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Posted 6 months agoIt's been awhile since I made a journal here and wanted to clear away the other one that's been sitting on my page.
https://bsky.app/profile/artemisdog.bsky.social
(Been posting old commissions there was well as new ones sometimes!)
Just been workin and playing games. The usual.
Hope you are all well! <3
https://bsky.app/profile/artemisdog.bsky.social
(Been posting old commissions there was well as new ones sometimes!)
Just been workin and playing games. The usual.
Hope you are all well! <3
Not feeling part of the community.
Posted 3 years agoHey all!
I don't usually post journals that much, if at all. I usually just post commissions I get and reply to comments occasionally but this thought has been on my mind for the last few months and didn't really know how to share my thoughts other than making a journal like this.
If you're following me just for the cool commissions I get then feel free to ignore this and go along with your day! But if you'd like to engage with my thoughts, then have at it!
Anyways. I'm a pretty reserved person in general so that might be a part of the problem to start but I feel it goes a bit deeper than that. In short, I just don't feel like I belong. I don't enjoy the same things that people do on these websites. I don't really fit in the "Furry" community. It's strange because I really enjoy some of the most common fetish stuff such as paws, micro/macro and vore. Those are like, the core three almost when it comes to it... but maybe it's because I'm picky, or just that I'm not really into the same sorts of things concerning those topics? It's hard to say.
I'm part of several discords that are big into those topics and I just, I don't connect with anyone when it comes to the same things that I enjoy. I like ferals a lot, but I also love cool characters from movies or video games but when it comes to popular things or what the community is INTO, that's when it's just not for me.
It's hard to explain, and it might stem from just not being the biggest fan of most anthro characters in general... maybe it's the human bodyshape that throws me off the most, or humanlike hands, but there's definitely something not clicking for me that's definitely clicking for the rest of the community. Maybe it's people or artists putting so much detail into the paws or maws that they are working on. I'm someone who really appreciates a simplistic approach when it comes to a lot of that stuff. I love paw and maw art from people who aren't even paw / vore artists for peat's sake! More than I do for specific paw or vore artists!
Now. This is fine. I accept being different! Everyone is different and has their own likes and dislikes. I'm totally cool with that.
It just hurts a bit. Just hurts to not really feel like I belong. Not able to enjoy and converse with people on said things because I don't want to say how I really feel. I feel like I'm in my own subset community that doesn't exist and I'm the only member.
And it's only pounded more and more into my head that I don't belong when I struggle to get commissions from artists that I love. A lot of these artists run Artist's Choice commission rounds, and those artists will choose between a batch of requests they receive.
I am almost never chosen for those and a lot of my favorite artists have moved away from FCFS to the Artist's Choice option.
And I get it, I really do. They just want to draw the stuff they love and want to be able to pick what they draw, but it just reinforces more and more that I don't belong. That my interests don't line up with anyone at all. It gets me thinking... what am I doing wrong? Do they hate my mostly feral characters or feral character suggestions? Do they hate my idea because it's more of a simplistic approach or not what the community usually suggests?
I'm not trying to make this sound like a "Wah! I wasn't chosen for anything and now I'm babby!" I'm more just trying to illustrate that I feel my interests aren't in line with the Furry community, or any community for that matter and I suppose I was just hoping there was some sort of answer other than "Deal with it."
And I wanted to hear thoughts of the people who DO watch me! You seem to enjoy most of the commissions I get. Do any of you struggle with this? Or do you feel like you have your own place in the community, that you are able to enjoy the same things that everyone else seems to.
Thanks for reading!
I don't usually post journals that much, if at all. I usually just post commissions I get and reply to comments occasionally but this thought has been on my mind for the last few months and didn't really know how to share my thoughts other than making a journal like this.
If you're following me just for the cool commissions I get then feel free to ignore this and go along with your day! But if you'd like to engage with my thoughts, then have at it!
Anyways. I'm a pretty reserved person in general so that might be a part of the problem to start but I feel it goes a bit deeper than that. In short, I just don't feel like I belong. I don't enjoy the same things that people do on these websites. I don't really fit in the "Furry" community. It's strange because I really enjoy some of the most common fetish stuff such as paws, micro/macro and vore. Those are like, the core three almost when it comes to it... but maybe it's because I'm picky, or just that I'm not really into the same sorts of things concerning those topics? It's hard to say.
I'm part of several discords that are big into those topics and I just, I don't connect with anyone when it comes to the same things that I enjoy. I like ferals a lot, but I also love cool characters from movies or video games but when it comes to popular things or what the community is INTO, that's when it's just not for me.
It's hard to explain, and it might stem from just not being the biggest fan of most anthro characters in general... maybe it's the human bodyshape that throws me off the most, or humanlike hands, but there's definitely something not clicking for me that's definitely clicking for the rest of the community. Maybe it's people or artists putting so much detail into the paws or maws that they are working on. I'm someone who really appreciates a simplistic approach when it comes to a lot of that stuff. I love paw and maw art from people who aren't even paw / vore artists for peat's sake! More than I do for specific paw or vore artists!
Now. This is fine. I accept being different! Everyone is different and has their own likes and dislikes. I'm totally cool with that.
It just hurts a bit. Just hurts to not really feel like I belong. Not able to enjoy and converse with people on said things because I don't want to say how I really feel. I feel like I'm in my own subset community that doesn't exist and I'm the only member.
And it's only pounded more and more into my head that I don't belong when I struggle to get commissions from artists that I love. A lot of these artists run Artist's Choice commission rounds, and those artists will choose between a batch of requests they receive.
I am almost never chosen for those and a lot of my favorite artists have moved away from FCFS to the Artist's Choice option.
And I get it, I really do. They just want to draw the stuff they love and want to be able to pick what they draw, but it just reinforces more and more that I don't belong. That my interests don't line up with anyone at all. It gets me thinking... what am I doing wrong? Do they hate my mostly feral characters or feral character suggestions? Do they hate my idea because it's more of a simplistic approach or not what the community usually suggests?
I'm not trying to make this sound like a "Wah! I wasn't chosen for anything and now I'm babby!" I'm more just trying to illustrate that I feel my interests aren't in line with the Furry community, or any community for that matter and I suppose I was just hoping there was some sort of answer other than "Deal with it."
And I wanted to hear thoughts of the people who DO watch me! You seem to enjoy most of the commissions I get. Do any of you struggle with this? Or do you feel like you have your own place in the community, that you are able to enjoy the same things that everyone else seems to.
Thanks for reading!
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