Okay so look... I haven't really gone by the name or used the character even remotely associated with it in... years. Even after I realized I was trans the persona 'Eon' became 'Eve' instead, a lot of things changed for me. As it stands now I don't use Eve as much as I used to. She's not as much... 'me'... as I felt she was back then. The more I figure myself out, the more distanced I feel from Eve for one reason or another. That's not to say Eve will never be seen again, but like... my Mewvee/foxcat is a lot more 'me' than anything else these days. So as a result... I've made an account for her and that's probably where I'll be logged into most of the time when I'm looking at FA. So... if anyone's looking for me... then uh... look for  SusuMewvee I suppose? I've been getting back into writing so I might be posting what I write there when I can, though I'd be lying if I said I knew how often I'd actually be using FA. But... this is a just in case, y'know?

EDIT: I'll still be looking back at this account every once in a while just in case, by the way while I get things situated over on the other account.

Right, so.... I know I made a post last year, and I've been making one or two comments on journals and art here and there, but other than that... I've been mostly lurking. Part of me feels like I owe an explanation to those that might have been worried about me. A bit of catch-up if you will.

So... to start things off. For one reason or another, some part of me started... distancing myself from the furry community despite still acknowledging myself AS a furry. As a result I ended up not really looking at FA for a good while. Then I took a peek back in last year but was still more or less... heavily inactive. I don't even have an explanation for this distancing from FA tbh, it just sort of happened.

Beyond that, a couple of things have changed about me:
First off, I've gotten more comfortable with telling people I'm trans. Yeah, that's right. I'm not biologically female, but in my mind, I'm a girl through and through. Still can't bring myself to come out to anyone I know irl though.
I... am very likely to have autism and ADHD. No official, formal diagnosis but it's become pretty evident over the years, and whatever's going on with my brain has made it impossible for me to find work, and as a result, because I have no insurance and no money, I can't even go GET a diagnosis. As for the ADHD, I've been told that runs through genetics, and our family has had it for... seemingly generations, even before people knew what ADHD was. I guess this all isn't so much something that's changed and more something that I just didn't recognize until recently.

The last thing I wanted to address is uh... something that's a bit more... light hearted, I suppose. My OC. As some people may have noticed, my icon changed in the past year. So here's the explanation on that one:
Eve still exists, yes. Though I haven't used her for anything in... forever. During this time, a new OC that is... honestly basically just... ME in a fluffier form took hold. This character first started out as just my character in FFXIV and then she slowly evolved over time. She does have multiple forms, buuuuut apart from just... flat out being a cat, the other most common one was a Pokemon form. For a little while, she was an Eevee, and a friend of mine conceptualized a design for her. Pink with some heart patterns here and there. This was also around the time that fusion Pokemon started becoming really popular, and eventually, I had a cute idea: A Mew and Eevee fusion. Well, I wasn't the only one who thought that idea was cute, and as a result, my OC's Pokemon form went from just being an Eevee to being what I call a Mewvee, which also... got drawn.
So uh... Introducing Susumi... in Mewvee form.
https://pbs.twimg.com/media/FwgwyBC.....name=4096x4096
A couple of cute little details I'd like to point out:
Around her neck, she has a ribbon on. Attached is a heart-shaped Pokemon Mystery Dungeon Exploration Team badge... set at one of the highest ranks in the game. It's there because I just love PMD. This ribbon and badge combo was just a little idea I had while I was still designing the normal Eevee form and suggested it get added on when the fusion idea happened.
Her tail has a mixture of both female and male Eevee's tail pattern, to sort of hint at the fact that I'm trans. THIS... was the artist's idea.

That's... all that came to mind for today. Hopefully this got across all clearly.

Hey guys! Been a long time since I've posted anything other than comments around here. Sorry about that, to all those who may have been worried about me. I'm fine. I've just uh.. been getting worse at talking to people lately, as some of you may know. Unfortunately, I will probably still be... a tiny bit silent around here. But... thanks to a journal from  Blaze_Water_Sage I thought maybe it would be a good idea for me to make an Itaku account as a place to post... more types of art that I haven't posted here on FA, of what I do have despite not being an artist myself, and just... a place to preserve the pieces that I'd like to keep in case some of my stuff here goes MIA.

If you want to keep an eye on that, then I give you this: https://itaku.ee/profile/susumi

So...the request is a simple one... in my personal opinion. A friend has gotten me into playing FFXIV in the past couple of months...to the point of buying the game and expansions for me,as well as paying for my sub until such time as I can afford to renew it myself. But... this friend wants to get art of our characters because, in-game, they are a couple and all... they also happen to be Lalafells. If anyone knows anybody who'd be willing to do that for a reasonable price, that'd be great. Not sure how much my friend wants to spend on it though, but they already talked about the idea of commissioning someone.

Yep! Its that time of year again! I'm... not sure what else to say, but don't forget! Its  PAHNKAPIE's birthday too!

This close to my birthday too.
To preface, due to life and other things, I've been unable to respond very often to... a lot of people. But one person took it as a personal offense, of sorts. So he unfriended me everywhere...and I can only assume blocked me as well.
Now...here's the fun part. Today, I found one of my characters on his list of characters for F-List. Have I used this character very often? No, not recently... but its the principle.

I mean... sure... he's the one that got the art for this character, but does that make her his? No. On the other hand, do I have the necessary proof that he stole her? Also no. But at this point, if this is the course of action he's going to take, then good riddance.

And no, I'm not naming any names. I'd rather not have people go after him for this.

I've been under... a lot of stress lately. Namely due to one person on another site. Neither of which will be named to protect her anonymity. Despite all that's happened, I'd still consider her to be a friend, even if we'll never talk to each other again, but...

To keep a long story short, this aforementioned friend and I connected pretty quick... we had fun. A lot of RPs were had, new characters were developed, ideas were had, etc... But due to my own stupid mistakes and emotional problems, she and I began to be at odds for a little bit. Took a break... etc. Few days later things got back to something resembling being normal. Cut to about a week after that--namely, yesterday... I made a mistake again... things got worse and... well the two of us went our separate ways... the problem is, with how close she and I got... it feels like I just lost a big part of my life. It feels like I just lost a family member...

Right... so I've established that my curse is... being unable to afford art... which... technically not true anymore, but I'm not sure I want to risk commissioning art right now. But anyway... yes, it's frustrating enough to not be able to get art for my sonas, like say, Eve... but part of me feels like... even more frustrating than that is when I can't get decent art for some of my anime-based characters that I use for all sorts of RPs. Now don't get me wrong, some of what I have look amazing for just being free-to-use bases edited by one of my friends, but then I see these people with properly done art, drawn from scratch and stuff. Especially when, one of the characters I use most often, a half-Saiyan named Kumiko in a Dragonball timeline elsewhere.... both versions of her in fact... gets criticized OOCly BECAUSE of the very minimal and poor art she has. so... yeah. I guess that's it.

Heeeeey!  beatboxgal has a neat little YCH up! Go check it out! http://www.furaffinity.net/view/27226230/

As of about 53 minutes ago, it has become Wednesday, April 4th, 2018.... which means it's my birthday, so I am teeeechnically 22 today!

And don't forget, it's also the 22nd birthday of  PAHNKAPIE too, so wish her a happy birthday too~

So...I've come to realize that I have been growing...increasingly distant from a few people...they can probably guess who they are... and I dunno what to do about it... especially with the problems they've been having as of late. If I try to talk to them now, it'll just be extremely awkward, and I don't want to be accused of not being there for them. Plus, I've been meeting a few other people in recent years that I've connected with a little more than I ever had with them so I just... feel conflicted.

So... I was kinda curious...if anyone would be willing and able to make 3D Models of 6 characters. I wanna try a little experiment with a few friends on Tabletop Simulator regarding seeing how our characters would look as figures in TTS, so I need 3D Models of them to import, and none of us have 3D Modeling experience.

Two of these characters are mermaids, one is a loli vampire(yep), one is a(technically loli) human mage, one is a lamia, and one is an angel.

So uh...yeah. That was the entire purpose of this journal. Eve, out.

I haven't posted a journal in a few months so uhhh......... hi.

Rawr! Hai peoples. So...  wolfymewmew is holding a raffle over here! http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/8376998/

Even if you don't enter the raffle, you should still totally check wolfy's art out and, I dunno, watch her if you like it! She's a really amazing artist, and like... one of the few people on here I've seen that stays strictly SFW(which, truth be told, is rather refreshing.) Also... she is the poofiest of poofs. o3o Uhh.... yeah. That's all I have to say. Dragonsune, out!

It occurs to me that most of my characters only have art that are base edits, and the ones that do have official art have very little of it. Like.. right now, I have two characters that need more art. One of which is my mermaid, Mari. The other is my Half-Saiyan, Kumiko. Both of which I use for RP in different places fairly regularly. I dunno why it bugs me so much though, it's just... I like having things for people to look at to know who they're interacting with.

On one hand, Mari has...technically, 3 pieces of art that aren't bases. One of which is not colored.
Kumiko, on the other hand, has nothing but bases.

But I can't do anything about it either because I lack the money for commissions, and I lack the art skill necessary to draw them myself.

Sorry about that... Dunno why I went off on that tangent and put it here, but hey...gotta put it somewhere, right?

I dunno. It doesn't seem like my mermaid gets enough love. Compared to my other characters, she has very little art, and compared to her 'mother' she has even less art. Granted this is partially because I don't have the money to get commissions. The other is because I'm too scared to ask anyone specific about requests...so I'll just do that here I guess.

Now... I honestly don't have high confidence for this, since there seems to be very little interest in mermaids...as proven by the very small amount of comments(also known as zero comments) compared to pictures of my other characters...especially on here... but I'm still going to ask anyway. If anyone would be interested in drawing arts of her and possibly her mother(though any arts with her mother have to have my mermaid in it too, no exceptions. After all, mamamer is not my character but I have her permission to get art involving her with my mer.) let me know. And before you ask, yes, these two mers can be involved in vore....though...nothing too major or...deadly.

Pictures of my mermaid with her mother can be found below.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23455866/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23072427/

And a picture of my mermaid by herself can be found here.
http://i.imgur.com/WCg8kXh.png

Should I continue that little series? The reason I stopped was because there weren't enough people interested in it to get a solid vote count... so... I might as well put this up?

Well... it's half passed midnight here. You know what that means... yep. It's April 4th... which means it's my birthday!
Just like last year, I don't exactly expect this to be anything but a normal day. But hey, I survived 1 more year of life, right? Course, this also means it's the birthday of  PAHNKAPIE... so do me a favor and go wish Paige a happy birthday too! <3

So... What is this journal about? As the title says I'm actually looking for an art request. Seeing as I cannot afford to purchase a commission.
This requested art would essentially be a gift... involving four characters. One of mine, three characters from 3 different friends. 2 of which are mermaids, one is a lamia, and one s a fairy of sorts. If anyone is willing to give it a shot... Uh... let me know I guess, I'll give details.

Sooo... I have a Dragon Ball based RP character. A Half-Saiyan named Kumiko. The problem is, it's really difficult getting any images of her, as I don't have Xenoverse OR Xenoverse 2, and bases are a pain in the ass for me to edit since I have no drawing talent what-so-ever. I do have 4 images however: One of 15-year-old Kumiko, and 3 of 5-year-old Kumiko.

Similarly, Kumiko's IC best friend, a Half-Saiyan/Half-Kawa by the name of Lyrica is very limited on art. She has 1 image of herself as a 15-year-old and 1 image of herself as a 5-year ol.

If anybody would be willing to help with more art for these two Half-Saiyans, please, please, PLEASE don't hesitate to leave a comment on this journal, or send me a note.

So yeah.....for most people right now, it's Christmas Eve. If I could I'd probably figure out some way to get different types of presents for people, but without money, I can't do much about that. Regardless, I wish everybody a merry Christmas. I dunno if I'll have the time to be online tomorrow, as I will be out of town for Christmas...but we'll see.

Starting today, me and my family are moving to a new house. Thus, I may be without internet for a few days. That said, I could, potentially, also have it as early as later tonight. So, see you all once I have internet.

So...um...I've got a strange request to ask. A friend of mine, for an RP/Story.
Specifically, she's looking for someone to draw a One Piece style ship, but there's nobody willing to take commissions on it.
Specifically, a ship similar to Monkey D. Garp's ship: http://www.dvdcineshop.com/catalog/.....12836618_2.jpg
However, she'd like the 'MARINE' logo to be taken off the sides of the ship and off of the sails, as well as taking the Japanese lettering and "HQ3" off of the front sail.
She'd also like it to be painted a dark red instead of blue, and she'd like the headpiece to be, instead of a dog, a dragon, with either a mug in one hand, or a keg of rum hanging from a chain in its mouth.
Finally, on the front sail, she'd like her own custom-made Jolly Roger: http://i.imgur.com/d6WhpBG.png
More like the one on the left, but still with the two cutlasses in the barrel.

She's willing to pay a commission up to about £30, or about $33.
Her price range also partially depends on art quality, so she might be willing to pay more depending on art quality.
If anybody could help with this, it'd be wonderful, please and thank you~

[x] you meow/bark to get attention
[x] you find pets toys amusing
[ ] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[x] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[x] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[ ] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[ ] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 4

[x] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[x] you love fish/meat
[ ] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car.
[x] you like when people pet your head
[x] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[x] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 5

[x] you sleep a lot during daytime (lately I nap a LOT)
[x] you enjoy scaring birds
[ ] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[x] you bite people if they annoy you(I've tried, anyway. o3o)
[x] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[x] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 5

[ ] you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[ ] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[x] you enjoy long walks in the park
[ ] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 1

[x] you call your hands and feet "paws"(Sometimes, yus. :P)
[x] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[ ] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[x] you really enjoy cuddling
[x] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[x] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 5

[x] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[x] you meow or bark very often
[x] you hide when you get scared
[x] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[x] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[ ] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[ ] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 5

[ ] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it
[ ] you refer to your self as an animal
[x] your username has something to do with animals
[ ] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[ ] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better
[x] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 2

[x] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[x] you like to say hi to strangers
[x] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[x] people think you act like a pet
[x] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[ ] you like to eat grass
[x]if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 6

Final total: 33

Take your score and multiply it by 2
Put your title as "I'm 66% Furry"

Like the title says, I'll be out of town for the weekend. Not sure if I'll have the time to actually hop on at any point but... For the time being, I'll either be back on here on Monday or....if I ever have the time.