Attention folks! If you have Animal Crossing New Leaf, hit me up with your friend code if I don't have it already, and let me know when you'll be on! :3

~Fait

ANyone out there going to Furry Fiesta? And if you are, wanna hang out? I don't know anyone in the area and I'd like to be able to hang out with some folks. Message me if you're going!

~Fait

Well, in about 5 hours, i set off for that glorious gathering known as MFM! Hope to see folks there! if you're going to be around and want to say hi, give me a buzz on google talk or steam (user name is rougia) and I'll see if we can meet. Take care and hope everyone's well!

~Fait

Legend of Zelda: Four Swords is available now for download FREE! If you have a DSi or 3DS, go nab it quickly!

~Fait

Well, today has been fun. Went for lunch, picked up a few items, then got into a wreck. :(

We had been travelling down the highway, and came to a stop with traffic behind a jeep. Well, que the lady behind us, who comes barreling up and slams into us, ramming us into the jeep in front, who has a spare tire on the back. The front of our van is caved in, and thusly totalled. My roomamte,  Savaaha is currently at the hospital, getting xrayed and may have whiplash. I'm fine as is her hubby, though for the foreseeable future, the van is gone from use. I appoligize if I'm not in the best of moods; all I want to do now is just deal with this and return things to normal.

~Fait

Alright, peeps, I'm at MFM! Look for me in room 422 or around the lobby area!

~Fait

So last night I was sitting and chatting with various folks, being a bit bored due to the fact hardly anyone was on (It was after midnight where I was, so barely anyone was on) and out of the blue, my roommate PMs me, saying she found my mother's grave.

For those not in the know, my mother passed away early in 2008, when I happened to be in Chicago, IL at the time. I came back south by the end of the year, finally, but by then, she'd been buried for months. And the only ones who knew where she was buried were my family, and they weren't going to tell me unless I came to visit them.

I don't like my family. Bullied, abused, picked on and nearly killed, I put up with it until the day my father tried to shoot me in the head. I parted on bad terms, my own father even going to far as to steal my last paycheck (Because he deserved that money, not me) so I tended to simply not think about them. Well..

I had always wanted to go pay my respects to her grave... but I wanted no interaction with my family to do it. And now I have a way. I just wonder... should I? I feel so confused and mixed up. Going would be closure, I'm told... something I desperately need. But then I stop and wonder... is it really worth it driving a state over? just to clear my head? I'm lazy like that. And heartless too; I didn't even dry when I was told my mother had died. The fact that I didn't actually frightened me, making me wonder just how bitter and angry I am... about her, about all of them.

I don't know if I'll go or not... but if I do, at least now I won't have to deal with those people whom I have the displeasure of calling family.

~Fait

It's Mothers day... and I'm overcome with a wave of depression. I don't know what to do, how to feel or even what I should do. I feel lost and numb.

I just want a mother.

~Fait

Hey,  shibara Shibara is doing a free raffle-type offering for a smutty pic of someone's character! (http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/2022569/) Make sure you all go and read the commish info, located here: http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/1169312/ before posting. Make sure to advertise Shibara in a journal of your own, and leave a reference pic of your character. Good luck!

~Fait

Okay, it's that time folks! you going to MFM? Lok for me there, I'll be around!

~Fait

My apologies to those who I've promised requests. I recently got over a nasty case of flu, and am still recovering. between that and working to recover the days missed from work, I've been rather run ragged so I'm struggling to get back up to speed. So, please, bear with me; I'm getting back up to speed, and with someone offering to commission me for another story, I'll be trying to split time between requests and commission as well. So again, thank you all for waiting patiently.

~Fait

Alright, so.. I now have 3 request slots open and i no time, they've been filled. So I'll needto get to work on these to see just how well I can do this.

Request slots:
1.  evilgod

2:  DiamondDragon

3:  leons1

That's all for now. I'll try and get these done quickly.

~Fait

Okay, here's the deal. I'm selling one of my most favorite pieces, a Rouge the Bat Sonic X action figure, still in box (with a very minor bit of wear to the package) on eBay. Have a look-see if you like. She probably won't be there long as she's currently the only one on eBay right now..>.>

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&item=290352231744

~Fait

Heads up folks! I am going to MFM! Look for me there if you're going! Say hi, we can shill or whatever. and have fun!

~Fait

You know which ones I mean. You come here, nag artists for free art, requests and such. and when you get them, you simply nag the poor bastard into oblivion. I have lost several friends by this point due to idiotic nagging jackasses like you.

They leave, fading into obscurity or try and resurface under a new name. And once they DO resurface, the shit slinging starts again. It's like you retards have no life, no sense of decency and no respect for anyone or anything.

Why look at something that pisses you off or makes you sick? Do you LIKE being offended? Do you feel your life lacks validity if you don't have something to stand against? Grow the fuck up. You're a tard, and rallying against artists and writers who make media that you find offensive makes you an asshole, and only advertises it even more. You don't like it, walk the fuck away. Stop pissing and whining like an impotent jerk and get on with your life, you waste of spunk.

Stupid. A lot of drama over a bunch of retards who are so incredibly stupid, yet have the resourcefulness to operate and use a computer. The fandom has gone down the toilet and I don't see it coming back again. Thanks a lot, you narrow-minded fucksticks.

~Fait

Okay, I've had it with the BS of.. Well, EVERYTHING.

I'm sick of the new set up on FA.I mean, how hard is it to go in and change a few things on the site so that I don't see a shit-ton of submissions, journals and posts that have been posted and removed? I must have like, over a hundred submissions alone that WERE there, but have now been 'Removed by THE USER'! *gasp* Why not just removed the whole damned notice and be done with it? ugh. I'm sick of seeing folks who DID watch me, then removed that watch, or posted a journal, then removed it moments later.. and I have no frigging clue WHO it is/was.

And for all you jackasses out there, bitching about people to shut the fuck up about whining on Valentines Day?

FUCK YOU. You were just as much a bitch at some point in your life as they are now. The only difference is, now you're banging someone (or something) and you just wanna rub their noses in it like someone did to you, once upon a time. Fuck Valentines, Fuck YOU, And piss off. nobody gives a shit about your fucking relationship with such and such or so and so, unless you're posting naked pictures of it online. If you want these fucks to stop bitching, try being sympathetic instead of just considering yourslef better than them because you have something to jam your junk into.

Meh.

~Fait

Well, I'm moving again. For those who're wondering where, it's back where I started, down south. Why? Well.. a lot has happened to me over the past few months most notably being that my mother died.

I can't seem to get any work up in Chicago, even at fast food places, so I'm going back, get my life straightened out again and survive, generally. Wesha has helped and supported me since earlier this year, but I can't continue to live like that. I do appreciate it, but I need to be able to work. To do my own thing. And not to have to wait for someone to be in the house before I can leave. (No house key. >.<)

So first top on the way back south will be MFM. If you're going, drop me a line. We can meet up, chill and hang together, before I continue back down south.

Hope to see you there!

~Fait & Rougia

Where's the vore party? I'm stuck wandering aronud in Tigerden and the Ballroom and I have no clue where to go for it! Anyone help? Directions or something? please?

~Fait

okay, I'm here at AC! look for the Fait and Rougia badges!

~Fait

How exactly does one draw liquids with color? I need to know what I can use or what I should do to make it blend naturally. Anyone who can explain it in PLAIN ENGLISH without a lot of techno babble, please respond.

Thanks!

~Fait

I do believe I'll be attending AC. It'll be nice to finally get to meet some of the folks I've seen here on FA and hopefully even get to hang out with them. I just hope that everything goes smoothly. I'll have my sketch pad so I'll be up for sketching with folks if you want. Say hi to me! Please! :P

~Fait & Rougia

Today, May 15, 2008 at 3:50pm my mother.... died.

How am I supposed to feel?

A lot of you will say I should feel sad or overwhelmed with grief. But for the last few years, I never got along with my mother or father. Having a 12 gauge pointed at your face by a drunk parent will do that to you. I didn't harbor anger to them, once I was out of the situation; I simply wished them the best and hoped I'd never have to deal with them again.

I feel numb. My whole body... I don't know what to do or how to feel. I can't.... think.


My mother is dead. And I don't know how to feel.

~Fait

When you listen to someone pour their heart out to you about their ideas and such but when you try and do the same for them, they simply tell you,"I'm not interested" or "I don't care"?

I'm about sick of that. I have several people whom I listen to on a regular basis about things and nearly all of them treat me the same way or simply aren't around enough to listen. It just gets kinda old after a while. Maybe *I* wanted to write or draw something and I need someone to swap ideas back and forth with. But no... they're too wrapped up in their own thing to even entertain the idea that anything I do could be worth their time. What really pisses me off though is when they outright refuse to listen to me, but get pissed off when I don't show enthusiasm to their work.

This is NOT how friendship works. It's a 2 way thing. If I can sit and listen to someone talk my ear off about this and that even though I'm bored senseless, then dammit, they should have the decency to allow me the same courtesy. Otherwise, I'm just here as a convenient ear for you and nothing more. And I'm sick of it. I need someone to bounce ideas off of. Someone actually interested in my stuff.

So, since current friends refuse to listen, I'm asking for help. I'm currently working on a few story ideas, some inspired from a few different places. I'd like help seeing what new and creative ideas folks can help me with. I'll be posting some of my work here as well, provided Poke fanfics are allowed (hopefully).

So, hit me back. message me, tell me whatever's on your minds. I'm willing to listen.

~Fait

[EDIT]

The folks I'm speaking of know who they are. It's not any one individual either so, don't think I'm targeting one specific person. Those folks know who they are. Besides, I'm more interested in having someone actually talk to me and be interested in my ideas as much as I'm interested in theirs.

Not a joke. Not a gag. I hate this goddamned day. Nothing can be taken seriously today. I know everyone likes playing pranks on April Fool's but it's not nearly that funny when you KNOW it's coming. I've seen several folks put up 'Free sketches!' offers today, only to get slapped down immediately thanks to this fucking day of gags. Tons of gag emails, gag videos on YouTube, folks posting things that just can't be taken seriously...

So, no, I don't like it, don't care for it. And yes, I know I sound sour; When the day's over I'll go back to being nice and quiet again. I tend to treat this day like any other. Why? I don't know. Maybe I just matured too much and became jaded. Maybe it's just cause I'm in a shitty situation and don't like dealing with the hassles. Who knows. Certainly not me.

Sorry for the rotten attitude. It'll be better tomorrow.

~Fait

Bluntly put, I hate Easter.

Not for the religious over tones to it. On the contrary; I could care less about it. It's a holiday that was robbed from another religion and used for christianity. Big whoop. It's been done before.

No... this starts a long time ago, when I was a wee lad of 15. Easter morning. I'm climbing a tree, having fun, since after all, it's Easter. I fall out of the tree and break my left arm. Much pain was had.

The next year, I broke my toe on the tub on Easter morning while taking a shower. No biggie, right? Two years of stuff going wrong.

The next year. My old car is being worked on, so I have a different car. it catches fire on me on Easter morning when I'm out at the store. Not good.

The next year? Slept in and missed the whole day. Nothing bad happened.

And so on. Lost jobs. Broken or damaged body parts or important things around the house lost, stolen or broken. Always on Easter. And the general... icky mood that drops on Easter, similar to my birthday. Ugh. Is it any wonder I try and sleep in on Easter if I can?

No, I don't like Easter. I'm not a fan of religion, so this isn't about religion. I despise this day as much as my birthday. I will be glad when it's over and done with for another year. Now I'm going to sit back and hope this day ends without incident. knowing my luck, tho', my car downstairs was already towed, leaving me stranded.

~Fait