Heyy, I was checking  ussghostboat gallery

and to my dismay noticed that he has just 174 watchers. He deserves lot more, because he is such awesome artist who pays great attention to detail's, colors and also because how he came to be artist. It wasn't all random, he planned it out and did his research and more.

While he is not NSFW artist, aka he doesn't do mature artworks but he does mawshots, and loves to do those with such painstaking attention to detail.

I have learned a lot from him of why certain things are as those are and structure, he has that passion for learning. And attentiveness of his commissioners needs and desires in such level that I have not seen before. Like he really dives into it what he does and why and for who. Also he does this as hobby, but in business like manner. Alas, all these plus the ingredible outcome of his works, especially these below have more than won me over. And he is going to work forward, alas eventually going to get more into doing and focusing on full body artworks too eventually. But for now, we can at very least enjoy perhaps the best colored and detailed mawshots there have been so far.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/36545345/ - Lion mouth This one is probably my all time favorite because of how dark and deep it looks, and of that glimmering moistness. It really feels that i can feel the breath coming out, and to feel that moistness *shivers* And stickyness inside, would I dare to touch those glimmering surfaces!

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/38564924/ - Tiger show off - This one, I actually commissioned from him like 2 next ones, and it came out sooo really well. I love how it looks, the perspective, and the feeling, and the background! And those colors...

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39983019/ - Adeline - Loook at this maw and that gulled and those shadowy colors of tong *shivers* There is actually story behind this artwork that I may upload here one day ~


https://www.furaffinity.net/view/40035397/ - Nighteyes - Just look at this freaking adorable derpy face, and then that mouth and how deep view inside you can get. <3


https://www.furaffinity.net/view/37182858/ - Another lion - This is one of those artworks that won me over as pure mawshot, and maybe not even as such but more as artwork, I just love the simplicity of this one. It is almost like cartoonish, and yet those colors... and attention to details there is.

These are some of my favorite picks. Though Ghostboat does a lot more, and is not restricted to Felines and canines but can do other species too. I have commissioned him to draw a Snake mouthshot in near future, of a similar kind as Adeline / Nighteyes.

 TitoAyahvo Is open for SFW commissions. Her art is really good and prices are affordable!

Her prices. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9191019/

My favorite art-pieces from her.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/28672503/ - Rather fantastic portrait / Maw-shot. I love these these details <3
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/30839989/ - Very intimidating artwork that makes me think of "last thing to see"
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/33004310/ - I really like those colors and feeling of this one.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/32972502/ - There is something brilliant on that facial emotion. Tito is really good with expressions and making paintings feel immersive in my opinion. :3

https://velocitypartners.com/resour.....UGp79UP6IGd8Q6FvKuW7d0EjfLo0fLL9gGDKKlNi1BblNFFJeJE_6r97bc3IDtdjNAU1KGmX552iUQiksC3ELBBVNkA&_hsmi=72143555

Seen it, tried it, felt it - It works.

Is your mind curious and questioning one? Like What went wrong, what I could do differently.

OR

Is your mind fast to blame (someone usually yourself or rich people) and state how things are.

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My mind used to be blunt, blaming and full of statement. Some of that stuff still blurts out.

I used to be like a lot.. very, very blaming. And helpless.


It is called learned helplessness. That term comes from Martin Seligman

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Martin_Seligman
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Learned_helplessness

He found it with some animal testing... rather cruel stuff. Especially how they treated dogs on that test.

Maybe even more horrifying was his Rat test. But, hey! They discovered cure with that too!

hmm.. I was trying to find reference for that rat test and I found instead this. And this looks much more useful for those who actually are interested!
Go for it if you feel hungry for more. This should sustain you well, if it doesn't ask for more. I know lot what to look for.

https://positivepsychologyprogram.com/learned-helplessness-seligman-theory-depression-cure/

It seems that those rat test are likely erased from the net / sources for good.. perhaps better so because it was really cruel stuff.
Old fox told how those rat test went though.. and I could tell you that story, as it kinda does give hope. Especially with video above.

Okay I am not going to escape it.. i'm going to tell it to you guys roughly as Old fox told it to me. So its likely not correctly told as it is from person to persons to person.. but well see.


The RAT test

Professor and Students placed huge amount of Rats to a tall narrow tubes with water so that rats had to swim there, and they started to take time.

Idea was that they would take time how long it takes for rats to give up.

It turned out that it took way too long, so they decided to speed things up and put there kind of like sprinklers that poured onto rats making them have to swim for their life instead of just floating and waiting.

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So the situation is that, well lets imagine that you're the Rat. You had no other option than to swim for your dear life or you will drown. And those bastard humans are all excited and taking time when you're going to give up and drown!

You know... swimming there for hours and hours and eventually dying at fatigue or giving up

Well... eventually one rat after another stopped swimming and drowned until all of them died. Results were interesting.

There was this massive portion of Rats that were like any rat, they swam and struggled there like lets say that average was 20 hours. I don't truly remember amount of hours.

So that was the average 20 hours.. those normal rats, some drowned faster some struggled longer.

But the most interesting to students and professor were the groups at both ends. At the top end there was that very small group of Rats that just refused to die and to give up.

That small group of rats just kept going and going, though the night to second day. 24... 28... 30 hours, or so until they died, their muscles probably burned all the calories and stopped working. And so, one after another this small portion of hero rats died after ridiculously long time.

That however is somewhat normal. There always are those who can do whole lot better than the average. Not many, but some.

However what was most interesting to researchers was the group I have not spoken of yet. Those rats who... once placed on the class under spinglers and in matters of hours looked up and though.

Screw this.. those are making fun of me and aren't going to stop. And just drowned.. like quite literally chose to die rather than to live in matter of few hours.

those bastards a'rent helping and are timing. Perhaps it is just easier to stop and to take sip of water. Rest of the life is more pleasant as this ant going to end otherwise.


That made professor to think and so they came up with another test example.

It was exatly same as before but with a small twink.

Quite shortly after starting. Short enough that none or very little of rats had died.. there happened something. Like accidents.

Straw fell to tube, that rat could use to climb out or tube tipped, giving rats change to escape, and then those rats were chased around the classroom.

unfortunately this was a plot, all the rats were eventually caught and put back to tubes to swim to death.

Just this time.

No one

Not a single rat

Gave up!

They all

Everyone of them swam to the night

to second day

and to the near other night... every one of them! They all swam more than 30 hours! Some even 36 hours!

THEY HAD HOPE!

Those rats though in their minds. Perhaps something will happen.

Maybe great manitou gets mad and punishes these humans.

Unfortunately they all eventually died, after burning every last bit of their strength.

But no one of them cave up.

Why? Because they all had HOPE.


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So Video above and this story I told, it all comes to following.

Ask yourself what you can do to improve and get better. Make use of this experience you just had. No matter if it was negative and awful, you can learn from it.

WHAT can you learn of it, what can you do differently.

And guess what. When you put that to action, and the more you do. The more you will eventually get hope. The more there may come straws from the sky, from friends, from the great unknown. The more likely is that world will flip over and suddenly you have your change to bloom!

DONT JUST SIT THERE FEELING SOUR AND LISTEN NEGATIVE STATEMENTS OF YOUR MIND.

Be active and question. - WHAT CAN I DO IN THE NOW - To make DIFFERENCE!

The more you DO, the more straws you may have.

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You know... I have read many stories. And in the stories, in almost every story the hero of the story does small things at the beginning. With the small act helps someone else or unselfishly does something very small.

Those things eventually pay off. That is where your straws come from. From things you may not consider important at all. That you did just because it was right thing to do.

Just keep doing. Keep asking what can you do in the now to make the difference and out of blue someday you will get your hope.


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Thing with hope is.. it doesn't give you what you expect. - It wants to surprise you. - Old Fox 2013

Or perhaps you are overly restless and soon you feel hungry again for more.

What did you actually eat last time?

This what we call depression, anxiety doesn't have just one source.

Living being is a whole thing - Meaning that everything affects everything.

And sometimes that something affects us way more than we are aware of

Here is another excellent video to get you aware of one more thing to keep track of. Maybe i am lying. Test it out and see for yourself, most of you will be surprised like I was and in a very good way.

Enjoy

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btw, perhaps some of you would like if Id try to find some good podcast / pod-casters for you to listen? I am as well tempted to send mail to Old fox and success that he could do one or more podcast in English.

Ha... and what I am doing here. Just posting another YouTube video.

But for a reason. This summarizes SO VERY MANY key things from well being, in such great way.

Enjoy!

ps, that tittle of video "your never be lazy again" sucks.. dont focus on that. focus on all the new and challenging. it is good and worth it!



If there is anything that you find weird or don't believe. Feel free to ask and Ill intend to explain why that is so.

So I am doing this web course once again and I stumbled upon small piece of text that made me cry.

It reads - "Do you still remember how you learned to ride a bicycle" And it then continues to speculate how it may have went.

That - As I started to think of it, made me cry.

Why?

Because, I realized that there is nothing I could not get if I want it much enough and if I have high enough motivation.

My bicycle story goes very vaguely something like this. -

I saw others Riding a bike, I saw my parents riding a bike, I even got to be behind bike, tied to a "baby seat" but most of all... my peers, older child's riding their bikes.

Chees I was so envious of them riding their bikes. I wanted to ride ones too. I really wanted. But at same time it was terribly difficult to even get on it, or to get it moving without me falling.

Those times I was tempted to quit

It is not going to work.

I cant do this.

I am not good enough.

Perhaps I lack in something.

That I am worse than all the others.

Now, I am sure you know the pattern of that - moment when you want to just give up. When you are afraid, unsure.

When you feel blame and guilt for falling, and falling.

Perhaps even when someone laughs at you.

And you just want to give up, quit it, stop it not to feel guilt, blame, failure of not succeeding like others do.

Then when you watch them ride, and your envy gets big enough, when you have your bike, perhaps your parents even buy you those little wheels to side or rear-wheel to help you learn.
Perhaps that is enough for you to get to move or maybe you choose to go on slope to get some momentum, or you are being pushed by your parent. Like I was pushed and kept straigh by my dad... tears come down Is a moment when you get the feeling, the belief that YOU CAN DO THIS

The moment when crowd of booying audience no longer affects you. When you know that you can do this. That you Believe on yourself. that you start to grow on your own for real.


No matter what you choose to learn to do. All you need is to find way to get yourself to believe on yourself. And truly there is nothing, nothing in the world that you could not achieve to learn over the time when you believe on yourself.

I have had this moment often and not so long ago it happened yet again. On work.

My mentor Risto, was there with me, like my dad was with me when I wanted to learn to ride a bicycle, just this time at work I wanted to learn to do better at work.

With calm patience he showed me how to, and I did after him. Thing at a time. Very basics to get into rythm and most of all to trust myself.

That same day, or days that he had been with me, I made my that time current record at work. Breaking old 4 year old one, but this time with ease, and calamity of mind. And I got my trust, my belief to myself that I can do this. Few days later I was struggling again, but week and half and I made an insane record of doing same that had previously taken me 10 hours, I did in just 6 hours. Now that is an improvement! And I was hardly sweating, more I was overly happy, and playful. I was positively striving to do better!

Ha.. Day after I crashed down again. Since of too high expectations.

Yeah.. Too high expectations of Results.. I wanted Results and Attention over all else. I wanted Glory...

When all that naturally comes to one who has won his believe on himself, has confidence and feeling that done work will be enough.

I am still far from that on most places I work. I rarely have these perfect areas to work on, but when I do, I bloom. However I desperately need to learn how to do on poor areas as well. When things are far from optimal.

And yes... key word is DOING, not Results. I need to - DO. To be focused on doing on how to CHANGE and ADJUST my doing.

Results are like drugs to perfectionist.

Ways to change our habit to be more effective are where the effectiveness comes from. And of course, of what we do not focus on. I mean this quote from Steve Jobs

One where he says. "People think that focus means saying yes to thing that you're going to focus on. But it doesn't mean that at all. It means saying No! - To all the unimportant that bugs your mind." ~ (freely translated back and forth from) Steve Jobs

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Damn I derailed myself magnificently here. AHAHAHA


Really. - I am so happy from tears because I understand that there is nothing we could not learn to do over the time.

There are all those negative thoughs on our mind, but so what.

Ask yourself this.


Is it important enough.

Do I truly want it? - WHY?

Do I truly belive on it?

Who could support and give me speed to learn it?


AND THEN


DO IT

And MORE OF IT

FAIL Knowing that failing is perfectly okay and part of learning.

We need to fail to learn. To learn to think forward, of what we could do differently. And do it again.


YOU CAN DO IT


WHAT EVER IT IS YOU WANT TO DO, TO LEARN, TO ACHIEVE, Give yourself time and YOU WILL EVENTUALLY SUCCEED!




And to end small bit all the more important quote from Old FOX

Little too little is much more than little too much.



Start with small my friends. - Don't take the whole cake at once, you're not going to be able to eat it in one go, and if you do, you just get your stomach upset and lose your taste for cakes, perhaps for good.




I wish you well. ~ Your lil bike riding bunny



You can do it!

Writer Mark Manson skillfully arguments, of how life actually is like Fife level video-game, and your mission is to get to a next level.

Manson is so friendly that he also reveals fife cheat codes that makes all this much easier. - "translated quote from newsletter written by Jyri Paavilainen"

https://markmanson.net/life-cheat-codes


I did read all that Manson wrote there, and having read his previous book many times, and lot of other literature I attest to all this. It works. Don't believe me try it or let time prove to you that it is so.

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Neil Gaiman - Inspirational Commencement Speech at the University of the Arts 2012

So, first little update to tell you where the tittle comes from.

Today was my first day of (Finnish) web training of Opi nopeammin, Työskentele tehokkaammin ->Learn faster, work more effectively. It's not that special wed training at all. Actually it just so far has repeated same stuff that Old Fox (Finnish radio Pod-caster) has taught me.

Anyways that said, yes that web-training was nothing special, but their Facebook group, and one message I got there - WAS!

A person named Raiku told me - "How he previously had very strong, and unknown to him, beliefs of himself being able to learn only things where he already was good at. In short. If he didn't feel being good at something, he felt that it was pointless to even try. And that even trying was too shameful and embarrassing if he didn't know that he could do it. This lead to point that he rarely tried to learn new things. And when he was young, he occasionally was good. As he almost solely only did things where he was already good at. Later it became a problem."

Now what I find so significant on this. Is that I was like that too. And I dare to suspect that many of you are like this on varying degrees. - WHY it is so?

To me it is all about Negative motivation loop that has snowballed on me.

Like to me it went like this.

I did thing where I was very good at. - I got praised and cheered and felt rush of dopamine (that rush feeling of high that comes when our body gives us a dose of dopamine hormone)
-> I started to focus on doing things where I am good at to get more of that feeling and attention, praise and cheers

But not only that - Even worse was that when I wasn't very good at something, there was this negative effect of some looking down at me with blame or just casually (because they had been envious previously or something when i had been good.) And I got feelings of shame and guild.

That my friend is very bad thing. It feeds bad habit loop of only doing things where one is good at! And avoiding things even being afraid of things where one is afraid to feel shame or guilt

When I only did things where I was good at. - I usually hardly improved after a while. It actually got rather sick and stressing way of pretending that I am good or better. And in fact, when I tried more than I could do. I just wasn't able to learn anything at all. And this has haunted me over and over again in my life. More or less all of my life.

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My questions to you are.

Are you guilty to bad habit loop? - one where you focus on doing and improving things where you already are good at, and avoiding things where you are not because youd feel ashamed and guilt of not being good at once?

What has been cost of this negative habit loop to you. -> Do you want to get rid of it?

Today was a interesting day.

My friend asked of me about Old Fox, if he is a podcaster.

Yes he is.

2013 autumn, I was working on forest. I am a forest machine operator.
So while logging I usually do something meanwhile. Once you have learned to do that work it actually gets hellishly boring. Or so I thought back then. My thoughts about that has changed recently. But that is not today's topic.

I was listening radio. While I wasn't talking on phone or pre occupied by.. warm something unproductive like being upset of my own thoughts of something usually about others. Blaming, playing guilty etc.. I'm sure you know those kind of thoughs. Don't you?

So.. I got bored with music that came from radio. Truly.. so often there comes same songs all day long and often in predictable order that once you have listened for first couple of hours, you. Know pretty much what to expect. Atleast that was so here in Finland back in 2013. Also other thing was that much of that music was making my thoughts run wildly depressive. So many love songs and songs about.. well. Kind of survival.. like if everything was constant struggle. I got fed up and wanted to listen something else than music.

I happened to know that we have a radio station that had no music and there is only talking or speech.. so I took my time to tune in and found it. And what I heard was Old Fox talking passionately about something. I don't exactly remember what it was, I just remember that it was something about effects of bullying, raising childs and young generation and of some wisdoms he has learned from sport coach of his new wife who was Finnish skiing gold medalist for many years. Hence sport coach teachings were there too.

And it all rang true to me. It was weird really. It all felt real and plausible. It didn't feel wrong or manipulation. And quite good bit I personally felt was true or proven true in my life already. Especially bullying stuff. - I was bullied a lot when I was child.

It was fascinating to listen him but it soon ended and would come again next week around same time. Daaaw!

At work people didn't know of that program and most of them knew this person. They were actually very rude in how their voices spoke of him not by words exactly but tune and way of speech. And they called him that overly rich Juppe. "A person who fakes being better than he is." And it seemed as if their message was that anything that comes from old fox is brainwashing junk. That he just speaks to get attention.

I found this weird. Because after all what I had heard had rang true with my earlier experiences. And he had sound genuine and even listed sources for his bits and pieces of information he shared. So.. that led me to tune in next week to find out more. And to be suspicious of him and his speakings.

When that next week came.. after the podcast. I was even more impressed. Not that I would have understood everything but what I was able to take in had rang true once again. And somehow I felt more strong. That there was someone who spoke wisely about things that plague our time.

In matter of weeks I was ready to create fanclub and start trumpeting what I had heard from podcast to virtually anyone. I was that deeply taken by what there was. At some point I even bought his book. (Though I didn't read it) cause there happened to be visit to a friend who had problems and who helped me with something I think.. or Maybe it was just a gaming session together with him anyways.. I gave that book to him. And he was impressed by it and said good things about it. Not overly much praise buy very mildly. That puzzled me then. I thought it would be better than that. Also my friend too, tuned in to listen those podcast I think.. or Maybe I mess timeframe once again. It's after all over 5 years.

Anyways. Same happened with my girlfriend. To her too I gave that book.. and once again I had to get one to myself later on. But more it seemed as if we all liked old fox but none exactly knew how to apply his teachings. Least me who so passionately spoke of those to others back them.

Then.. Depression hit, big and strong. A kind of feeling of worthlessness. Lack of purpose. I saw myself as no one. Unworthy and that world would be better of without me. I'm not exactly sure what things led to this. I think there was many. Maybe it was time when me and my girlfriend chose not to meet ever again. Or problems of that. We just didn't get along very well. Probably since I wanted to have so much time alone. To isolate myself. And she lacked my attention and love that previously had been so plentiful. Perhaps it was because of work. There was more and more pressure to get more done and better quality. I few times I was even bluntly told that I had done better in past. And that my current productivity was unsustainable. That led me to do more hours to compensate and lack even more sleep and ruin rest of my day pattern. - great solution eh?

Anyways perhaps I'll go more deeply in those times some other time. I suspect I have order of events and happenings messed up big time. But anyways. I was Soo fucking depressed that I pondered how to end my life with least problems and worries for everyone. Car crash seemed most easy one... But it couldn't be collision with truck.. I didn't want to traumatize truck driver nor cause anyone to have to pay for my stubit doings. At some point this thinking got too much... I was nearly breaking and at work.. as I was working I did lot of mistakes and ruined trees that were supposed to be left to stand. So I nearly crashed mentally back then. I was crying uncontrollably. But from somewhere one of those sentences old fox had said rang in my mind again and again. It was as simple as " get help"

So.. I did.

I found a phone number to crisis phone.. or emergency service. However that is called. Usually for people who are deeply traumatized like.. after rape or so.. and I called there.

That there was other person to listen my crying. Talking and taking in my cries with love was enough to keep living. To keep breathing. To live another day.

Now.. I'm not sure of this order whether my friend was next one to save me or not but at another deep crash crying there was this simple message from my friend from past with simple hello.. that she was there once again. And it was all I needed. And I was so thankful that she had found me interesting and good company enough to spend time with.

I did actually sough help from doctor later on to this depression and I was diagnosed with medium serious depression.. funny thing is. That I was already healing and getting better when that happened. And it kinda made my resolution to get better just to intensify. Though.. it was helpful to have that expert phone number at hand for day when crisis would once again him me. Just having that phone number of professional help was enough. I never called to that number. Once I dialed it.. but never actually made that call. Instead I sough help and wisdom from. Literature and podcast of old fox. Funny thing is.. that my doctor actually recommended a book to me. One of those that old fox had spoken well of. And while it wasn't anything at all about depression. But more like human race and evolution it too helped. Actually.. I think that all knowledge and wisdom helps. Just that there is something else to listen than your own thoughts has been to me often plenty enough to survive yet another day. And to top that.. being more vise too having learned something new.

So.. yeah first big thing I learned from. Old fox was. " get help" I'd personally add that being early at that would be greatly preferable. Rather that. Waiting for seeing the edge of cliff.

This journal was supposed to be about something else though...
I had planned to write about old fox as in person because after 5+ years I finally met him in person today. Actually I was one of ten other visitors who was invited to be audience on his 100 podcast from his home.
And it was something... Something unforgettable but more of that some other time as today changed so much (and little) in so many ways.

I wish you all well there. And sorry for messy journal. I am at buss traveling to big city nearest my home.. and trying to stay awake.

As many of you who read this might already know. I suffered from a difficult depression for many years.

And at worst I was about to end up my life. Fortunately I didn't and I am able to keep getting better on most days. Sometimes there is back step, but more often I am getting better. I has been long process of turning the tide and that is what I want to share to you.

So many of you suffer directly or indirectly, as yourself or from others Depression, anxiety and things like addictions.

I have come to point where I no longer want to only get better myself, but as well to share, to tell to others of what worked to me and what made difference. In short. I want to do my share to make world and this community we have here a better place.

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Unfortunately to most who watch me this means that here on my profile there will be much less, VORE content from now on.

That is because... well, Vore has been way for me to escape reality. - It's been my addiction and still is to some extend.

And I have come to understand that it is not good for me. Not in doses I was enjoying it. -> Anything can be harmful in too large amounts. <-

More over, I want to devote my life more to things that are beautiful and... well I find this odd. Especially for myself but for some very odd reason. "Poetic" And I might be able to blame Old Fox for that. He so often uses poetry on his Radio show that it was bound to have some effect on long term and I have listened his shows since 2013!

Anyways, I'm going to tell more about Old Fox on some other journal. But that I can tell to you that he is to me -> My captain. (inspiration to call him that comes from movie Dead poets society
)

It is he who I got to listen at first and that way to remember things he speaks of and tries to teach. Eventually I have learned more and now I feel it is time to begin sharing of what I have learned to be able to learn it even better. And Oh no, he is not teaching his own stuff but what he too is trying to learn from masterminds of world. He is just one who publicly gets to spotlight to teach all that. But more about him on some future journal.

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So if you are upset that instead of vore stories and artwork made by others you will find yourself bombarded by journals about how I am winning my battle against depression and my invitation for you to join me on that. and if you don't want to read such or receive further notifications. Hit that -watch buttom above this journal.

See you again if you decide to change your mind, and in that case I will welcome you :3


For you others who decide to stay.

I intend to serve you from my whole heart and to make your time to read these journals worth of your time. At least most of the time. Perhaps that is too much of a coal but hey, we ough to start from somewhere!



That's enough for today. I wish you well. :3

That is what I wonder.

I have a story relating this question of mine. Few years ago I was very much depressed. To a level that I was at verge to end my life in matter or hours.

It didn't happen because message from old friend. One with possible even more rough times than I had. Message was nothing about me, it was just a simple "hello", announcement that she is there. And that alone filled my heart. I had shared much with her and we are much a like, and very much not a like each others. But we get along really well, when we do. That is infrequent and perhaps reason why it always felt so fresh to be contacted by her.

Now she has very, very rough times in her life. She has not contacted me for over an year, and I don't know why. I suspect many things. Such as... that I am no longer worth of her time and so.

Yet here I wonder. Not only cause of her, but cause of so many of you out there with similar times and feelings.

How to carry hope to those in need of it.


Sincerely ~ Lumi

best parts at the beginning

Action begins at 50 seconds time, slightly to the right.

I kind of wish this video coult take it all the way to belly :3

Like this it is already best I have seen out there and look, you can also see down, up and outwards from the mouth, How cool is that!

Today, I read this book and Im awestruck. It was like dynamite to me. That because I have been very troubled in life of many many things.

in other words... I have given a fuck to too many things. And even worse. I have not given a fuck to most important things, at least not as much as I should have.

This book contains such jewels of wisdom hidden in the simple message of to give a fuck only to a things that matter.

And how that comes to be... from values of life. There are bad ones, and good ones, and those are not obvious. Yet when you read all the reasoning, all those begin to make sense.

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I highly recommend this book. I feel that it could be life saving to many, who have or suffer from mild depression, or something alike.



Sneak peek here

https://markmanson.net/not-giving-a-fuck

Hi. My friend  bljou made a Discord vore server a while ago and so far it's been great! Some great peoples joined there with pratical thinking and good humor.

We have even roleplayed there some already. And talked a ton of stuff about different animals, our characters and vore in general.

If you would like to join our group here is a invitation link to it https://discord.gg/rSnwk3z


If you have any questions or something troubles you please feel free to ask from us there or from me here.


~ Lumi

I sincerely wish a merry Christmas to all of you. May it be a good one. :)


Sincerely ~ Lumi

Hi there my friends and watchers. Go check out Toshis artgallery. She is brand new on FA and already contributed a bit with some fairly good drawings. You might like her art.

She has a promising start for one whos been there just 2 days. And im sure more is to come!

Check out her profile from here  toshi626

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/toshi626/

As most of you know I'm or well. I atleast tittle myself as a writer.

There is a problem however that I need help with. - I feel most uncertain of what to write. And write is must if I ever want to be proper writer.

Sooo yeah. It is difficult for me to just pick up something and write. Because of this horrible feeling of choosing wrong. Doing mistake of some sort.

Also... I really need practice on other areas than my confort zones. I need to challenge myself way more than I have in the past. So.... please


Dare me, Challenge me, Suggest me what to write. What kind of tags you would want me to write from. If nothing else, please write here 3-5 your favorite tags of short stories. From what I can create a story or a scene from.



And from comments that I receive from here. I will randonbly choose one at a time and write a story / scene from. That I may upload here on FA... or atleast will send link to writing to one who suggested me to write it. Once it is done, I will then choose next and so on, untill all are done.


In name of all fairness: one story / scene per person. - So choose it wisely what youd want me to write.


And PLEASE do not ask everything at once. Like... lets say if you want me to write story of cat driving a car. Or fish running a marathon. It should be obvious that on same short story / scene this above mentioned fictional cat cannot drive a tractor or play video game while driving a car. Nor that fish cannot bed a coat at same time while running marathon. So choose visely tags from story / scene youd like me to write to you.

And YES... anything, I will try to give it a go what ever it is that you want me to write.

I'm quite descriptive writer, and I can easily immerse myself in the situation of what is happening. At least if I have any understanding of characters and enviroment.

This said... I hope you do not expect me to write based on a story or context someone else has created. Like... book, movie, story, anime, cartoon, character created by someone else. - You can suggest me such but please do not expect it as there is only a small change id know it. So write it with cursive or close it with ( ) marks. As an extra suggestion. If I have or Im interested to learn I will include it to short story.

Okami returns this december, and a big time.

https://inactivenobody.tumblr.com/p.....nd-pc-launches

My dear friend

 Dimakan

Has returned to FA with a new account

 bljou

Quite few of you know and have her old account on watch list. It would be nice to add her new account to your watch list as well to encourage her to upload art here :)

I did talk with her some and it seems that once the fuss with her moving to a new home. And gaining a proper interned connection is accomblished she would likely get more active. And begin to upload some art.

On her old account will be no longer be coming art as she is unable to acces that account. Trouble is that she did not only lost account information but as well email so she had no way of recovering either of those.


Nevertheless. Welcome back my best friend. I have missed you a lot!

After long time just idling. I finally though to start doing something to make my account and my character more visual. While I do not really posses any real drawing or visual art skills, I have found few artist whos art I like and have good luck commissioning some YCHs.

Also... its not just my character, but one another thats relationship most if not all artworks will be related to. But more about that in future in form of art I hope.

So yeah. I did commission artist known as Shadowpup23 to do me a mawshot. I had looked one he had done long time ago, and I though it was good enough, and rather cheap. just 30 dollars. So why not.

So I commissioned him to do a mawshot of my character. And in quite a detail as well, I mean we discussed rather much of small things that could make difference.
And now a day later. I have the finished artwork. - Im surpriced by quality of this. I mean... yeah I did expect something like this but not this good. It's like the artist Shadowpup23 totally exceeded my expectations and even went a little bit over of those.

If you want to take a look. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/212.....#cid:112405575
http://d.facdn.net/art/shadowpup23/.....i_merged_2.png

I think he did a great work there. Especially cost wise.

Those teeth little bit bother me, as those look too pointy to be canine ones but im pretty sure he will do lot better already to next artworks. I have had quite a discussion with him.

However now what strikes me is the lack of attention and commissions he has received when compared to quality.

We have been together watching his artworks and callery. And it appears that he loves to do landscape art. But that he enjoys as well vore and hence does mawshots.

I really like the way how he is ready to try new things and how well he responds to commissioners recuest, ideas and how he works with.

And yet he gets little if no commissions. This commission of my was one of first for a very long time. In such long time that he had lost hope.

So yeah... in short. If you like these mawshots, and other art he does. Go a head and ask him if he could make your idea to come true. Remember that its not only this kind of mawshots, but that as well other and way different ones are possible. Who knows he might even do inside view of your characters lovely belly.

Also I think it would be very well possible to do a collab artwork with him. He seems to enjoy doing backgrounds and landscakes. So why not to do some teamwork. :)

Take a look will you?

 Shadowpup23

Sooo yeah. I live on old wooden house. Over 80 years old, and with only traditional ventilation via windows and flap (vent) in the smokestack.

This same vent was trouble earlier on this year. When a lot of small insect (kind of mosquito just Finnish ones) were coming from all the small holes and went's of house. So to be able to went the house and not to suffer from these insects I made hasty cover from old mosquito hat and duck tape. It worked all fine.

However... moment ago I heard weird noise and went to look where it came from and after a while of wondering it came apparent that there was many bats in the vent / mosquito hat combination. I count total four of them. Anyways.. you might like to see this.

Hope you enjoy. :)

https://youtu.be/gXV2m3KNSuc

So yeah, last weeks have been very surprising to me.
Especially cause of surprise artwork of what  AlekTheBeasty did, and gracefully linked to my first artwork here that he had enjoyed reading long time ago. - If there would be way to measure how thankful I'm to you Alek, it would be at max limit. Thank you for making my week best for long time and inspiring me back to activity here.

And urm... This surprise resulted... well to me... an Huge amount of watchers (9) and favorites (16) from many. It is something that I wasn't able to imagine, and still its hard to believe to. But there you are. I'm so thankful to you all of finding me worthy of being watched, and I don't want to let you down either. So I'm going to get a little bit more active here.

So, I'm going to start posting some really really old Roleplay logs I have that I... could have posted long time ago but thought otherwise cause many are too similar to these I have already posted, and especially because those are just roleplay logs, not stories. Well... those have a plot and so but still just roleplay logs, with really poor English. So... you know there are some coming "Eventually".

I give no estimation or promise for these since my IRL is what it is, I don't want to talk about it. Yet stay hopeful, and being cheerful would be welcome. :3

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Umm... what else... Right. Im bad at these journals but yeah.

I'm as well working to write some stories on my own. However It is painfully slow process cause I have really hard time to stay motivated. It seems that I need someone to write with me "Play a part" in writing for me to be able to produce walls of text with no apparent effort. That is as well main reason why... stories here are and probably will be mainly some-kind of RP logs, from more or less advanced RP's.
- If someone feels like same, and would like to do in depth stories, by long paragraphs and descriptive writing, I would like to talk to you.

Also... in future you can expect more variety of what kind stories are to come. Yet main one will stay on soft oral one.

And... for those not interested of vore or fetishes. I will in future post non vore stuff to my DA account instead.

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And um. Someone might be interested to know that I commissioned  fredhamilton42 to write "vore" story idea that I had. That will.. hopefully be rather long, and descriptive one. About a human child and tame tiger, who's life's are full of suffering. It's their story to break out from that suffering.
- I'm waiting to get sample of progress in coming months.


That is about it... I think?

once more. Thank you all for watching me. I'm sorry for being what I'm. Id wish to be better yet I'm not. Thought for you, I will try. ^^



Sincerely

EyesOfTheNight,
(Eon, Lumi or Lumituisku.)

What ever name is one you know me better.