;3;.... I'm scared out of my wits... no money to be put asleep for it.. gotta listen to the drill.... I had so many dreams last night about choking on my own blood I had to wake  Feugen up and ask him if it was possible for me to choke on my own blood... he quickly assured me that they'll use the sucky thing... so.. I go to fall back asleep... and I freak out and dream about seen chunks of my flesh and blood being sucked into a tube thing... ;3; oh god I'm gonna die.. I want this to be over with...

Sorry...
Just.. freaked out... ;3;...

So... I go in on Monday at 11 am for oral surgery. I don't have enough money to be put to sleep so Its just going to be numbed up. I'm getting all 4 out.. the bottom two have to have part of my jaw bone removed but it should be pretty simple.  Feugen is taking the day off of work to help me out. I'll hopefully I will recover quickly to work on the prizes.

unfortunately... it's going to cost me 1,405$ which is.. pretty much all the money I have to my name.. But! Hopefully I should know tomorrow if I have my job back. I would like to get some more commissions.

So once again I'm advertising my collab work with  shushikitty

10$ for a pinup like :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7595004

If you cant commission us pimping would be greatly appreciated.


Thanks guys. :3

Mouth...

Seriously.. I have to say  Feugen is the best man a woman could get...

I was up til five Am 20% of that time whimpering softly and 80% of the time sobbing and half screaming in pain... My two bottom wisdom teeth are coming in and apparently there isn't enough room for these horrible monsters called teeth. Anyway...  Feugen was up e-mailing dentists in our area and trying like hell to find someone open. Unfortunately he couldn't find anyone open at 1-4 am... however.. someone did call this morning!!!

I'm going in today to get x-ray of my jaw and see about hopefully A: one or two of my teeth removed which might make enough room for my wisdom teeth to just come in all the way.. If this isn't the case then I'll be looking at oral surgery.. which I don't know the exact cost of now.. but it could be betweet 400 and a 600$ to get this dealt with maybe but not hopefully even more...

I'm going to get an x-ray today of my jaw to see what can and can't be done. This is going to cost me 210$... Thank god for savings...

This hopefully won't effect the contest... since I don't have a deadline... but.. If you could..spare a bit of money  Shushikitty and myself are opening colab commissions. I will be doing the lines and she the color, I haven't talked with her yet about a price but maybe around 10$ for something like this : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7591285
If you can't help money wise.. please please pimp out the word about my colab with Shushi. I WILL be able to draw! I can fight the pain doing so because it distracts me :3 Any bit will help so if you don't want a colab my normal prices are on my profile page.. I'm willing to haggle...

I WANT YOUR COMMISSIONS NOT FREE MONEY!!! I want to work for what I earn I really do.. but I'm just.. really in a pinch. I don't have many bills I only have about 350 a month but I only have around 1800$ to my name....

Thank you for any and all help you guys can give me...

[edit] UPDATE! so.. I have to have oral surgery. *sigh* bottom two wisdom teeth have to come out. Don't yet know how much that will cost. For now I get antibiotic stuff and pain pills....

For my coloring contest here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583400 Read the description for details!

ENTRIES! :
 ShushiKitty http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583464/ (headshot finished)
 slick_kat http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583757/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583766/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583771
 vampirekat2000 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7583772/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7589967/ (headshot finished)
 wolf-mutt http://www.furaffinity.net/full/7584209/(Headshot Finished)
 grimmgin http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7584657/(Headshot Finished)
 AcidaPluvia http://www.copperdragonstudios.com/E1_A%20copy.jpg (Headshot Finished)
 Feugen http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7587638/ (Headshot finished)
 Scizz http://www.furaffinity.net/full/7587892/(Headshot Finished)
 CursedAngel-TheFox http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7589261/ (headshot finished)
 FuzzballFox http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7590134/
 Shaiyla http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7594444/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7594433/
 Muffins-Weasley http://www.furaffinity.net/full/7619015/
 MasterBlade http://filesmelt.com/dl/Entry_-_MasterBlade.PNG (Headshot Finished)
 cassybabyfur http://www.furaffinity.net/view/758...../#cid:53685209 (Headshot Finished)
 fc32 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7626824/ (Headshot Finished)
 Kerolusion http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7627283/ (Headshot Finished)
 EllysPerani http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7631259/(Headshot finished)
 Aislinn_Hema http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7631180/(Headshot Finished)
 cutefox44 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7630888 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7632485 (Headshot Finished)
 NightWolfRose http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7644230/ http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7644226/ (Headshot finished)
 snowflake_the_wolf https://www.furaffinity.net/view/7644966/ (Headshot Finished)
 avalon487 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7646611/
 Bellatrix http://i.imgur.com/pRNdy.jpg (Headshot Finished)

 Kadarami

Hurry over :3 Their art is awesome! ^.^

So world... Guess who got laid off today!!!! ♥ yay me? -3-.... Anyway.. no mass panic! I should have my job back in april sometime :3 and I have plenty saved away for bills and food and such ^.^ all in all life crapped in my cereal.. but I still have have a box of honey nut cheerios!

So.. I will be opening some commissions soon (have to make a price guide :P)

Also.. I may be doing some colabs with  Shushikitty so.. keep an eye out :3

[x] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[x] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you (secretly of course :P)
[x] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection (Mostly towards my mate  Feugen
[] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 4

[] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[] you love fish/meat
[] you like to stick your head out through the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head
[] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with(hehe feathers ^3^ )
Total: 2

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime (When  Feugen isn't bugging me to get online)
[x] you enjoy scaring birds (<.<... my best friend hates birds so yes I scare them >:3)
[] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you (>.>...)
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 3

[x] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it (For my Mate only usually but I did wear it to Boo at the Zoo)
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[x] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit ( Yay cat ears :3)
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park (Haven't in a long time but want to :3)
[x] you meow/bark when you see something you want (I mew at my Mate if he has something I want >.>)
Total: 4

[] you call your hands and feet "paws" (On accident sometimes so I'm not counting this)
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about (*Head tilt* Huh?)
[] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling (Yes.. yes I do.. )
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up (Not really a whimper as a squealing moan thing.. o3o)
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around (Lol pisses  Feugen off so fucking much! >:D)
Total: 4

[] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[] you meow or bark very often
[x] you hide when you get scared (Only under the blankets.)
[] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[x] you tend to chew on stuff a lot (Mostly  Feugen >:3 hehehe)
[] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 2

[x] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it (Doesn't have my name but it has "Feus Pet" on it :3)
[] you refer to yourself as an animal
[]your username has something to do with animals
[] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 1

[] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[] you like to say hi to strangers
[] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[] people think you act like a pet
[x] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like (*Hisses*)
[] you like to eat grass
[] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 1

Final total: 21

Take your score and multiply it by 2
Put your title as "I'm _% Furry"

Anyone know if there is a way to embed a code here on FA either to profile pages or journal footers?

So....

I ended a bad day in kinda a depressed mood... me and  Feugen kinda get into a little tiff..... I tell him to just leave me alone...
After about 20 mins.. he says he's going to the store and asks if I need anything.. I say no... he leave.. I feel even worse...
He comes back.. and says "I like seeing you happy too much to sit by and do nothing while your down... so.. I got you strawberry cheesecake cause I know it's your fav, and two bags of dove chocolate, and I remember you said it's been a while since you had cheesy cracker so I got you gold fish. and.. " Then he nearly starts to cry holding out a fake rose "I didn't realize it was fake until I got in the car! It was in with the real ones!"


I love him so so much... he always knows just what to do to make me smile...


and now.. I'm not allowed to be sad for the rest of the night on penalty of buttsecks... o3o....




Although.... >.>... <.<.... >:3

Alright well, I told my mate I wanted to do something now that I have over 100 watchers.. its a big deal.. so.. for my watchers only

FREE HEADSHOTS!!

Since there are a lot of you it might take a little while but I'll get to all that reply here :3

The headshots will be this quality : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7275033

Also if could... pick an emotion... so I can practice drawing different faces

So like happy, sad, angry... if you don't really care.. you can put Random :3

Thank you all very very much!

Just post a ref and emotion :3

I do work so it might take some time to crank them all out please be patient :3

DA LIST: (If you don't see yours on here right away but you have commented I'm probably at work but will add you :3)

 Minou_DeChat scary face : Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7305752/
 anniekitty Cocky : Finished! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7311228/
 Chuchianci Angry :Finished : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7317417/
 vampirekat2000 Lost or Shy :Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7319008/
 Laska_Applebaum Hurt or Sad :Finished : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7329585/
 Enrie-chan Angry : Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7332035/
 ShushiKittyIts a surprise :FINISHED!!! : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7336533/
 Shaiyla Happy :Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7347391/
 Sanguinarian_Lion Follow me look :Finished Lhttp://www.furaffinity.net/view/7350319/
 Lynxkitty102 Excited : Finished : http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7356503/
 Len_Macabre Stubborn : Finished: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7357214/
 MoonlightRissa Sad: Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7373409/
Kiara : happy: http://dl.dropbox.com/u/1203290/Ref.....ty%20adopt.png : Finished! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7376316/
 blue_snow_leopard Blushy face : Finished :http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7391012/

Species: Fuma
Fox-like body
About a foot and a half tall in feral form (If the Fuma has an Anthro form, that is.)
Fluffy antennas- the fluffy part usually brightly colored to lure in prey.
Fuma’s have three toed paws only. They have retractable claws, the outer claws curve outwards while the middle claw remains straight. The paw pads on the toes are shaped like upside down tears.
Fuma’s have extra large ears.
Both Males and Females have two tails (I change this.. so now it is a rarity to find Fuma's who have just one tail.)
Fuma’s are shy and very submissive creatures. They often hide instead of run or fight. Fuma’s use their claws to climb into tall trees and sleep on the thick branches. They have eyes, tongues and paw pads that glow and during the night the furry ends of their antennas glow as well.
Fuma’s coats come in many patterns and colors found both in nature and not.


(Will edit with more info later.. any questions ask and I'll be sure to add the info :3)

So... heater.. went.. out... last night... still out... cant get anyone to come fix it til tomorrow morning.... FML!!! Can't draw with frozen nubs of fingers!!! GAH!!! But.. got an ipod touch so.. yay me :3

Check this out guys!!! :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3072276/

It's 12:26 am January 2.

I want to laugh, I want to cry. 19 years, almost 20 at this point and I only realize I'm unhappy with who I've been. And I'm tired of staring into the mirrors and seeing someone inside that I don't want to be. So I'm not going to be that girl anymore. I'm not going to hate who I am anymore. I'm not going to give a damn about what other people, stranger's no less, think about me. If I want to run around Walmart or whatever in a cloak, cat ears, and the little white star crown while looking for milk and cookies I'm gonna do it!

I don't want to be held back by the step father who told me I wasn't good enough. I AM good enough. I DESERVE to be happy and Damn it I'm going to be! I have every right to stand up for myself. I am NOT the doormat.

I'm taking off these heavy ass chains. I'm tired of him weighing me down. I have what it takes. I CAN do ANYTHING. I have wonderful people, Awesome friends, and the best damn Mate any girl could dream of in my life and they DESERVE to finally see me put all of this behind me. I DESERVE to put all of this behind me...

Goodbye Sad Child. Dry your tears. Know that you are loved. Know that you are beautiful. Know that all the things you think are flaws are the things that make you special. They are the things that set you apart from everyone else. These flaws make you, you. Close your eyes, dream happy dreams. Cast away the negativity that has been placed inside. It's time to let go of the pain, the sadness, the voice inside that belongs to him. Remember his voice can only effect you if you let it. Let. It. Go.

This year I am going to let a new life dawn inside of me. I'm going to let go of everything that has weighed me down. I am going to let my life blossom into the life I have always wanted.
My first step... in a new life... A life I deserve. A life where I can look in the mirror in the morning and feel beautiful, feel happy, and most of all... A life where I can love myself for who I am.

To Feu, my loving Mate, the love of my life... I am so sorry that two years you have had to suffer by watching me hate myself because of other people. And I vow that I AM going to be better. I AM going to be that girl you see skipping around miejer in a cloak and cat ears with that huge silly "Don't give a Fuck" grin on my face because were going to the zoo. I will be that girl you see inside. I might have bad days (a week or so every month :P) but I'm going to love myself. And I love you so very much. And I hope that I can show you just how much you mean to me one day. And I hope that I can show you too, how I see you in my eyes. Ignore your reflection, see what I see. I love you Drew. Now and for Forever.

Bring it on 2012! I'm ready.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=player_embedded&v=TdkNn3Ei-Lg

And then watch this one...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&v=fyPEV3NJxbY

http://www.frys.com/product/5484689.....H:MAIN_RSLT_PG


So.. this is what I'll be saving up for. This thing looks soooo awesome... so.. I'll be opening up some super cheap commissions and working out more adoptables. help me out some :P

So.. a few weeks ago.. I got word that there were kittens near Chicago who needed homes. I LOOOOOOVE kitties, so.. I ran right over and spent time with them with my mate. We picked out this little orange furball named Jack. Well he hadn't got his shots and needed neutered so their founder Kim said we could take him home after his shots and surgery... well I wait a week then try and get a hold of her. She replies that Jack is sick and is taking him to the vet because he's been having some tummy issues. I think alright, well that's normal sometimes after the surgery on kittens. I wait another week and e-mail her, no response, I message her on facebook, nothing... from Oct 23 to yesterday I call and leave messages worried sick.

Yesterday, I got an e-mail from her. My little Jack has IBD (irritable bowel disease) It's a very expensive illness, One that means a lot of trips to vets and very very expensive food. Now I live with my mate his brother and their friend, who has a small dog and a cat. Kim and I both agreed that it just wouldn't be a good thing for Jack... and Kim herself is now very upset because she doesn't have the means to provide care this kitten needs which leaves one very very sad option.... I cried myself to sleep in my mates arms last night... I'm horribly sad. He was so cute and full of spunk.. something I really needed too.

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/6730032

I can Ink them for 2 $ otherwise it will be a picture of a sketch in my sketch book :3

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2842384/

GOOOOOO!!!!! :3

http://i1014.photobucket.com/albums.....el_7/patch.jpg

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=spGpcLgBqFk

We took my 10 year old rat terrier from my parents because he has issues.... I've had him for two weeks now. He was doing great until he met our friend's cat. He was traumatized by a cat when he was a puppy and hates them. He didn't attack her but he barks and wines. In a 10 minute encounter he spent 6 or 7 hours barking and whimpering because he thought the cat hurt me my mate his brother and our friend who all live in our friends house now. It is his cat, she's very social but because of my dog she's confined to the upstairs while everyone else is downstairs. I called my mom to see if she would mind taking him back but they are in an even tighter spot and already might have to move from their house and get rid of their other dog...

I love Patch soo soo much... I picked him from the shelter I gave him his name...He's my dog... my puppy... and unless a miracle happens I'll have to send him to a shelter which will put him down... He doesn't like men, and he howl barks a lot. He hates cats. I just... I don't know what to do.. he only has a few years left and I wanted to give him the best... spoil him with good dog food and treats and walks and toys.. and now.. I'm losing him...

I just don't know what to do....

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2834674/


They are doing a contest for couples!!! :3

I just noticed that I've been on FA for a whole year!!! YAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!

HEY GO HERE!

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2698178/

Thank you!

This is important!!! I'm a sucker for love!

GO READ AND COMMISSION OR ADVERTISE :


http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2695066/


Thank you guys! :3

:icon AnzacCookieAeval: is doing some freebies! Go check her out :3
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2690007/