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General | Posted 5 years agoPosting Art I commissioned here now because I was too lazy to before.
Also, I guess my own later.
Also, I guess my own later.
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General | Posted 8 years agoI keep forgetting to post my art here. Sorry, Will fix sooner or later
Stream
General | Posted 10 years agoAnyone want to watch me draw or something?
Scraps
General | Posted 10 years agoI think I should stop posting all my new art under scraps.Commissions.
General | Posted 10 years agoGoing to start doing commissions now that I feel comfortable in my own ability.
Although, the diversity on what I can do would be limited to probably abstract tattoos.
Or you could buy some existing designs I've already made..Words, words, words.
General | Posted 10 years agoA lot of things have happened after I had to withdraw from University on medical grounds.
Namely, catching up on cooking and trying to improve the variety of drawings I can do.
However, nothing is over just yet but we'll have to wait and see where this path will lead me.
Namely, catching up on cooking and trying to improve the variety of drawings I can do.
However, nothing is over just yet but we'll have to wait and see where this path will lead me.
Adventures in University - Unexpected Expected End
General | Posted 10 years agoI've decided to give up university after this semester is over.
There's no point in wasting every opportunity given to me as well as the time, resources, including money, that I've used.
I'll probably be going back to work to pay back my student loan because that's the least I can do is repay what I've borrowed asap.
I've learned a lot from my time here and all. But I'm full of regrets among other things. I just can't deal with any more failures from my inability to learn what I need.
I'll finish what I started so far, but after that, it will be time to throw in the towel.Future commission possibility
General | Posted 10 years agoI'm curious if anyone would be interest in commissioning me to make some art or something.
Money isn't too much of a problem for me yet and I would like to try and earn some amount while I'm here at university. I need something to do.
There's no set price right now but all I can say is that if I do open up commissions is that the time of completion will vary but may take a least a week due to how I work on my stuff.
I just hope I can please everyone and not make things too complicated if you want to use them for tattoos or designs for something.
Also, another restriction would be that I currently work only in black and white right now. I need to learn how to do colours more effectively if I want them to look good.
Mmph... I hope this won't be too much of a pain...
Money isn't too much of a problem for me yet and I would like to try and earn some amount while I'm here at university. I need something to do.
There's no set price right now but all I can say is that if I do open up commissions is that the time of completion will vary but may take a least a week due to how I work on my stuff.
I just hope I can please everyone and not make things too complicated if you want to use them for tattoos or designs for something.
Also, another restriction would be that I currently work only in black and white right now. I need to learn how to do colours more effectively if I want them to look good.
Mmph... I hope this won't be too much of a pain...
Life Update
General | Posted 10 years agoSeems like I'm not really getting better in any sense.
Depression is still going strong as ever and hasn't gotten better if not worse.
Anxiety is still high and stress puking is still a thing.
I just can't seem to catch a break, can I?
But that's just a selfish thought, wanting to be happy.
University is going well, I'm managing better than last year which is good.
I've taken up Kobudo, another sport to try and help keep my mind off of all this negativity.
Even so, I can't shake everything off, it's still clinging on hard and various factors aren't helping it get rid of it.
I still need to keep my head fairly blank, without a thought if I am to keep myself in a decent condition.
Even the slightest thought can set off a spiraling chain reaction into another bout of tears and pain.
I really want to get better, but I just cant seem to.
There's always some truth to these dark thoughts that come and go.
Maybe it's better if I... No.
tl;dr - Sorry for being off for so long and all that. Mental health issues have caused me to take some time off but my condition hasn't improved and may in fact be getting worse due to various factors.
Depression is still going strong as ever and hasn't gotten better if not worse.
Anxiety is still high and stress puking is still a thing.
I just can't seem to catch a break, can I?
But that's just a selfish thought, wanting to be happy.
University is going well, I'm managing better than last year which is good.
I've taken up Kobudo, another sport to try and help keep my mind off of all this negativity.
Even so, I can't shake everything off, it's still clinging on hard and various factors aren't helping it get rid of it.
I still need to keep my head fairly blank, without a thought if I am to keep myself in a decent condition.
Even the slightest thought can set off a spiraling chain reaction into another bout of tears and pain.
I really want to get better, but I just cant seem to.
There's always some truth to these dark thoughts that come and go.
Maybe it's better if I... No.
tl;dr - Sorry for being off for so long and all that. Mental health issues have caused me to take some time off but my condition hasn't improved and may in fact be getting worse due to various factors.
One Punch Man
General | Posted 11 years agoI just read all 45 translated chapters in 3 hours.
tmi stuff
General | Posted 11 years agoAsk away. I need something to do.
Health Issues and Other Stuff
General | Posted 11 years agoEver since I've come back from my first year at university, everything seem to have gone downhill significantly for me. Recently, I've been diagnosed with Anxiety and Depression, something which I never thought I would get. Everything seems to be deteriorating as some friendships I've shared with people I've come to known and admire, have now become more tense.
I know not many of you realise that I often avoid talking about my problems and that I often hide many things about myself from all of you. I already feel like I'm losing this battle, even with all the help and support I'm receiving. But I feel that I don't deserve any of the kindness you all have shown me. I've already fallen back so far to my younger days where I needed to kill myself. This, along with my daily thoughts of seeing myself die again and again, as well as repeating the same mistakes over again. The worst part of it all is that. I believe I could've done something to stop all the mistakes I've commited back then. But I have failed countless times, never doing anything. I've failed myself so many times that I can no longer see the light which I once held within. Now all I see is self hatred and loathing. I'm so sorry. I'm losing everything so fast, and I can't seem to win. I can't forgive myself anymore...
I know not many of you realise that I often avoid talking about my problems and that I often hide many things about myself from all of you. I already feel like I'm losing this battle, even with all the help and support I'm receiving. But I feel that I don't deserve any of the kindness you all have shown me. I've already fallen back so far to my younger days where I needed to kill myself. This, along with my daily thoughts of seeing myself die again and again, as well as repeating the same mistakes over again. The worst part of it all is that. I believe I could've done something to stop all the mistakes I've commited back then. But I have failed countless times, never doing anything. I've failed myself so many times that I can no longer see the light which I once held within. Now all I see is self hatred and loathing. I'm so sorry. I'm losing everything so fast, and I can't seem to win. I can't forgive myself anymore...
Characters
General | Posted 11 years agoI will draw the rest of them later.
EDIT: I've decided to add a bit of back story to the recent character additions I've made. Probably going to take a while.Possible streaming
General | Posted 11 years agoWould anyone actually watch me draw or something on a stream?Twitter Twatter.
General | Posted 11 years agoForgot to tell you people that I'm now on twitter.
Yeah. Had one for quite a while but only just remembered to mention it here.1k Page views
General | Posted 11 years agoOh my word. I didnt realise I hit 1k of page views, When did this happen?
A Humble Request
General | Posted 11 years agoI wish to ask those who actually read my journals one thing and at the same time, let it be known I now accept requests.
However, it should be known that I only do this so I am able to improve on my capabilities to reach greater heights.
My conditions to this is that, I ask for you to provide a reference for a request and try to consider if I am skilled enough to do it. Also, keep in mind that the time ot takes me to do these are long, so please be patient and please don't exploit this.
I have equal trust in everyone I first meet, and depending on actions they make, they're trusted more or less.
I hope we can get along.
Send requests via notes and I'll try my best to deliver.Adventures in University - Assignments and Fencing
General | Posted 11 years agoAnimal Biology has the hardest bloody assignments, but least it seems easier than what I did last semester. Also, I'm quite lucky that I'm doing well in Bio-statistics, but I hate it so much.
In other news, I believe I found my own style of fighting in fencing. In the words of one of my senior fencers, I'm well adept at playing defensively, as well as unbalancing opponents and tricking them with combination attacks. However, this is also my greatest flaw as I'm unable to riposte effectively. But I will try my best at improving my weak points.
Also, sorry the lack of art from me. Been busy with everything down here with university work and all. Speaking of university, I dissected an eel and found out something amazing~ But that's for another time.Happy Birthday
General | Posted 11 years agoIt's my birthdayAdventures in University - Sleep
General | Posted 11 years agoSleep pattern has changed drastically after I came down here. Like damn, from my usual 12-1am to a new 3-5am. It's really bad, but luckily in this semester it is more or less fixed, although it is now more unpredictable than ever but least I sleep earlier and wake earlier, so yay.
Im not dead, just lazy and slow with the artwork as well as burdened by university work.Adventures in University - Winter Wonderland
General | Posted 11 years agoHoly fuck. Snow. So much joy. I cant contain it. Shit dude. I just cant hold myself back
Adventures in University - The 2nd Semester
General | Posted 11 years agoOld Good news and bad, I passed 3 of my 4 papers in 1st semester so I can only take 3 of the 4 papers in this semester. That's basically it. Im both happy and sad about this, but I wont piss around doing nothing and actually try this semester.
Also, I got myself one of those Twitter Twatter things where I'll be tweeting nonsense and some WIPs.
EDIT - https://twitter.com/Espyrian
P.S - I am so sorry for being on and off like this. Please forgive me.Adventures in University - Idiocy, Stupidity and Swords
General | Posted 11 years agoI was basically an idiot for a lot of thing but all of it peaked on this one day where I failed to get things done right. I literally just was so stupid that I, myself, was surprised. I failed to pronounce anything properly and structure my sentences like a proper English speaking person and I forgot to bring a few essentials with me while I went shopping, but least the day went well in the evening.
That day, where the collective idiocy of my mind converged, aside. I got my hands on probably one of the most graceful and majestic of the weapon world. One of the three fencing swords, a Foil with a pistol grip. It's rather lovely and I like it. Though I don't like pistol grip nor that I'm used to using one, I have to admit that it has a much better ease of use than the traditional french grip (or what my instructor calls the grip, a club's grip). So yeah, good month and I got my student loan after being lazy and not doing it earlier like a proper person.
Whelp, this is enough chatter for.....like a few months. Time for my voice and activity to completely disappear against for another few months. Take care you people, and I hope you have a lovely time until I somehow come back.
P.S Art going to come a soon. Just lazy right now and finals coming in like 2-3 weeks. So...yeah. bye.
Edit; Forgot to mention, sleep pattern messed up again and this time it's verily much bad. Bad. I dun goofed beyond belief. I didn't just drop it, I threw it against the wall in retaliation. Gah! Send Help. I want sleep.Art and stuff
General | Posted 11 years agoI've been thinking now that im slightly more confident in my art designs that I may start doing it as an extra source of income. This decision came up as I believe that I shouldn't rely too much on my student loan and that I should start makibg a name for myself on this website.
However , due to my inability to produce a decent number of works in a short gicen time frame, I'll only do about one or two requesters or whatever at a time.
Tl;dr. I want to be more independent at uni and rely less on loans and parents, so I want to start making money on my artworks and etc.
Note: I still have some wips I need to finish before I start doing this to earn money from this thing, probably.Adventures in University
General | Posted 11 years agoYay, friendship Get!
Fencing :D
SCIENCE!!!!
FOOD!
Food science...... lab reports. :C