Again, not dead.
Have had a career shift, started making beer (and wine and mead and cider), running a lot of groups, now staff of two cons, removed pedophiles from local events and furry scenes, got a partner.... what else has gone on? So many things and so little interest from others over the boring little things in my world. Had a wreck got it fixed, have a new car, made a kegerator, it died, made another kegerator, it still lives, learned that people get worse with age and some get better, had another career change and now hate hotels because of it, and much more!

It's been a hot minute since I have posted anything at all. A lot of stuff has happened, but nothing particularly interesting. Got out of my year long unemployment rut and obtained a few jobs in the last year, but financially, doing well and whatnot. I've mainly been gardening, tending to friends and family.

Most of all just massive improvements on my home step by step. I've installed radiant barrier, lifted duct work, blew in insulation, removed an in wall AC and replaced with a ductless mini split unit, repaired that hole in the wall, and had some people install new windows and back sliding glass door to replace the horrid french doors. Installing doorknobs where they should have always been. Painting my room's wall and making it pretty. Reading 14 books in the past few months. Some of them furry books, which have been solidly great. Fixing this, improving that. Still trying to find a second suitable roommate.

Again, nothing exciting to others, but to me a huge deal since Texas summers are hell and my room was 95 degrees soon as the sun rose. Overall, just living and enjoying life while trying to stay out of trouble and the ire of the furries that seem to be getting grumpier by the minute. My FFXIV gaming career is mostly dead, so I figured I would branch out and do other things with my life more constructive. Figured I would try to let people that actually read these things know that I'm doing fine.

I have never actually been happier. Knowing that I have acquired serious debt and keep doing so, I have never felt more free. My house buying was a complete success, the area is much better than before, as we started to hear gunshots (not living out in the country kinda shots) more often than on 4th of July and New Years. My neighbors so far have been pretty nice and cool. The move was mildly smooth and things are getting setup to epic proportions. I have been working myself ragged to get this place ready for an epic party and my two new big dogs. I'm working on my solar panels again and even have plans to finally work on my poi skills again since I have the room. The eustress is amazing. I love working on my own home to improve it in many ways and getting to use my carpentry and new found electrical skills. I'm starting several new projects like mealworm styrofoam recycling farm, composting, planning a garden/landscaping, fish tanks, more plants, paper recycling, carpentry misc., and many many more.

I seriously have never been happier in my life and wish that it could last forever. The only real negative is that I live alone for the time being and it gets lonely on this hill, but I am getting to learn to love myself again, while being alone and in my head. I'm watching less "TV" and spending more time outside. Soon, I will be walking miles a day with my dogs and starting my life anew. I wish the future to hold great and better things-- for everyone.

It's been a long time since I have written anything of worth on here. Current life is just getting by and working on my various projects that I have going. The big event is trying to buy a house. That is my biggest goal right now. I'm getting to another milestone in my life and wanting to take action to prepare for my future. My normal habits and wishes are prevented by living in rented spaces and my money is just being wasted. I'm ecstatic about moving and getting a garden started again and maybe even get animals once again.

Lately, I have been thinking of removing myself from the furry community as I don't really spend money on art or really much of anything furry related besides conventions. As I get older, it becomes harder and harder for me to identify with the rest of the fandom and their near obsessive love of itself. It was cool years back, but now I just see so many new faces and new things that it becomes hard to keep up with it and maintain a normal life doing as I do.

Overall, I'm doing well and moving forward in life a lot faster than I thought I would. It's been extremely stressful, but also very rewarding and an amazing learning experience.

I'm so excited to set up the house. My gf and  glacierpawsmoved in. I replaced my old roommates with those two, so I'm looking forward to a good year. My last roommates just didn't work out well, so I'm trying to be super optimistic about another year. Hopefully, by then I'll jabbed saved enough money to buy my own home, so I can have animals again and begin homesteading. I'm also looking forward to my 26th bday.I just hippie I don't break another bone like I did last year.

Due to this, as soon as this new company updates the ToS in a manner that suits them in any way, I will be leaving FA and deleting everything from here at once. I would implore you to do the same if your posts no longer belong to you like Facebook does currently.

For the last 5 days I was in Midland/Odessa area visiting my brother, kyousuke. I got to attend a fursuit bowling meet where I was allowed to suit as the kitsune himself. All around, I have a fun time doing mostly nothing for once and watching Space Dandy while drunk and happy. My only regret was that I could not stay longer but alas I start my new job in a few hours so I need to be home for that. O how I wish to travel once again.

On a travel note, I'm planning to attend Wild Nights 2015 and AC 2015. I'm very exited for both and cannot wait to see my friends again.

So, for the first time in years, my birthday falls on a weekend-- the 29th. This means a huge house warming party will fall on the same day. I moved from the Galleria district of Houston to a much more quiet part of town. I'm living with two other furs and they have been my best friends almost since the day I met them. We've had a rough start, but things are finally smoothing out for the first time in a month, since the boxes are put away and we now have the new smash brothers. That's always good. It's nice to get away from apartment living. It wasn't bad, but I liked not having to worry about being loud or snooping neighbors. I was lucky to have a cop and older ladies as my direct neighbors. They are all very nice and I will miss them, but it was time to move on and get my life ready to actually buy a house and continue living out my life.

I have halted the story that I was writing, so I could move, but I will resume in the next month to finish it. I know very few are aware of this and I think I'm the only one anticipating its completion, but nonetheless, I wanted to announce something. Yay! Go, Ferret Jesus! You wrote a book, albeit a crappy one, but you actually stuck through to the end, so that's something.

I apologize if I have ignored anyone, but I've just been so freaking busy, it's unreal.

This has been the longest story I have written to date. It has reached my personal goals and more. The previous writing that got even near this was the Tails of Pintear, which was a story I wrote for a mate at the time and still look back fondly on the story, which was 33,000 words (a novella). However, A Life with an Immortal is at 50,000 words and still going, as I have not touched on a few slices of his life.

Recently, my commissions have been based heavily on this story as my own means to canonize FJ as my own. As a spoiler, kinda, I do not view Ferret Jesus (Falcon) to be the lord and savior of the furries, but a misfortune non-mortal entity that happen to spark the right circumstance for zealous furries to believe that he is their lord. He still does find great compassion and has a compulsory need to assist others, but this is just my take on how I view our world as well.

I'm super excited about this, as I still have more to go and even more commissions to make, as I link the commissions that I have in my FA within the story itself.

1. Choose one of your OC's.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Journal title should be "OC Interview".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you wish. Feel free to steal if you want!
5. Have fun!

1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
"My name is Falcon. I'm best known as Ferret Jesus."

2. Interesting... what's your current age?
"Older than time itself, but this current body is 2014 years old."

3. Uh-huh. What's your favorite food?
"Plums. I can never get enough of them."

4. And your favorite drink?
"Rum and cola or mead."

5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
"I have taken a few lovers, but my wife has long since passed. Currently no one and planning to keep it that way."

6. Aww! Have you kissed yet?
"This question is pointless."

7. Classic question! What's your favourite colour?
"Brown."

8. Who's your favourite author?
"My favourite author was a fur I met in Germany in the 8th Century, but I have forgotten his name. The gist of his work is that we are merely a dream of the cosmos waiting be annihilated when it awakens. Somber, but a good read. Darn, I really should search my library, so bad with names."

9. Now what's your biggest fear?
"Losing my morality or mind. It's been the only thing constant in my world."

10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing... *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
"Yes, but they were all 'half-sibling'. They are now gone, but I still think of them."

11. Almost done, it's only twenty questions. Who's your hero?
“Heroes: Kyousuke Kisaragi and Satori. They have managed to stay through time unscathed and happy all this time.”

12. Okay, who's your worst enemy?
"A dark wizard mouse. He imprisoned me in a statue in a church for several hundred years. His own greed ended him."

13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
"I doubt they can."

14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
"I've searched my whole existence for the meaning of my existence. If there truly is a creator of me and I was not born from my own will to exist, then I would become overburdened with joy."

15. Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
"I have not aged a day in 1,981 years. I want to be me."

16. What's your worst nightmare?
"The inevitable heat death of the universe and living through it."

17.What's your life-long dream?
"The help the world to be a better place for everyone."

18.What would you do if your life-long dream came true?
"Be at peace."

19. Okay, where's your favorite place to relax?
"The bough of my tree, where I have a deck that overlooks the forest in which myself and the Sequoia protects.”

20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
"Working magic like an artist works clay into creations. Figuring out ways to improve it to better myself and others."

Just a thought that I should do more with it. It has a much better interface than FA. Overall ilike it more but I hardly watch anyone on there and only a few watch me back. May get to posting more then. I've been trying to find my hidden artistic talent for years that can be translated to physical medium besides writing, because who reads anymore, amirite?

For the past year, I've been writing on and off on Ferret Jesus' s back ground. So far it's 32 pages in Word at 22,2228 words, putting it into a novella category. It's more of a writing exercise for me to keep my mind active and expanding my vocabulary. It's very much NSFW due to gore, nudity, and allusions to sexual congress.

I was curious if anyone would like to read it up to this point or the chapter before. It's very much in rough draft form with little to no editing and many things will be changed or rewritten. It's a giant monolog that switches between torture and his life as seen by his own eyes.
I would not mind critique of it either.

I want to, but then again. I could use that money for so much more than to be in the North. Choices, choices.

My friend  jackchandler needs a bit of help since his job is messing with him. Give him some love or help him get a signal boost. He is a very talented musician.

Journal here: https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5787957/

Still my favourite convention. It was most amusing on many levels. I got to rock climb and hang out with my favourite people.
For some odd reason, it was a lazy con. I did get to do a beer tasting, spin fire, play with fireworks, and shoot off a vintage military flare, courtesy of Kyro. But for the most part, I just hang out in hippy camp... Literally. Hammocks are the best for those who do not know their power. Soon shall I have hammocks over my apartment.

My latest little tome of text has been Ferret Jesus's back story. So far, it is pushing past novella. In all honesty, it's not really meant for people to read, more for my own personal needs to flesh out this mary sue of a fursona.
Though if you would like to honestly read it, let me know. I might post the first chapter or something. Maybe even allow access to the google doc I have been writing. I am thinking that it will be an ever-evolving story as my own life progresses until the inevitable heat death of my appreciation of the furry fandom in the future. So, the story and characters he meets will change or leave respectively as my friends come and go, but the overall idea of Him should stay relatively constant, unless I hear a nice analogy that must be inserted into the story. Overall, I am very pleased with how it is turning out, though I must warn those faint of heart, as he is being tortured for a reason that might explained. I have gotten very graphic with it, but it's something that I have wanted to write since I started writing-- stemming from my love of campy horror movies and not some gore fetish. I might make a SFW version, but I doubt it, since it's a personal project that I finally have done for myself.

So, at 7am, I get a call from my recruiter that I no longer need to come into work and given no explanation of why I'm being let go. He just says the company I'm contracted through said there were a lot of techs that were goofing off. Now, I'm not part of the main group of techs for migration as I was moved to help desk. There I had no time but to answer calls and learn protocols. I never once browsed youtube or wasted time on websites. Well, after getting laid off, I search for jobs and call a buddy that let me know about an IT company that is looking for help. At 11am, I'm picked up from my apartment and proceed with an interview while the owner of the company works at the sites. I get hired within 15mins of being picked up. Now, the fun thing is that this company is tiny. Including me, there are 3 people. I shit you not. 3 people. The hours are minimal, but the pay is the highest I ever had. So win all around. I'm going to play it by ear and hope for the best.
There is another event in my life that I'm hopefully going to hear back soon about.

You heard me right.

http://www.furbuy.com/auctions/1052342.html

I have run into a bit of money trouble with being in between jobs, so I have come to the conclusion to sell my partial. It is being sold in the link above.

It was on the 29th of November. I had a wonderful time with my friends at a local pub. I never got a physical gift, but my friend's presence was all I needed. The most fun was when my friend's friend came over to my apartment. He is an MMA trainer and I got to grapple for the first time in years. My arm got hacked up from being in an arm bar, but the experience was well worth the pain. Hurray for drunk wrestling.

Ask me anything.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5109972/

Check it out. Pretty cool.

It's been awhile since I have made a journal with substantial grit to it-- mostly filler to let people know that I am not dead, but actually lurking on FA everyday.

Since moving to Houston, I have had a myriad of issues, successes, and emotions that I have come across. Finally living on my own has put a lot of my thoughts and priorities into perspective. I think it has to do with having the ability to do more than what was available, but choosing not to in order to save money for things that are actually needed, e.g. food, toilet paper, and cigarettes. I get to be alone for long amounts of time, where I do not have to worry about judgement from my immediate family members, so I get a lot of time to think clearly. Some good thoughts, some bad, some... just thoughts:

For my new job, I have to shave off my face to keep deer-like accountants from being reminded of wolves, that could pounce and disembowel them with ease. This fact has put me in a bit of an identity crisis. For the last few years, I have been known because of my facial hair is slightly iconic to that of the White Jesus's. Once I remove it, I will need to assume a new identity until my contract has ended with the company. This is a bit difficult, as I never really had an identity before. I was just me. Boring old nerdy me. What comes later is that I must now think of a new costume to wear to Ren Fairs, as Jesus was a dual purpose costume to wear. This has actually been eating at me for a while... More than it should. But, I feel that I will come up with a solution or sweep it under the rug soon.

Moving has shown me a lot of things about myself. I never knew I could make it supporting myself and another person with only my job as income. This makes me feel good. I never knew that I could plan so well as to get all of my possessions here in one piece and keep them together. As a natural host, I like to invite people over to relax and socialize. This has made me very happy, as I could not do this before, because my father was so judgmental of my friends, since they did not fit within his dogma of what a good person is. A few people have become nearly permanent regulars, which has shown me who my true friends are and who have just tolerated my existence. Some of my friends have traveled great lengths just to come hang out for a bit. It has made me very happy to finally be able to entertain like I have always wanted to, since I made friends for the first time. I never knew I could cook or even devise a basic meal plan for myself, let alone another person. Also, bills have become slightly less scary now that I know how to budget. Life skills +10.

Being away from family has also led to me being able to express myself more openly without the fear of being evicted from my borrowed living quarters. This segue of my life has allowed me to explore my mind a little farther than normal. And deeper than I cared to go. Lately, I have been exploring my sexuality. (Sorry guys, this isn't a coming out the closet speech. I'm still "straight".) I have been trying to get to the bottom of why I have little to no attraction to people. I have no libido, yet I yearn for companionship in a romantic way. I still have no palpable answers that feel right, but this is a work in progress. I hope I can find an answer to these odd feelings that I have.

With my schema of personal sexuality being challenged, I think of my past failed relationships and think of what went wrong or what could have been. I know why most failed... I was an asshole, but some I do not know what went wrong. Two of them, I regret. Two different ones, I wish never happened, because they got hurt. One, I never wanted. Two, I regret having in the first place. And two got away. Out of those two that could have been more, I fucked it up. I fucked it up hard. The first was my first. We had dated for a collective of 2 years, until shit hit the fan and we grew apart. She's married now, so there is no need to stir the pot, since she is happy now. The other... I used to hate, because of the circumstances, but now miss the company and wish it had worked out. Sadly, a family member stepped in, then ruined a bit of travel plans. Honestly, I would give up a lot just to see if it could have worked out in another lifetime. I am a forgiving person, if an apology or explanation is involved. But, I have to learn from these experiences to better myself. I cannot dwell on "what could have been" or "what should have been". It's ok to entertain the idea here and there, but to let it eat you away is just a self-destructive spiral. I think I have finally been able to move on.

Relationships have always been the hardest task for me, yet I have been letting the idea to date again race on and off in my head again. I know I have posted more journals about my relationships than I care to admit, especially on the subject of giving up. This time, it's neutral. I have not given up completely, but I am not longer looking. If I find someone, then I do, if not, then I will be fine as well. Lately, I have been coming to peace that people are fickle when it comes to love, so I would like to be ready, personality-wise, for the occasion. Right now, I'm just living the dream, so should someone wish to share that dream, I would be more approachable to the idea if I gave the idea a chance versus completely giving up.

All in all, I have been amazed at how much happier I am, now that I am living on my own and with my best friend. It's just a good feeling. I think I'm happier now that I have quit my job that I have had since I moved here 5 months ago and started a new one for a lot more money. That might also have a big influence on my mood too. But I do miss some of the people I have met along the way.


tl;dr. I enjoy where I moved to and I have been overlooking my life. Plus the raptors have escaped into the woods, so I now have to go wrangle them up again before they eat too many children.

I should be going to TFF 2014, unless lack of job or new job forbids it (though I tend to fight to the death over this particular convention). I will be leaving heading to Dallas Friday, Feb. 21, 2014 and checking out Sunday at noon the 23rd. If you are in Houston, we can ride together to share gas costs.

3 additional people will be requested to room with me, as I will be booking a room for this convention soon. Who would like to room with me? As a conscience holder, I do not molest, deficate, nor murder roommate nor in my sleep, so you are good on that. The most that I do is stumble in very early in the morning, usually drunk, and de-costume, which might be a little noisier than a cat walking into the room. The other thing I do is invite my closest friends to hang out in the room, but I always ask first. I don't steal anything except heats and souls, but let's face it, we are furries, we have neither. Other than that, I'm usually not in the room, just elsewhere. Everyone will pay a completely even share of the room and will split the bill evenly as well. Should anyone cause damage to the room, they(personally) will be responsible for the damages. I will not host room parties, so no worries on that. If I can, I will bring snacks and drinks to share, if applicable.

Are there any takers?

tl;dr. I need roommates for TFF2014. I don't murder people or steal. Don't break shit. Pay what is due. And I will be quiet.

Slots:
1.  falconpunch
2.  Velnor
3.  kyousuke
4.

I just moved into my new apartment and have not had internet for a week or so.

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When: June 12, 2013 @ 6:00pm (the third Wednesday of every month)

Where: Husky's
16010 West Road
Houston, TX 77095

What: A new furmeet. Husky's is a burger and sub place with spacious eating area, arcade, and beer bar. This is a family establishment, so be kind and respectful.

Please let me know if you would like to join, so we can give a head count. This meet is tail and ear free sadly. We don't need to spook the locals. Just yet.