So the thing I was talking about in my last Journal came in over the weekend. I got photos and Videos. I will share photo's here soon (and already have in a small circle of what I think of as friends, but don't know in person to be fair), but I'm waiting until The unboxing video I made for my Youtube channel to go up. while it wasn't a furry channel... it might seem like one after the video goes live XD

The video will go live 4PM EST on Tuesday! Channel is www.youtube.com/user/erete35 if you want to check it out right away!

I normally make Let's Play videos and lately has been Minecraft, but may be switching games, or at least introduce something different soon since I'm loosing interest in Minecraft again, and it's not like the video's get a lot of views in general right now. If you like that sort of thing, feel free to follow the channel, I just ask that people respect that the channel wasn't made with the intent of being a furry platform (but everyone is more than welcomed of course! who knows, that might change eventually)

Note: You will see the real me if you watch the channel. Just a heads up in case you don't want to ruin you "imagination" of me (not that anyone probably thinks of me much on here anymore anyways considering I haven't been active here for years... almost a decade actually)

Will probably post photos here soon after the video goes live!

I might have bought something...

Something quite Furry...

Something I've been looking into for years...

Something expensive... but well worth it...

Photos coming once I have it in my hands...

Sooon...

*watches as devils fly around my head poking my with burning Tridents*
EveRYtNg is FIIIIine..!. @_@...

My leg hurts....
Duck car accidents... Sorry if I offended any ducks...

Happy new years to everyone and welcome to 2018!...
Hopefully it will be a... year :3

Thats it... now SCRAM >:D

Since I haven't posted anything in 4 years, I figured it's time to say, Yes I am still here.

I have been horribly anti-social for the last 4, or probably more years, but I'm trying to make friends again, and/or meet up with old friends even. I'm not the type to initiate conversations anymore, and have a tendency to be silent when any sort of confrontation or just paranoia comes up these days. I feel that's worth pointing out, because anyone who has tried to contact me lately (last few years...), I have avoided responding to these message because of this... sorry to those that I have done this to by the way.

I also know I'm probably behind the times because of being generally out of touch with everything. if any of my old friends have new methods of staying in touch, let me know! (I last used AIM to keep in contact people YEAH ANCIENT TECH!)

Also worth pointing out, I am often busy these days as I have a full time job and own a store, so I may be slow to respond to things in general.

Well that's all for this update, I may have more later... ^_^;

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4985127/


Title and link should explain
Also if your not already, you should probably watch her... Watch all of her!!! :D
She does an amazing job!

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/aurorawolf
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/aurorawolfcostumes
http://www.furaffinity.net/user/auroralicious


Also, my first post on my page in almost 2 years... in otherwords YES, I'm still here!!! just generally too busy ^^;

 seskata

if nothing else at least check them out. also, they're having a free raffle right now :D

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2769584/

I've really wanted to go to a con since I joined this site, and I think it might finally possible. I live in NY, and (as far as I'm aware) FAU is the closest to where I live, and is coming up soon. I dunno how many people that watch me (or more so will read this) actually GO to cons, but any information would be helpful.

now continuing from where I was, I'm thinking of going to FAU4, but I haven't payed for anything yet, this is because A. I'm not sure if I'm gonna go still B. there's also AnthroCon only a little further away and more expensive (not to mention hotels seem to be filling up already according to the website), which I've heard much more about and people seem to love it C. I'm really shy and D. I've never gone that far on my own. I'd be driving if I went and FAU is a 4-5 (5+ with stops) hour trip (AC would be closer to 7 hours)

I dunno what I should bring too if I was to go. I know money, basic care supplies cloths, but beyond that I'm not too sure. if anyone has any information, professional or opinionated, please tell me what you know ^.^;


one additional unrelated note, I've never even been to a fur-meet or met another furry in person, maybe going to a con would be a bit much of a start? I dunno, but I've so far failed to meet people in other fashions other than to only know them online, which while nice, leave something to be desired.



on an even more unrelated side note, I'm bored, anyone want to do anything? Pokemon? Steam Game? SL? IM? seriously, I've done pretty much nothing all day, and I'm bored, and almost no one I know has been able to be contacted

what? their titles really are.

Anyways, I got White today (would have gotten black but my brother'd picked dibs on that and I wanted to have varied colors)I had today off so I'm already threw the first 3 gym leaders (which was sort of my goal x'D) chances are I'll be done with the main game by next Sunday at this rate (would be done sooner probably but, ya know... work and stuff)

anyways, if anyone cares or even reads this journal

Name: Erete

Friend code: 2107 7947 8459

first off, happy (belated) Halloween everyone yeeeaaaaaaah! not that I did anything for it 8D

Secondly http://www.furaffinity.net/view/878338/

and lastly, I FINALLY have a PS3 :D now I'm off to ignore the $500 I just spent and play L4D on PC :D

fffffinds... I found my legally (not really) gone for good PSP after a long 3+ years without it. in tack with it's case and games and everything @_@... I'd think I'd be more exited x'D in addition, I found out that my wireless head set, which I lost long ago, but found in less than a month... berried in dirt, and missing the cables to charge them, ACTUALLY STILL WORKS @-@... I realized that I had a set-able charging device that actually worked and luckily didn't fry them :D oddly enough I think I'm happier about the headset then the PSP, but considering it's the only not massive monster headset that's wireless and ACTUALLY works (VERY well), not to mention is phone combustible... ummm compatible... yeah ANYWAYS, so I can actually use it as a phone headset too (should work this well though, it was (originally) $180+ (though I got it for $80 ( :D ) (I think, may have been $120... not sure anymore, LOOOOONG ago) cause discovery store went out of business ( D: ) (I loved that store T_T (even if their prices remind me of brookstone... (ummm Expensive >->)))) (well it SHOULD work anyways, right nmow having some sort of issue with it, but I actually think it's the phone, not the head set -.- (I need a new phone, bad)) (lot of perenssisies (however you spell that) :P)

On a side note, I've noticed something, my lack of doing anything with the Internets, weather or not it's been by option (I was at my mom's for 2 weeks, and was basically not on at all during this time) was rather... relaxing... I question if I should give up my online life... not that I have a real one really, only things I do is with my family, and I've lost all contact to RL friends at this point. I may be done with school, and I've learned one thing... school does not teach one how to have a social life... kind of depressing, cause I don't even know how to try to go about meeting RL friends now ^w^;;... WELL enough self pitty for now. I'm sure no one wants to hear me whining and prattling on a like a sissy girl... not that there's anything wrong with sissy girls 9.9...

on another side note, pokewalker maxes out at 9999 watts, so transfer them if you get to that point :P... I've hit it twice now x'D

wind... I should listen to it more often

first... one day, one poke walker... 37,758 steps. do I have anything to say?... OOOooooowwwwWWWwwww......

on an additional note, I haven't reset the thing in so long I actually have 9866 watts un-transferred on it... wanna see what happens when you reach 10000 :P

also, with the fire thing. no person died or was injured, though a Cat and a few fish were lost. more than half the house is destroyed and most of the rest of it is probably not worth fixing. a surprising amount of stuff physically survived the "fire"... not so much the water and soot/smoke though. one car is melted mostly, and the garage is completely gone. it's believed to originated from the garage still though the precise cause is unknown, possibilities including electrical, as well as wood stain soaked rags that were being thrown out. it was also very hot that day so... (hottest it had been all year). my father and step mother got a hotel for the next 2 days (brought to you by the red cross and apparently Apple Bee's o.O) though their unsure of what will happen after that. my Dad will probably move in with me and my grandmother... step mom though will most likely end up having to figure out something else (they hate each-other... and I don't blame either one of them x_x)

nothing else to report at this point I suppose... gonna go stay off my feet for a few years

... umm not much more I really want to say on this one... everyone's okay and all the dogs are fine, but more than half of it burnt down... not exactly sure what's gonna happen... nothing more I'm gonna say on this right now

If this journal is too long, just read the first line of every paragraph, should give you a general idea of everything in this (and continue reading the paragraph if your interested)

I know I haven't posted any journ... scratch that ANYTHING at all in a long time, I'm sorry for anyone that actually may have expected anything from me, I'm still here though ^^

my mind has been racing thru so many things lately it's confusing. (I know cutting this one short :P (not really... just read below x'D))

First off, I "graduated" finally! both degrees (Computer science and Architecture, 2 year degrees). well, I think...

I'm still technically finishing one course. (Software Engineering) I kinda got held back about 5 weeks in the course because of things outside my control so the teacher gave me an extension. luckily the course was online anyways... buuuut...

no matter what, I can't seem to get anywhere with it. a lot of it is lack of focus, as well as real life hitting me fast after school got out (not to mention, the first 2 weeks out of school, I got called into work 5 TIMES!!! >_<) in addition, one of the 3 sections I had left took me over 4 days of ACTUAL working time on it to figure out why I couldn't get it to work (stupid "errors under your nose"). true this only effects the computer science though... buuuut

I'm also not sure if I actually qualified on the other degree either x_x. see... I'm pretty sure I did. I got the necessary number of courses and I passed them all, not to mention online it says I met ALL requirements... but I have this nagging feeling that I had to get a C or higher for all Architecture specific courses to actually pass the degree... and I got a D+ in one of them x_x what really grinds my gears though is that the teacher had already said to the entire class that they already had a C or higher... I know I don't really mean it but GOD DAMN MOTHER FUCKING SON OF A BITCH >_<

(Rant)
additionally, EVERYONE IN MY FAMILY IS GETTING ON MY BACK ABOUT EVERYTHING. I know their only concerned about me.... or... at least I think so. their constantly on me about the class work for the one class, so much so it actually un-motivates me and distracts me from doing it (I haven't gone one day without 2-3 phone-calls about if I'm working on it in the past week). also they keep getting on me about looking into what I'm doing in the future (schooling/work) but I'm so busy I can't even try to do that. my dad also keeps getting on me about taking extra hours at work (what was the last line -.-). my mom's also constantly asking me about my weight -.- (most anyone that knows me online knows I'm actually trying to gain weight, but my mom constantly has to badger me about how much I weigh... despite really knowing it already (it's like she's in denial or something)). My brother has been bugging me NON-STOP about his Pokemon game x_x I know I'm like an encyclopedia almost when it comes to those games but it's like every 5 minutes if I'm near him, and he calls my with stupid questions he could find out himself if he'd actually just put 5 minutes effort in. Also... to put it bluntly my Grandma's just driving me nuts. she never seems to have anything nice to say and every time I see here she has to point out something I'm doing wrong x_x.

I'm trying to figure out what even happens now. I know in the last paragraph I said I don't have enough time to even figure that out, but it doesn't stop me from worrying about it still. I really need to figure something out. personally, I want to get away from here. I still live with my family and I don't think I could handle a far away move all in one foul swoop right now... but I want to because I'm loosing my sanity here, besides my family driving me nuts, I absolutely can not stand the weather here. I also need to look into a real job. I need to face facts, cause while working for my dad is convenient, $8 an hour (even without taxes taken out) isn't much, I can't stand the job anyways, and his businesses quite frankly probably should have been shut down years ago with his debts (and probably will be shut down soon). I can defiantly say I'm not anticipating my inheritances from him (5 year in the future or 50 years in the future, I'm sure either way, I'm probably going to inherit close to or even over a half-million dollars in debt, and I'll almost defiantly be the one getting it x_x))
(End Rant)

(Self-pity)
on a completely different note, how does one talk/meet new people? I know that probably sounds like a joke but it's not. I can't seem to talk to people I don't know... or even just haven't talked to in a while unless I have a really specific and functional reason anymore. I'm not making acquaintances anymore, and I'm slowly loosing the ones I have... I probably need psychological help (yet I probably don't just cause I'm the one who said it (self diagnosis and all that jazz)). it probably doesn't help that I'm paranoid like crazy. I won't put almost any real information on myself online, even to individuals (like picture, my name, phone number ect...). I also feel like every time I talk to someone I'm going to make them hate me and never want to talk to me again. the only scenario I can even pull off talking to people is a work scenario (sales and store information ect... (and I'm STILL afraid to answer the phone there (unless I know who it is)), and as stated earlier... that's a functional propose, so I generally don't have as much problem.

(ehh... nvm don't read the next one)
also, I need to find my self a girl/boy friend... seriously, I'm 21, I've never even really had anything that could be considered a real relationship honestly, and I seem to be going mad with loneliness. I think it probably part of the cause of my lack of motivation for... well... anything
(End self-pity)

well, that's all basically. I'll see you... urrr... read you next time I post something. I have stuff to post but no motivation to really post it. maybe eventually, not that I actually do much that interests anyone (at least doesn't really seem that way to me)

in me posting journals? just curious... cause no one ever seems to respond to them, mostly wondering if anyone even looks at them.

... I mostly feel the need to remove my old journal... it's from the day before Christmas for crying out loud.

*Warning: Rant/vent below*

anyways, yeah, been busy as hell. my Dad's been working on moving his businesses around... and I work for him, so I've been working for him almost 24-7 until school started. this is the most credits I've ever taken, 18, and even worse, I got a high credit online course, and I'm horrible at self teaching stuff, and also, I have to take chem 2... the first of which I would have failed if I didn't basically beg the teacher to pass me -.-. in addition, I'm not making enough money from my work to cover my expenses lately, I owe my dad a few hundred dollars at this point from advance pay, and I'm not seeming to be able to earn it back... I guess it makes sense though... I make less than $500 a month... month, not week, month... (though admittedly 500 a week would be a lot, but that's) with 2 jobs too -.-... being naturally lazy is probably not helping... actually, I've been having trouble sleeping lately... but not insomnia, almost the exact opposite, I fall asleep without trying too x_x it screws up a lot of my schedule.

*Rant/Vent over*

well, anyways, mostly a curiosity question related to my money issues stated about, does anyone think it'd even be worth my while to try to offer commissions? I don't have a lot of time so I know they'd be hard to pull off, and with my skill, I wonder if anyone would even want one? just curious. I would be willing to do hand drawings, animating pre-existing images (to a limited degree, stuff like in my avatar, walking would be the most I might try) or maybe some of the flipnote animations or the like, nothing big... don't have the patience or software. anyways, yeah, just curios if anyone would be interested.

anyways, gotta go back to trying to walk on one hand... okay like hell if that'd ever happen but... yeah whatever :P

title sums it up, have fun peoples! :3 whatever holiday(s) (or not holidays) you celebrate (or don't)

blah blah blah birthday
blah blah blah 21st
blah blah blah today
blah blah whatever yeah

yeah... not anything special, and yes I'm still around... ish

1- I will add the first 14 people to comment on this journal to the Promotional List.

2- For each of those 14 people, I will put their avatar and three submissions I like from their gallery on the list.

3- If I feature you, you'll have to do the same in your journal, "if you like to but you doing have too" putting me on the first place, completing this way the list with

1.  BigWolf

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2699270
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2615105
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1736793/

if anyone notices, my front page has started to display a lot of older work. this is because I decided that I need to remove anything that I didn't really think very good. for the most part, this means completed works. the rest has not been remved though, just moved to scraps. not that anyone reads these things anyways, but yeah alright bye :3 (I hope to finally do some real work on art soon before school starts, though with how busy I've been, probably not going to happen)

anyone know how to make a USB Tablet only use one screen? I've got my main computer set up to use 2 screens and the tablet is very inaccurate at that scale, so I want to just make the tablet effect only one screen, if that makes any sense

seems to be pretty consistently around that (can't always be exact for obvious reasons)

just a random observation I made, and I kinda wanted to get that 2 page journal off my front page too

I think I've mentioned I have tones of character's I've made, all one's I personally use too, but all the same. anyways, at this point, many of them that have now been drawn a few times, so I thought I'd link to all of them. I may eventually do character histories and stories and such to, though those are still undecided, I do want to post FULL descriptions of all of them eventually (by that I mean verbal ones, the only one fully finished and posted is my main one) anyways, I'm going to use this journal for a while to link to and tell about all planned pictures to be had of all character's made. I may update this periodically, or just re-post it occasionally instead, haven't decided yet. anyways here we go.

if the artist is not me, I'll put their name next to the link

Erete:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2395582/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2373325/ (original by  fluffylai) -> http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2372600
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2077156/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1411818/ (second form (evil))
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/852645/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/807506/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/847079/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/838765/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/858066/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2614144 by  Rukis including Raven (sketch icluded) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2612106
and another with a friend of mine by  TeddyBearLumpkins

Martha:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2411846/ (including Ada)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1711265/ (preliminary)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2550016/ (by  Aurorawolf)
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2446762/ (by  Tolstoy)
and one planned to be done by  Anarchity including 4 friends of mine

Raven:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/924816/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/924803/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/924782/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2614144 by  Rukis including Erete (sketch icluded) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2612106 http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2612106

Ada:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/1411395/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2411846/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2610826/ (by  Rabid)

Mari:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2411809

West:... scratch that I never posted it o.O

Blood:
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/924816/

other character's that haven't been drawen include:
Zoa - male black ball of fluffy black/darkblue dragon
Ceverus - male Macro green wolf
Big-E - male living food dumpster bunny of teal
Shade/Helm (was originally one, took a second form and changed names (YEAH! some history :O)) (originally was a shadow fox but took the form of a black male-dom herm wolf)
Kairi - female shape shifter, primarily lion)
Nort - rounded belly male wingless slob dragon
Life - Chinese dragon of teal and white, scaled with furred spine, very small (why do I suddenly think "Spirited Away" ? :P)



and... the un-named character's x'D
purple Herm horned rabbit
a chubby feral grizzly bear
a chubby feral polar bear (wow... picture pair? :P)
an oversize, hyper-hole Akita Feral male
a trio of brown wolfs, one female and small, one male and standard phsique, and another male, a little stronger than the other

I've decided I'm not going to use my new fursona as my main one anymore... too many problems have seem to ensue from it and it honestly doesn't fit my personality very well. it is true that I liked it a lot, but thinking about it, I was just kidding myself when I thought it was more appropriate for me. I create most fursona's/character's I've created with personalities generally in mind... and the only one I think for me is the original one I made. so yes, in other words I'm the shape shifting loner wolf that is really only friendly with long-time friends (makes it hell of hard to make new ones for sure)

in addition to the above, we have the below :D

I have been very... blah feeling lately. I feel lonely cause I won't be friendly with people, and at this point I basically have no friends left. I had 2 in my college but I believe they both just graduated... and I'm still going to be there at least another year... and I don't have contact info for them. in addition to those friends... I had a bunch in high school, only 3 years ago... and I basically haven't talked to any of them since... I'd make new one's but... something with me... I can't either bring myself to do it (or at least do it properly)... or I'm just repelling as a person and am going to strait out have trouble with it.

and in addition to everything else, we got some multiplication!!! :D

...I'm starting to think I' probably have Bi-Polar disorder x'3 I can't seem to hold an emotional state for basically any length of time... most of the time :P. I'm feeling rather lazy or I'd probably go into more detail on the subject :P

another problem I notice is... I'm not very open to things... even things I actually DO enjoy 9.9... I don't really understand why either but eh... IDK, any suggentions?

also, I'll allow anyone who's interested to consider this an open invitation to IM me... for those that watch me that don't already. the IM address is erete35 for both AIM and YIM. I might not always be on, even if I look it, so sorry if I don't respond (I don't change my status most of the time)

I think that's all... NOT

PS: I've actually been working on writing this throughout the day... I think there's another problem, I have trouble stating my mind, I can't even understand it most of the time :P

NOT YET

PPS: went to the the Renaissance Festival in my area the other day... Saturday to be specific, had a lot of fun :3

NOT YET!

PPPS: anyone watching me live in or near the central New York area (not city :P)? just curious... cause that's where I live, and I've never actually met any other furries... kind-s would like to :3

alright, now I'm done

for those of you who actually look at my gallery on occasion... would any of you actually say that I have a style of art? I have this weird feeling it's so variegated I don't have a style at all