Hi, I finally feel like writing a journal about my current state of affairs.
My absence and lack of content was due to a huge emotional low, I think the biggest I've ever had.
I've never talked about myself, so this will be like a huge weight off my shoulders.
For many years, I dedicated myself to fetish drawing as a form of escape until the bubble finally burst. I had lost my biggest placebo and no longer felt pleasure drawing, looking at it, or talking about it. It caused me a lot of problems because that's my main source of income.
All my problems came back emotionally, very strongly. Abuse when I was 8 caused my low self-esteem, and I had problems with "Ana and Mia." (Eating disorder) in my teens that lasted for several years, to the point where my doctor wondered how I was still alive.
I didn't want to be a woman. I believed that by denying myself I could protect myself from everything that hurt me. I hated myself for most of my life.

That changed a year ago. I reflected and learned to love myself for who I am. I entered my pastel phase, ahah. I started wearing dresses again and letting my hair grow.
I feel great. I've started enjoying drawing again. I know we're all strangers on the internet, but it fills my self-esteem and my heart to know that there are people who like what I do.
I appreciate the support during all the years I have been on this platform.

Thanks for reading, and have a great week <3.

Hello, a lot of time has passed, I think it's been months where I have decreased my drawing posts, barely staying active on Patreon, I wanted to give an explanation so that there are no misunderstandings with the slowness of some commissions or my almost non-existent social interaction.

I'll start with a point that I think I had already talked about on Twitter, a few months ago someone accessed my Paypal and I spent 1 week sleeping badly, arguing and crying to Paypal that someone was trying to steal my account (which was blocked for security), Even though I have already resolved the issue and deleted my account, I still have distressing dreams where my cell phone rings warning that someone has accessed my accounts.

The second point was realizing that I had a stalker, it caused me a state of anguish and stress, where I had a refusal to sit down and turn on the PC, I felt overwhelmed, I had a lot of fear and anxiety of just posting something anywhere. , but the good thing is that I am already taking control of my life, and I am returning to paying attention to my accounts and delivering my own content.

To finish, I will do some redesigns of some characters and I will try to provide more information and answer officially questions or doubts about them.

Nice to read again all of you <3

It is my birthday and my wish to be taller was not fulfilled, I will have to keep asking for help to close the window :(

Hello good morning, I wanted to say that I will receive only 4 commissions (I want to avoid receiving very large amounts at once because stress and back pain).

THE JOURNAL AND THE COMMISSIONS WILL CLOSE AT NIGHT.

-slot 1  draginsn1per
-slot 2  frozenfire60
-slot 3  Darrius_Skyler
-slot 4  Justin1029


Standby list

-  NobodySpecial0990
-  snowhoodie
-  mechEdragon





****PRICES , FAQ and TOS****
https://eskaria145commission.weebly.....rice-list.html

****QUEUE****
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet.....it?usp=sharing

Hellu, I wanted to say that I opened a patreon, I don´t want you to think that I will stop showing my drawings to the public, it is more an Early Access for my work, and to be able to let people to participate in polls where will be chosen tv characters, games etc.
PLEASE READ "ABOUT" there I have the reason why I opened patreon.

https://www.patreon.com/eskaria145

Even if you can't or aren't interested, I appreciate your time reading it.
i love you so much anyway

Hi, I have been very busy with commissions, but few are missing, I will receive commissions again in April, but I will change the way I receive commissions, receiving +20 commissions is too stressful, and I have been suffering very strong pain in my back, so I will start receiving 4 commissions per week.


Finally, I wanted to say that I am very sorry if I acted very roughly with some people, a few months ago someone used my character "roberto" on a role page, changing the name and putting it into nsfw content, this happened 2 times in a row, Then there were other incidents with the same character, but I talked to these people, there came a point that I thought was a joke, because all this happened in less than 1 month.
I'm not apologizing for how I react, I just wanted to say that despite all this, you can use my characters or poses as a reference, even trace a pose, but please let me know about it

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j4TLErCF0R4


The country had a crisis recently and my brothers decided Xmas was the perfect moment for a family fight.
I will not celebrate my birthday because Im tired as fuck. putos vayan a chupar limon


commissions are suspended until January 1
Sorry for the problems




(Dreyko, You forgot your dumb wallet, I'm going to keep your money,NERD)

Hello everyone, I wanted to give the notice that the commissions will be delayed, I could not draw much on my trip due to the lack of privacy and the small space to put the tablet and my laptop (imagine that the 2 things are small, the table was microscopic).

I arrived at my house on Friday, and since I was tired of the long trip, I decided to draw tomorrow saturday , but my desktop computer officially died, the only modern thing I had was the graphics card, so I asked a friend for help to guide me to build a more updated one.

The only option I have now is to draw the sketches using my laptop, so for now I will continue making sketches (because I dont have my usual brushes)

For people who are interested in taking a sketch, they are welcome, since I will have to sell my soul (again), to pay for the update of my computer.

Sorry for the delay, I'm already in my country, inside my house and ready to continue my work, have a nice day.


price list

https://eskaria145commission.weebly.....rice-list.html

queue

https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet.....it?usp=sharing

Hi, I wanted to let you know that I will go on a trip this Sunday with my parents, and I will take my tablet with me (I am allergic to sun and sea water), so I will spend most of my trip drawing, I will open commissions, but only sketches (no comics) with or without color, in case anyone wants a sketch send me a note with all the information.

Price info- https://eskaria145commission.weebly.....rice-list.html

Only 10 SLOTS.
https://docs.google.com/spreadsheet.....it?usp=sharing

I wanted to give the notice that I will not receive more commissions, once I finish the entire list, I will take a break of 1 or 2 months, I really dont feel well emotionally and every day it is more difficult for me to draw, during those months of rest, I will worry about finishing pending art trades and drawing my own content, thank you very much for reading and have a nice week

prices, FAQ and TOS are here
https://eskaria145commission.weebly.com/
any other questions please send me a note.

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Thank you very much to the people who participated for the slot, the list is:


1- bitesthedust DONE
2- RchlisNomSome DONE
3- newoasis DONE
4- finalroar DONE
5- kokkinos DONE
6- fayed89 DONE
7- shadow_king12 DONE
8- kaitofalonx DONE
9- Darrius_Skyler DONE
10- Garothal DONE
11- Silky_Harrier DONE
12-  xindi


please the people in the list send a note to confirm and send the description of the commission, or if you want to cancel, those who dont answer within 5 days will be removed from the list.

prices, FAQ and TOS are here
https://eskaria145commission.weebly.com/
any other questions please send me a note.

Thank you all for your positive feedback on my recent journal about my new commission prices.
On Monday, I will open 7 commission slots for anyone who is interested. This will give everyone a chance to request a slot.
I know that a lot of you will want to claim a spot, and as a way to be fair, here is how I will make the selections for commissions.
Leave your comment below (only 1 comment for a slot) if you want a slot.
On Monday, I will use a Random Number Generator to randomly choose 7 comments to confirm the selection.
For example, if you have the first comment on the journal, you will be random number 1. If you are the tenth person to comment, you will be random number 10.
I believe this will be fair so I am not selecting only certain commissioners, and the time to comment won’t be limited for others who may not be able to be at their computers at a specific time.

Hey hello again, I wanted to mention what is your opinion about changing a few prices, I want to raise them a little, Im working on a better organization for the commissions, to avoid mistakes or misunderstandings.
but before I wanted to consult it here, are you in agreement with a price change?

GUESS WHO HAS JUST GRADUATED

I'm ready to start drawing my fetish trash again, was 1 year of drawing mostly college stuff, I need to organize my brain and remember how to draw my silly stuff

hello to all those who still read my journals, I wanted to tell you that I am still alive, I only need 2 months to finish my thesis (which is fine). Im still sad about the death of my 2 cats, but I plan to adopt 2 next year.

Since I broke up with my boyfriend 1 year ago my list of friends here in Chile has fallen precipitously and I have almost no social life (+300 hours in monster hunter world), if it were not for the people who speak to me here or discord/steam I would consider me a hermit lol

I dont respond much in discord or steam, but next year I will be more active and will open commissions again, for now I will post some adoptables and own drawings.
the prices are going to change a bit, since I think the time it takes me to draw is not worth it, but I will improve the quality to make it worthwhile.

I love you all and have a nice day~

I did very well in the presentation of my project, although I can say after drawing more than 100 illustrations, Im beginning to hate draw, and I still have to draw a lot of the book.

(I love you dude)  dreykodrak - "you still owe me a commission"

me:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hHP4JtsBnUQ

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=du-TY1GUFGk

I have to make a presentation of my project today, remember me as the little trash that I was.

for personal reasons I must make an announcement, I will not take more commissions for this year, I want to focus on my college project (please, dont ask me about it), be able to draw my own ideas and I also want to improve.

Due to recent events, I am very emotionally ill, and I DONT WANT TO SPEAK WITH ANYONE MY PROBLEMS, I dont want this to be misunderstood, I greatly appreciate the people who have been speaking to me lately, and my friends on discord , I just want time to be alone, meditate, work my thesis, and rest. I can keep chatting, but only about fetish and random things.

I will finish the pending commissions, in addition to the art trade, but dont press me for the time please, if you want to cancel it, you can do it, I dont care at this point

As a last, I want to thank everyone, for the +3000 watchers, never I and had that many watchers, this account is the place where I de-stress, because drawing vore always makes me feel good, and I'm happy that people like my fetish garbage ahaha.

bye and had a nice day or night.

hello, I hope you had a good new year, I want to say, thanks to the commissions I could pay the vet, sadly pelusa is very weak due to her advanced age, and at any time she can pass away, weeks, months, who knows .

I am aware that this moment would come, but even I am devastated, pelusa was born in my house when I was 10 years old, now at 27, I had the best 17 years with her and her brother, they have a good life haha, always the full dish, they sleep in my bed next to me, they never went cold, and a lot of love.

with respect to the remaining commissions, sorry for the delay, I take a long break, Christmas, my birthday and new year, besides that I am doing the chores of the house alone, my mother broke her arm and I have to help her, besides take care of pelusa and her brother (also I'm sore and I slip with my own spit on the floor after sneezing XD, and my knee hurts a lot https://imgur.com/a/tXttB ), oh and I'm taking care of 2 baby cats until they get owner.

I hope you have no problem with the delay of work, I am trying to work as productive as possible, but my emotional fatigue does not help much with respect to my productivity. I will continue working, but I will not be able to speak on my social networks or FA, I will only answer notes about commissions or pending art trades.

I reach the goal of 470 dollars to pay the veterinarian's bill, and the rest of the money goes to the medicine and food of my cats, I greatly appreciate it.

If you want to cancel the commission just write me a note, I fully understand if you want to cancel it.

**after this I will not post for a long time,
since I'm not in the best mood to talk and draw vore or fetishes, I also detest vent art and I dont want to fall into that **


COMMISSION

 Xorme




ART TRADES
 NewOasis

my cat was very sick recently, had a throat infection, she is 16 years old and it means a lot to me, because of her age they had to do an ecotomography, to see if her organs still worked, fortunately everything was fine, but she had to be hospitalized for 3 days the veterinarian's bill costs $ 470, so I'll have to be a slave within the remainder of the year :).

she is my loved child ---> https://imgur.com/Nayzq1K

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send me a note if you want a commission :)

* It is appreciated to be clear and precise in the notes since English is not my main language and it helps me a lot in understanding the request and not making mistakes

*****I can draw clean or fetish art, just ask :), I dont kink shame or anything if you have other type of fetish*****

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++prices++

first extra character is FREE, then start to charge +$10 per extra character

sketch $8

lineart $15

flat color $25
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/23963846/

full color $35
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/25092412/
https://78.media.tumblr.com/db4251a.....smro1_1280.png

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***THANK YOU TO ALL~<3***
LIST


 Xorme
 Talonblaze
 ShadowNightclaw
 ZoidZane
 itsallfubar
 Fenny
 Morderek511
 DiceWolf

Today I will continue the pending commissions.

(commissions are still closed)

I want to tell you guys that the comissions're temporally suspended because I have to finish a proyect of my college and I don't have enough time, sorry for the troubles.

(Is a bestiary book of the south of my country, wish me luck, because I'm tired as fuck)

https://www.dropbox.com/s/51qzm844j.....arino.png?dl=0

Hey hello everyone:3
I just want to tell you, my objetive is make 1 adoptable per week, why only 1? Because i dont like use the same base model, i like put some love to each demon, and i hope they get a good house, and im really happy people accept and like the concept, thanks to you, i can pay my last year of study, and i hope you all have a great week.

I wanted to know your opinion about what if i put traditional art to my commissions, a way of more options, here is some examples, they are not 100% ready but its for you to have an idea in your minds. I work gaffity, ink and colored as marks. So what do you think? will it worth? (obviosly can be vore or not vore) (and start with non-lineart painting)

here some examples:

https://www.dropbox.com/sh/w1vgfixp.....Lzp1zAoOa?dl=0

Lately I've been too depressed, and I've got a food disorder again and I'm not well, I lost a lot of weight and my pressure is low (Dont worry, it's nothing really serious) , I'm going to the beach with my parents, so I cant reply skype or steam, I'll keep working on the commissions (draw make me feel better), I hope this Trip help me relax and get out of this shit hole,
I dont do this to attract attention, but I needed to say it to make myself feel a little better. Thank you very much for the gifts for my birthday, and all those very kind people, you help me feel much better,
thank you very much and see you in 1 week.