http://www.furaffinity.net/user/trwillyspussy/ is open X3 hehehehe big surprise! For the public to use now for commissions! She has a few slots open so why not contact her and see if you can fill them up? Just let me know your idea and if I approve it I'll send you to her to get your pictures drawn X3

For any of you who want to focus your attention solely on Bliss for a little bit and mock and toy with her for her current and permanent changes here's a little link http://www.furaffinity.net/user/trwillyspussy/ hehehe X3 but don't expect my wet little cleft to say much in reply! Maybe if you're really good she might get moist or squelch for you X3 And if you're very good I'll give her orders to give you soft warm wet velvety kisses X3

X333 my sexy little Bliss Pussy has just been abuzz with some many thoughts here of late that she wanted to tell you! X3 I'd have typed them out for her earlier but for the longest time I thought that buzzing was just one of my toys X3 I'll type what she said here for you lovely sexy watchers ;3



If you're reading this, then it means I've finally succumbed to my fate and have either begged to made a vagina. Either way, it doesn't really matter. What matters is that it's easy to stand outside and judge, but before you do take a moment and understand where I've been.
Many of you knew that I suffered with a severe case of anxiety and often times that anxiety would lead to depression. Obviously it's not something I was born with, it was molded to me as I grew up. Molded to become a part of me not only through school peers and/or member of the opposite sex, but by family. You expect to be bullied or tormented in school and for many years I suffered through it and took the degradation as though it were just a daily routine. You don't expect it to follow you around for the rest of your life as those you take an interest in ridicule you or make you feel less than you are. You don't even dream of your own blood finding it easy to insult you and while your told to ignore it and words are not supposed to hurt you, they in fact do.
Years of ridicule and bullying tore down whatever self confidence I had. Compliments were hardly existent, and nowhere enough to counter the constant flood of negativity I found myself in. I, by every meaning of the word, was an outsider. I resigned myself to the fact I would always be alone, that I had no right to procreate, date, or just plain find love. I didn't deserve any such pleasures in my mind as life simply taught me I was garbage. Yet through it all I struggled and found a way of sorts, that way was drawing and the oh so beautiful art if transformation. I didn't have to be me anymore, I could be anything I ever wanted. All that was missing was a group of like minded individuals I could find comfort in.
DA, Yahoo Groups, and a few other places such as HF, while diverse and accepting just wasn't quite what I was looking for. It wasn't a community that held together and embraced each other's fetishes and kinks, they were simply places to hang your hat and submit work. It wasn't until I found FA that I discovered something special, or at least I thought I did. It was a vast utopia of all things I was looking for. Nobody cared if you had a tail, were blue, green, or yellow! Nobody cared if you were a frog, dog, horse, human, alien, or demon! You wanted to be transformed? There were artists who transformed you! You wanted to be a balloon? A car? Feral? A penis? And yes a pussy? There was someone for you. I finally found a place where people like me existed and my anxiety subdued slightly but it was something.
As time progressed I met a lot of fun and outrageous people. Artists, writers, fans, and more, all willing to embrace who I was and never judged or snickered, or bullied. Then real life came back to me and decided I was too happy. I lost beloved family members one right after the other. My mother and sisters moved away. I had to return home because I couldn't afford rent. I suffered from a small stroke and kidney stones. My mother's health became an issue. My father's health became an issue resulting in his amputated leg. I took time off from work to care for him and all I got was complaints, demands, how my cooking wasn't good enough or my cleaning wasn't up to par. All of these things happening right after each other like chapters in a book with no end in sight. I panicked and sought refuge and comfort in the one place I was able to be me, FA.
Inquiring your minds for ideas and transformations became a drug to me. Your wild scenarios fueling my escapes into dreamlike states and on occasion arousal. I was greedy and hungry for more so I made promises I knew I couldn't keep or get to right away. I just wanted the pain to go away and your ideas and inspirations kept me sedated. All of which Came to bite me in the ass. I felt horrible, I felt undeserving, and I felt like My world was crashing down. I saw the new year as an opportunity to begin anew, to make things right and finally begin a path of happiness and contentment. I couldn't even get that done properly. My father, those high school bullies, and even those strangers who ridiculed me were right, I was a failure, fat ass, loser, bitch, whore! I couldn't do anything right and it hit me like a ton of bricks. My anxiety and depression came back with a vengeance. I did what I always did and ran! And now I'm a pussy. More than likely never coming back in terms of owning my own profile or communicating anymore, BUT still drawing and submitting for you because I love it so and could never give it up. I'm a pussy now and I'm free from being made to feel unwanted or scolded. Be kind to my mistress as she welcomed me with open arms to dry my tear filled eyes and to mend my broken heart.
In conclusion, this profile belongs to my Mistress and shall remain so. I am a pussy from this point on and it is unlikely I'll be permitted or even desire to talk. I don't want to risk being hurt again. This profile will be updated with my drawings as always, you can ask for commissions as always, you can ask for art trades as always, and you can always expect my characters and their glorious transformations and other such depravity, the only real difference is I won't be in the drivers seat so to speak.

Much love,
Bliss/Pussy


That was really touching too X3 I love my little Bliss so much! X3 but I think she means I welcomed her with open thighs! X3 hehe, replies might be slow because after reading this I think my Bliss needs some tender loving affections from her mistress! ;3

On January 14th 2016 Bliss contacted me and begged and begged to be made into my pussy forever and ever and ever with no hope of escape. And you know what? She makes a delicious quivering little sex. So I accepted her offer and now there's no hope for Bliss. I'm  Trwelik btw! Nice to meet all of you lovelies. Before she succumbed to her fate she said all her characters aside from She-Cat were mine to do with as I pleased and that she was forever and always to be my sex, my womanhood from now on. Gods you wouldn't believe how desperate she was to be nothing more that a trembling warm love tunnel. So I suppose it's true, this is a New Year AND a New Bliss; my Bliss!! Forever and always ;3 Expect art showing off my conquest of Bliss to come. I look forward to taking over here while she is made into the well trained sex that I desire. I'd let Bliss say bye or something, but silly wet little pussies like her can't type X3 Pussy lips don't work on a keyboard!

So I've been reminded that I have selfishly not held up my end of a trade. I'll be honest I honestly and sincerely forgotten about it. What with all I've dealt with last year I was on the verge of losing my mind considerably. So I wish to apologize to this person. I am truly sorry for whatever wrongs I have committed against you. It was never my intention to brush you off or lose track or neglect this at all. I'm ignorant and selfish and foolish for even having the desire to ask for anything ever again. I feel like shit and here I am trying to start the new year by shedding the past and starting anew but lo and behold it seems I can't even start a year without fucking it up. This is why I hide away, this is why I run because I fuck everything up. I really feel like shit and a horrible person. Forgive me. Maybe it's best if I just keep my mouth shut and refrain from interacting anymore.

First let me say a HUGE fucking thank you for so much interest in this story/artwork trade off. I only wish I could choose more than one because I hate having to turn folks down especially after so many of you took interest. If you're game I might make this a regular thing of sorts. Anyway, I've made my choice and I've selected a lucky someone to trade with. Hopefully we'll be able to share a bit more soon! Thank you all once again for your interest, it shows this gal you have some love for me even if I fail to see it too often.

Much love,
Bliss

Would anyone be willing to write something of a short story, well more of a script, for me in exchange for a drawing? This story will possibly contain nudity, transformation, humiliation, possibly more so if you're uncomfortable writing such no need to apply. note me if you're interested, I'll share my idea, and take it from there. Depending on the page count my end of the deal will either be pencilled or inked. We'll figure that out as we push forward.

Just a happy reminder that with the coming of a new year I will be implementing a new beginning for my OC's, my focus, and my storytelling. Gone will be my constant promises to permanently end a character unless it's completely and utterly what my intention is. I want to start world building and crafting a sandbox to play in and be a part of, I want to put an emphasis on improving my storytelling. There MIGHT be less of the over the top weirdness but I can't make any concrete promises just yet. As stated before in previous journals I simply want to start the new year in a new direction.

With the New Year approaching I plan to make some significant changes in my life including here on FA. To some of you it might not make a lick of difference but to a small few it may mean a whole lot more. A New Year brings a new beginning for my OC's and the chance to set it all right in one coherent universe as I had always planned. This might be a lengthy journal but if you truly want to get to know me and what fuels my motivations keep reading. I'm bearing my soul and keeping no truths from you. The obvious and repeated yes I am transgender for the billionth time not withstanding, let us begin.

1. Why do you draw that funky shit you draw?

I grew up with brothers and we all loved watching horror movies. The likes of Cronenberg, Barker, King, Romero, and Craven were our idols and naturally as I pursued my storytelling it would feature heavily the themes of body modification, eternal damnation, and transformations having an impact on the characters involved. Sure I could go the happy transformations where everything returns to normal but you've seen that a million times over.

2. Why do you keep asking for ideas repeatedly? Why don't you ever utilize them?

There's a little selfishness behind that. Usually when I feel defeated by life, which lately is quite a bit considering the stress and pressures I'm under with family and work I lose passion. I lose the desire to do much of anything. I retreat and hide away and find myself swimming in depression and dismay. When I come back to the things I love I don't have the spark or energy or the mind-power to kick-start my drive so I utilize all of you to help reignite those passions. The thing of it is, and you've probably heard me vent my frustrations on this in an earlier journal, but whenever I begin to put your ideas to paper another event occurs in my life that twists me up and adds to the burdens I'm already trying to overcome. It's a sick cosmic joke if you ask me and one that I hope has ended for a very long time. In any event I did manage to illustrate the Egg-sack concept so there's that.

3. Are you ever going to really end Bliss and some of your other unfortunate characters permanently?

To some degree yes. Not every OC will become fodder but some will. I know I've put my foot where my mouth is on several occasions but as I said a new year means a new me and a new direction for most if not all my OC's. There are a couple of people I collaborate with who I have shared an interest with in regards to putting the final nail in my characters coffin with and should I pursue it they will be the first to know. That being said don't take my permanence thing as the real deal unless I've truly confirmed it in a specific submission, and you will not have any doubts as to it's validity because I will make it explicitly known when a character is through. For example, She-Cat? I have a lot of storytelling to do with her so she isn't probably going to end up a permanent egg-sack in the near future if at all but it's a wild fate to imagine for an alternate universe type of thing. But one never knows until a story is fleshed out.

4. DO these twisted scenarios get you off?

Ahem... cough cough! Honestly? I draw porn for a living and as much as I enjoy it, it's a job and I don't really find it as erotic or sexual as I may have in the beginning. There will come a scenario in a story where I find myself gasping in awe and a little tingly at the though of being put in that situation. I have a great pair of writers in Karmagik and Darth BAW for the titles I work on. (over at jabcomix.com) I feel much the same when it comes to my submissions or concepts here on FA. Not all that I've drawn are a particular fetish of mine but I work on commissions so I will draw with equal passion. Putting it bluntly? Yes a few scenarios and subject matter get me turned on (Who isn't turned on by a few kinks?) but overall it's just something fun and creative to draw. I tend to draw things not normally seen because it's a challenge to design such grotesque fates or transformation. Because it pushes my creativity and my imagination to it's limits trying to see how things become so twisted.

5. Will you ever do commissions again?

Yes! Thank you for your patience and as you may have read if you're keeping tabs on me is that currently with the enormous weight and stress of family issues on top of work and my own worries such as bills and car maintenance it's been difficult to find spare time to begin opening commissions slots, but hopefully in the near future as things begin to return to normal I will eagerly open commissions again. Just be patient with me.

6. Can I ask you anything in the comments?

I implore you, if you're curious or want to get to know me ask away! Don't be shy and I'm open to answering just about anything. I hope this helped in any way to put me in some sort of contextual light. If not then feel free to ask me something you feel needs answering.

Which should be She-Cat's permanent end?

Blimp?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18548729/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18548714/

Egg-sack?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/13163576/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18533801/

Septic Tank?
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/18548785/

Or just left alone?

As the nightmare that is my life continues, I've now been told my sister was dumped by her fiancee on top of which she now may have HIV due to that fucking asshole! If someone else told me they had the experiences I've had in such a consecutive manner one after the other I'd be hard pressed to believe them. How can one person be surrounded by so much negativity? How can one pathetic individual exude such bad luck? I don't know whether to laugh or cry or run away from life period! I don't know anymore. I don't want to be this person anymore, I don't want to deal with one life altering event after another like this. I need some break from what I can only describe as ocean waves pounding the shore on a stormy night. Someone want to cheer me up? Share what twisted and evil transformation you'd throw upon my OC She-Cat? I know this is a little unorthodox but for the love of all that is holy I need so,etching in my life to bring me some sense of pleasure, or happiness! If not don't worry, I know I've already asked so much from you before.

In all honesty I pretty much wanted to disappear. Instead of letting you all down on a constant basis I felt I needed to just go away. Start a new profile and just hide away from the embarrassment and frustration of being a disappointment for my FA friends. I'm anxiety riddled, frustrated, hating myself, and just not sure how to make things right anymore. So I desperately wanted a clean slate. The whole fight or flight thing. I can't bear to look you all in the face anymore because I feel so ashamed for the way I've handled myself around here. I don't need any of you reminding me just how loathsome I am or how I've failed to fulfill most of the challenges I try and set forth because it's something I torment myself with on a daily basis. You deserve better. You don't need me flapping my gums with empty promises anymore and I don't want to be that way. Yeah life sucks for me right now, I'm dealing with so much more than I can handle and it just won't stop! It's like I've become the worlds most unluckiest person with one horrible thing happening after another and it wears thin. You don't need someone like me writing journals of how miserable my life is or once again trying to fight a spark of creativity. I use you to help ignite the fire that dies down while dealing with life's predicaments and before I can put pencil to paper something else happens and I can't or don't want to keep repeating the same damn cycles! I'm a fucking horrible mess and I've let all of you down. Because of all this I wanted to run away and start anew, to get a clean slate and perhaps find escapism instead of pressure and an overwhelming feeling of being a failure. I'm sorry. I'm so very sorry.

Would anyone consider a trade? Just a simple pencil type of illustration. Note me if your interested and with your idea as well. I can only do a couple, if that but I will let you know if the slots have been filled.

Why is it whenever I decide to start drawing something flipping comes up? It never fails! And I want to know why?

First let me say I've just barely started drawing and wrapping up long overdue projects and I'm rusty as fuck! Caring for a loved one and dealing with the stress of it all has left me exhausted and worn down especially in a mental capacity. This is why I'm asking for your help and of course your ideas. I've asked for some before many times but I've never needed them more than I do now. Trying to kickstart my ability to draw and enter the fun twisted world's I've created. Share with me your ideas on what you would do to my characters! She-Cat, Irma, Bliss! You can have your characters perpetrating the act or it can just be a single image of said result. Go crazy, dig deep and share some wicked transformations! Please.

It's been a very strenuous couple of weeks. My father is healing and is improved since last I shared. However that being said it's been utterly stressful and unimaginably difficult. I've become something of a dietician preparing his meals and my father as stubborn and hardheaded as always is even more so. We've been butting heads a lot as I try and keep his diabetes in check. All of the arguing and hardships have been brutal on my and I find myself suffering from panic attacks and extreme mental fatigue. While I was at the store I found myself unable to walk. I was telling my legs to move but they refused to cooperate. I was terrified I was going to collapse or suffer from a stroke. I've been trying to keep myself rested and see to my own needs before I end up bedridden. With that said I'm hoping to open commissions soon enough. I'll post another update when that happens so get your ideas ready. I do have to try and keep on top of my bills and I hope some of you still want to commission me. Thank you all for your support and your friendship and when life settles down I promise not to be as absent as I've been my friends. I love you guys and gals.

Much love
Bliss

I don't even know where to begin. I'm sorry to those trying to get in contact with me through notes or skype. I've been dealing with quite a lot the last month. So much I will share in time when I have more of an opportunity. To get to the point of things my father has spent the last few days in the hospital and had to have his leg amputated. My family and I have been through so much already and it feels like we are just being bombarded with negativity. Please say a prayer for us.

I'll try to keep this short but I just wanted to let all of you know I'm alive. I've been dealing with quite a lot in terms of family. Both my Aunt and my Dad are dealing with illness. Both are ok just not as healthy as they'd like. Since my Aunt is unable to drive due to blacking out behind the wheel I've been taking her to her appointments and tests. My dad has to stay off is feet due to painful sores. I myself am once again dealing with sciatica due to being in the car far too long. If you don't know what sciatica is google it, it's not fun and unrelenting. I haven't had a decent nights sleep for over a week. Anyways I'm alive and hanging in there and for those noting me I apologize for not responding. I haven't been in a cohesive state of mind. I'll get to you soon. Please be patient and I'll see you all soon.

I haven't posted much art lately as I work feverishly to get through my projects in order to remain afloat. Plus now my brakes are going out... yup, my life has been a barrel of fun. Anyways to help satiate the hunger for more new pieces by me I've uploaded a few scraps of potential future drawings. It's something for now until I can get a handle on things.

It is with a heavy heart and great sadness that I share the passing of my uncle. He died yesterday at home after dealing with prostate cancer for a year or so. He was a quiet and private man and though hard was a good man who served his country. I always admired my uncle and he was always very good to me. I will miss him but know he's finally free from pain and at peace.

Struggling but stable. I still feel depressed and broken but my thoughts have turned away from suicide. I'm doing my best to keep strong.

I just wanted all of you to know that I've been feeling terribly suicidal. Just completely crushed and worn down that I start crying uncontrollably randomly. So much has spiraled out of control the last few months and it's crushing me to the point I'm just a withered husk with so much hurt and emptiness inside. I'm crying just writing this thing. I dunno what to do or how I'm going to make it out of this. Just know that no matter what happens I love you all. You've been very kind to me and showed me support when I felt I had none.

First and foremost let me say that I've missed you guys so much. I meant to return to FA sometime ago but life has just continuously spiraled out of control and heaped one giant turd after another upon me the last couple months. I've been pushing myself crazy tryin to get my projects done to make money to pay endless bills. Paying for last years taxes and I get hit with another big tax bill. It's like as soon as I get myself some funds they immediately vanish. This is on top of getting a ticket and having to pay for my cars registration and the normal bills and gas and food. Just to add insult to injury I was without internet for a while too. It just hasn't been a good month. Needless to say I have been dealing with so much stress and depression but I'm fighting. Trying to keep my sanity and figure out how I'm going to get out of this fresh hell that surrounds me. I hope you'll forgive my prolonged absence as it's not something I am enjoying one bit. I've missed talking to you guys and gals, I miss the fun that helped ease the bullshit, I've missed my fellow miscreants. I don't know how long I'll be away but I promise I'll be back and to those I owe drawings to I haven't forgotten you at all. Please wish me the best as I endure this bullshit and weather the storm of difficulty.

It's been a hectic month and I'm fizzled out from working nonstop. I'm still alive though and nearly complete on this batch of work projects. I'll be able to have a week of free time but I need to rest and maybe just chat and enjoy some free time. I really fucking miss you guys and gals and I'm sorry I've been gone for so long but I absolutely have no choice. I'll do my best to get back into the swing of things and reestablish our connections! Love you and chat soon!

I'm so drained and mentally obliterated by what feels like insurmountable pressure and stress. Ive fallen behind schedule on everything now. I'm just going to go lay down and cry myself to sleep and with any luck never wake up!