Bluesky. I'm there.
https://bsky.app/profile/robincoyote.bsky.social

Activity will be variable. Probably easier to reach me on Telegram/Discord.

Sorry for the art dump. It's all just stuff from months ago. I've been trying to save for my move, so I don't think I'll be posting anything else here for a while.

Still looking for a place to live. The uncertainty and stress is eating away at me. Sorry if you've reached out and I haven't been doing the best.

Love you all. Take care.

I give up. I'm just going to go it alone.

I don't have Twitter or Bluesky anymore, this is really the only place I have for this. I'm gonna keep posting this journal probably bi-monthly until I figure something out. Or until July, at which point I'll probably just be on my own.

I'm moving out of my current place come end of August. I'm looking for a place to stay or room mates, preferably sooner rather than later. I live in Minnesota, USA.

If you're looking and can pay your half or know someone who's also looking, let me know.

I kind of posted a panicky journal the other month because that's what I do when faced with uncertainty, I freak out and get it out of my system so I can think.

I've finally got confirmation that my room mates are moving out in August. So either I need new room mates or a new place.

So if anyone's is moving or looking for room mates around then, or knows anyone who is, or can ask around for me, let me know.

I had a few people speak up before, but I didn't respond because there was still a lot of uncertainty and I didn't want to make plans until I knew more.

So my lease is up August 31st and my current room mates are moving to another state.

I've been informed that they might have to break lease early, that it could happen any time this year, possibly before then. No idea when.

So I'm looking for options to move this year. I live in Minnesota, but at this point if I want to avoid reconnecting with my parents I'm willing to move states if I have to.

I dunno what this journal's purpose is. I don't have a lot of options and the uncertainty of when is really scary. I just hope I can figure something out.

I did it. I posted it all.

I know, there's too much of it. You can't possibly enjoy it all at once. But fuck is it nice to have it done.

Sorry to everyone's inbox.

Also let me know if I made any mistakes, like, in the descriptions, especially in relation to people's FA profiles and junk.

I've got a large backlog of art I'm gonna start posting. Maybe a piece or two here or there. Just chip away at it.

It's exhausting to think about, but I've got it all queued up in Postybirb and I'll just add tags and descriptions and stuff as I feel like. Maybe I'll get it all done in a week. Maybe it'll take me all year. I dunno.

Anyway, sorry for the really awful hard vore and emeto stuff, I've only got a few pieces, but they all wound up in this batch. If only FA's thumbnails worked.

I'm gonna be at Furry Migration next weekend with my boyfriend  paradisewolf01

He'll be wearing the suit of his character Vokun, a pretty distinctive character who stands out.

As for me, I'm a big guy and I've bought a few shirts I'll be wearing that are coyote-themed or have asexual colors, but I won't have a badge. But if you're there and you message me, maybe we can meet up? I'm also open to physical contact and hugs as well. :3

Figured it was fair I let people know.

I disabled it.

I also don't foresee updating my page here much either.

Dropbox link in my profile is still accurate and works. Art will continue to show up there mostly because it's linked to my home computer.

Sorry. If anyone needs me I'm still on Telegram(pref.) and Discord.

I don't mind people reaching out, but if you're hoping to get me to RP, then sure, but only if you're hot. lol

Edit: That was a joke, by the way. Please don't reach out purely to RP.

I know nobody reads these because there is a flood of journals on FA every waking hour, but

My twitter account, /@robincoyote is basically defunct now.

I got social engineered through Steam, which had the same password as my Twitter. Someone changed the email and password on my twitter and now I can't get back in.

Twitter support hasn't responded in nearly three weeks to my request to fix it.

I'm not making a new account either.

So goodbye Twitter. The people who need me already know where to find me, and I still check this so

Whatever

I've set up Postbirb to art dump EVERYTHING.

If you spot an Artist TBD and know who drew the piece, let me know. I couldn't find or remember them all.

Enjoy~

First, a disclaimer. These definitions are made to be as bare-bones and specific as possible. Many people have their own specific caveats, techniques and methods for executing these terms. This guide is meant to give you the barest idea what someone means when using these terms and to help people use the correct terms when discussing vore.

It’s actually pretty important that these distinctions are made, to prevent confusion and needless drama.

I’ll also assume I don’t need to clarify the terms indicating the different orifices, like oral vore, anal vore, cock vore, etc as they’re pretty self-explanatory.


Ingestion Terms
Soft Vore. The prey is ingested by the predator, whole.

Hard Vore. The prey is ingested by the predator in pieces, most often through biting and chewing. Often gory.


Mortality Terms
Endosomatophilia. Also abbreviated as endosoma or endo. The prey is kept safe or otherwise intact inside the predator.

Fatal Vore. The prey dies as a result of being ingested by the predator, usually due to digestion or hard vore. The death is not “canon.” The prey character can be reused in future RPs and art, even if they technically irreversibly died within the bounds of the RP/Art.

Temp Vore. The predator holds onto the prey for a set amount of time before releasing them. This often involves profile play(see below), and can come with terms that stretch outside the art/RP, for instance the pred might forbid the prey from being eaten by anyone else until this time limit is up.

Perma Vore. The prey is permanently ingested by the predator. Very much similar to fatal vore but after the RP/art is complete, the predator and prey mutually agree that the prey cannot appear or be used in future RP/art. They are canonically dead or otherwise trapped by the predator somehow.

Note: It’s NOT perma vore if the prey technically “died forever” within the bounds of the RP/art but the character can continue to be used in future RPs/art. That is simply fatal vore. Calling fatal or temp vore by the name perma just leads to confusion and gives people the wrong idea. Some people who make this distinction feel very strongly about it and may end up blocking or harassing you for perma but be completely fine with fatal. Hence why making this distinction is important.


Digestion Terms
Soft Digestion. The digestion is not shown or is otherwise not graphic or gory. Such as describing the predator’s stomach shrinking from an outside perspective, or goopy digestion where the prey melts like ice cream.

Hard Digestion. The digestion is shown or described in a graphic or gory manner.

Disposal. The process of expelling the leftover remains of the prey, usually following digestion. Most often as scat, but some consider the regurgitation of bones and accessories orally to be a form of disposal.

Reformation. The process of restoring the prey after digestion or death. The exact details vary, but usually restores them to a living, free state outside the predator.

Notes: Digestion is sometimes called “hard vore.” It is not. Hard vore and digestion are separate from one another and using them interchangeably just leads to confusion as most people consider them separate.


Special Terms
These terms are too complex for the previous categories, or otherwise simply don't fit anywhere above.

Absorption. The absorption community can’t seem to collectivity decide what absorption is. Everyone has their own definition of what it is so telling someone “I’m into absorption” is almost basically a useless, non-statement because you’re going to have to explain what you mean by it anyway. However, here are most of the definitions people give it:

1. Vore through osmosis, where the prey isn't eaten through an orifice, but rather sinks into the predator's body
2. Like above, but the osmosis happens after the predator ingests them through an orifice. So more or less a substitute for digestion.
3. The prey's soul is absorbed by the predator as part of the above processes or after digestion...so soul vore. Literally just soul vore(see below). Sometimes the prey's soul is conscious, sometimes not, sometimes it becomes part of the predator's mind or body, and sometimes obliterated.

These are just the common ones. There are more versions of it I'm sure.

Soul Vore. The prey’s soul is ingested, often through the mouth, often leaving the body behind. Also technically can simply involve trapping the soul inside the predator after ingestion, many times after digesting the body. The soul can be obliterated or just conscious/sleeping but trapped in some way. This can occur at many different stages of during vore. Sometimes this and absorption are basically interchangeable.

Profile Play. The prey changes their profile on their social media, chat programs, or other social platforms to show they've been ingested by a predator. Normally involves changing their display name, profile picture, and profile information to reflect that they were ingested by someone. Usually goes hand in hand with temp vore(see above).

Account Play. You might think, "Isn't this just profile play?" Yes and no. More or less, the difference is the prey gives the predator their login credentials, and the predator gets to make posts and edit the prey's profile for them. It may even involve the predator changing the password temporarily so the prey can't interfere. Usually goes hand in hand with temp vore(see above).

It's been so long since I've written a journal on my asexuality, what it means, and how I handled it emotionally. So many people still stumble across the old journal and leave such wonderful comments about how it helped them come to terms with their own questions and confusion.

Today I'm going to explain, once more, the topic of asexuality. I'm going to go into romantic attraction as well as aesthetic attraction. These are all things crucial to understanding my own orientation and may help you understand yours.

Asexuality
Asexuality, primarily, is the lack of sexual attraction, the absence of need for it, or the absence of desire for it. Anyone who wants to call themselves asexual can if they feel it fits them. It's completely okay if you still get turned on from time to time, asexuality isn't simply only for people who can't get aroused, it's also for people who do but only get it under certain conditions or so rare that it may as well be nonexistent. As a matter of fact, there's a whole classification for such people! Gray-Asexual. That's me! :3

Gray-Asexuality
Gray-Asexuals are asexuals that get turned on rarely or under certain conditions or even very frequently but have no desire to really act on it. For me, I only get turned on for vore and the like. Sometimes I get turned on when cuddling. And very, very rarely I get turned on when I feel a specific way for someone. However, when it comes down to actually acting on it and turning it into a sexual encounter, it usually fails for me. I can't get off when someone else touches or interacts with me down there. Only with myself when enjoying my fetishes. But I'm not the only flavor of gray-ace. There are also people who can only have sex with someone they've formed a strong emotional attraction to, these people are known as demi-sexuals and fall within gray-ace.

Romantic Orientation
This leads me into the next topic. Outside of purely physical attraction, there is an emotional element to a lot of relationships. This is called romantic orientation. Sometimes you really, really want to be with someone special in a way that might completely exclude physical need. It's an emotional bond. A need to be with someone purely because of who they are and how they make you feel. There are numerous types dependant mostly on gender:

Aromantic:No romantic attraction towards anyone. Someone who has no need for a personal, emotional relationship.
Heteroromantic: Romantic attraction towards people of the opposite gender.
Homoromantic: Romantic attraction towards people of the same gender.
Biromantic: Romantic attraction towards people of two or more genders. (Sometimes used interchangeably with panromantic.)
Panromantic: Romantic attraction towards people of any, every, and all genders.
Demiromantic: Romantic attraction towards any of the above but only after forming a deep emotional bond with a person.
Greyromantic: Experiencing romantic attraction rarely or only under certain circumstances.

Those last two might not make sense, as demiromantic may sound simply like romantic orientation in its most basic form. You would think that all romantic orientations require a deep bond. But I believe, in a demiromantic, they require more time and buildup towards the formation of that bond before they begin to form romantic feelings, whereas most other orientations can begin to feel romantic feelings fairly quickly.

And greyromanticism? Well, only you can truly say if there are special circumstances required for you to form such a bond.

For me, personally? I'm a homoromantic. I only experience romantic feelings towards other men.

Aesthetic Attraction
I didn't have a nice segue for this one, but Aesthetic Attraction is the attraction to an Aesthetic. It might be as simple as, "I like blondes" or as broad as "the masculine form". It is simply the desire to behold someone because you find them aesthetically pleasing, much like one might find a song, a work of art, or similar pleasing to experience. It's not sexual, it's simply admiration for a thing. This can confuse many asexuals who are uncertain of themselves because they might find men or women to be really, really pleasing to look at. Maybe not boner-worthy, but something their eyes can't help but lock onto whenever it's present. So they start to doubt or question their orientation.

For me? I find men and the masculine form very strongly aesthetically pleasing. I think men are attractive, I enjoy their form in almost all shapes. I want to look at it. I want to touch it. I want to hug it. I want to kiss it so, so bad. But...that's all. The line is drawn up just short of sex.

The feminine form doesn't give me similar feelings, however. And unfortunately, even fem-boys are sort of difficult for me to get into.

Summary
Putting all of this together and figuring all of this was a hard, six-year journey for me. I spent five years trying to pray away the gay because I didn't understand or know what sexual attraction was. All the way up until 2014, when my depression and desperation hit its peak and I nearly committed suicide. It was at that point that I relented and slowly started to feel things out and discover who I was.

I thought I was gay. But I was not. I cried at this. I cried because I wasn't normal because I couldn't have sex. Because I wanted someone in my life so, so bad and thought I could never have that because nobody could possibly want this half-finished person that wanted to be with someone so bad, but was unwilling to have sexual relations. For years I bemoaned the fact that I wasn't fully gay. I lamented and thought, "I'll never find someone."

Until I started to find others like me. Until I started to realize Homoromanticism was a thing. That there were other men out there, though few, who shared my plight. I wasn't alone. I wasn't simply broken or defective. What I needed and wanted was within reach.

Only recently did I finally sort out the last of my confusing emotions with aesthetic attraction. I was always so confused with my physical attraction that seemed to have nothing to do with sex and nothing to do with romantic needs. I just had this almost hungry desire to just grab people and make out with them. Or touch them. Or feel the curves and features of their body. It baffled the hell out of me until I finally pinned it. It's funny how labels can make everything so clear and neat, wrapping up how you feel and what you are in a nice little package that settles your restlessness and makes you feel like you finally have somewhere to belong.

I hope people find this journal for years to come, just like the last one. I hope it helps you, just like the last one. This has been a trial by fire six years in the making for me to figure this out for myself, and if I can shorten even a single person's journey...I'd like that.

Thank you.

I don't know you, probably, but I love you. If there are people who can hate for no reason, then I can love. I hope you all find the answers and the peace that you're seeking out there on the roiling, uncertain sea that is life.

Birthday is coming up on August 19th. People get mad at me for not telling them, so this is what I'll point to if they do get mad. Hopefully, this is enough in advance that people forget about it. x3

Sorry about the large two-and-a-half-hour-long art dump guys. Figured I'd post it all up at once and catch up.

Hope you enjoy this batch.

I hate mental illness. My own, specifically.

So many people I know suffer from it and I would give anything to help us all get better if I could.

The worst part about mental illness is that when traumatic and hard times hit you, it doesn't even phase you. It's like the subtle background noise to the song of misery that is your life.

Nothing can be done, you think. This just happens.

But then you drop something when taking it out of the fridge, or something breaks, or a friend takes too long to respond to a message.

Something small, something unimportant; suddenly you're spiraling. You just have a full breakdown after larger things failed to phase you.

Thoughts fill your head about how worthless you are, what a terrible person you are, how much of failure you are. That you deserve to feel this way. Anguish, anxiety, paranoia, and self-hatred all feed into each other, burning you up from the inside out until you're just an exhausted husk of a person.

Then comes regret. Then comes embarrassment. Because you realize that the things you did while swirling with emotion hurt people. Made them think less of you. Ended friendships. Or perhaps you just hurt yourself by destroying something you loved.

You get so tired of it. So tired of using your mental illness as a crutch to try and explain why you do what you do. You get so tired of apologizing for how you acted. And it just builds and builds again, as you start to wonder if the people who forgive you and understand aren't slowly getting just a little sicker of you.

How long until they give up on you? They deserve so much better than you. You're not worth this trouble.

The cycle continues.

This is what it means to be mentally ill. To suffer from depression, anxiety, bipolar, or any other number of ailments.

This is what life is like for you. A cycle of constant suffering.

Until you finally decide that living like this isn't an option anymore; and then you get help. Or you don't.

Robin, why did you change your design? I loved the simplicity of your old design.

A lot of people have told me they really like my original, older design. And for the most part, I did too. When I commissioned Ifus back in November I just wanted to switch up his body shape and maybe clean up his design slightly.

But as the months wore on and I thought about it more, I realized something as I looked at other people's refs:

Robin's original design was a product of my own lack of self-esteem.

I had designed Robin to rather plain, primarily because I didn't want him to be attractive. Mostly because I felt like I didn't really deserve to present myself as attractive to people. It felt like I'd be overstepping some sort of boundary into territory I didn't belong. If that makes sense.

So with that in mind I gave it a lot of thought and sent out an email to Ifus before she got to my ref. I made several changes to make Robin what I personally find attractive on other furs.

Firstly, I changed his fur color to a more saturated color that more clearly is brown. A lot of people thought Robin was gray. He has always looked brown to me, always, so this was a big surprise. Especially when you consider that his main fur color was originally the middle one in this swatch. I was getting tired of explaining that he was brown.

Second, I added the lighter color around Robin's eyes. I have always adored color patterns around eyes and thought they looked really attractive. Whether it's a mask or individual spots. However, as a result I had to remove the darker stripe from Robin's snout and face so his face wouldn't look too cluttered. I compensated by bringing the light color higher up on his face so he'd still have a stripe of fur on his snout.

Third, I cleaned up the tail colors. They've always kind of been inconsistent in both character sheets. Especially the first one where they just end abruptly.

Fourth, I added patterns to his arms and feet. I absolutely love clever patterns on arms and legs, so I went with very simplistic ones that didn't look too unnatural. I'll be honest. I stole them from Clint. x3

Fifth, I made sure the heart-shape on his butt was more clear. ♥ You're welcome.

Finally I changed his body shape. "But Robin." I hear you start. "It's the same as his last ref." Not really. I honestly was never happy with Robin's second ref. Mikey did a great job, but the body shape was never exactly what I wanted it to be. It looked too slender with the belly too blobby and soft, when what I was really going for was a firm, compact belly and stalky, wide body. Because of this, I still mentally thought of him as thin and asked artists to draw him thin.

All in all, I'm actually really happy with his new design. I hope you guys like it too.

19 pieces
14 of them vore-related
2 of them with me as prey
Posted within 2 hours and 54 minutes

PHEW. Hope you guys like it, I tried not to skimp on being at least relatively creative with the descriptions. Have a good night~

This is the list of art I haven't uploaded yet. I'm working on it. It'll shrink as I go. I know I did a journal just like this a little bit ago, and there's still stuff leftover from that list on here, so I guess technically the list grew. >_>

Literally all of this stuff is in my Dropbox, which is linked in my profile. So no actual need to wait to see it.

Robin Blood
Saian Blood
Robin Maw
Robin/Will
Robin/Exo
Robin Centerfold YCH
Robin/Uncloak Fat/Vore
Robin/Wild
Robin Vore YCH
Robin/Mike Vore
Robin/Freki Vore (Int/Ext)
Robin/Coni Vore
Robin/Cyrus
Robin/Munch Vore
Ring Christmas
Robin Raffle Vore

Signal boost for  FatalSyndrome

He's doing icon commissions and cleaning out his commission queue to help get him out of the red. Help him out if you can.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9353967/

I'm gonna be slowly dumping art over the next few days. Here's a list of what I've got left, to remind myself. I just know I'm forgetting something though~

Robin Blood
Saian Blood
Robin/Will
Robin/Exo
Robin YCH

Edit: Well, this list was twice this long when I posted the journal...just a few more. Which I'll do...eventually.

So  littleparrot recently did this piece for me.

He's doing a really similar YCH here if you're interested!

He's pretty amazing, so check out his other YCHs and art too.

So that's a thing.