Heya, for those who know I post on Twitter, you might be knowing where this is going, but for those who haven't checked there or my Youtube, hello I still exist!

So I kind of on and off in terms of activity for my stuff on Twitter and Youtube, and oh lord am I behind on uploading things on here. I can't really promise activity since I sometimes do that but don't follow through. But the main reason why I'm here is also why my motivation on posting has been mixed, my work.

Recently, the warehouse I've worked in was shut down for a year due to maintenance (The place had a lot of frustrating problems so they needed to update the whole thing). I was transferred to a place 20 minutes away from the original location. The main problem is, I can't drive, so I have to Uber. This significantly reduces how much money I have available now to the point its bordering on just BARELY getting by (I have yet to get funds to comfortably restock my groceries). Needless to say, I need a way to get a bit of extra money while I try to get by until I either get transferred back, or when I can learn to drive (Which is its own tangled web of time management and costs that hopefully family helps me with).

I wanted to mainly ask if people would be interested in me opening up commissions for my blender renders. I was thinking of around $20 for a rendered scene. This would include posing, lighting, color balancing, and optional alternate angles if requested. I did work on a Piston YCH that I experimented with, but I'm not ready to open that up for public commissioning. If I get enough interest then I'll start with a few slots and go from there cause I really need to start getting some side money going. Also as a side note, I have literally no business sense, I have not done something like this so its a new thing for me to try.

Heya, don't make journals that often so uuuuuuuuuuh not good with opening one. Anyways, I wanted to give a bit of info on why I don't really post all that often nowadays and also double as a bit of a venting kind of thing to hopefully make me feel a bit better.

SO, for over a year now, I've been working at the UPS as a truck loader, for about 4-6 hours a day, Mon-Fri. The pay is decent and benefits are good. However, in that short amount of time each day, it's exhausting and stressful. I've been told by some people "Oh it's easy because you only have to work a short shift each day," but to me, it gets so stressful and sometimes it does eventually effect me moreso and I just snap from time to time (It also doesn't help when people keep telling me it's easy when time does NOT equal difficulty in a case like this). With how tired I get from this shift, I go home to just relax, sleep in a few hours afterwards, and during the day I'm just thinking about all the stress I just try to relax and play games most of the time. So what I'm saying there is I just get into a habit of not making anything, creativity has been at an all time low because of this cycle. On top of that, my ride to and from work hasn't been smooth either since I cannot drive (I'm trying to learn hopefully in the next month or two), the person who takes me usually is having issues, aaaand Uber/Lyft have been either really unreliable or straight up charge $40-50 at completely random times for a 20 minute ride for the past month, so that doesn't help matters.

And as a side note to all of that, there have been times to where things just line up in the perfect disaster, and I get to the point of my "lowest lows" to spare the details. I wanna give thanks to two close friends,  eliktroniq and  luther23 who've helped me through said lowest lows and got me back on track and helping me not go back to that point. They're really awesome friends and they mean a lot to me.

Besides all the work stress, like I've said, I've been distracting myself with a bunch of game stuff, lately it's been a mix of Retro Achievements, World of Warcraft (I need more friends for this aaaa), and Monster Hunter Rise. I have also been busy with keeping a D&D 5e campaign running (This one is about 3 years old now, wow) and gonna be starting up another one hopefully this month (And don't worry, I have a co-dm to help relieve the load to make this possible). Aaaand of course I'm going to be using even more time learning how to drive hopefully soon so a big chunk of stress will be lifted and not worrying about getting home at all in the middle of the night.

To end things on a 3D Art related topic, my plans for when I do eventually make more stuff, I am focusing a lot on blender when I do stuff, but when I feel like I wanna make quick stuff, I'll make a batch of MMD stuff. Blender will always be posted on here and Twitter at the same time, MMD will be posted on Twitter, because uuuuhhh I still need to catch my FA up with all my MMD stuff. Of course I'm going to be doing more Pokemon stuff, it's my main thing, heck I even have Sakura the squish mascot now. I'm also gonna have some more Pokemon characters, like Zuko got an upgrade for Blender, got a Blaziken who's been made but I haven't shown in Blender yet, and there's even a Snorlax character in the works! I also wanna do more WoW stuff, since I have a LOT of characters for that and I don't see enough WoW flattenings (Especially the races I like). Aaaaand pretty much video game characters I wanna see squished around.

This was a bit to type up so if you read to the end, cool, you did it. Thanks for reading if you did, and sorry if this came across as spoiled or entitled because I could be in a FAR worse situation compared to many other people in the world. Hopefully I can get things back on track at some point soon.

Hello 2021, and goodbye 2020, I will definitely not miss that year and will look forward to the future!

2020 has been very rough, but we got through it, and here's to hoping 2021 cannot get any worse than 2020!

Also I'm hoping to follow through with a New Years Resolution this year, and that is to post at LEAST once per month on here and Twitter. I have a very bad habit of disappearing for a random amount of time, but hopefully I'll get better at being active, or at least somewhat active!

So after a hiatus to think about things, I have come to some conclusions.

I'll still make the flat art stuff in Blender and MMD, but there probably won't be as much Pokemon as there was before. I'll still do Pokemon stuff, though whenever I feel like doing them! This will also include the stuff I made of my actual non-Pokemon sona, Polo!

I'll start getting back to uploading stuff I haven't uploaded to FA yet to help catch this account up to my other sources (Twitter/DA), so more GMOD, MMD, and Blender stuff heading onto here soon when I get the time or when I feel like it because let's face it, sometimes posting a bunch at once is aggravating for myself and probably the people who don't wanna see spam walls!

Anyways hope everyone had a Merry Christmas, posting this towards the end of the day, but still!

So I am currently debating on this, but I am potentially thinking on no longer doing any more Blender renders or MMD pictures relating to Pokemon. Which probably means I won't be posting anything at all anymore, unless I find inspiration for something else.

I do not like how the new games turned out, and I don't like how the community is turning out from these games. The whole situation pretty much made me lose faith in the franchise and feel like it's never going to improve for the better. It sucks since I've dedicated a lot of time to the franchise only for it to just go sour on me.

Like I said I'm still unsure about this, but if I do go through with it, potentially bye for good, unless I find something else to do squish stuff with that would give me enjoyment again.

I have decided what I'm going to do here now! The short version of it, I'm going to post however I feel like it (But making an attempt to try and not seem like I'm spamming).

Basically, since I've been getting more and more interested in making stuff in Blender, I decided my main focus on what I'm going to post here would be the stuff I make in Blender. So currently, I'm going to post a couple of few pics a day that was done in Blender until that is fully caught up with my Twitter, so that I can post at both places. Heck, might even mean I post stuff here earlier since I can post stuff here single images at a time while Twitter I feel like I wanna/have to post in batches of 4. I've gotten better over time (I think) so I hope ya'll will like what I've made that's coming up in the next few days!

As for the other stuff, I'm also going to just post these whenever I feel like it. Maybe there will be a time I have a dry spell, or maybe I just feel like getting back to catching up with my older stuff. Either way, at some points I'll post my old MMD content (Or new since I sometimes revisit it), or my even older GMOD stuff. I'm hoping at some point I can put literally all of my previous stuff here, all without uploading in massive bulks.

Let's see how this round goes, and hopefully I don't disappear for another year!

Quick Edit: Also forgot to mention, I've updated all of the pictures in my gallery so far to have their bigger original resolutions!

Heeeya. Soooo, I haven't really posted here in, I think over a year now since last time? Reasons why I'll say a bit further down, but for now, hi! Now I'm making a journal because I wanted to discuss about posting on FA again, BUUUUT, I feel like I need to do it differently. I have a couple of things to suggest, but will try one thing at a time, and was hoping for opinions either in the comments (If people are still aware of this account xd) or contacting on discord (If you have me added there, but still comment preferred so I can keep track of comments). NOW ON WITH THE LIST

1. Posting again, but specifically and strictly only posting Blender work: Basically only posting the stuff I make in Blender. It's usually my highest quality stuff, so I would only be posting that with a much slower rate. An optional think I could do is posting "concepts" or "unfinished" flats in the scraps. Pretty much renders that are on a blank background and only shows a flattening. But besides that, slower posts, but only "best" quality post (If you can my quality even close to that good).

2. Posting everything I have, but downgrading all GMOD and MMD to scraps: That way people don't get notified of these and don't get spammed at all in their inboxes if they're following me. You'll get more stuff posted from me more often (Especially when I have to play the catch up game), but there is... quite a lot to post.

3. Just continue to be inactive: Pretty much no change. No explanation needed here.

The reason why I bring this stuff up was because I got a feeeew complaints from various people about how my stuff was considered spam (Even though I assume I wasn't breaking any rules). So I got self conscious over it. Basically I wanna see if people would still be interested in my stuff, or if I shouldn't post since I don't wanna cause problems by posting a lot of stuff. Let me know what'cha think based on the suggestions above and I hope to hear some responses soon!

Sooooo, with the catch up process, I just noticed something in my uploading order, at least in terms of MMD....there are literally 5 sequences in a row, and they're ALL kart flattening scenarios. I'm still going to upload in order as planned in terms of MMD, but ya'll will see a LOT of kart flattening for a, probably 4 more days if I post everyday, so 20 more images. So to help make not everything feel samey like the totem era, I'm going to be posting GMOD or Blender stuff in between each one, but only one image since that's already 5 images a day, wouldn't wanna spam FA with my stuff.

As for the Changes part of the journal, I decided to go ahead and put scraps into main gallery, and there being no more scraps, everything will be shown in the gallery! Felt like I shouldn't do weird confusing arranging stuff, especially with stuff like alternate angles.

Still got a loooooong way to go with re-uploading everything here, especially with MMD images, but getting there! Blender is almost caught up fully (Which isn't hard considering that's most recent), and GMOD is getting almost halfway there! Sorry for all the spam if it bothers anyone around here. ;_;

Soooooo, I remember a looong time ago, I said I was gonna try and get the account here caught up with my DeviantArt account...and that wasn't the case for a long time.

As some of you noticed for like a week or two, I lost track of time, I started uploading again. However, its not just GMOD, but also MMD and Blender, since I feel like I can post here with less trouble than I thought. Hopefully at some point we'll reach the point where the account is caught up and my newer stuff will come here much sooner than they should! Of course my twitter is still the place I post first for MMD and Blender, sorry those of you who liked my GMOD stuff from years ago :c (Although I had thoughts to do a picture or two for fun and nostalgia, we'll see what happens).

How I'm scheduling on what I upload here....its honestly completely random on what type of pic I upload, but regardless of type, it'll be in chronological order. Example being each MMD pic will always be in order, but not the overall order of my uploads period since ya'll can see my old GMOD stuff and my very new Blender stuff. Hopefully ya'll don't mind this random order, for those who already know me from my twitter, or those who recently found me on here.

I also recently added my discord info on my profile, if ya'll wanna talk, feel free to stop on by. However if ya'll do message me, pleeeease mention it was from here, I'm a bit paranoid with random messages sometimes x3. HOWEVER, pleeeeeeease PLEASE avoid requesting stuff! Sometimes I don't mind, but sometimes it gets a biiiiiy discouraging, as well as the fact half the time I don't do them or forget about them, my brain isn't the best around.

Lastly, I was thinking about making my lower quality GMOD stuff I posted REEEAAALLY early on, on my Twitter not be in the Scraps folder and part of the main gallery. Maybe I need opinions on it, I think most of them are eeeeeeh quality, but then again some of my early MMD stuff is also that kind of quality, but I don't know!

Thank you for taking the time to read, and hopefully ya'll enjoy the stuff I'll be posting for a while!....And uh, sorry for the bit of spam on specific tags being searched, I have a LOOOOOOOOT of backlog to get through!

Sooooo, after a looooong while, I decided to start uploading here!

Every day or two I will be posting my old stuff from DA onto here to help catch this account up so that way everything will be here for anyone to see! Also since there is a scrap folder kind of thing, I will also be posting all of my Twitter pictures here as well (Reason why not on DA and as well as the scrap thing is because they're not as hard worked on as the other pictures).

So I hope you guys enjoy the stuff (Even though its older and 90% of ya'll probably have already seen this stuff) and hopefully at some point I start posting newer stuff! Just gotta get off my lazy rear to do more GMOD.