It was floating around. My motivation to study had dropped significantly all of a sudden. So sue me. :D

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1. We all know what we call you, what about the folks at home? What's your name?
Real name Nicholas but everybody and nearly EVERYBODY calls me Nick. It's short, sweet and precise.

2. How tall are you?
176cm. I'm short!

3. Natural hair color?
Black and I think I'm slowly becoming bold. Thank you for nothing, ya' stupid books!

4. What about eye color?
Black. Black and black. Wait, I have 3 eyes!

5. What orientation are you?
70% on males and 30% on women. Now screw everything!

6. Are you single, taken, or undecided?
Online, in a relationship with one special person but single where I'm at. I would personally like to have a real relationship with that certain tiger but being a realist, it may not happen. Thus... I guess I'm partly single.

7. What do you do in your spare time?
Write, online, workout, work and work... Did I mention that I bring my work home on the weekends on do them on my free time? LOL!

8. What's your job?
An auditor in a small accounts firm who handles fuck loads of shit (at times) from clients where they expect us auditors to do every single shit that they gave to us and doesn't care about our feelings and leave us all to die and claim that we are GODS! I hate audit! LOL! Now people hate ME for being an auditor!

9. What's one thing you like about yourself?
Nothing really. There is nothing to like about being ME. Be YOU! LOL!

10. Alright, now what about something you dislike about yourself?
Plenty of things but the most is me being utterly fat! Lookit those fucking spare tyres!


11. What's some things your friends noticed about you when they first met you?
The way I look? I guess? Lookit that big fat guy coming our way! *kills*

12. Of what faith/religion are you(if any at all?)
Christian but I am not an activist. I don't participate actively in church activities but I do believe in God though. I pray every now and then.

13. Do you drink?
No. I don't drink. Hell! It took me three fucking hours to drink a simple can of Carlsberg! I took two sips of red wine and threw the rest away!

14. Do you smoke?
No. I don't. I hate smokers. I hate smoking and I hate the smell. Bitch!

15. What are your fears?
Death, being alone, darkness and roaches. Yes, I run the fuck away when I see a roach.

16. What are your dreams/goals?
To get at least some toned muscle while I'm still young and accomplish something cause as of right now, I have accomplished nothing in my life and I'm 24. FML!

17. Ever had any crushes/ex's in the past/present?
Yes, yes and yes.

18. Who's your best bud?
More like best budS. I have more than one but less than 10.

19. Alright, you got the cravin' for munchies, what'cha reachin' for?
Green tea... or some pineapple tarts.

20. Favorite drink?
Soya milk, green tea and water. Yeah. Water.

21. Favorite color?
RED!

22. If you had any super power, what would it be?
Teleportation! I would love to move here and there and go anywhere! And never be late as well.

23. Favorite movie?
Rise of the Guardians, How to train your dragon, Wreck-it-ralph and kung fu panda.

24. Least favorite food?
Anything that's bitter. Yelch!

25. Quick! You have only one meal left before you die!!! What is it?
A buffet at a japanese restaurant!

26. What do you drive/wish you drove?
Driving an old car. A Proton but I'm not sure if anyone knows that kind since it's made locally. Don't really have a preference as to what car I'm driving. As long as it moves, compatible, comfortable and gets me from one end to another, I'm good.

27. Most disliked bug?
Roaches! Fuck it! I can't even fucking kill one without the fear of killing them! Wait, roaches aren't bugs. They are insects. Then, it would be mosquitoes. LOL! I'm confused.

28. Most hated pet peeves?
Can't find the word for it but it's something that gotta do with disturbing another person's peace.

29. Dislike in life?
Plenty of things. I'm a hateful person. With the mask of power that's invested in my face, I wear a facade to show that I like things when I don't like life. :D

30. Most annoying?
Unsure. Too many.

31. Most disliked TV show?
Don't really know. I rarely watch much TV besides Cartoons.

...rather unpleasant. Not in a really really bad or miserable way but mentally. This the season to be 'jolly' and have relative visitation; that's what Chinese New Year is about. Relative comes and catch up with each other, especially with my slightly ill grandma and we get red packets, just like what the whole celebration is and about. But it pains me to hear and know that my family kept pressing on matters of how grown up we are. Just few days ago, I turned 24, which was in the same week of Chinese New Year. From there on, grandparents and parents has been telling and asking "Have a girlfriend yet?" "Seeing any one yet?"

It really is a pain in the ass to hear such words but it gets worse with the fact that my other relative expects me to get married as soon as I can so he could live long and give his blessings. Pfft. You know those traditional Chinese stuff. You have tea offering, gets blessing, say a few words and such and blah blah blah. It's how typical my whole family is, not to mention conservative as well. And he kept on saying that he's already 85 years old and won't be here for long. He's hoping to see me with a wife and such.

I think most or everyone would have felt this sense of family pushing you off the bridge and trying to get you married but then, there's your inner self, telling you that you're not straight and in need of a wife. I don't know what I want but I do know that I like men more than I'd like women but there is a sense of wanting to raise a family and walking down the aisle and everything. Church bells ringing with all the works. But then... I like men... what is there to do about it!

Well hell... I guess... it has already begun. The fact that my family may or might go and introduce a new girl to me and everything is about to happen. Prolly in a few years time, with each passing Chinese New Year that is.. I'm just... unknown... What about me! Don't I have a say on whether or not I'd like to have a wife or a male companion or everything?

*sulks in corner*

性年快乐！！

Happy Chinese New Year everybody! May the year of the snake brings you wealth, joy and prosperity!　Ｓｔａｙ　ａｗｅｓｏｍｅ　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ！

Regardless of what time zone you are, I know that for me, now, I'm 24!

Thanks for the awesome year ahead on FA!

Just two more days and it's going to be my birthday. That was a fast and quick year. It was only yesterday that I turned 23 but alas, we all have to grow at least a year older. It's 9th of February to be exact and looking at the dates of most of my friends and other furries, there seemed to be a hell loads of Feb babies.

Anyways, Cheers all! Especially with Chinese New Year coming up. :D

Yeah, I'm 12 hours ahead of you guys but who cares! LOL!

Happy New Year to all! Let's face 2013 with a blessed heart and hope that the next 12 months be as eventful as the previous year!

It's the end of the year and a new year begins! It's few days early but with my celebrating outside with family and work coming along tomorrow, I doubt I have the time.

It has been a wonderful ride here on FA. Meet new friends, lost one or two (which I'm not really fond and happy with) and loads of happy memories. FA is like a furry family to me. You get to meet with people who care and I've seen how people from all around help one another in terms of dire need. Yeah, amazing time and great year. Not surprised that we are still ALIVE from 21/12/12 but hey! It's a good thing!

Real life furries that I've spent a lot of time with, laughing, bitching, gossiping. LOL! ahh... really great and college was awesome with them. And to a friend that was there for me the whole while, you're awesome! If you're reading this, meet me AGAIN on Wednesday! I've got a fucking present to give to you! It's your fault you didn't went to the second day of CF!

Online was even better. I still love mah strippey tiger  fastspeedy and made an awesome friend which I'm quite happy with.  reclamon He is AWESOME! No, seriously! He may be a nut at times and really crazy but he's an awesome friend. I'm really glad that I've befriended with him! And I still love Beast! Dangit!

And now. In terms of story records. Amazingly enough, I've written about 20 stories for the year 2012. It's not an amazing record but I'll try to do well next year! It's a "try to do well", not definite since I'm currently working and it kills my very soul. LOL! So, for now, here's my record on FA:

Most comment: Beast behind the door. With a staggering 11 comments. LOL!
Most faved: Beast behind the door.
Most viewed: Beast behind the door.

Yep, that's mainly cause it was promoted by  reclamon. Like I said, he's awesome. LOL!
This is a record for FA and for SF, you could read it here: http://www.sofurry.com/view/480119

Quite different but hey! It's a start! :D.

For 2013, here's hoping for a better story and quality. For now! Happy Holidays! Take care and Happy New Year!

It's actually just around the corner. In fact... it's only a months time. Was out with my parents on Christmas day, in a mall and all of a sudden, my mum called me over and told me to get new shirts and pants for Chinese New Year. Note here that getting new wardrobe during Chinese New Year is... like a tradition. It some sort of symbol of fresh start. Chinese New Year... new year... get it? Hah! LOL! Stupid! but it's true.

I'm standing there, staring at my mum, "Today is Christmas! Not Chinese New Year! We just opened presents!"

Haha! but yeah! Chinese New Year is on the month of February. Evidently, which is also my birthday. Weee! One more month and it's my birthday! Falls on Chinese New Year eve, which is the 9th of February.

Christmas... I love you! Merry Christmas to all and happy holidays!

Yeah, just something to think about.

In your opinion, which would be far better? Working experience or money?

As of the moment, I'm working as an auditor in a firm that pays really low and seeing as the work that I do, I'm actually underpaid. In fact, ALL of my colleagues and everyone in my firm is underpaid. Auditors who aren't under Pricewaterhouse Coopers, Earnst & Youngs, KPMG and Deliotte, we get really low pay. Seeing as it is, I'm extremely tempted to move out from my company but here's the catch, my job scope is extremely wide. Every single company out there needs to be audited and with that in mind, I actually see the operations of a whole bunch of companies. Thus, giving me far more experience in the accounts line compared to other people. Which comes into the topic of working experience.

And then, there's money. I've been given an opportunity to work in another firm that pays more than what I earn now. Far more, probably 1k difference. That's A LOT from my current salary. However, I do not learn as much as I am now. I will be stagnant, concentrated into one firm and duty and that's pretty much it. Rotation done every six months or so but the learning curve is extremely slow.

Working experience.... then there's money.... hrm... the money is so tempting... but it won't last in the long run...

What are your thoughts? If you were given a choice, which would you choose?

...sucks! LOL!

Really! Shopping is one of my least favourite thing in the world! Just went out two days ago to get Christmas presents and I... have no idea what to get or buy. With limited funds, I'd need to find at least something fancy that doesn't eat my wallet. Know what's the worse part? Trying to buy a handbag for ladies. At times like this, is where I want to be a flamboyant and flaunt through the ladies department store and shout "Oh! Girl! That looks good on you!"

Sadly, I can't do that. Just that day, I stepped into a ladies store that sold a bunch of handbags and shoes and stuff, the staff looked at me like an alien. It was embarrassing that I had to head out within one minute. I barely saw anything that was nice for mum. LOL!

I hate shopping!

I am too Asian! Just the other day, I had to get my glasses cleaned at the optometrist and while waiting, a mirror caught myself and looking right into it... i told myself... 'my god! I had such small fucking eyes!' Seriously! Without my glasses, I turn into a typical stereotype Asian Chinese.

To add to the stereotype, I have no life! I work work work work work and work all day long. Add that with studying and poof! I have no life! Better yet! I'm living with my parents and have to live up to their expectations of studies everyday. Prime example: I did not pass this one subject while my other friends passed and they nagged at me everyday. Another example: I got a second class upper for my degree in Accounting and they expected me to get first class in that class. From there, they looked down at me and shake their heads in shame. The nagging stopped at that time till today but occasionally, my mum would just sigh and say 'such a waste'.

I'm a fucking Asian and I want to change! Americanize me!

Sometimes, I just truly wonder what the hell is going on with my life! I'm thinking, okay, this is bad and that is bad, it's not working as I expected but all in all, I have a better life compared to those who are less unfortunate. Just being an asshole and brat here but god... I just had one of those terrible week where my body was pushed to the limit of exhaustion. I could go no more!

I work Monday to Friday and if that's not bad enough, I bring my fucking work HOME! Couldn't follow up with my job assignments and I had to forced myself to bring it back home to do and it's not easy. I've never done a job that requires so much thinking before! When I had my part time jobs, they weren't brain inducing headache but this? This requires a whole lot of knowledge. So much so that I had to read stuff that I barely even know and recognize at all.

Imagine this: Working monday to friday, saturday, back home with work and on a sunday, study for class. I'm exhausted. If that's not enough, My family has Grandma to worry about.

I've not been at home most of the time. I work, gym, class at night and that's that. I come back home at night and whatever that happens during the afternoon and evening, I don't know. My mum works half day and cause of that, my grandma is beginning to take that for granted. It's been a year plus now but Grandma is sick. She knows she's sick, WE know she's sick. It's not cancer or anything but water retention problem within her body. The doctor actually did a thorough checkup and found that she has at least more than 7 of those large 1.5litre of bottled water inside of her. Imagine having THAT amount inside of you and not coming out, at all. She's bloated with water and that's something very bad.

Doctor has diagnosed that it was so bad that it's beginning to seep into her lungs. There were slight indication of water inside her lungs and that explains why she had difficulty breathing a few days ago. but that's not the worse part of it... god... why... She isn't taking her medication! My grandma literally LIED to the doctor. She thinks she's all great and mighty and doesn't listen to us and the doctor. She needs to go on a diet, on a salt and sugar free diet but nnnooo.... she doesn't listen and just goes on eating whatever she likes. The next best part is where she actually denied eating all of those. When we told her off (we actually saw her eating behind our backs), we got scolding. As they always say, respect your elders, listen to them, blah blah blah. Cause of that, we don't argue back and just listen and hang our heads low.

I just don't know what should I even do any longer. It doesn't affect me directly but indirectly. My mum has to see this through and the doctor even whispered to her, telling 'to prepare for the worse'. Do you know how heartbreaking and devastated that sounded when I was told about that? Grandma was my everything during my childhood. She taught me stuff and etiquette in life. To lose her like this? It's not worth it. How the hell can I say that I respect her any more when she doesn't even fight the battle! She's lost the will to live! She just wants to die. Hell.... she even said out loud that she would rather die than to live any longer. I just cannot accept one how person could fight like this. This is not right.

All of this, adds up with work, studies and peers, not to mention my colleagues, I'm exhausted. At this moment, I just wish to stay in a corner for the day and suck on my thumb and cry to sleep.

/End/

Nothing to see here. Move along. :D

Muahahahah! I did something unexpected to some software program and it ended up eating my one of my most important file. All my stories are gone. Hahahahaha! Of course, I still do have my old backup stories but the most recent stories that I wrote, it has all disappeared and I don't know how to retrieve it back. It's not in my recycle bin. That's for sure.

I have no idea what I did but I was playing around with this software called 'Folder Locker' It locks any folder that you want to keep it safe and can only be opened with a password. All of a sudden, i clicked on something called 'encrypt' and it starts processing whatever shit and it locks that file. I'm like.. okay... it locks. find and dandy but then, i cannot open it back! I'm like... oh shit! WTF! I can't open the file again! It's not in my folder and whatever. So, I thought that perhaps, if I delete the software, whatever program it has to lock the folder will be unlocked but it got worse. Haha! Now my whole file is gone!

What's worse, I have stuff in there that are important and a half written story that's about 5k long and it was for a story competition. From the looks of it, I'll have to pull myself out from the competition. LOL! And it has pictures that my close friends had drawn for me before. Everything inside, furry related, disappeared. My most important file is missing! Wweee!

So now, it seemed that I won't be writing for a while. And all of my stories are gone. Now, I'm depressed. LOL! and it had one of a few of my fap materials, some which are very sexy and hot. LOL! Wwwweee~~~~

It's a Saturday Night and I'm left alone with no one at home. Parents are out on a wedding dinner and sis with friends. Meanwhile, I did not make plans to go out but study at home. FML! LOL! I have no life to begin with.

Anyways, just wanted to write down on this journal and find out how long you guys spend time on the internet. Personally, I do 'think' that I spend too much time on the net but technically speaking, I don't. Let's put it this way. I get up at 7am, prep up for work 45 minutes and internet time for 20 mins to check on stuff, blah blah and everything. Then, I'm in the office by 9 and finishes by 6. On days that I don't get to the gym, I have at least two hours of internet time, from 10pm till 12am. Then, off to bed. Rinse and repeat. On days that I do get to the gym, I spend slightly less, perhaps one hour or if I'm quick, two. That would mean about 3hours or less for internet time, per day.

Weekends, depends. sometimes, about five to six hours. I admit, weekends is where my internet time lies but c'mon! I don't use that much in the weekdays!

The reason for this so call 'oh no, another emo guy here and shit' is due to the nagging of my parents. I mean... fucking shit man... every time I do something wrong, my mum would raise the whole issue of: 'You spend too much time on the net' rant. During dinner, spilled something on the table while cleaning up, mum says 'you're rushing for internet time. can't you think of anything else except your pc and internet?'

Today, accidentally left the windows of the car open too widely (okay okay, that was wrong, i admit) cause it was too humid inside, mum saw, went on a rage and said 'I can't believe you just opened the window wide open. You're inviting the thief to steal your car! Can't you use your brains to think? Oh, i forgot, all you know is your pc and getting on the internet'

Another incident. Was trying to relax after studying, mum goes: 'Can you don't go online? You're always online. I see you, you're online. When I'm around, you're online. Can't you just relax and do something else like watch TV or read the newspaper?'

The hell! I am on the net to relax and ease my day! Meanwhile, my mum thinks that going online is stressful and places tension in my brain. It isn't! I'm online cause I like it! I AM relaxed. Geez... and I'm not allowed to go online in the morning. When I do, my mum comes around and starts nagging at me about other things that can be done like doing house chores and helping around the house. Internet is prohibited in the morning. No internet. but I still get on and gets the nagging. Every time my mum comes home from somewhere, I'll show that I'm not online because if I do, she'll start nagging again and again about being online.

So guys, how long are internet time for you? Note here that I'm getting sick of being told off like that cause I'm already 23.

End of being emo!

Now donate cookies so i can fucking destroy writer's block! :D

As the time turned 12am, i just realized that today's date would be 6th of September 2012. Which is, in other words 6/9. Today's date is 69. That is all....

... I need to get a life!

A personal rant story about myself and blah stuff. Damn.... I'm over using these journals for horrible personal vent and allowing you guys to see how horrible of a journal this is. LOL!

Anyways, it's something that I'm thinking of just for the day. What are dreams anyways? Seriously, people say dreams do come true. Albeit, it's hard to believe but it does happen. Dreams do come true. A dreamer who dreams is great but a dreamer who dreams and acts on the dream, will be greater. Once, a lecturer told me: Do you know who the poorest man in the world is? It's not a beggar in the streets nor a homeless person or anything. It's a person without a dream. A man without a dream cannot survive in this world. They don't know what they want, they will dream of nothing and they will have little to no motivation at all in life and thus, they fail, they die; leaving a way a pitiful life.

In a harsh way, it's true. If you do not have a dream to do something, you cannot push yourself forward or achieve anything. Yesterday, an old college mate of mine, very close because he was my first ever college mate when we first met on the first day of college. We had different courses in life but we took business studies. After foundation, we left to take out path, different path. I was into accounting and he was into marketing. Since then, college wasn't the same without him. He was a fun guy but really talkative in nature. Thus, why marketing was his major. Since then, we rarely see each other since our classes clashes and from then on, we stopped talking but we occasionally went out.

After college, we drifted, as everybody will after graduating. During that time, he was doing a business called direct selling but a different kind. With his talkative and outgoing nature, it was practically his domain to do that. From then on, he was actually really successful. He had a network building between him and as you've seen businessmen around, he has phones around to just keep in contact with his customers and everything. From there, you know... he has a dream. He told me, he has a dream. A dream with a better life. To live better! To drive an expensive car! A Lamborghini! To get a house that's three storey high and to get the better things in life. It's all about money. Money talks, money gets. That was his dream and he was well on his way.

Just today, I met him and he was going to introduce to me his business. His direct selling plan to gain more network and get more people to join. Since I was his friend, I was thinking about it, to help and join him in his success and for him to help me in terms of monetary value but I was skeptical. Sometimes, money isn't easy to come by and I am not the kind of person that's willing to go out there and do DIRECT SELLING or DOOR TO DOOR. Seriously, no. I am not that kind of person but what he told me really pushed me out.

What do you dream of having or to be?

Since then, after that meeting, I don't know what I want in life. I have... no dream. Guys, think about it. I'm sure everyone of you would dream of something, no? To dream of having more money, to go here, to enjoy life, anything. Mine? I have no dream... Why? Because the dream that I want, the desire that i want, isn't achievable. I lay there, on my bed and thought, my dream is nothing that I can achieve. With every ounce of energy that I placed into something, was it really worth it?

Spending six grueling months in my studies, just for one subject. I slaved and tried everything I could to pass but till now, till to date. I have not pass. I've dream of passing my professional course but it's so near yet so far. I practically failed at all the subjects that I took for that semester. Eventually, taking the subjects, again, for another six months. After one year doing the same thing, I fail. Was it really worth it?

Spending six grueling months at gym. By gods I tried what I can to workout. By the sixth month, guess what? That 'dream' of at least getting something for my pitiful body, just didn't yield result. Know what happened? I actually put on weight, added my fat percentage and mass and my body composition was worse off compared to the time where I wasn't working out. I planned, i tried dieting and stuff but guess it wasn't enough. Even with all those research, with all those tiring time at gym, doing away, still no result. Meanwhile, the dreamer who gyms for six months gets at least substantial result. Was it really worth it?

Dream... like I said... isn't something that I would look at. What is a dream? What ARE my dream? Money? I don't know. I want money but to have money and to not share it with anyone is horrible. I dream of having a lover but knowing where I stand, that wouldn't happen much.  FastSpeedy is the only one that I just... have really a true deep emotion about. I dream that one day... I could just go there, and have him in my arms. But then... no... it won't happen. I know it won't happen but i still continue to love. As I sit here and dream for something that's impossible, it just isn't possible.

Family love would be impossible if I've ever told my parents that I might look at love differently. My mum has been telling me about future life. It's like its set in stone. You must do this, you must do that. The word 'WHEN' you have a family is not there. It is not 'YOUR' family instead of WHEN. Which means, she expects to have grandkids, expects me to just go out and get a girl but I am unsure. I may lean more towards male and if my parents ever knew, it will be utterly impossible to stand strong with them and I'll just move out. I doubt that family love will ever exist once this is out and it's not going to stay in the closet for long. I'm 23, she expects me to get married by 28. meaning... i only have five more years to build my own stand of money and move on.

Till then... it's all a dream. A dream that I could never get. I dream of a certain tiger, to just have him here, and to just lay in bed and not talk for hours and to just... hold in an embrace. Perhaps that's a dream. A dream that will not be fulfilled within my lifespan.

What would i give to have a dream.

Seriously! China! You've won so many gold medal! Give my country at least ONE GOLD MEDAL! LOL! Dammit! Malaysia lost to China for Badminton few moments ago. It was such a close match. For the first time in my life, I felt the epicness of sports. LOL! China! Why you no give use one MEDAL!

*rant rant rant rant rant*

Been a month and a whole bunch of things happened. Not so sure who really reads this but I'll just write along. So far, it's a month now and just received my first pay check after starting off to a real work. I don't get much since it's only the beginning and my work isn't fancy or anything. I pretty much work as one of those guys that some or most people don't like having in their office, aka, auditor. Being an auditor for a month has... kinda shown me something from the work and perspective of business, in some way. I'm not a professional in it yet or anything, which I doubt I will but sometimes, corporates thinks that auditors knows every damn thing in the whole wide world.

C'mon guys, we're just as human as anybody else but these companies think of us as people who audits their work, checks and be gone. We do more than that! we actually pick up the shits that some corporates leave behind. So far, for me, I've yet to encounter that but there are companies that makes me yell and scream from their activities. But... every other work around the world are the same.

Working has placed me into a perspective that everyone is pretty much human in every single way. Eg: Some unknown number calls you up and offers credit card or blah blah blah. They are doing their job, their boss tells them to do that. Don't take your frustration at them and say "Fuck you!" or anything like that. I've been there and taken that beating before. Now, from there on, when someone calls me about some crap sales or promotion, I'll just decline without wasting their time and energy and move on. Don't torture these people. Same goes for us Auditors. Don't torture us, please...

Besides that, been writing a whole lot. That's mainly cause I had nothing to do at work sometimes for nearly eight hours a day and it's really really REALLY boring. With no internet and everything, things just fall and I could sleep from there on. But with my superior right in front of me, I had to do something to keep awake and writing keeps me up. So far that is...

Anyways, there's the life of me for a month. Haha!

Wwwwooo. I stuck the 10k pageviews and nobody really cared much about it besides my online mate who waited for it. For him, I'll be more than glad to write whatever he wanted but for kiribans, I was actually hoping for others but seems nobody caught it. Haha! Oh well, I'm not well known enough for it. A 10k kiriban is just by chance. On the side note, this is the second time my online mate caught my kiriban.

Besides that, I've started working. Ya' know, auditing ain't fun and games. Theory and practically really doesn't help much with it. What I learned in class really do not apply in the real world. It's just so sad. Haha! Furthermore, my work place isn't that friendly. Lunch time usually means socializing and interaction. Instead, no one talked to me. LOL! Oh well, such is life. I'll be 'forever alone' in the office.

*dances*

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Know what I friggin hate? I hate that my lecturer is just RIGHT about SOMETHING that involves MY LIFE!

I've been suffering out for an advance taxation paper and few hours ago, I just sat for the paper and I know that I did horribly for it. It was far difficult that what I have expected. I was desperate to pass this paper. Why? Because I want to PROVE to my lecturer that I can do it. She has this mentality on me that I won't be able to pass the paper because I wasn't concentrating in class. Yeah, I admit that at times, I stare into space for a while and she kept that perspective of me in class. Because I didn't concentrate in class, I may not be able to pass the paper.

Guess what! Fucking **** &&&& $$$$!!! She may be right! Dammit! And I worked my ass off for this paper just to prove to her wrong. I hate it when the happens. Gragh!!

Can't believe still but yeah, 10k pageview. Whoever manages to catch my 10k, I'll... probably... give a free story? I'm not too sure but since I can't draw, I could just write a story for you. It isn't much but hey, I think it's a milestone. One thing is for sure, as of the moment, it's only 9700. So, there's 300 more to go and I bet THAT'S going to take about a month to reach. Just keeping hopes up that it doesn't take that long.

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Looks good!

A cookie a day keeps the sadness at bay <3

I will be going off for my very first job interview this coming saturday and I'm nervous. So much so that i have butterflies in my stomach and every thought of the coming interview makes me wanna pee!

Any advice on it? I feel queasy all over.