to take a look back on the year I'm over.

Irl stuff:
-I've been at my current workplace for more than a year now. Its the first job I've lasted this long so far.
-My grandmother passed away, but I still had the opportunity to see her while I was on my holiday on May. She was 86 years old, so at least it didn't happen suddenly as she already was sick.
-My sister announced her wedding next summer.
-New long terms came up in my mind, for which I'll try my best to save up money. This also mean, I'll need a new, better paying job, so I won't just live on the minimums. X3
-Some other unforeseen things came along during the year, that made me unable to save up. Now, I'll try to learn from those and be more prepared.

Other stuff:
-I've been abscent from my youtube channel for a while now, and I'm a bit afraid my first upload after a long time would generate comments on me playing one certain game only. Maybe I'll disable the comments on that video. X3
-Got to meet some new friends as well as some other people. Had some great, and some bad experiences aswell with them. Most of the good people came from  thesquishgang and I love spending time with those fun toonie friends of mine. :3

The year is just like the last one: could have been worse, but I had a pretty average one, for which I'm grateful for not being a catastrophe.
Sure, I'm getting one year older in numbers. However, I'm still not on the proper mental age. Be a judge if that's a good or bad thing.

That's it for now.

You know, when someone hurts you, but they don't even recognize it, and they keep up the talk like as nothing happened.
Then, after a while you begin to be afraid of them, and whenever you see them online or they pm you, your stomach falls, and you keep feeling a strange pressure in your chest too.
You often think about how to confront them, but are afraid, that it would make things worse, and you would be the one who got hurt again. Feeling, that no matter what you do, you will be the one who lose.
This happens to me, and it affects my everydays too. Feeling anxious, can only assume the worst of other people around me, etc. It even makes me less effective at my workplace, which is not even a full time job.
And I didn't even talk about the other things, that are happening around me, my family and in general, my nonexistent social life. But that's another story, and I doubt anyone cares what I said. Which is understandable, because there is always someone in a worse position.

Hey everyone.
I'm making a new journal about someone.
 burbarbeers is in a very dire situation, and he needs support as quick as possible.
He made a donation growth thingie, you can check it out here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23632270/
Please help him as much as you can, because he deserves all the love. You can even support him by buying commissions from him.
That's about it for now. Thanks.

Here, check it out: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8221272/

Also, don't forget,  burbarbeers needs some support aswell from my last journal.

Heyo!
I recently got to know a really nice guy, whose situation is getting a "bit" rough, and he needs support after his surgery, by giving him commissions.

Please visit  burbarbeers , take a look in his gallery, and if you can, order something. He does really good job on them, and he really needs some support.
He gave a lot of love to others. Now, give him some love yourself, too. :3 You won't get disappointed.

I just realized, that almost everyone made the same design mistake when making fanarts of lycanroc's midday form. Look closely between 0:36 and 0:38 and you might see what I'm talking about: https://youtu.be/6BMmxNKGln0

Anyone who is interested in smushes/squished/flattenings, there is a nice discord server here:
https://discord.gg/0lxNLMoNSu6X95Sb

Have a good time being smushed! ^w^

Yay I guess.

... I've thought about last year. Its kinda cool, that my birthday is in December, as I can take a look back on the whole year from its beginning.
Though I had some struggles during summer (mainly because I was looking for a job), I have to admit, this year could have been worse. I moved to my mother, which kind of sucks mainly because of how tiny the flat we are living in is, but for being able to stay somewhere is something I'm grateful of.
Also, in this April, I finally have started my youtube channel, which by now has 68 subscribers (Its incredible to see, that there are so many people interested in my bad commentaries). I honestly didn't think, I could accomplish such thing, but that makes me feel more confident of myself and keeps me going.
I also got a new (part-time) job in the last week of July, for which I'm happy for. I feel much less stressed about having to go to work each day when I do.
As a person... only others can tell, how much I've changed, because I can't tell.
On the furry side however, I found an inner peace with myself since I changed my sona into Tuxedo, the wolf. 'Course, I don't throw my other characters away, but since I'm a somewhat spiritual person, it makes me feel comfortable with myself to have that change.
Most of those who I IM (group) chat with, already know this change, but for those who only saw me here, it can be confusing. Still, don't worry. I won't bite if you still going to call me a fox. :3

So a finaly summary of my year?
Could have been worse. I appreciate everything I currently have, and will try my best to make everything better.

Thank you for reading this, and wish Happy Holidays for you guys.

I totally admire  idun's work as an artist, and since he also helped me with my self-confidence problems, I'd like to help him too.
Unfortunately, I can't afford any more commissions from him (already got 2, plus a free doodle).
The least I can do is now, to post his journal here aswell: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7914438/

Go check it out, and if you can, help him or spread the "word", maybe it would be heard.
Thanks for reading at least.

Its a great accomplishment in my life as a gamer.
Thank you Nintendo, for this fantastic journey.

... at an affordable price? (Had to finish the sentence here hecause of the fharacter limit of the title)
I want a character of mine to be drawn as a certaion one, just not sure who should I try or who can I afford.

Thank you for all your acting work, and making my childhood better. You made a whole lot of people laugh, even after wathcing your films over a hundred times.