TFW you try to fav an upload someone YOU follow made and find out they've block you. What did I do??? This isn't even the first time this has happened. There are other artists I like that have me blocked and I haven't even talked to them. WHAT DID I DO!?

Yeah, I hopped on the bandwagon.

https://bsky.app/profile/cemeteryin.....ky.bsky.social

If anyone sees this and cares, I uploaded a new sketch thing on Twitter. The reason I'm not uploading it here is because I don't consider it a finished/ refined piece.

https://x.com/SkyBurial96/status/18.....87702114414733

For 28 years today, I have existed.....I am sorry.

Just uploaded a little doodle page on Twitter. Check it out if you want. Sorry for the lack of artwork...journals...literally anything meaningful. I know I've said this like...all the time, but I don't know what else to say since I've all but lost my motivation to do art as it is....


https://x.com/SkyBurial96/status/18.....69821822919040

Surprisingly, I'm not dead, at least not physically! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!

I know, I'm hilarious!

Have I been doing artwork this past.....nearly a freaking year!? Kind of. I do have a least one thing finished (if I remember correctly) another almost finished and I started painting. I was planning on doing a surprise upload of my logo after all these years today but of course I eff'd up again.... Because, I've been gone so long in terms of uploads I feel like it's a slap in the face to people that enjoy my work to wait so long just to get ONE thing instead of a bunch of things. That's another reason I don't upload anything.... I know, I suck and really should change my ways of doing...well, anything really.... Hopefully the rest of this year and the next things change.



On another note, I'm turning 27 today.....woooooo....

https://ko-fi.com/cemeteryinthesky

Consider supporting if you want! <3
I'll try to make more stuff more often!

Woo....26....yeeeeaaah.....it used to be a fun thing to have a birthday and it kind of is but this one is the one that changes everything or at least most things in my life. Today, I no longer have insurance do to not having a job and not being a part of my father's insurance plan since I'm 26 now....happy birthday to meeeee....

So, I have some explaining to do don't I? Being my last upload was 9 months ago and I never made any kind of update to even let anyone know I quit or what was going on. Well, here I am and I'll explain, it won't make a difference in the long run since there really isn't an excuse I could have for not uploading anything for nearly a year. I lost my drive to draw, I mean, it wasn't really there if I'm being honest. Most of the time when I sit down to draw something, I'd rather do something else. I still don't have a job and I really don't want one....having to be forced into all that doesn't sit well with me at all...but, come the 11th of this month, aka my birthday....I lose my insurance because I've been on my dad's insurance plan. I was thinking of possibly making a ko-fi or something to possibly help me out since I never really saw my art as a thing that warranted payment unless you count the shirt design, hence why I don't have a Patreon and such. Speaking of shirt designs, I might never finish this God forsaken logo, might as well give up on it. I spend so much time adding little details that it sucks the life out of me before I even boot up the software...I'm in a rather crumbly place in the end. I wish I could say with confidence that I'll work on drawings and designs like crazy and "give the people what they want" if I made an account on ko-fi, but we all know that's a lie, right? When have I kept up with my end of the bargain? I mean, 9 months and I have 2 drawings done, that's it! Artists made drawings everyday or every other day and they have a schedule or at least give the impression they do. The only schedule I have is sleeping most of the day, waking up at like 7 or 8 in the morning, eat breakfast, go back to bed until it's like 2 or maybe even 4 or 5, each dinner, shower, sleep until 9 or 10, wake up and play games and stuff until like 4 am. I'm a mess and yet I'm okay with it...I had to say goodbye to my psychiatrist last Saturday do to my not having insurance soon and I see him every 3 months now so...he has been with me for most of my life but nothing seemed to get better....but it still hurt to say goodbye, it was like saying goodbye to a friend....I think that' s everything....if anyone reads this all....you don' t know how much that means to me...thank you. With that being said, this seems like a scumbag move but, if I made a ko-fi but just for donations or whatever, would anyone give anything? It'll just be for support, nothing more, I hate paywalls so those won't be a thing. Let me know and again, thank you for reading. ❤

Let me hear it






25!


Yeah, I'm 25 years old as of today.....woooo....

Wait.....



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Why yes, yes it has! Am I dead? Outside? Nah! Inside, oh Hell yeah! (Wow, he's self-deprecating, he's so original! :D)

Anyway, if anyone cares and reads this, I'm still not in the best place....still don't have a job, don't know what would even be a decent fit for me even for a few years just to get myself back into that schedule of going to work and having a lunch break, etc. I'm so comfortable with how life has been going this past, nearly 2 years of being unemployed; sleeping whenever, staying up whenever, eating whenever, playing video games, not having to worry about anything really since I live with my parents still.... That's been my life pretty much each day for nearly the past 2 years and I'm a mess, I've been a mess. Every job I see doesn't seem like a great fit because there always seems to be a skill or knowledge of things I don't have or I have to pick up heavy stuff that I don't believe I can pick up on my own because I'm a 259 pound loser that hasn't worked out in YEARS! Some jobs I've seen don't seem to have the best record for being a decent place to work. (example: Gamestop). There's so,many things that I need to fix and I don't even know where to start because one needs to be fixed before the other but that other needs to be done now but not before another is fixed and so on...I'll be 25 this coming October and next year I can't share insurance with my dad, so I'll have no insurance when I'm 26 unless I have a job with benefits and stuff....it seems like leaving the bad job I had where I was getting underpaid for the time I was there and doing things that weren't in my job description was a bad idea since at least I would have a job still and have money....

Soooooo, like a little over 2 weeks ago I suddenly got ringing in my right that wouldn't go away....after a week of suffering I ended up going to my family doctor, which didn't really do anything but send me to an ear doctor. I go there and the doctor is stumped. The ear that is "ringing" is the one that I apparently have better hearing in during the hearing test. Like????? Anyway, long story short, I've been on medication for it which, upon looking around, apparently has no scientific proof that it helps at all and that there really isn't a "cure" for tinnitus...cool. Also, that scientists don't even know what causes it....awesome. I mean, my vitamins I'm taking now seem to be doing....something. Either way, I felt like letting you all know since I haven't uploaded anything else for a few weeks. I think it would be better if I drew without this ringing but, what do I know?

In case anyone has forgotten, I have one design up for sale. You can get a tee-shirt, a hoodie, wall art, a bunch of stuff. It constantly goes on sale, in fact, as of typing this, it's on sale for the next 7~ hours! Please consider buying something, it helps in more ways than just money. hey

If you miss the sale, remember that it goes on sale often, like very often. I just wanted to make sure everyone knows this/are reminded of it. :3

Hey....so, I've been contemplating whether or not to make a journal at all for a few days now since it's been 3-4 months since I uploaded anything or made a journal. For those of you that are either worried about me or miss me, I'd like to thank you for caring enough, it means a lot. Moving on, don't worry, I'm still alive (obviously) I'm still working on that logo (because, why would THAT be finished by now???) (Wait...have I even mentioned this before?
If not, I've been off and on working on making a new logo for myself that I'm going to sell on shirts and stuff....if I ever finish it...) There are a few reasons why it's taking such an ungodly amount of time. Other than just me being....well...me (lazy, tired, unmotivated, etc) I also went through like 3 different designs and I spent HOURS on at least 1 and then decided to erase all those hours of work....that was just HALF of the logo that I was doing....Currently, I've been working almost every day on it, little by little. So far it seems like I'll be about to get it done before half the year is up! :D


As for other stuff, I was working on a traditional piece as a way to get myself more motivated do to the constant drawing of the same stuff and working on the same thing over and over....it was draining. Hopefully that gets done as well.


I apologize for silence, hopefully you guys are happy to hear anything from me. Stay tuned! :3❤

Hey everyone that bothers to read/look at anything I post here. First off, for those that do, thank you. Anyway, so, what is this journal about? Well, for the past few months I've gotten depressed and unmotivated to do much of anything let alone artwork. I still don't have a job for over a year now. Reason being is that I wanted to get an internship but didn't have an e-portfolio nor an animation to show for an animation internship. Months go by and I still have nothing and I graduate. Turns out, (unbeknownst to me anyway) the community college doesn't help with internships for graduates but they help with jobs. Well, I tried to make an e-portfolio and still had no finished animated pieces. I pretty much gave up on it and before I actually knew about the whole "no internship help, only jobs now" thing I was contacted by someone from the college who worked with a woman I originally talked to about internships. She never told me about only helping with getting a job via email but when we finally had a Zoom meeting, she did, if I recall. Well, we did a mock-interview and I failed with flying colors. I wasn't ready nor were my answers convincing/ good. She said the original woman I talked to was going over my resume and checking for errors and making improvements and that she recommends not having like 99% of my portfolio in my e-portfolio do to the creepy and grotesque nature and that may turn people away. Well, it's been over a month and I still haven't heard back and to me, that's good, I didn't want to deal with them anyway. So, after that I've pretty much been miserable. Sleeping during most of the day, gaining even more weight, not doing much of anything and constantly being told that I NEED to get a job by my father...even during conversations that had nothing to do with jobs....Jobs that would be in my field, I feel I don't meet the requirements nor do I feel like I could keep up given how I "work" and do things in general. Basically, I'm a mess. However, I'm slowly getting better, little by little. Trying to do stuff during the day like cleaning for example, just something to do instead of vidya gaems and sleeping and eating. Changed my medication a bit in hopes of feeling better a few days ago. I've drawn some doodles which can be found here
https://twitter.com/SkyBurial96/sta.....666812931?s=09
I didn't upload it here do to it not being the best in my eyes. I did make a new character last night/this morning which I'm happy with, hopefully I get around to finishing him and uploading him. He's a bat. If anyone reads all of this, thank you....it means a lot when people care even when you don't. ❤

Is 24 now uwu

Hey, hello, I am alive yes. For anyone wondering where I've been, I've been home, playing games as usual....at this rate I won't get anywhere with what I want to end up doing in life do to the extreme inconsistencies and lack of content. Getting close to the one year anniversary of me quiting my longest running job (3 years) so...that's cool...My sleep schedule doesn't exist, I was getting better like 3-4 days ago but like all things I end up doing it goes back to being a mess... I've been slowly...very slowly working on the next T-shirt design; a remake of my logo. It's taking so long...I know...I also think it's low-key making my drawings less creative...or that could just be me not drawing much else for a month...I do have a finished piece but I was thinking of turning it into a digital piece, to add some stuff, but I (of course) haven't done anything towards that other than taking a picture of it to use as a thing to trace. I may just upload the traditional piece, just to have something to upload, let me know what you guys think. Hopefully, I can unFRICK myself and upload more.


ha.....ha...ha......

So, for the past...week or so, I've been trying to learn Blender and SFM. For me, SFM is an absolute train wreck of a software that is just too confusing for me to comprehend. Blender on the other hand, isn't. Yes, I know, weird. Anyway, I've found out some hecking awesome stuff you can do in Blender. That being said, you guy may see some weird 3D modeled stuff from me in the coming weeks or so. :3

If anyone wants to grab anything with this bad boi on it, should do it within the next 10 hours, because, after that it's back to the regular price!

https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/1.....ore_id=404131]

First design is up and ready to be purchased on a variety of items! Get a discount on whatever you purchase within the next 2 days! Hope you guys like it another to purchase! I spent a STUPID amount of time with this one! X3

https://www.teepublic.com/t-shirt/1.....heart-no-brain

So, I'm thinking of selling my art as shirts, hoodies, etc. Anyone interested in buying if I do? Let me know! :0

To the surprise of absolutely no one, quarantine doesn't change a thing for the gap between uploads. That being said, I almost have a simple piece done but I won't upload it right away here since I feel like it's far too simple to have 17 + days for something like it. What this means is that I'll upload it along with a group of other pieces, so it's a bit more tolerable given the gap. I also have college stuff to get done as well, which leaves less time for me to draw because I'm going to be doing anything other than playing vidya and sleeping, it's going to be working on college stuff. This means the gap will most likely be even longer. Just an FYI to anyone that actually cared about my uploads and the gaps between each one.

So, I've been thinking, mostly just to humor myself but, would anyone pay money for any of my works? I mean, like $1-$2 for a piece? I never thought of myself as someone that would ask for money for my pieces and I'm not but I'm just curious IF one day I did make prints of my stuff or do comissions (which will never happen), if anyone would pay for anything.

So, as per usual, I haven't uploaded something in weeks! However, I've been working on and off 2 new pieces! (Wow) 1 digital that's Christmas themed. (I know, super late, shush!) Which I don't know if I should finish or not. Then other is another traditional piece. The traditional piece is closer to being done do to a number of reasons. Anyway, that's a little update for anyone that's interested! :3

Ever wondered if I even drew something to "completion" only to hate it yet still upload it somewhere? OF COURSE YOU HAVEN'T!!! Well, I'm starting that now. Any/all pieces that look like garbage to me for whatever reason will be uploaded to my Twitter account. I'll link the only trash piece I have there so far.

https://twitter.com/Official_CITS/s.....260972544?s=09