Hey fluffybutts, I wanted to make my journey in terms of art a little more professional, so I am going to me moving to a dedicated art account! For Fa, its and on twitter, it will be mokhadesign!! I will be doing a raffle every 100 followers on twitter as well! I hope to see you all there~ <333

Wow, I was looking at my past journal and how I felt back then regarding art. I have to be completely honest, xainy's words helped so much more than I thought at first. Im happy to say im consistently drawing every day, just trying to improve in any way I can. Reminding myself that art is something that makes me happy, keeps me much more motivated. You can easily get lost in frustration trying to improve, instead of enjoying the process.

Don't know who will even see this, but i just need to put it out there in general. I have a feeling that if I gave even half a shit about my artwork and really put effort into it, I could be confident enough to maybe even do commissions, let alone just creating content. between anxiety and depression i just cant find the willpower to try at something i fucking enjoy, something i know would be good for me, that could be more than just a hobby. It's extremely difficult to come on this website every day and look at all the great content and wonder why i should try in the first place, when others out there are doing so much more. I'm stuck in this limbo of wanting to fucking do something with the little talent i own, and being too afraid to push myself/ lack the motivation.

no idea what to fucking do.