Because, it's been a while and I feel like a conversation.

You guys know the drill, ask a question, any question, no matter how tame or extreme, and I'll answer to the best of my ability.

I don't know why but life has been just hating on me lately. No, not hating, just straight up trolling. It's smacking me down, letting me think things are safe again and just when I reach the point that I think things are good and I'm feeling great, it slaps me back into the ground and spits in my face. It's been teasing me like this for the past 4 days and it's worn my patience down to a stub. I don't know what I did or who I pissed off, but whatever or whoever I did, I'm sorry. Please leave me alone and just let me be happy. TT~TT

My friend mercoind is down one computer right now, and untill he can get a new one he's asking for doodle ideas to keep himself busy elsewhere.
http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4863310/
Give him a friendly prod. :3

In other news, I'm trying to get myself back to drawing. (no, draw something is fun but it doesn't count in this respect IMO) As for the moment I am /NOT/ taking suggestions/requests/commissions/whathaveyou, I'd much rather work on my backlog of ideas and requests. I will however post when I do start accepting such. Till then *readies the painkillers and icepacks, drawdrawdrawdrawdrawdraw* x.x

though I feel like it. Yeah, I think it's safe to say I've given up on the calendar bit. I still have rough sketches and such that I do want to ink and color eventually, but I don't have the drive to get it done in the time frame I had initially intended. Just haven't had much will to try and make stuff last couple of months. iunno. Just checking in for those that still care.

http://youtu.be/xhQ7d3BK3KQ

Yeah it might be about electronics, but this is good stuff for anyone trying to do anything in my opinion.

So recently I've been playing Draw Something on my mobile and its been great fun. I only really have one friend that I've been playing with though. If anyone has it gimme a buzz. Just look for Evil_Pinki. Happy drawing. =^w^=

Just something short and sweet here.

Got to see Jurassic Park 3D this weekend, in IMAX no less *which if you can, I'd recommend seeing it like that, even if it's an old movie that's been converted to 3D it's still pretty awesome on that big of a screen :D* It was pretty good, it's still Jurassic Park nothing new there but nothing taken away either. The 3D doesn't add a ton to it, but you do notice the effect.However since this is just a 3D conversion, it's not gonna be as astonishing as say Dark Knight Rises or Avatar. You do see a little of a layering effect with some scenes, usually in closeups and big scenery shots. I get the feeling they did CGI in some parts, mostly with alot of the vehicle areas where you're essential staring down the length of the side, but again it's not the worst ever. If you haven't seen Jurassic Park in a while, then it's worth seeing it *I actually did jump a little at one of the jump out scare scenes, which doesn't happen often for me even with new movies/games xD* Or if you've never seen it before, going to see it in 3D would be a good way to see this movie.

Okay, next subject. This past week, I finally decided to start a tumblr. Nothing fancy, just someplace to blog and put random things on. Will probably be more used for random bits of information and photography/occasional doodles than anything else, but if you like that kinda stuff or wanna help me expand on what I put there then by all means gimme a poke. You can check it out here.

As for the other stuff, hmmmm . . . dunno. Lemme get back to you on that *click*

Or at least had more urge to draw. Anyways, trying to get work done on the calendar, I'm probably gonna end up procrastinating on the april pinup till the last second *again* but I will have it done in time. Have started work on July's already, even though I need to go back and redraw/touchup may and june. Just frustrating, constantly feels like I can't get anything to come out looking right. T-T Anyways, that's the update for now. No, I'm not dead yet. Sorry.

Actually, you don't have to answer that. Just bored and stuff so, TMI Tuesday time! You know the drill.

Eh, why not. Haven't done a question thing in a while so, lay it on me. :D

Ask me absolutely anything you want and I'll answer to the best of my abilities.

Just being a lazy sod. x.x; Iunno why but I've been in a funk lately, just stressed. Not over anything specific though just, iunno. I'll try and do some stuff later on tomorrow, or, I suppose later this evening rather. *currently 4:25 AM x.x;;*

http://youtu.be/Agl8K5NgXfU

Damn there were some good times then. *wipes a tear from his eye*

Yup, I'm being social and getting into one of these things. I'm sorry.

Comment, and I'll...

1) Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your FA page for 10 seconds.
2) Tell you a colour you remind me of.
3) Tell you my first memory of you.
4) Ask you a question.
5) Tell you something I like about you.
6) Tell you the object that is in front of me.
7) Dare you to do this yourself in your own journal!

Dared by  zenfetcher x3

To anyone I may have unintentional ignored or forgotten about
To anyone that I've shrugged off unknowingly
To anyone that I've accidentally hurt, even those that I may have hurt knowingly in a fit of rage
To anyone that I've ever made feel like they weren't wanted
. . . anyone that I ever made feel like they were an outcast

. . . please don't hate me, I'm sorry. T-T

So, I've had one of these actually for about a month or so but haven't really gotten around to using it, till today. For those that are following my calendar series that I just started *yeah it's a series* then you should also know that I'm posting the high res pics to imgur in a private album.

Well, I've decided to not do that. Frankly, the quality is getting shat on over on imgur so I'm moving to putting them up on my till now unused page over on Weasyl.

-> https://www.weasyl.com/profile/evilpinki <-

So if you have an account over there let me know, if you don't and you'd like to, let me know and I'll see about some invitations. Till then.

*drawdrawdrawdraw*

Stomach acid anyways, gotta cut down on the soda. x.x

Anyways, had a strange event happen to me last night while watching Angry Video Game Nerd on youtube. Just happily minding my own business laughing it up when suddenly both of his accounts, Jamesthenintendonerd AND cinemassacre, are suddenly replaced with a 404 message and this message.

"This account has been terminated due to repeated or severe violations of our Terms of Service."

Either a glitch on someone's end again or some new rules on youtube, dunno, I just want my AVGN back. *knows he can go straight to the site*

Here's an article that just got posted up this morning. http://www.videogamesuncovered.com/.....l#.UOwLPW-aVso

Fair warning, this is going to be a long drawn out journal so if you don't feel up to it then don't read it right now, but do read it at some point please.

*sigh* okay. Welp. The new year is upon us, people partying, making resolutions, all that stuff. It's time for change, and as such, I feel I'm going to change how I do things here. As many of you are aware I've recently undertaken a calendar project of sorts, you can see a rough sketch of a month to come as well as the completed January pic in my gallery. And as of late the urge to draw has been relatively strong on me. I've been trying some new techniques for roughing and sketching that seem to work really well for helping me to get started on many pics that I would otherwise just fall apart on. My workflow has taken quite a few refinements and tuneings and whatnot, as if I had a set in stone workflow to begin with. As a result, I'm getting out of a dry spell that's plagued me for the past few months. And even though I'm busily working on a calendar series, I'm pushing to draw some of my other ideas as well, stuff that I'm way behind on like other series', requests, even a trade. So yeah, all good and fair on that front. ^^

Here's where it gets deep for me though. I've had a few friends tell me that they'd pay for some of the stuff I've drawn for them, still others that will see some of my finished stuff like my plushy icons and ask me what I charge for such. *not trying to toot my own horn, I really do get asked this* Personally, I've been rather back and forth on the idea of doing commissions. I would love to get paid to draw for others, I think it'd be awesome. Now, I've got enough friends that'll bash me around for whining "I'm not that good, my pictures aren't good enough to be worth paying for *whine,bitch,groan,etc.* So instead, I'll bring up the other thought that bothers me with charging for my work, and it really starts with the reason why I draw.

I'll admit it, I love seeing others draw me. I've made the occasional request to have my character drawn here and there, even won a free raffle once to have any drawing I wanted done. Fact is though, I hate paying for "art." Stop! Before you cuss me out let me explain my reasoning. I'm a very hands on kind of person, I like to make things, learn by doing, all that. You know, "Give a man a fish, he eats for the day. Teach a man to fish, he eats for life." I very much admire this type of mindset. It's that very mindset that's gotten me into drawing in the first place. Seriously, any of you that have made anything, produced any kind of work, no matter how little or grandiose it was, you still get a sensation of pride when you're done right? It's not the idea of merely having something in your possession , but that you created it by your own hands. You, in essence, breathed life into your own creation. That's how I feel anytime I complete a drawing, when I finally put down the pen, look at what I've done, and think "Yeah, I'm happy with it. ^^" That's what I get from drawing, it's an emotional high that I love, and it's something that I don't take lightly. Like I said at the outset of this paragraph, I love to see other people draw my characters. It's an excellent opportunity to find how they see you, how they interpret your own ideas. And thus I get to the reason why I dislike paying others to do that. Because I can *to some extent* draw, if I paid someone else to draw for me, it'd be lazy on my part. I get demoted from a creator to, merely an "idea" guy. And as much as I hate to burst your bubbles, anyone that's ever had one of those "Oh!" moments, anyone who's ever compilated a new thought in their mind; which btw pretty much encompases every living, breathing, reasoning being on the planet; they're all "idea guys." Everything from the most generic like a fox, cat, or even a rat, all the way up to the most absurd or exotic characters, they all start as ideas. Beyond that, is all a matter of translating that idea into another medium; a written description, a song, even, dare I say, a picture. . . sorry, I'm rambling now, where was I . . . Right.

Point is, I don't want to be just an idea guy, cause ideas are a dime a dozen. The creators, the people that take ideas and bring them to life, that's where it's at for me. It's my first taste of blood as it were *bad example but just go with me on this* I love seeing my ideas take shape by my own hands. It makes me feel accomplished. As if I've done something that no one else can do. It's a sensation that I don't want to lose, and thereby, paying someone else to do that for me, just feels wrong. Yes I know plenty of people here that draw for commissions as a living, and I'm alright with that. Gotta put bread on the table somehow and, if you can make a living doing what you love then power to ya. :) But this leaves me in an interesting mindset. What when I reach the point that when my work is considered good enough to be called "art," what then? Do I give up on my ideals and blindly join a crowd that I've personally taken issue with? What about those that /want/ to support me financially? Do I leave them out in the cold as it were with no other options?

As you can see, I'm rather at odds with myself on this. I've contemplated doing pay what you want and even so much as "dollar doodle" commissions. But in the end, I come to this conclusion.

*IMPORTANT STUFF RIGHT HERE*

Commission status - Nope, not taking commissions. Why? `Cause if I did I'd feel like a hypocrite for wanting people to pay for what I draw, while not wanting to do the same for others. *this may change in time as I change, but for now I'm still very torn between the two ideals*

Trade status - Yes. If someone wants to suggest a trade with me then I'm all for it. I'm already working on one with the awesome  IdleStatus and I welcome the opportunity with others. Draw for draw. I find it fair to me, I find it fair to others, and it involves no money while at the same time offering something in return for both parties. Win/win! ^^

Requests - Yes. Though I do work on what I want at the moment, if you want to request something from me then I'll give it some thought. No promises unless I say otherwise though. I'm not going to "ok" every idea that gets thrown at me, but I will talk it over first. If I decline, I'll explain my reasons why, and if I accept then yay!

Tips - This is the one I think I'm willing to come to terms with now. For a while I've been hesitant about accepting payment for any of my work, even when people offered it. However, that's not fair. Now this isn't for people to bribe me to draw them, if that were the case it'd be under commission. No, this is for the people that do like my work, that have received pictures from me, and just want to give something back in return. It's right along with the trade option. Whichever you can afford be it time, effort, or money. I'm leaving the options open to you.



*phew* okay, I think I'm done. Thanks for listening everyone. Now back to life. ^^

stolen from  RIPPL3R who stole it from  mari_greymoon

Everyone has at least one person on FurAffinity who would LOVE to kiss you. So.. repost this to find out who would want to kiss you and WHERE they would like to kiss you? Even if your taken do this! *please?*

1- Cheek
2- Neck
3- Lips
4- Make-Out :)♥♥
5- Naughty Places
6- Skip The Kisses, Straight To Bed
7- Other_____________

Yup, I'm bored and wanted to see what'd happen. :D

Title says it all. Do I know you? Are we friends? Who's house am I in? Doesn't matter.

You ask, I answer, simple as that. GO!

Yes I know the irony in this journal and no, I don't care. People don't seem to be interested in actually talking anymore so much as they are in texting, chatting, messaging, or otherwise trying to avoid having to hear other people's voices or have other people hear their own voice. It's very irritating. A guy can't so much as have a friendly conversation while walking anymore without having to keep their eyes glued to their mobile device. *sigh* There for, any streams I do from now on, you're gonna be treated *or mercilessly tormented by* my voice. Verbal communications is a dying method in the world of the internet, I hate it. T-T

And he's just asked me to be his boyfriend.


Andybear and Evil_Pinki
Nov 5, 2012

Yeah, I know whining about youtube changing their layout is about as productive or meaningful as flicking your own snot but, come on. When a site layout makes you think "man, this page is taking a long time to load" then you might wanna head back to the drawing board. It looks bland, it looks incomplete, I'm sure whatever new "features" they may have included could be handy but the current state of the site just looks appalling to me.

Agree? Disagree? You think snot flinging his fun? Let me know your thoughts on the matter.

My apologies to all those I may have insulted unintentionally yesterday. Was having a rather bad day and just needed to vent. I'm doing much better today but my internet connection is still pretty hit or miss at best. Should be back home sometime Thursday night/Friday morning. *hugs everyone* Here's hoping today goes well.

http://www.technobuffalo.com/techno.....down-recorded/

Read, listen, laugh. This definitely brightened up my morning. XD

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Ya know, I really do wanna draw stuff. I've got a big ass list of ideas I wanna draw out, a challenge that's nowhere near halfway done, and a number of requests for icons that I was originally doing to try and get myself back in the spirit of things. Now? I don't even know why I'm here anymore. Fuck it, I'm just gonna play my cards as they lie. If anyone wants to hate on me or report me to the admins for who knows what, then go right ahead.

Mr. Speedy
Honestly, he's not the worst guy ever. He does incredible work, his sketches put my "finished" line work to shame, and he works at an inhuman speed. Now that that's out of the way, he's an absolute ass to some people. If you have any kind of emotions at all, anything, he pretty much shrugs ya off. He plays favorites and if you come off as whiny or irritating *and that's not hard to do* then he'll pretty much ignore ya till you walk out on your own. Yeah he's had some hard times so I can understand why he'd be a bit cold to some, but that excuse doesn't work for the rest of your life. *sigh* Yeah, I've called him a bastard and an asshole and who knows what else, but I don't think I really hate him, just wish he'd take off the mask he wears and open up as a real person.

Mr. Real
Another awesome guy. Not a superstar artist, but one of the most down to earth friends *if I'm still allowed to call him that* that I've known. Honestly, I have no reason to dislike the guy. Yeah he's moody at times and occasionally can take things the wrong way, but everyone does that from time to time and, I can't fault him for that. Especially since I've been in similar moods more times than I care to count. I have no beef with him, I just don't want to lose him as a friend.

Mr. Inbetween
This guy's just in a bad spot all around it seems. A little depression, a little aggression from time to time, a lot of denial, or at least it seems like it. He's another awesome friend that, while he's not a superstar artist, he does great stuff and is definitely worth checking out. However, he tends to come off as very introverted at times and a little, well, I don't know how to put it. He comes off as somewhat in the closet about a lot of his feelings. I don't know if it's fear, indecisiveness, or, what? He's another one of these people that can be really nice, he's just a little withdrawn most of the time. He's more of a mystery to me than anything.

So there ya go. Just my thoughts as of current. If anyone wants to bitch and whine about me sharing my thoughts then go ahead. I know what kind of shit storm I'm getting into. Even without using names I know I'm gonna get a shit ton of flack. Think what you want, I'm not looking for any more trouble, just some understanding. For any hard feelings that come of this post, I sincerely apologize. Pinki out.