What would do with your time if you only had one hand and it was your opposite hand?

Yes, besides masturbation, ok?

Although the initial finding suggested growth, the comparison that was made was skewed. So when compared with a scan from June, the images are the same, which is good. That means no growth which means I keep on the chemo. Still no recovery on my left side but I am still holding onto hope that I'll regain that someday. So that's where we are In the long run either its going to stop growth and leave me in a safe zone from then on, or it fails to halt growth and we'll deal with that or we wont and that's that. So things look to be going well. Considering.

As always, thanks for stopping by, and I'll see you all around I hope.

I'm not always a jerk. Most of the time maybe, but not always.

Often I'm well intentioned. Sometimes it just doesn't look like it.

A lot of times i want so much more. Later I realize I have too much.

I often long for things I Don't have any more. Sometimes I get them again, but usually not.

Sometimes I can't let go no matter how hard I try. This gets better over time, some say. I'm not so sure that's true.

Usually things bounce off me, but that doesn't mean I don't feel it.

I don't anger easily, but It's harder for me to forget.

Sometimes I'm in a lot of pain and you'd never know it. Other times I look like I am but I'm not at all.

I've buried the past, friends and loved ones, the hatchet, my head in the sand, The truth, treasures, myself in my work.

Not all things are connected. Some things are though.

Where does the time go, I ask. I have no answer to that.

Sometimes I eat when I'm hungry for so much more. Other times I let it ride.

I'm not wise. This is certain. Just somewhat versed.

Now and again I get bored, but it seldom lasts long.

Sometimes I don't know when to stop, other times I do.

There is a naked orc in the living room.

Tell me about the things in life that bring you joy, The fun you have. Life's pleasures. Tell me all about them. I'd like to know.

I've been rummaging through old archives and digging up old fossils. I'll be posting some old unfinished material as I find it. I'll add in anything I can recall about it.

Why not, right? anyone want to have a conversation?

Tell me your info and what your using and we'll talk.

Somebody twiddle my knob, I'm all out of focus.

There is no clear indication why I had such a bad episode a week ago, or why my left side only seems too get worse, but the latest picture shows possible improvement. No=t clear cut because the angry pills they had to shoot me up with will affect the image just as well. So I come slowly off angry pills, and we soldier on. All we can do is wait and see, as always. Either things will work, or they will not, and will be told "Make you as comfortable as possible will be used. Thankfully, we're not really there yet.

I feel fairly woozy.
Any thoughts? Questions?

It's been a rough week. My left side is getting worse. The night before my regular visit all hell broke loose The pain and inability to take meds Put me in the ER of two hospitals. They were concerned it was bleeding, but a CT showed it was not the case, thankfully. So they pumped me full of angry medicine, which helped with the pain but caused amnesia. For a short stint I lost all recollection of the past day. or so. Gradually it came back, but it was definitely a trip to Mars and back.
So in the end, I'm on a regiment of roids, which I'm not enjoying, but I'll gladly take them if I don't have to endure pain like that again. I should be starting physical therapy soon, so hopefully I'll get my left back under control at some point.
I also hallucinate, but I think that's caused by the swelling reduction. It's like my mind can't understand what the left eye is seeing, so it just makes up whatever it wants.

Well I get Infusions and a proper MRI later this week, and being realistic, I'm not sure what to expect. Something is going on up there. We must use our optimism sparingly.

Bop... bozadee bozadee bop zitty bop .

Lets hang out all day in our underwear, eat junk food, and play old video games.

I get it now. I really do get it now.

So my current condition hasn't worsened much but it hasn't improved either. My sense of touch on my left side is pretty much still switched off, making things like typing and writing very difficult. The new treatments aren't so bad, I tolerate them pretty well considering. It's not a walk in the park but I do see what other people go through while I'm getting my biweekly concoction, and it could be worse. My last treatment was delayed a week owing to the fact that I had a huge bruise on my side from a nasty fall, thanks to a lack of feeling in my left foot. The treatment inhibits new blood vessels from developing, so things like cuts and bruises can be a big problem. This puts paint ball to rest, as a welt from a shot could lead to a bruise or worse yet a clot, and that's serious. of course I still play video games, but with no sense of touch in my left hand that too is hindered.
I wish I could draw, I get ideas and I have to forget about it. It's just not going to happen any time soon. I mean even typing this took ages.

Anyway, l want to make it a point to tell all reading this something important. Don't take anything for granted. There is so much in life that you have and you'd miss it terribly if it were gone. So much. Walking, seeing, everything, if you have it, cherish it. In the words of the immortal Mame: Life is a banquet and most poor fuckers are starving to death.

Meanwhile, I will continue to fight the fight. Tomorrow. Right now my head hurts, and I need to sleep. Cheers all, and thanks as always for reading what I have to say.

What shall we talk about now?

Fur Affinity is a really good community, not perfect, but really good.

It's so easy to miss something someone posts because there is just to keep track of. Anytime someone responds to I'm amazed, because whenever I look at FA I have a slew of posts to look through, and although I do try to glance through them it really is very unlikely I'd ever read them all. How

It makes me wonder about posting new artwork or stories.

Every post that hits this community, gallery or journal, is something that someone wants everyone else to see.

My question is, what makes you decide what to look at it? I mean, why did you read this post? Why do you read any of the posts you end up reading? Do you read all of them? What about in the gallery. The thumbnail is undoubtedly the major influence there, and I'm sure if something is mature, adult, or not. But do you look at everything? What would make you choose one and not another?


Any other thoughts on this subject?

What would you do?

A numbness affecting the left side of my body has lead the professionals to believe the current treatment I am on is not cutting the mustard. Today another treatment was added to the mix, and this one is not going to be easy. There are things people often take for granted that they shouldn't. Things like walking, typing, holding something, not hurting, that sorta thing. Enjoy your lives to the fullest no matter what your situation. Trust me, if I can then so can you.

Cheers!

Evo

Let's talk about you.

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Tell me honestly. When you saw the word "nuts" what was the first thing you thought of?

The results of the first MRI on the new treatment were very positive and thus the treatment will continue. for how long exactly, or even approximately, nobody knows. Months, years, forever, my case is offically unique so there are no frames of reference. I feel alright though, that's all I care about. That and NOT going back on roids again, since they totally suck.

In regards to other things, I've decided that I really need to get the train back on track. The trouble is I have no idea what that means.

Cold turkey has got me on the run.

Teeth grinding, edgy, irritable, the burning, smash the mirror.

Fuck me!

I'm out.

Two big horns, and a wooly jaw.

I started using Livejournal again. I think of it as being a different entity from the journal on here. Maybe, it'll take. I don't know. The problem with journal posting here is that there is no way to separate the people who's art you watch and the people who's journal you watch, and that's a shame, because it's just too much to filter through hundreds of ramblings before reading something by somebody I know better than others. Way too much. I'll still be posting here as well. I'm not sure exactly what the difference will be in the end, but we'll see.
You can look me up if you'd like.


As always, evo_t_rex

http://evo-t-rex.livejournal.com/

When is enough enough, and when is enough too much?