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FUCKING UNFOLLOW ME SILVER
Posted a year agoYou have the sheer GALL to blame ME and say I'm also at fault when YOU cheated on ME, when YOU jept being transphobic towards ME, AND YOU left ME a nasty fucking message, then block me because you got pissed that I called you out and it might ruin your precious image.
Unfollow me already. Fucking unfollow me. Leave me the fuck alone and get the fuck out of my fucking life. And while you're at it, get hit by a truck and leave me the fuck alone. I already can't enter pup spaces or go to conventions because of you, let me have my own fucking FA page you pathetic excuse of a human being.
Also, as a side note, I'm not the one that had a crush on a 14/15 year old when I was in my 20s. That was YOU.
Unfollow me already. Fucking unfollow me. Leave me the fuck alone and get the fuck out of my fucking life. And while you're at it, get hit by a truck and leave me the fuck alone. I already can't enter pup spaces or go to conventions because of you, let me have my own fucking FA page you pathetic excuse of a human being.
Also, as a side note, I'm not the one that had a crush on a 14/15 year old when I was in my 20s. That was YOU.
How many fucking times, Silver?
Posted a year agohttps://www.furaffinity.net/journal/10007446/
How many times are we going to keep replaying this fucking song and dance? Leave me the fuck alone already. I want NOTHING to do with you. Your apology is not and will never be fucking accepted. You will never be forgiven. You had the gall to say that to me when YOU cheated on ME (I don't care if we weren't dating- you were my dom and had agreed not to see any other subs- and Landon and I were literally about to let you into our relationship before I found out, which you had fucking asked for!), then got PISSED when I didn't accept your apology, admitting that you were only apologizing because you wanted closure!
You don't fucking get closure, Silver. I will never fucking GIVE you closure. I will hold this grudge until I die even if it's the end of me. Stop trying to weasel your pathetic ass back into my life and stop trying to be fucking stealthy about it.
How many times are we going to keep replaying this fucking song and dance? Leave me the fuck alone already. I want NOTHING to do with you. Your apology is not and will never be fucking accepted. You will never be forgiven. You had the gall to say that to me when YOU cheated on ME (I don't care if we weren't dating- you were my dom and had agreed not to see any other subs- and Landon and I were literally about to let you into our relationship before I found out, which you had fucking asked for!), then got PISSED when I didn't accept your apology, admitting that you were only apologizing because you wanted closure!
You don't fucking get closure, Silver. I will never fucking GIVE you closure. I will hold this grudge until I die even if it's the end of me. Stop trying to weasel your pathetic ass back into my life and stop trying to be fucking stealthy about it.
im so stupid
Posted 3 years agowhy do i miss someone who never missed me
never loved me
never wanted me
never loved me
never wanted me
thoughts
Posted 4 years agosometimes i wonder if the people that used to be in my life ever miss me
then i remember that they've never tried to contact me, even when ive tried to reach out
guess all im good for is being used. at least, when i was underage i was.
then i remember that they've never tried to contact me, even when ive tried to reach out
guess all im good for is being used. at least, when i was underage i was.
in your own words
Posted 4 years agodo me a favor.
stay gone this time.
stay gone this time.
worthless
Posted 4 years agowhen will i find someone that believes i am worth the effort?
time and time again, i end up with people that just...... dont care. they enjoy my company to an extent and they enjoy the physical aspects of the relationship or the perks of the friendship, but im always the one to text first. always the one to bring up plans. always the one that wants to see them or hang out. i put in all of the effort and get nothing back. i get walked over, and i just.... take it. because i know its hard for me to make friends or to meet new people.
and so it just keeps happening.
when will i find someone that actually puts in the effort, themselves? that takes the time to even text me, "hey, i don't really have the energy to talk or hang out right now, but im still here". thats all i want. thats all ive ever wanted.
nobody's wanted me in their lives since i turned 18, and it shows. the few people i had in my life all lost interest at the same time and stopped even pretending to care when it stopped being "exciting", even though the only thing that changed was my age.
why am i so worthless? why does nobody even try to fight for me? why cant i have any semblance of value in their lives?
why does nobody want me?
time and time again, i end up with people that just...... dont care. they enjoy my company to an extent and they enjoy the physical aspects of the relationship or the perks of the friendship, but im always the one to text first. always the one to bring up plans. always the one that wants to see them or hang out. i put in all of the effort and get nothing back. i get walked over, and i just.... take it. because i know its hard for me to make friends or to meet new people.
and so it just keeps happening.
when will i find someone that actually puts in the effort, themselves? that takes the time to even text me, "hey, i don't really have the energy to talk or hang out right now, but im still here". thats all i want. thats all ive ever wanted.
nobody's wanted me in their lives since i turned 18, and it shows. the few people i had in my life all lost interest at the same time and stopped even pretending to care when it stopped being "exciting", even though the only thing that changed was my age.
why am i so worthless? why does nobody even try to fight for me? why cant i have any semblance of value in their lives?
why does nobody want me?
pain
Posted 4 years agoim sick of everything hurting all the time
im sick my bones aching, my head pounding through my eyes and my teeth, my muscles trying not to let me move
im sick of my lungs hurting, feeling everything rattling around in them and not being able to cough it all up
im sick of my heart hurting and of the loneliness and of always being the only one to put in any effort
im sick of what being alive feels like but the only cure isnt one i can take
im just sick
im sick my bones aching, my head pounding through my eyes and my teeth, my muscles trying not to let me move
im sick of my lungs hurting, feeling everything rattling around in them and not being able to cough it all up
im sick of my heart hurting and of the loneliness and of always being the only one to put in any effort
im sick of what being alive feels like but the only cure isnt one i can take
im just sick
lost
Posted 5 years agosometimes i wonder why im still even here
birf
Posted 7 years agohappy birthday to me
