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General | Posted 13 years agowell.. after what has to be about 2 years of loyal service... my XPS labtop has finally taken the last step out the door to death. its not exactly dead... just its power cable is fried so now it cant charge up its crappy battery... though even if I did get a new cable(80 dollars last time I heard), Im not sure how much longer the computer has... it has problems turning on, hasnt been able to update vital soft ware in over 10 months.
*sighs* though sadly I lost a lot of information and files on that computer....but I guess I just feel bad.. the computer was with me so long... and now its gone... well at least I said goodbye.. as the battery slowly failed in 10 minutes fighting to get as many files as I can.
but anyway... with the loss of my main computer goes with it my use of SAI and the ability to open those files and expertise of using that program. so my coloring will be delayed once again...until I relearn Photoshop and illustrator.
well collage is getting a little easyier, but at the same time its getting harder in many ways. Ive had my first major mental meltdown scaring nearly everyone around me, as I screamed, cried, and ended up bent over the tub trying to calms myself down... hoping school finally starts getting fun...
I hope you all have been well, and that your doing well *hugs everyone
*sighs* though sadly I lost a lot of information and files on that computer....but I guess I just feel bad.. the computer was with me so long... and now its gone... well at least I said goodbye.. as the battery slowly failed in 10 minutes fighting to get as many files as I can.
but anyway... with the loss of my main computer goes with it my use of SAI and the ability to open those files and expertise of using that program. so my coloring will be delayed once again...until I relearn Photoshop and illustrator.
well collage is getting a little easyier, but at the same time its getting harder in many ways. Ive had my first major mental meltdown scaring nearly everyone around me, as I screamed, cried, and ended up bent over the tub trying to calms myself down... hoping school finally starts getting fun...
I hope you all have been well, and that your doing well *hugs everyone
Week one Update
General | Posted 13 years agoAnd as Friday passed my first week at my new collage comes to a close and how was it you must say? well.... this will most likely be the hardest thing ive ever done in my life. not necessarily a bad thing but to do what i need to do with all 5 of my classes Ill need to spend nearly all my free time doing homework... yeah... lifes going to get a bit more dull and stressful...
but to show you an example of all the homework i was assigned
first class reading and writing 2: read first 14 chapters of the first book I need for class, with enough information to be able to discuss the book in class, all the while coming up with the theses statement for the final paper for class that I will be doing the entire semester. and to get a library card
second class 3D studies: hunt down an object in a museum, sketch it, find its history, then do an oral presentation about the object using very advanced art terms I barley know. he then assigns you 3 words based off your presentation to then base a sculpture off of for next class, mine where Biomorphic, Illusion, and precious. as well as needing to read the safy information on how to deal with wood, as well as reading pages from the assigned reading that will cost 75 dollars, that the student store doesn't have. while spending 80 dollars on tools and equipment I need to get by next class
third class art history and design: read the assigned reading and prepare for next class and the quiz for next class (her syllabus says i will be having 4-6 hours of homework a week)
fourth class 2D studies: create a 4 in by 4 inch square of paper, put a grid of 1/2 inches on the paper, then using circles that fill the squares, make designs based off 15 vaguely described art terms.
fifth Media 1 : take 75 pictures with an advanced camera, 25 on the street, 25 in my home, and 25 somewhere random. then take the pictures put them on 4 by 5 contact sheets in adobe bridge and print them for next class using the BS printing system of the school.
Im not saying this is the hardest layout in history. I know others have it worse, but this is definitely new to me and will be hard. so I apologize in advance for less art being posted, but I need to try my best. I could probably post some art if you guys don't mine me just taking a picture of the sketches
well I hope you all are well, and that your happy *bows*
but to show you an example of all the homework i was assigned
first class reading and writing 2: read first 14 chapters of the first book I need for class, with enough information to be able to discuss the book in class, all the while coming up with the theses statement for the final paper for class that I will be doing the entire semester. and to get a library card
second class 3D studies: hunt down an object in a museum, sketch it, find its history, then do an oral presentation about the object using very advanced art terms I barley know. he then assigns you 3 words based off your presentation to then base a sculpture off of for next class, mine where Biomorphic, Illusion, and precious. as well as needing to read the safy information on how to deal with wood, as well as reading pages from the assigned reading that will cost 75 dollars, that the student store doesn't have. while spending 80 dollars on tools and equipment I need to get by next class
third class art history and design: read the assigned reading and prepare for next class and the quiz for next class (her syllabus says i will be having 4-6 hours of homework a week)
fourth class 2D studies: create a 4 in by 4 inch square of paper, put a grid of 1/2 inches on the paper, then using circles that fill the squares, make designs based off 15 vaguely described art terms.
fifth Media 1 : take 75 pictures with an advanced camera, 25 on the street, 25 in my home, and 25 somewhere random. then take the pictures put them on 4 by 5 contact sheets in adobe bridge and print them for next class using the BS printing system of the school.
Im not saying this is the hardest layout in history. I know others have it worse, but this is definitely new to me and will be hard. so I apologize in advance for less art being posted, but I need to try my best. I could probably post some art if you guys don't mine me just taking a picture of the sketches
well I hope you all are well, and that your happy *bows*
At last its time
General | Posted 13 years agowell after dealing with two crappy jobs, saving ever scent I had for mounths, and months of deep thought reflection and worrying about getting in. Tomorrow Im going to Orientation for my new school, so that next Tuesday I can finally start my new school ive worked so hard to get into.
thought strangly after all the waiting, and looking forward to finally get my life back on track and work towards a carreer I find myself very scared for whats coming next. Hoping that I will do well. that I will still be able to keep up with all my FA friends and wondering If I am making a mistake.
thought its to late now to question, I now will move forward hoping to find my way and suceed.
but I want to be sure to thank you all, for helping inspiring me, pusing me to go on and to improve ^^ so thank, your all amazing watchers
thought strangly after all the waiting, and looking forward to finally get my life back on track and work towards a carreer I find myself very scared for whats coming next. Hoping that I will do well. that I will still be able to keep up with all my FA friends and wondering If I am making a mistake.
thought its to late now to question, I now will move forward hoping to find my way and suceed.
but I want to be sure to thank you all, for helping inspiring me, pusing me to go on and to improve ^^ so thank, your all amazing watchers
New years resolution
General | Posted 13 years agowell I guess everyone else is doing this so why not do this myself ^^
1. "try my hardest to be more outgoing", so that I can make new friends in this new place. im incredibly shy and I need to make friends faster then before.. took years to make friends...
2. "for the first time in my life I will give my all in school". so far Ive graduated from high school, got my 2 year degree, got accepted into a rather prestigious art collage and in all honesty.... Ive only used about 30-40% of my potential at max.. heck in collage for my pre calculus final... I only studied for a total of 30 minutes and passed with an A... or B... i cant remember... but my point is. if their was a time in my life to finally give my all.. would be now.
well I hope you all have a great year!
1. "try my hardest to be more outgoing", so that I can make new friends in this new place. im incredibly shy and I need to make friends faster then before.. took years to make friends...
2. "for the first time in my life I will give my all in school". so far Ive graduated from high school, got my 2 year degree, got accepted into a rather prestigious art collage and in all honesty.... Ive only used about 30-40% of my potential at max.. heck in collage for my pre calculus final... I only studied for a total of 30 minutes and passed with an A... or B... i cant remember... but my point is. if their was a time in my life to finally give my all.. would be now.
well I hope you all have a great year!
Life on track
General | Posted 13 years agoOK!! after a month of packing, 2 weeks of unpacking. loosing pets, loosing friends, moving away from everyone I know to a new state. and not to mention the past 8 steps Ive had to do to get into collage, which where all the last step till completed. I AM DONE!! I have moved into my new home. have an awesome little space for myself with all the stuff I have brought. I have my shots, I have my bed, I have my tablet, I have my classes, I have my money, I have my scollarships.... once again I AM DONE and now waiting to for my first semester of my new school In January.
So now Im getting ready to start drawing once more to hone my skills for school, drawing such as hyper, transformation, modular, pregers, inflation, and much much more. I hope you all have been doing well and thx for watching me ^^
and yes to those who are interested I am doing commissions, at about the same cost, ranging from 5-8 dollars depending on complexity. so you want a pic feel free to send me a note or shout *bows*
5.00 basic line picture (all digital)
additional costs
1.00 color
1.50 shading
basic background free
multiple characters (determined based on request/complexity)
So now Im getting ready to start drawing once more to hone my skills for school, drawing such as hyper, transformation, modular, pregers, inflation, and much much more. I hope you all have been doing well and thx for watching me ^^
and yes to those who are interested I am doing commissions, at about the same cost, ranging from 5-8 dollars depending on complexity. so you want a pic feel free to send me a note or shout *bows*
5.00 basic line picture (all digital)
additional costs
1.00 color
1.50 shading
basic background free
multiple characters (determined based on request/complexity)
Life has finally here
General | Posted 13 years agoWell looks like I have finally done it. I am now living in my new home in Minniesoda and will be starting my new school in january. my friends here and taking great care of me and are trying hard to make sure im happy as can be after the transition.
So sorry if the art is has slowed a bit, just dealing with unpacking, my faulty computer( my graphic card is most likly the problem) a a slight bit of depression from moving, having to give away my two pet cats on my birthday, leaving my dogs behind. and leaving all the friends ive had made over the past 9 years.
but yeah once i get all settled ill have more time then ever to draw up more fun smexy pictures
So sorry if the art is has slowed a bit, just dealing with unpacking, my faulty computer( my graphic card is most likly the problem) a a slight bit of depression from moving, having to give away my two pet cats on my birthday, leaving my dogs behind. and leaving all the friends ive had made over the past 9 years.
but yeah once i get all settled ill have more time then ever to draw up more fun smexy pictures
Wooo happy birthday to me!
General | Posted 13 years agoWell another year added to my score. as this artic fox is now 25 years old. Hope every has a good day and will have as much fun as I will be having...well more then I will be having since im going to be moving most of it ^^
Updates!!
General | Posted 13 years agoHay everyone!!
hope your all in high spirits and enjoyed your Halloween
Just wanted to thank everyone for all the new favs and watches Ive been getting recently and been unable to send thanks to >< but im very greatful for all you guys ^^ you help me know im doing something right.
But some updates for all you, my life is going to be a bit odd soon and new pics might be a little slow. first of all, for those who dont know I am now enrolled into my 4 year collage. getting high praise and even earning 11,000 dollars in finatual aide and free labtop! my classes have finally been transferred and now am over a semester worth of classes done. and will be getting my class list next week. Im still a little scared but im excited to try my best and become a better artist ^^
though one of the scary things is in 17 days ill be moving to a different state by.. where I have no family for thousands of miles only a few friends and in a part of the country none of my family have ever seen before. no car, no license, not able to even bring 10% of my stuff with me and this will be my attempt to move out on my own O..o scary.
and on a weird side note, I even think my sona might be changing... been feeling a powerful change in myself as of late, doing new things, becoming more indpendent as I move on to new things. even been getting weird mental flashes of core changing. though nothing is set in stone yet, and even if i do Ill still be the same old core ^^ just might look a bit different.
but anyway Ive rambled long enough. thx again everyone for being such great watchers/favers glad to have you all, and I hope to give you new and better art soon.
- Core Cappertail
hope your all in high spirits and enjoyed your Halloween
Just wanted to thank everyone for all the new favs and watches Ive been getting recently and been unable to send thanks to >< but im very greatful for all you guys ^^ you help me know im doing something right.
But some updates for all you, my life is going to be a bit odd soon and new pics might be a little slow. first of all, for those who dont know I am now enrolled into my 4 year collage. getting high praise and even earning 11,000 dollars in finatual aide and free labtop! my classes have finally been transferred and now am over a semester worth of classes done. and will be getting my class list next week. Im still a little scared but im excited to try my best and become a better artist ^^
though one of the scary things is in 17 days ill be moving to a different state by.. where I have no family for thousands of miles only a few friends and in a part of the country none of my family have ever seen before. no car, no license, not able to even bring 10% of my stuff with me and this will be my attempt to move out on my own O..o scary.
and on a weird side note, I even think my sona might be changing... been feeling a powerful change in myself as of late, doing new things, becoming more indpendent as I move on to new things. even been getting weird mental flashes of core changing. though nothing is set in stone yet, and even if i do Ill still be the same old core ^^ just might look a bit different.
but anyway Ive rambled long enough. thx again everyone for being such great watchers/favers glad to have you all, and I hope to give you new and better art soon.
- Core Cappertail
5 dollar random Halloween Commissions!!
General | Posted 13 years agook everyone this is the first time really trying this but Im offing 5 dollar random Halloween costume commissions. these commissions will be lined and colored, with some shading
This is how it works
1. you tell me a variety of your interests, like video games, movies, comics (would prefer something i can get a reference for)
2. I will pick randomly the character to draw you as (a bit of mystery is always fun)
slots open
1.
2.
3.
examples
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8963142/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8970330/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8971452/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9015318/
send me a note/comment if your interested ^^
This is how it works
1. you tell me a variety of your interests, like video games, movies, comics (would prefer something i can get a reference for)
2. I will pick randomly the character to draw you as (a bit of mystery is always fun)
slots open
1.
2.
3.
examples
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8963142/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8970330/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8971452/
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9015318/
send me a note/comment if your interested ^^
Im really scared
General | Posted 13 years agoOk i know a lot of people will think im silly some will think Im lieing.. but I saw something this morning... I have no idea what time it was but in the middle of my sleep I relized I was about to have a nightmare... I just could feel it. and I even reconzied the dream by the feelinng. It was another horrific zombie dream, I have them rather frequently. this one being rather tame since it was just zombies climbing into a room from 4 windows. I had a gun and was shoot at them to no avail but i knew what was going to happen as they overwhelmed me. luckly this time they were all very blurry, kinda low rez like an old video game...so all i saw them do was club my body over and over as i died. well.. unless i tried looking closer.. and i could see parts of their horrific bodys. but belive it or not.. that isnt what scaring me.. I have those dreams enough... that I know i cant stop them.... but what is scaring me.... is I saw something just before my dream hit.. i was able to wake up for like 4 seconds.. and my eyes looked around my room...
the room was filled with a dull blue light from my labtops flashing lights(left it on due to my computer problems)...and as I looked up... I saw darkness.. pure black.. in the top corner of my room.it was squared of with perfect line. across from the light of my labtop(so the light should have filled the area)...I didnt think of it as i feel back to sleep and was forced to endure the dream. but what scared me was when I woke back up after being killed. I looked up in the same spot... and it was no longer black.. the streak of utter blackness was gone... and the area was filled with the same blue light the rest of my room was in.
now before you say the obvious no their is no way for the light to have been blocked. the light on the labtop is about 3 millimeters by 4 so I cant think of anything that could so acutratly cover just that part... maybe a fly.. but a fly couldnt have such clean lines...
and before you ask the next obvioun question... if i was still asleep.. well...hard to say.. I am about 80% sure I awoke due to the strain i felt when I was looking but im sain enough to say its a possablity.
well with the rising sun I feel memories dull and my fear lesson.. so writing this gets harder... but the fear I have is what was that shade... was it what gave me my night mare... and if thats the case.. has it been attacking me for over a 2 years...giving me these horrable nightmares... not to forget my stupid roomates daughter brought a home made weegie board into our house... and suppository brought in a spirit that was causing anger and hatred due to her pretending to be wiccan (I have no problems with wiccans, just problems with stupid children who try to use what they think is the religion )
well.. Im feeling better now..Im sure my fear wont return till tonight.. when sleep takes me.. and wonder if ... something plans to watch me again
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8968970/ an attempt to replicate what i saw... and yes i know.. scared of a black rectangel ><
the room was filled with a dull blue light from my labtops flashing lights(left it on due to my computer problems)...and as I looked up... I saw darkness.. pure black.. in the top corner of my room.it was squared of with perfect line. across from the light of my labtop(so the light should have filled the area)...I didnt think of it as i feel back to sleep and was forced to endure the dream. but what scared me was when I woke back up after being killed. I looked up in the same spot... and it was no longer black.. the streak of utter blackness was gone... and the area was filled with the same blue light the rest of my room was in.
now before you say the obvious no their is no way for the light to have been blocked. the light on the labtop is about 3 millimeters by 4 so I cant think of anything that could so acutratly cover just that part... maybe a fly.. but a fly couldnt have such clean lines...
and before you ask the next obvioun question... if i was still asleep.. well...hard to say.. I am about 80% sure I awoke due to the strain i felt when I was looking but im sain enough to say its a possablity.
well with the rising sun I feel memories dull and my fear lesson.. so writing this gets harder... but the fear I have is what was that shade... was it what gave me my night mare... and if thats the case.. has it been attacking me for over a 2 years...giving me these horrable nightmares... not to forget my stupid roomates daughter brought a home made weegie board into our house... and suppository brought in a spirit that was causing anger and hatred due to her pretending to be wiccan (I have no problems with wiccans, just problems with stupid children who try to use what they think is the religion )
well.. Im feeling better now..Im sure my fear wont return till tonight.. when sleep takes me.. and wonder if ... something plans to watch me again
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8968970/ an attempt to replicate what i saw... and yes i know.. scared of a black rectangel ><
HAZA!!! ABOUT $#@! TIME!!
General | Posted 13 years agoHaza!! after about 5 months of submitting documents, after 4 months of crap jobs, after week after week of waiting for responces! IM FInally IN!!! IVe been accepted into into my collage of choice ^^ MCAD where i will get my 4 year degree in animation!
woo!!! but it gets better, not only have i been accepted into a school that only takes 800 students at one time. I also due to the quality of my work in my porflio I got a scholarship ^^ its called the Visual Scholarship and well ill read what the letter said:
"you are awarded this scholarship based on the academic merits of your admission application. We feel you have demonstrated extraordinary talent and scholarly merit"
the scholarship is for 40,000 dollars and gives me 10,000 a year ^^ *wags tail happily* so yeah, the first time in many months i feel stoked and ready to do MCAD even my self dought has taken a back set to excitment due ^^
so thank you all for watching, and giving me encoragement during these months your all amazing!!! and i hope to give you much more quality work in the future!
woo!!! but it gets better, not only have i been accepted into a school that only takes 800 students at one time. I also due to the quality of my work in my porflio I got a scholarship ^^ its called the Visual Scholarship and well ill read what the letter said:
"you are awarded this scholarship based on the academic merits of your admission application. We feel you have demonstrated extraordinary talent and scholarly merit"
the scholarship is for 40,000 dollars and gives me 10,000 a year ^^ *wags tail happily* so yeah, the first time in many months i feel stoked and ready to do MCAD even my self dought has taken a back set to excitment due ^^
so thank you all for watching, and giving me encoragement during these months your all amazing!!! and i hope to give you much more quality work in the future!
Update With Core
General | Posted 13 years agoOk lets try to pretend and be social and do a journal!!
But lets see hope all those who find this are doing well ^^ and sorry to once again for the delay in my art.
Currently my labtop is only getting worse, as its getting harder and harder to turn on each day that goes by... (yesterday it wasnt willing to turn on for an entire day) Im trying to get a person to repair it.. but my computer expert has been to busy for the past 3 weeks so I will most likly need to take it to geek squade or something. It seems to be a different problem then i thought, since when it does work, it gives me a message saying "windows has failed to start" it prompts me to put in the window disk to repair it.. but i have to restart my computer..and it works so randomly I dont know having a disk being activated that controls my OS when i have to restart a computer 60 times to get it to start... I could be being silly, just I really dont want to fuck up my computer. though i have already backed up all my improtant files in case... I do have a major problem.
slight brighter side I have another job working in a theift store....boy...its not as bad as being security.. but shesh.. its taking a toll on my body.. ever lifted TV cabnits and walked around all day to only then to have to spend 1.5 hours walking home... yeah.. its tiring >< but hopefuly i wont need it for much longer.
On a darker side once again >< now my AC is Broken and have to deal with 100 degree weather, as my mom is out of state again while im suppost to take care of everything in the home and our two tenents with no ablity to drive and limited cash
And to End on a happy note it seems i Finally gotten contact with MCAD (minneapolis college of art and design) once again and according to them and i quote "Funny timing, since I just processed your application file and it's being approved by our director today. You will hear from us soon!" wooo!!! So it looks like I have a good chance to get in if im not in already
But lets see hope all those who find this are doing well ^^ and sorry to once again for the delay in my art.
Currently my labtop is only getting worse, as its getting harder and harder to turn on each day that goes by... (yesterday it wasnt willing to turn on for an entire day) Im trying to get a person to repair it.. but my computer expert has been to busy for the past 3 weeks so I will most likly need to take it to geek squade or something. It seems to be a different problem then i thought, since when it does work, it gives me a message saying "windows has failed to start" it prompts me to put in the window disk to repair it.. but i have to restart my computer..and it works so randomly I dont know having a disk being activated that controls my OS when i have to restart a computer 60 times to get it to start... I could be being silly, just I really dont want to fuck up my computer. though i have already backed up all my improtant files in case... I do have a major problem.
slight brighter side I have another job working in a theift store....boy...its not as bad as being security.. but shesh.. its taking a toll on my body.. ever lifted TV cabnits and walked around all day to only then to have to spend 1.5 hours walking home... yeah.. its tiring >< but hopefuly i wont need it for much longer.
On a darker side once again >< now my AC is Broken and have to deal with 100 degree weather, as my mom is out of state again while im suppost to take care of everything in the home and our two tenents with no ablity to drive and limited cash
And to End on a happy note it seems i Finally gotten contact with MCAD (minneapolis college of art and design) once again and according to them and i quote "Funny timing, since I just processed your application file and it's being approved by our director today. You will hear from us soon!" wooo!!! So it looks like I have a good chance to get in if im not in already
My labtop Is acking a bit wonky
General | Posted 13 years agoHay everyone, just wanted to inform you im not sure if ill be the most connected at the moment. my labtop is doing something weird in which when i start it up, the screen wont turn on, im pretty sure the computer it self runs normally ( i heard the boot up music play once). Ive been having to do numerus hard shut downs over and over to get the computer to finally display. took about 20 restarts to get it to start up this morning, and im getting slightly scared.
so i Just wanted to warn those who follow/note me Im going to try my best to stay online and provide new art, just hopefully my computer will behave.
so i Just wanted to warn those who follow/note me Im going to try my best to stay online and provide new art, just hopefully my computer will behave.
Freedom!!!
General | Posted 13 years agoWOOOO!!! I finally was able to quite my job so that i can prepare to go to collage!!
they still havent been able to review my portfolio but im still hopefull!!
so thank you everyone whos been dealing with me in my emp funk for the last 3 months but hopefully ill be able to get back to normal. Im already trying to gather up the scraps of art ive been drawing and try to put out some new art for everyone
so thank you all ^^ and I hope i can bring back everyone I disappointed since i was gone
they still havent been able to review my portfolio but im still hopefull!!
so thank you everyone whos been dealing with me in my emp funk for the last 3 months but hopefully ill be able to get back to normal. Im already trying to gather up the scraps of art ive been drawing and try to put out some new art for everyone
so thank you all ^^ and I hope i can bring back everyone I disappointed since i was gone
Well...umm... I kinda almost died.. sorta..luckly I didnt...
General | Posted 13 years agoOk for the few of my amazing followers who remember Ive been having a couple problems with my work, but now I kinda want to know if im over reacting about an event that came up recently.
Well an emergency had occured at my campus I do security gaurd work about a potential gas leak in the room across the hall from ours. as the police and the proper people were being called the dispatcher he for a spilt second he spots on camera the someone went into the area in question. so the dispatcher barks at me to go to the room and get the person out. I go to the room and stand in the door frame and start to cry out for the person over and over, looking at how small the area is i think the person most likely left. heading back to dispatcher i told him i heard nothing, but he asked if i went in to check. I told him no, i didnt think we could get in the room. and then he goes off on me about of how we can, and that i need to go in and make sure the person wasnt in their. before he could finish his very load and yelling rant i bolted back to the gas leak and walk inside to find the person........does anyone see where this is going?
luckly the person wasn't in the room, and even luckier their was no gas leak its just...this event scared me. I had just walked myself into danger without thinking.. i could have passed out due to the gas... i could have set of a spark and exploded...i could have died for no reason... all because of some stupid dispatcher who thought he was allowed to order me inside a gas leak.. and my blindness to walk inside...
so i decided to quit, I will miss the people i will miss earning 9.50 an hour..but I dont think I can be a security guard anymore no matter the reason ever again. I was told there were inherent risks of being a one, but i told myself that the danger was so far away... but then without thinking i walked head first into danger...Im being guilted into staying every day, i keep seeing disappointment in everyone around me.....but i took this money to pay for my moving to a different state to go to collage not for a carreer. and i have that money now.... and i dont want to risk my future....for some finatual gain now.
but yeah was just wondering what people thought.. em i overracting.. em i in the wrong.. or do people side with me... just curious...
In other news when my two weeks are up, if i dont already have another job, I will be able draw and post once again. so thats good right?
O and to all the people who have written me notes im sorry that i havent been getting to them for such a long time, low energy, mild depression, and lack of time has made it hard to do anything social.
But anyway I hope you all have great days! ^^
Well an emergency had occured at my campus I do security gaurd work about a potential gas leak in the room across the hall from ours. as the police and the proper people were being called the dispatcher he for a spilt second he spots on camera the someone went into the area in question. so the dispatcher barks at me to go to the room and get the person out. I go to the room and stand in the door frame and start to cry out for the person over and over, looking at how small the area is i think the person most likely left. heading back to dispatcher i told him i heard nothing, but he asked if i went in to check. I told him no, i didnt think we could get in the room. and then he goes off on me about of how we can, and that i need to go in and make sure the person wasnt in their. before he could finish his very load and yelling rant i bolted back to the gas leak and walk inside to find the person........does anyone see where this is going?
luckly the person wasn't in the room, and even luckier their was no gas leak its just...this event scared me. I had just walked myself into danger without thinking.. i could have passed out due to the gas... i could have set of a spark and exploded...i could have died for no reason... all because of some stupid dispatcher who thought he was allowed to order me inside a gas leak.. and my blindness to walk inside...
so i decided to quit, I will miss the people i will miss earning 9.50 an hour..but I dont think I can be a security guard anymore no matter the reason ever again. I was told there were inherent risks of being a one, but i told myself that the danger was so far away... but then without thinking i walked head first into danger...Im being guilted into staying every day, i keep seeing disappointment in everyone around me.....but i took this money to pay for my moving to a different state to go to collage not for a carreer. and i have that money now.... and i dont want to risk my future....for some finatual gain now.
but yeah was just wondering what people thought.. em i overracting.. em i in the wrong.. or do people side with me... just curious...
In other news when my two weeks are up, if i dont already have another job, I will be able draw and post once again. so thats good right?
O and to all the people who have written me notes im sorry that i havent been getting to them for such a long time, low energy, mild depression, and lack of time has made it hard to do anything social.
But anyway I hope you all have great days! ^^
Haza!!! Collage back on track
General | Posted 13 years agoHaza!!! well for once i have good news to report in that I finally heard back from my counceler and i dont have to rewrite anything ^^ im essentually exactly where i was, and now giving them my portfolio. so haza!!! collage is back on track and everything is going well!!
though sadly im still being slightly slowed in the art department and im sorry for the few pieces ive posted. though i still have about 2 dani and core comics to do, as well as several smaller things that i think people would like. so thank you all for hanging in their with me. i hope you are all well *hugs*
though sadly im still being slightly slowed in the art department and im sorry for the few pieces ive posted. though i still have about 2 dani and core comics to do, as well as several smaller things that i think people would like. so thank you all for hanging in their with me. i hope you are all well *hugs*
GAHHHH!!! I WAS DONE!!!! WHY NOW!!!!
General | Posted 13 years agoZAAAAA!!! >< bloody collage crap!!
after getting my high school transcripts... after getting my collage transcripts....after getting my letter or recommendation....after taking pictures of my entire portfolio... and having turned them all in and spending 4 months writing my letter of interest it get into my collage ><
im now told Im told i need to turn it in all over again....and need to rewrite my letter to make it much smaller and on a compleltly different topic ><
!@#$
after getting my high school transcripts... after getting my collage transcripts....after getting my letter or recommendation....after taking pictures of my entire portfolio... and having turned them all in and spending 4 months writing my letter of interest it get into my collage ><
im now told Im told i need to turn it in all over again....and need to rewrite my letter to make it much smaller and on a compleltly different topic ><
!@#$
Free Artz
General | Posted 13 years ago Diamondstripe is having an art raffle to celebrate a year in hir new form ^^ find details here https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3584489/
Job is going....well...ish....and My feet hurt...
General | Posted 13 years agoyeah so far ive been doing my job for like 4 maybe 5 weeks and things are going ok i guess. i now have over 1000 dollars in my savings to get to my next collage and will be getting another check soon. at this point im finally finding time in my day to do art and such, so i will hopefully start posting stuff soon. i might even quit soon since i am getting closer to my goal in funds and ill have plenty of time.
but boy have i been having a lot of feed problems.. having to walk for nearly 8 hours every day... all day.. i almost feel to the floor crying in pain >< but thankfuly im doing a more sitting job at the moment so im now just dieing of soul crushing bordem followed with threats of loosing my job if i mess up at my job.
*sighs* but i do need to ask if anyone know anything about blisters... i seem to have gotten some very serious ones that havent healed and its concerning me...
i would post a pic of them.. though i dont think people want to see it ><
but boy have i been having a lot of feed problems.. having to walk for nearly 8 hours every day... all day.. i almost feel to the floor crying in pain >< but thankfuly im doing a more sitting job at the moment so im now just dieing of soul crushing bordem followed with threats of loosing my job if i mess up at my job.
*sighs* but i do need to ask if anyone know anything about blisters... i seem to have gotten some very serious ones that havent healed and its concerning me...
i would post a pic of them.. though i dont think people want to see it ><
drawing... might be a bit slowed...
General | Posted 13 years agowell as many of you know i have just gotten a new job and as much as i would love to quit i cant... if i did i would ruin the reputation of my friend who recomended me. but thats besides the point, currently im having difficultiys having energy(yeah walking for 8 hours straight is harder then it sounds) to get to drawings and everything i need to do. so just to warn everyone things might be slowed down a bit on notes and pics till i get used to swing shift (2 pm till 10)
WHAT THE F!@##... are all first days like this?
General | Posted 13 years agook lets see were do i start.... first i would like to say that my job went rather well, i was learning my secutiy stuff rather well. was being told im amazingly smart by nearly everyone i trained with. people even said i looked smart, and that i just seemed to give off being smart to everyone. everyone was amazed at my height saying wow and asking how tall i was. it turns out i am taller then a guy who believed he was the same height as me. shehs i was even told i had an English accent.... i must admit ive never been told that but I thought it was cool. I also admit starting my job, the work, and the people where much nicer and easier then i thought they would have so i have to admit it was ok.....
HOWEVER!!! WTF!!! I perhapes had one of the most disturbing encounters in my life. now im sure you all think your a secutiry gaurd of course your going to fun into some crazys... well true i would give you that but i have to say this in return.... I DIDNT THINK ONE OF THE ODD PEOPLE WOULD BE ONE OF MY FELLOW GUARDS!!!
bloody hell im not trying to offend people who are a bit weird i mean really being weird is good but this was one of the first conversations i had with him.
him "you smell nice"
core " o thx i think its my sun screen"
him "o no i mean your inner organs smell nice"
core :(
he was slightly forein sounding so i imagine he ment my insides or soul... and by smells he more ment able to perceive my soul. but still it rather freaked me out.
he later explained that he got this power to "smell organs" from god.. or the jews(i swear he said that)... and that a gaint cat someone helped too... and that he beat up someone using ki energy(said like the people from the dragon ball movie)... and that he saw the same power in my eyes.... and that this power stopped him from aging...untill it suddely caught up.. and that his head is different since he has a line running down the middle of his head.
the thing is being an open minded person i actually belive him to a degree... which just made it all the more freaky to be around the guy knowing he thinks or does have some kind of power..... and he sees it in me too ><
*takes a breath* ok now if your still here think this... this was only half of the wtf.. because for the rest of the day both this guy and another of my trainers practically fought over me to tell me both their ideals on religion .... yes.. so on one side i got a guy saying the jews are chosen of god and are undefeatable when they side with god and the other yelling about the fact that gay marriage is bad..
*sighs* well sorry for venting i just needed to get this out after having such a ... strange day...and need to apologize if i offended anyone... i didnt mean to, I just repeating what ive been hearing all day.. and asking if this is how work is suppose to be....
well i guess i should get rested for tomorrow... i have to walk another 8 hours of walking tomorrow... well thx for listening to me bitch *bows and hobbles away with sore legs and feet*
HOWEVER!!! WTF!!! I perhapes had one of the most disturbing encounters in my life. now im sure you all think your a secutiry gaurd of course your going to fun into some crazys... well true i would give you that but i have to say this in return.... I DIDNT THINK ONE OF THE ODD PEOPLE WOULD BE ONE OF MY FELLOW GUARDS!!!
bloody hell im not trying to offend people who are a bit weird i mean really being weird is good but this was one of the first conversations i had with him.
him "you smell nice"
core " o thx i think its my sun screen"
him "o no i mean your inner organs smell nice"
core :(
he was slightly forein sounding so i imagine he ment my insides or soul... and by smells he more ment able to perceive my soul. but still it rather freaked me out.
he later explained that he got this power to "smell organs" from god.. or the jews(i swear he said that)... and that a gaint cat someone helped too... and that he beat up someone using ki energy(said like the people from the dragon ball movie)... and that he saw the same power in my eyes.... and that this power stopped him from aging...untill it suddely caught up.. and that his head is different since he has a line running down the middle of his head.
the thing is being an open minded person i actually belive him to a degree... which just made it all the more freaky to be around the guy knowing he thinks or does have some kind of power..... and he sees it in me too ><
*takes a breath* ok now if your still here think this... this was only half of the wtf.. because for the rest of the day both this guy and another of my trainers practically fought over me to tell me both their ideals on religion .... yes.. so on one side i got a guy saying the jews are chosen of god and are undefeatable when they side with god and the other yelling about the fact that gay marriage is bad..
*sighs* well sorry for venting i just needed to get this out after having such a ... strange day...and need to apologize if i offended anyone... i didnt mean to, I just repeating what ive been hearing all day.. and asking if this is how work is suppose to be....
well i guess i should get rested for tomorrow... i have to walk another 8 hours of walking tomorrow... well thx for listening to me bitch *bows and hobbles away with sore legs and feet*
Well today is the day first job
General | Posted 13 years agowell looks like after a month of taking tests, filling out countless forms, and other annoying hoops i had to jump through I am finally going to my first day of my first job. as a security guard for a local collage. not sure how it will go but here is hoping it will be ok.
Well back to gimp
General | Posted 13 years agoHi everyone Looks like until I can buy Sai Ill have to go back to Gimp. Ive gotten over it to a degree but I need to relearn the program. well since i cant draw my pics fast enough, i want to know what pictures Ive drawn that you would like to see remastered to help me gain my gimp skills back so hopefully my skills can improve to provide you all with good art.
But yes ^^ plz I would love it if people would find some of their fav pics Ive done and send a link to this journal and ill see about remastering it for yeah guys ^^
I hope this messege meets you well
-Core
But yes ^^ plz I would love it if people would find some of their fav pics Ive done and send a link to this journal and ill see about remastering it for yeah guys ^^
I hope this messege meets you well
-Core
well... this is akward...
General | Posted 13 years agowell over the past mounth or two ive been learning to use to use SAi program, and been doing well. but i didnt relize that it was a trail program i was using o...O and it just expired... so well... im back to using gimp till i can get the money to buy it so dont be surpized if things look a bit off for a while
YOUR ALL AWSOME ^^
General | Posted 13 years agolol i know i should wait till the end of the day to post this to see the official numbers. but again i wanted to thank all my viewers and watchers your all awsome ^^
thank to you all and i know its silly to tell you all but im just so excited about the results. that after posting the dani comic i received 313 favs and about 70 new watches ^^ plus bumbing my page veiws from 10000 to 11000
so thank you all once again for faving my art and spreading it around FA ^^ its greatly appreciated. and im desperately trying to think of a pic to draw to thank you all.
but anyway thx guys and have a good day ^^
thank to you all and i know its silly to tell you all but im just so excited about the results. that after posting the dani comic i received 313 favs and about 70 new watches ^^ plus bumbing my page veiws from 10000 to 11000
so thank you all once again for faving my art and spreading it around FA ^^ its greatly appreciated. and im desperately trying to think of a pic to draw to thank you all.
but anyway thx guys and have a good day ^^
