Welp its been a year and such and things have gone from bad to good and back and forth.

I have been having a tough time getting a job, but my mate has been very strong and even gotten a pay raise in his job. I keep the books and such ready for what needs taken care of, though as most things, it comes down to needing some cash flow.

I have been trying to sell some items and only been able to get an xbox to sell. I am now posting here plushies that i have and will be selling. If I can't well they have to be donated, praying my family doesn't just throw them away though,

The plushies for sale range from animes I know like: Fate, Demon Hunter, Twisted Wonderland

you can find the details on them in my scraps or CLICK HERE

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Anyway, besides that my families been going through some tough happenings. My younger sister was recently diagnosed with a heart issues and with cancer. She has been and out of the hospital this past year and it really sucks.

My family doesn't keep me up to date which only adds to my frustrations and worry that I am just useless that even they don't want to speak with me.

This has me a bit down but I know I ave to keep at it in some way. So I hope things turn around for all, Christmas is soon as well as my birthday shortly after.

Happy Holidays everyone!!

Heeey its been a while and starting off the new year right it seems.

My birthdays was fun then lots of drama the day right after.

For those who don't know, my fiance and myself had to practically flee from our old home. We had so many issues and in the end it had to stop and we had to leave and move. Now we are struggling to find work and to sustain the last bit of any money we have.

I would have loved to get back into doing art but in the move some how I lost the pen for my tablet, I also can't find the charger for my IPad. No good news all around.

Right now only my fiance "iconicedrake20: has gotten call backs and interviews while i haven't heard anything but from bill collectors and just mounting stress. I don't know what else to do, I got a job that I had to quit the very next day because it was to hard for me. It was good pay and I liked doing it but my body couldn't handle it without a lot of pain.

The bit I made went straight to a bill, though now I can't even pay anything so those will al be worse off.

Hell right now I just hope I can sell some of my pokemon cards and magic the gathering cards to get some money to pay for electricity.

This year has already started to pull me down, I just hope we can make it through.

Love everyone, hope you're in a good place.

So we have finally arrived at our new home and into still scramble mode gotta. use hte little bit we have left for bills and to feed us.

We seemed to have also left in just the nick of time as a hurricane bore down at the exact spot our old home is. No idea if there is any damage to it but well its still a miracle we left when we did. I don't want to think on what we would be doing there if we where still there and with the roof leaking and no power or worse being flooded.

Here at the new place, I'm already I bit more at ease but still on high as I have to figure out how we will get groceries now.

If any can still help im all for it and I thank you as always

you can send donations to spookedranma[at]live.com on paypal.

I hope things are working around for everyone, love to all *hugs*

So here is the news on the move!!

We are finally starting to pack and will be leaving Oct 28th.

We are still needing money for food and bills and moving and having to leave my job sooner then later to get everything ready to go.

The situation seems to have remained the same even after taking care of the back pay and such. We have been ghosted and have gotten no word from the landlord for a while now. So we are just leaving, we are done with this for now.

I also had a near scare last night, nearly breaking my neck falling down the stairs. I'm ok just bruised and sore and just relieved nothing more happened. Just more of a reminder to get out sooner then later.

please if any can help you can send donations to

spookedranma[at]live.com which is my paypal.

the gofund me is still up but we see they take a lot of what is donated and it doesn't help in the end.

Stay safe everyone.

also if you are int he southern florida area we are selling a full automotive tool box.

https://miami.craigslist.org/mdc/tl.....542249639.html

So if you read the journal before this then you know I was feeling sick before, well I just got confirmed to have COVID....


I just...I just can't anymore, I was mentally suffering now I'm physically suffering on top of it.


worse I may have gotten my fiancee sick with it, he may not show much signs but now I have that on my head.



Read here for more

So shit's really wanting to hit the fan with just life in general.

I got sick shortly after my last journal and things have just stacked from there. I missed nearly a whole week of work and even got in trouble with my work because i went under the amount I had for expendable hours.

*Sigh* I'm getting closer to having another panic attack, when i got sick i had some issues that felt like the time I got covid. Like i dont know if you can think of it but that horror just flooded back and I broke down crying in my car because I didn't want to have to go through that again. It turned out to be nothing to serious but it was still a mental stab

So because of this , the little bit I had been saving is now nearly gone and I just want to curl up and cry. I feel even more feverish and sick now. I do not know what to do, we need help. I can't sugar coat this we need help or we will not be able to do anything but stay in a home that we can not afford to live in and is falling apart.

Sorry this is just sad everything, just please spread the word


PLEASE HELP

Hey all, im writing to update whats gone on in a bit more detail here.

So things where far worse then we thought when they came to "fix" the issue. I kid you not the only thing holding up the ceiling was a prayer and hope ( but really a light fixture). Like... there was literally nothing supporting it anymore and that is why it started to sag and look ready to fall down. It was going to, if i hadnt just been so fed up with the treatment when i had.... i'm just shocked to think of the outcome.

For now it has a temporary repair that should last maybe a year, if there or no further leaks. Which still does nothing to to calm my nerves as the same thing is happening in our bedroom now.

Moving to what we now know, that things where in shittier circumstances then we thought, but we where right to think we where getting the backlash of their own stress. They treated us like a punching back to lash out on. Which is not ok, that just cemented it even further that i can say fuck this place. We finally got to talk to them and find out if things hadnt been worked out that the landlord would have lost the home anyway and we would have to move out even sooner. The amount of rent this home needs to even be viable for them is not an amount I or my mate can do together. Hell not even with how many folks live in it now could we do it and still be able to pay all our other bills.

The only good outcome is that we have some time now to pack and get out in a much calmer way, not to say that hell wont break loose once more when the move date comes around. As it goes one problem solved and another pops up. We told them we can probably only stay till October and that was even generous, I have a feeling they didnt hear that and think things are all good and dandy. If i can get the means to leave sooner I will, I had only a small breath of relief from all this after talking but I have to wait and see what happens.

We have to even further penny pinch what we have to get by until then, please any help is welcomed.

Here's the Gofundme

and if you don't like that it takes some cut here is also my paypal.
spookedranma[at]live.com

Thanks again for listening, and being just a shoulder i can rest my weary head on even if for a moment

Please Help

Here is the link to the gofundme

If you havent heard please ready the journal linked below


https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10262123/

Hey all, it seems that life wants to again be a brick wall i need to beat my head against.

I woke to a message from my in law, who is also the person we rent from, announcing and I quote "The rent will be going up, you will have to sign a lease because I am not getting the rental value of the house"

To make a long story short, we have been reporting issues with the home and voicing concerns for the past month. As during a storm we found leaks in the ceiling in very concerning areas. They did not want to listen to us, until a roommate spoke up. It took them more then a week for the leaks to get patched up and so far nothing has leaked. The problem now comes that where the leaks where found the roof is slowly falling down. We told them we all needed to talk to them and we were met with harassments, threats and non compliance to listen to us telling them what was happening.

So come a month later with the text of the quote above, my response? I will not be paying or signing anything and they know exactly as to the issues that have not been resolved.

They didn't seem to care and just said and I quote "Ok then I guess you will be moving out"

So here lies what is going to happen, there is no way we can stay anywhere without support at this time. I have poured ever cent I had to catch up on rent from being nearly killed by covid. My fiance unable to work because of injury for some time. The only place we can remotely be able to try getting our barrings once more is moving 3000 miles away.

I have not even been able to recover from the trauma of what happened to me from all of this and now this like how have we let society be about money and greed so far that no one feels they can trust anyone and then when you do, things like this happen? We did a favor to help and when we where no longer able to this is the outcome.

I dont know what im going to do but now I need to find out what little money i have left so we can make it through the month and still have money to drive away.

I'm venting I know I am but I'm sorry, I woke up from my coma so that I could start a better life, not to keep being pulled into the same hell. We need help and I know we will get it from my family but I just don't know if it is going to be enough.

Love each other all, love you guys

Hi everyone!!! Welcome to a knew year!!

Just like my last, its a bit of an update.

So as most know, I got COVID early last year and nearly died. I had to get dialysis because of it since both my kidneys had failed. I was out of work for 7 months until I returned home in October.

Sadly the same day i returned, my fiance I found had seriously injured himself while volunteering as a partner for the special Olympics. So not only was I still recovering but now i had to also care for him, he had broken his collar bone and 3 ribs. Needless to say that I had my work cut out for me.

Since then with my job I can barely put food on the table since my job doesnt pay as well, even if its only a 3 dollar differece, then his job. He has also needed 2 surgeries to fix his collar bone, the first one failed. With him not able to work has put a big toll on keeping things stress free so that we can both recover. Which now his job is trying to be sneaky and fire him without telling him, so we have a lot to worry about from that alone. My job has also slowed down a bit so i dont work all the days i can because well theres not enough work. Even I havent gotten the treatments i still need because i just cant think of how i can do some of them and not lose money to pay them after, you know what i mean? I hate to say that i live in a country where my first thought is "Damn how am i gonna pay for this?" instead of thinking " I should really take care of this".

To the point we really need a hand to make sure we can handle the bills so that we can have at least less stress from having to choose food or bills. If you can give anything or spread the word would be appreciated. The link below is to the gofundme for us. I thank you all for at least reading and hearing us out.

I am extremely grateful I am able to see this year and I pray for more. Keep safe out there.


https://gofund.me/1e1bec2e

Hi everyone,

It's been one hell of a year.

For those who may not have heard but back in March of this year I was hospitalized with COVID-19 after visiting my family. Come to find i was not the only one to get it but my whole family, I was just the worst case.

So while in the hospital I had no idea how bad it was until I woke up, which was a miracle in itself since I didn't take well to them taking out the tubes that where helping me live.

I can tell you that to me I was dreaming and it was not fun dreams it was...just emotional to say the least.

So once I woke up I found out that not only was I lucky to wake up but my kidney's had failed. Not just one but both.
To say the least I had my very first panic attacks while in the hospital. The Isolation and such does not help your mental state when you've nearly died and no one you care about can be there to help comfort you.

So all in all i was in the hospital for 38 days, I had lost 58 pounds and I could not really walk on my own for more then 3 steps and my hands shook out of my control.
Once out I had to get dialysis for my kidneys, which again to everyones surprise started working well again after just 2 months or so of treatment and diet i was doing.

Since then I have been recovering still and still feel the effects of not walking for so long and such even know with working again and so forth. Bills and such will be a struggle but that hasnt changed.

I just want everyone to know that I am still here and getting better so I can continue doing what I like and thats drawing, playing games and talking with friends and family.

The road ahead of me and my fiancee is a bit tough right now since well he also injured himself on the day I got back and we have been worrying about that and he soon will have a surgery to get it fixed and hopefully it heals.

So keep as much positivity you can out there, I know life is getting hard for everyone but we shouldnt make it harder with filling it with negativity more then is already there.

well looks like its time to update on my life. even if its futile, as i have done times before and not much comes from it but. Today is just a day that i need to let it out.

i have recently been trying to make sure i can live a healthy life, so i have been going tot he doctor to help find out why i have been so fatigued when i wake up in the morning. As well as to help with being very anemic. Well today i have gotten another great big fuck you from the reality that is life. My health insurance doesnt seem to be covering anything from all the testing an trips i have had done thus far on doctor vists so far i have spent 500 give or take and each time i see the doctor i give a copay of 40. So back to today, i have been diagnosed with sleep apnea, meaning that during my sleep i stop breathing for some time and then wake up gasping and coughing. This can potentially lead to me dieing in my sleep.


point I need to come up with about 600 dollars in about a weeks time so that i can payout of pocket for the machine that can help save my life. I do not have this amount of money to pay up front. that is roughly 90% of my pay check, so i have to choose if i would like to be sleeping in bed without it or if i dont want to eat or pay rent.

As well as my mate  icedrake20 has been found to may have some tests he needs to have run to check on an issue with his liver, its not 100% clear what that might be. It is still taxing on how much we make to survive and still pay other medical bills when i didnt have insurance.

Any way im opening for 5 commission slots of any grade of quality you'd like to get. im limiting my self to this many because i dont have much time to get them done if they are very complicated but i will get them done as fast as i can.

$25
$10
$5

5 Slots

1.  vosur
2.  steel-phoenix
3.  kirisha
4.  devilwolf1984
5.  forgottenstar

all slots full, thanks everyone. if missed out on the commissions ill be open again as soon as im down with them.

if you want to donate you can at my paypal spookedranma[at]live.com

thanks for reading, even if you cant do anything, reading is still something.

Just wanting to know if i stream tonight and have simple lineart for 10 bucks will anyone show?

jsut bumping that im still taking commissions, so comment or pm me if you are interested

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will be streaming tonight.

as the title says opening up commissions for 10 slots i'll be doing a bit different as i will be be charging per hour this time round so it will be 10 per hour i will make sure to have a timer up so i know how long its taking and i will pause it during breaks and such so i dont over charge you for time im not actually drawing. this will be stream based as best i can.

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thats right everyone, the time has finally come for me and  icedrake20 to finally live together !!!

thats right im moving!!! thisis exciting and scary its gonna be a long trip XD

we been fighting the odds for 4 years to have it happen and im glad it finally is.


so i'll be looking to selling a few things and trying to get as much cash as i can to make sure we have enough to get there.

well this year has been something, but to get straight to the point here we go.
my best friend and roomate has been given bad news after going in for treatment. He was told that the cancer he had gotten removed has spread. he will have to go through kimo starting next week.

so ill be working hard to help him through this and to make sure i can bring in money from work and from here.
so im taking on commissions.
if our interested please note me with the details and refs.

chibis= $ 5 buy 4 get 4 free
sketch art = $5 buy 2 get 2 free
line art = $10 buy 2 get 2 free
full art = $25 buy to get 1 free

prices are for each individual picture. ex- you buy 2 for $25 thats $50 total

so yeah i hope for the best and happy holidays

welp didnt think i'd be going off again to try and make my life complete but i am, im jumping and running to get there.

so then as you might have guesssed this is to announce that i will be moving to live with my mate/hunny bunny/ naughty boi  icedrake20 * throws confetti* wooo!

now then to help things move along i'll be taking commissions of all types and such!! so leave a comment down below if your interested in one! or even pm if you wanna keep it on the down low

my pricings are pretty low so dont hesitate to pick what you like price wise, also i'll expect full payment once sketchs are approved for the full color choices only.

chibi/sketch= $1
chibi/ink= $3
Chibi/Color=$5

character/sketch= $5
character/ink= $10
character/color= $20


additional:
adult theme = $5
background/simple= $5
background/complex= $10

and there we have it!! cya around lovelies!

well its a sad day to say that my arting days are at a halt for now.....

the past few days ( starting oct 30) my computer started blue screening as soon as i typed my password to log on, i had that happpen once before and restrat seemed to fix the issue at the time . now that is not the case i've been trying since then to see if i can keep the computer on long enough to try and transfer what i can from it, it is not willing to do so. it crashs after a random time from of 1 to 5 minutes in safe mode, if i start it normally it just crashes upon signing in



so if i owed any art or if i planned any art im sorry i dont know what i can do to get anything that i had on that desktop, it had everything for the past 8 years on it . andi fear i have lost everything v.v

i pray i can do something at a later date but for now i'll just be lurking in the shadows faving others arts

well folks, the time has come, to see the winds of change blow strong!!

ok dramatics asside i amreally excitedly hopeful that soon i can transfer and move, so that i may finally live with my mate  icedrake20.

its a big step, one that still kinda scares me,since the other time i moved. though not thinking to the past on this, that worry is still there because i do love him so and i dont want it to fail and we both want it to turn into something more

we have started a gofund me you can find Here to donate , anything helps

ill also be opening 5 spots for commissions, once those are done i'll open again and again, as such . making it 5 so that i can manage my time with long hours at work and arting , as this is a big and good cause .

welp heres to the future!!

as the title states im tqking on some commissions

car needs repairs wouldnt be an issue if i didnt use it to get to and from work and theres no time for the bus or else i wouldnt be in an emergency


these will be full color and such since i need it quick i'll only be charging 10 for them

so take a look i'll be streaming them for the rest of the day

www.livestream.com/elementalwolf

dont take what im about to say in a bad way or anything but this is something i found way to true not to share with all

" The only people I need in my life are the ones that need me in theirs...even when I have nothing to offer them but myself."

this is actually that helps live my life and i share it with you

this is quoted from momslivingthrifty.com that was on facebook its still valid sooo yea

who wouldnt want to win a pic with such a sexy rat!!! come and join!



http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7067836/

so ive been wanting to make my own server for minecraft

with some good and simple mods perhaps and such


do you think i should?

or would that be a lame thing to do?

please let me know

jsut giving a shout out that im still taking commissions and donations

info click here