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Rest in Peace, Buttlord~
Posted 5 years agoThis year has been a year of funerals for me. I lost my Father figure in February, and my Wife just recently lost her Grandmother this month. And right after losing her Grandmother, before she even managed to come home, our sister-in-law 
ladygreer passed away.
I can not express just how sad I have been. Some might find it silly, but I just saw her two weeks ago. We made dinner plans and a Dot Hack movie night together. She was so excited for the Final Fantasy XIV update, and we were gonna start working out together once the gyms opened back up.
But she wasn't herself towards the end...and I even called the cops for a wellness check. At the time, they told me that she was fine, so I was content with that. I just figured she wanted some alone time (as someone with depression, I understand). But, a week later, she was gone.
The amount of people I have contacted and had to tell them about this loss...I can't say that it hasn't weighed on me a bit. I just knew that the longer we went without telling her friends, the worse it would be for them. Her friends were her life, her Discord was like her home, and I knew these people deserved to know, deserved to have their chance and mourn...and it didn't feel right to leave them in the dark. Greer was someone I had heard horror stories about before I met her. She was supposedly that mean and grumpy person that was just impossible to be around. When I first saw her (she towers over my 5"3 ass), with her black hair, sunglasses, etc. I was terrified.
She asked me to drive with her to the pet store one day and I was too scared to tell her 'no', so I went, not sure what to expect. What we did was talk about anime, porn, and Pokemon, and it was one of the most fun days I had ever had. That alone built a friendship that meant a lot to me...even if I had a hard time showing it.
I got on her streams, she gave me the nickname "Lezbot", and I gloated because having a nickname must mean I'm special...you know? I don't have a lot of friends, I'm a very picky person when it comes to people. So this was just an awesome moment. I know she had her besties and the people she talked to 24/7...but I was always thrilled when she came to me for advice or to vent. I did her house tour on facetime for her (with my wife) so she could see if she wanted her house before moving. When she was finally only 20 min away from me, I was actually happy that we would get to hang out more. She would come over, get a hot meal, play some video-games. I watched her play Dark Souls, and I'm the only person that got to see her beat Super Mario Odyssey. We were always talking horror games (especially Silent Hill), talking about our favorite anime, or helping each other on Animal Crossing. She wanted me to try FFXIV and was going to teach me how to play...but I put it off, and now I wish that I hadn't. I now have the free trial downloading...and I guess it's just one of the ways I'm trying to show my tribute to her.
I have had days where I cry...and today I'm doing better. I'm just bracing myself for the hardest parts that are bound to pop up in the future. I dunno what's going to happen...there's just so much stress. I wanna comfort her friends, but they barely know who I am. I wanna do something special for her, but I don't know what. I want to help her Husband, but I barely know him either...and so I just try to make him laugh when I see him. And I'm also trying to comfort my wife who lost 2 people she loved dearly in a matter of 2 weeks.
Before anyone asks (I probs should have made a disclaimer earlier), she did not die to COVID. There were some other things going on, but we still don't have a cause. So I ask that you please don't pry. I already have a ton of people I need to keep updated on the situation...so, if you have any other questions, thoughts, etc, I just ask that you DM me here or something. I will try and get back to you when I can.
I guess...I just needed to vent. One of the last things I mentioned to her is that I find it hard to believe that anyone likes me because of my awkwardness, anxiety, etc. she laughed and told me to "shut up". And I only wish I had been able to tell her how happy that made me...that I knew she was my friend, always had, and that it really, truly, meant the world to me. I was looking forward to so many adventures together that I could never express. And now she is gone.
And I miss her. I miss her a lot.
Rest in Peace Buttlord.
---Love: Lezbot
ladygreer passed away. I can not express just how sad I have been. Some might find it silly, but I just saw her two weeks ago. We made dinner plans and a Dot Hack movie night together. She was so excited for the Final Fantasy XIV update, and we were gonna start working out together once the gyms opened back up.
But she wasn't herself towards the end...and I even called the cops for a wellness check. At the time, they told me that she was fine, so I was content with that. I just figured she wanted some alone time (as someone with depression, I understand). But, a week later, she was gone.
The amount of people I have contacted and had to tell them about this loss...I can't say that it hasn't weighed on me a bit. I just knew that the longer we went without telling her friends, the worse it would be for them. Her friends were her life, her Discord was like her home, and I knew these people deserved to know, deserved to have their chance and mourn...and it didn't feel right to leave them in the dark. Greer was someone I had heard horror stories about before I met her. She was supposedly that mean and grumpy person that was just impossible to be around. When I first saw her (she towers over my 5"3 ass), with her black hair, sunglasses, etc. I was terrified.
She asked me to drive with her to the pet store one day and I was too scared to tell her 'no', so I went, not sure what to expect. What we did was talk about anime, porn, and Pokemon, and it was one of the most fun days I had ever had. That alone built a friendship that meant a lot to me...even if I had a hard time showing it.
I got on her streams, she gave me the nickname "Lezbot", and I gloated because having a nickname must mean I'm special...you know? I don't have a lot of friends, I'm a very picky person when it comes to people. So this was just an awesome moment. I know she had her besties and the people she talked to 24/7...but I was always thrilled when she came to me for advice or to vent. I did her house tour on facetime for her (with my wife) so she could see if she wanted her house before moving. When she was finally only 20 min away from me, I was actually happy that we would get to hang out more. She would come over, get a hot meal, play some video-games. I watched her play Dark Souls, and I'm the only person that got to see her beat Super Mario Odyssey. We were always talking horror games (especially Silent Hill), talking about our favorite anime, or helping each other on Animal Crossing. She wanted me to try FFXIV and was going to teach me how to play...but I put it off, and now I wish that I hadn't. I now have the free trial downloading...and I guess it's just one of the ways I'm trying to show my tribute to her.
I have had days where I cry...and today I'm doing better. I'm just bracing myself for the hardest parts that are bound to pop up in the future. I dunno what's going to happen...there's just so much stress. I wanna comfort her friends, but they barely know who I am. I wanna do something special for her, but I don't know what. I want to help her Husband, but I barely know him either...and so I just try to make him laugh when I see him. And I'm also trying to comfort my wife who lost 2 people she loved dearly in a matter of 2 weeks.
Before anyone asks (I probs should have made a disclaimer earlier), she did not die to COVID. There were some other things going on, but we still don't have a cause. So I ask that you please don't pry. I already have a ton of people I need to keep updated on the situation...so, if you have any other questions, thoughts, etc, I just ask that you DM me here or something. I will try and get back to you when I can.
I guess...I just needed to vent. One of the last things I mentioned to her is that I find it hard to believe that anyone likes me because of my awkwardness, anxiety, etc. she laughed and told me to "shut up". And I only wish I had been able to tell her how happy that made me...that I knew she was my friend, always had, and that it really, truly, meant the world to me. I was looking forward to so many adventures together that I could never express. And now she is gone.
And I miss her. I miss her a lot.
Rest in Peace Buttlord.
---Love: Lezbot
PWYW sketches are open!!!
Posted 7 years agoI have been wanting to get back into drawing, so I am looking to do some busts and possible some full-bodies.
So, I am offering my service as PWYW (pay-what-you-want) with a minimum price of $3.
Send me a note if you're interested and while I 'can' work off of character descriptions, I prefer it if you have a ref sheet that I can work with. These are artistic freedom and will be SFW.
So, I am offering my service as PWYW (pay-what-you-want) with a minimum price of $3.
Send me a note if you're interested and while I 'can' work off of character descriptions, I prefer it if you have a ref sheet that I can work with. These are artistic freedom and will be SFW.
Art Goals:
Posted 9 years agoI decided to put this here for once everything gets balanced and I can actually start saving money again...
I always seem to have these awesome art idea...but then I forget what I wanted and they seem to vanish into the void until stuff comes up again and then I need the pic that I wanted and then forgot :/
So this is more for me (but, if some of my artist friends are super into tackling something specific, let me know with prices)...but hopefully it helps organize some of the stuff in my mind that I might need and/or want.
1. More Idher (battle/casual/etc) Art (SFW)
2. Idher x Cleyo art (SFW/NSFW)
3. IdherxCleyoxElaina Wedding pic
4. Idher x Elaina dueling pic
5. More Sergal art of Tomba!
6. More NSFW pieces including Mia
7. More art of Masika (Leothaun) ((SFW and NSFW))
8 More Pokemon-themed pieces of Mia (with Typhlosion/Bulbasaur/Mightyena/etc)
9. Boarderlands-themed pieces (just Mia or Borderlands OCs)
10. More Fallout-Mia pics
11. Mia rage-gaming pics
12. Mia the Mesmer (Guild-Wars themed pic)???
13. Mia and the 7-Dragon Balls maybe nuzzling Shenron?
14. Rias and Synsae NSFW
15. Get Borderlands Intro screen from
RedDyeNo5 for Mia or Borderlands OC
16. Make a shiny Typhlosion (female) Pokesona?
17. Art of all my Fursonas in 1 picture
18. More art of Rias
19. More feral (realistic art) of Ula
20. More Art of Rune
21. Rune YouTube Banner
22. More art of Crayl (My Wisher AD)
23. More Art of Orion <---still need ref
24. Art with friends (group pics)
25. NSFW or SFW pics of Tunallis and Tippiji
26. NSFW/SFW of Tunallis
27. NSFW or SFW art of Kasey Skunk
28. Digital ref for Wishdust
29. More Quilo Holiday art
30. BILLEX & Crayl fun-funny art
31. More art of Synsae & Incubus (Alien bab)
These are just some of the idea that have come to my head that I would like to try and eventually commission.
I know there will be more...and when there is...god help me this list will be never-ending. But yeah, these are just the immediate ideas that I would like to start working on ASAP...especially the refs as they will be needed.
But yeah...I def have to save the monies first and then we will see what happens with it.
I always seem to have these awesome art idea...but then I forget what I wanted and they seem to vanish into the void until stuff comes up again and then I need the pic that I wanted and then forgot :/
So this is more for me (but, if some of my artist friends are super into tackling something specific, let me know with prices)...but hopefully it helps organize some of the stuff in my mind that I might need and/or want.
1. More Idher (battle/casual/etc) Art (SFW)
2. Idher x Cleyo art (SFW/NSFW)
3. IdherxCleyoxElaina Wedding pic
4. Idher x Elaina dueling pic
5. More Sergal art of Tomba!
6. More NSFW pieces including Mia
7. More art of Masika (Leothaun) ((SFW and NSFW))
8 More Pokemon-themed pieces of Mia (with Typhlosion/Bulbasaur/Mightyena/etc)
9. Boarderlands-themed pieces (just Mia or Borderlands OCs)
10. More Fallout-Mia pics
11. Mia rage-gaming pics
12. Mia the Mesmer (Guild-Wars themed pic)???
13. Mia and the 7-Dragon Balls maybe nuzzling Shenron?
14. Rias and Synsae NSFW
15. Get Borderlands Intro screen from
RedDyeNo5 for Mia or Borderlands OC16. Make a shiny Typhlosion (female) Pokesona?
17. Art of all my Fursonas in 1 picture
18. More art of Rias
19. More feral (realistic art) of Ula
20. More Art of Rune
21. Rune YouTube Banner
22. More art of Crayl (My Wisher AD)
23. More Art of Orion <---still need ref
24. Art with friends (group pics)
25. NSFW or SFW pics of Tunallis and Tippiji
26. NSFW/SFW of Tunallis
27. NSFW or SFW art of Kasey Skunk
28. Digital ref for Wishdust
29. More Quilo Holiday art
30. BILLEX & Crayl fun-funny art
31. More art of Synsae & Incubus (Alien bab)
These are just some of the idea that have come to my head that I would like to try and eventually commission.
I know there will be more...and when there is...god help me this list will be never-ending. But yeah, these are just the immediate ideas that I would like to start working on ASAP...especially the refs as they will be needed.
But yeah...I def have to save the monies first and then we will see what happens with it.
Commission/Trade waiting list:
Posted 9 years agoJust decided to put this here for my memory.
There are some things I have commissioned that I might still owe people money and/or they still owe me art...as well as trades that I have completed and I am waiting for my half to be delivered to me...and so I just want to make sure I can keep tabs on it...
No, this does not mean I am rushing the artist to finish. I just don't want to forget.
1. Rune Kigu from:
flamesvoices
PAID $50 in FULL on: 12/16/2016 --- Last update: 2019
2.Cheshire partial fursuit from: flamesvoices
PAID $96 in FULL on: 02/07/2017 --- Last update: June 2020 (Head is done, just waiting for paws, feet, sleeves, and tail)
3.Idher art from: Evie/Ai
PAID $35 in FULL on: 01/12/2021 --- Last update: N/A
There are some things I have commissioned that I might still owe people money and/or they still owe me art...as well as trades that I have completed and I am waiting for my half to be delivered to me...and so I just want to make sure I can keep tabs on it...
No, this does not mean I am rushing the artist to finish. I just don't want to forget.
1. Rune Kigu from:
flamesvoicesPAID $50 in FULL on: 12/16/2016 --- Last update: 2019
2.Cheshire partial fursuit from:
flamesvoicesPAID $96 in FULL on: 02/07/2017 --- Last update: June 2020 (Head is done, just waiting for paws, feet, sleeves, and tail)
3.Idher art from: Evie/Ai
PAID $35 in FULL on: 01/12/2021 --- Last update: N/A
