and I cannot stop listening to: I kissed a Girl - Katy Perry

OMG...memories!
Erotic.....and yet so painful...its hard to pick up the pieces of your heart when you're so young. I think I was a junior.. and she was a sophmore. It all you yiffy things want to know the details then ask but I'm not volenteering :( .

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=igCU2o6pDTw
I love it so much, It makes me cry.

I've been looking for this furry flash for about an hour and I still cannot find it. PLEASE HELP ME!!!!

It's a flash about a young girl on a hill next to a trees, I think, and she's reminiscing about meeting a friend of her friend's at school and falling in love with him, finally telling him her feelings 'the night of the carnival' and him leaving, for America,but she doesn't say specifically, and she thought she's never see him again, but he came back at the end of the flash! SOMEONE PLEASE T-T
I remember it was playing Yoko Kanno's Ring..song T-T

But I thought about making a list, actually typing it out, What things I've actually been disparate to put inside me... :P (PS If you think I'm a slut or a whore after this...you don't know how to take a JOKE)


Toothbrush Holder
pine-cone made of copper
few carrots--then put them in a salad (Regardless who cut them up.)
maybe a Banana
my fingers
flashlight
phone
gel dildo
dolphin vibrator
mini vibe
Mozzarella cheese stick-- the peeling kind
chicken
a microphone


Some more but I'll think of'em later :P

I want to have a love like that! For those of you who don't know country, or particularly care for the music. Johnny Cash & June Carter-Cash they were in love 'till the day they died of OLD AGE! A year after she died, he cried all the time and died of a broken heart because he missed her so much...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=woxYkcRYE7E

Can you find another FINE example of True Love, actual love--one not in books, movies or plays.

I saw Blazger in suit. OMG he's the most adorable tiger I've ever sawed ^^ and many many other suiters! I got pretty sweet on this inverted Tiger, White on Black, he was nice and very very sweet.... So was this Husky, a friend of a friend..

At AC!!! Wooo Whoo!!!

Sadly..While I was gone....

Okay... You tell a friend..or an ex to live at your parent's house and sleep in their Cal. King thraputic bed!, and not to touch or do anything besides feed the cats and not to let them out in this heat/humid weather 'cause heat/humid + cat + no water-food = a very sad.....dead cat.

And what does he do?! -looks around the room at everyone.....- He touches our computer and it exploads...>,<!!!! It won't turn on and the drama withen that! -presses her fingers into her temples- if it won't turn on for less than a minute I cannot change myself from Admin to Limited.... the reason is because my father is computer illiterate and if the only persn that actually knows what they're doing is limited, I cannot fix it when it breaks...... T-T so if I cannot switch it back they'll know someone knows his pw!!! ah gods!!! and the laptop that I'm on is sucky the typing blinky goes wherever your mouse is so if there is many typos forgive me!!!

I'm leaving tonight or tomorrow morning to go to Disney. I will unfortunately be gone for the whole of next week... So I won't be here to answer notes or thank you for the watches and favorites... So thank you all in advance. I will my my furends and furfamily deeply, including Muggy... And Rico T-T I love all of you that I'm close to..

I Need a list of Hug(ees) that I'ma hug at AC... If you like breasts being shoved against your chest---i mean that sort of thing :D... Yush I'm a REAL Female... I'll be at AC giving out free hugs---and kisses if your adorably cute!

http://ipower.ning.com/netneutrality

Watch this.

This is serious not a scam, its here not to create mass hysteria, drama, or what not. Its true. Be a wear of this and do what you can. Write the companies demand or tell them what exactly is on your mind! Tell them why they should do it. Apparently there too much of an idiot to really get what they're doing will effect others..

Have this feeling to go out tonight and do something wild and crazy maybe in the nude! definatly on sl :P -listens to Rent's Out Tonight!- -howls!!!-

One was a boyfriend we had regular 'make-out' sessions under the bleachers at our junior high... The very last time we did.....

I told him to stop, and he didn't.....he got inside me... and I kicked his ass... or rather boney knee meets testicles..

The other guy was a friend of a friend who drove all of us around town, out of town and back to the burger king parking lot ... the four in the backseat left me there. to throw the driver off of me 3 or 4 times.the last time he hit his head into the door window and I had just enough time to get out, pull my pants up and run into burgerking. What was awaiting me in the girls bathroom was his dyke friend who wanted to beat the shit out of me for telling him "No!" I was forced back in the car and drove home. At the corner of my street i opened the car door and hit the concret running. The dyke about climbed over a my large friend and out the window after me........ at the end of the night after much sobbing I was no longer a devout Christian.....and it just sort of all died and faded away with the rest of my identity. I'm just beginning to get over it.

I wish that FA would allow me to upload a video of my cat Checkers... I taped the video myself!

I'm pissed and sobbing. 'cause I has HUGE F-ing TV and I has it all to myself for once, soo I figure I will go play Zelda on it (the thoughts were written "play zelda on that oooh") I hooked it correctly and the sound disapeared, then I got it back (*Thoughts* IEEEE! Horseeee!) But when I go back infront of the tv, there was no picture! T-T I finally quit trying, stupid tv... It has an Antina A and B and something about converter! and even then theres the cable to the DVD and tap thingy, the Cable box, and the lava lamp (*thoughts? "...pretty...........ooh shineyz!") I quit after an hour the image never came on, and nos I am not dumb I just like to think with weird chibi thoughts! especially when it comes to Zelda >.> Someone PLEASE Help!

I'm very very very depressed atm, I don't even remember why I'm still alive..........my life is snit, i'm in a shit time....theres nothing. No job, no real love, I don't even think I'll get to go to ac......



and to ADD MORE!

My masters getting married (in sl but still!!) i feel i could've loved him forever.......

And my boyfriend wants to break up.....

I feel like taking a bath with a hairdryer...

That SL would allow me to wear clothes T-T

That I have enough money to go to AC.

That I might one day find true love...

That True Love existed..

That there was no drama, or fights between two or more of my furends.

That I was a size 12 or 14 when I go to Disney World--and actually walk around without loosing my breath..

That my mother would believe in me...

That mother would encourage me to reach for the stars...

That some of my furends weren't my furends because they get yiff from me, or hope they do, but are my furends genuinely..

That I wasn't so paranoid about everyones intentions..

That Tekno wouldn't be jealous of my other furends..

That I won't starve when I go to AC--if I get to go...

That CatsEyes' car wouldn't break something else inside when a feather touches it.

That SL would work work...

That Master would pay more attention to me!

That someone would pay attention to me.....

Mom would hear me when I say "I want to stand on my own feet---it doesn't mean that I've stopped loving you---or needing you........."

I had a Job......

I had bunny paws and ears irl and a fox tail---so I can run the streets earing ONLY them XD

That Kyo would find his true loverboi ^^

That Ahnoh would too........

That Ahnoh was straight and loved me more XD!

That there was enough Mountain Dew in the world and give it to Omni to keep him happy...

That teh Cera would cuddle first and yell later...

That my best(human)friend; Rose, wouldn't disappear for months....or years.

THAT I DIDN'T HAVE TO SLEEP WITH MY Anti SISTER AT DISNEY WORLD!

And if she didn't come--my wish would be : that she didn't sell all the stuff in the house or have her friends steal it and have a weed party....... (nothing against weed just no party...her friends steal shit!)

for a hug.........
(that there were more ADULT FLASH GAMES of Fara Onyx [me]...shh and sometimes I wish I was born a herm...)
GAH...apearently I wish for a lot...

All my life my only dream was to be treated like everyone else.
To be accepted into society like a normal, everyday, average person.
To go to highschool, pick the classes I wanted--the ones I was interested in.
I want to live...really live without a handycap.
Highschools too far gone now...


When the final berrior broke through--the day I finally got what I wanted,
I want to cry, and cheer at the same time.

My throats all knotted up like I'm being choked, I'm holding back my laughter and my tears.
I finally get what I wanted and it hurts?
Shouldn't I be feeling happiness?
Should I go back to living in a handycapped world to please the one that gave me life?
The one that held my hand even after I thought I wanted to let go.

I'm sitting here--with a lack of sleep--in front of the computer sobbing--
--because my mother finally let go. It hurts... it really--really hurts... -sobs-

I get to choose my own job, on my terms with no government help--no mothers help either... She said "I give up--I'm tired of you fighting against me. I helped you as much as I can. Your on your own now;"*shoves help wanted and classifieds in my paws* "I am not going to help you anymore. I've had it." and she told me to get out of the car, and drove off...

Okay...now I've really had it with Indigo-Nightfall. He's tracked me down on SL and on yahoo! Watch out for him...he has many names....

My boyfriend got into a car accident, he's a little banged up. My heart was in my throat for a while. Its just been such a horrible week. My anti sister was late for work, so its all OUR fault..... and to find out the video game that has captured my heart and soul is finally out on game cube, guess what? My luck I cannot afford it, and neither can my boyfriend. And now it looks as if we cannot go to AC either, because he has to pay for damages on his car, which I completely understand. My entire furfamily will be there! and I won't....... I hate this new year......-sobs-

My(ANTI!)sister has stolen $35 from my room and $50 out of my bank account, probably used it for weed, when she STOLE my dad's truck and RECKED the FUCK out of it! Totally fucked the power steering, after jumping a ditch and tore through a corn field, then decided it was a good idea to break.. 40K damage! She's been to jail at least 4 times. My parents are starting to look like suckers.. They fall for her "I'll be good, and get a job, (AND ALL THAT BULL SHIT!) just bail me out! Please! *sob sob*" She still hasn't learned. My mom hides her purse under her bed, and bought me a key lockable door knob for my room. You think you got it bad?! They want me to go to Disney world with the bitch! AND SLEEP IN THE SAME F-ing BED WITH HER! Because it would be an obvious crime to sleep in the bed with my boyfriend... Image the car ride down there.....3 fucking states away T-T!!!

1. Would you be in control?
2. Would you pull my hair?
3. Would you whisper in my ear?
4. Would you talk dirty to me?
5. Would you kiss me with a little tongue or a lot of tongue?
6. Would you say my name?
7. Would you go down on me?
8. Would you let me give you a hickie?
9. How many rounds would we go?
10. What would you wanna do afterwards?
11. Would you take off all your clothes then take mine off slowly?
12. Would you lick and bite me all over?
13. Would you like to play or get straight to the point?
14. Would you want me to take my time?
15. How freaky are you, 1 - 10?
16. Would you want fast or slow?
17. Where would you wanna "do it"?
18. Would you be loud or quiet?
19. Would you want me to be loud or quiet?
20. Would you mind if i liked you?
21. Do you like me?
22. Would you call me the next day?
23. Would you scratch me?
24. Would you let me scratch you?
25. Would you have to be drunk?
26. Would you date me?
27. Would you do it today?
28. Would you do it tomorrow?
29. Do you think that we would go any further then just sex?
30. Are you going to re-post these so I can answer them for you?
31. Would you make love to me or fuck me?

well, I loved a stuffed cat named him Rusty ... I had him forever, as far back as I can remember....He was there through all the tears, happy and sad, until 10 or so years ago when we moved into this house, where I've been for exactly 10 years now. I lost him in the move, I barely remember what he looks like. I cried so much for so long when I lost him, my grandmother gave me a "Raggedy Ann" type of bunny, all hand made, and sadly no tail. Her name is Rabby ...She was and still is beautiful, even through all the washings.. and still here against all odd of my younger (Anti-)sister (won't go into that) she ripped off both of her ears and one of her legs, but mum patched her up. I still have the jumpsuit and shirt she came in.

One of those pins in my arm might be getting infected, and they go right into the muscle and bone. I am going to the emergency room in the morning. I sure hope its not... :( its all red, hot, and painful.... I wish luck was on my side..

1. give me your number?
2. let me hug you anytime I wanted to?
3. let me kiss you?
4. watch a movie with me...even a really sappy one?
5. let me take you out to dinner?
6. drive me somewhere/anywhere?
7. take a shower with me?
8. have a fling with me?
9. listen to me if I called you crying even if you were out with all of your friends?
10. buy me a drink if i didn't have money?
11. take me home for the night?
12. let me sleep in your bed?
13. sing karaoke w/ me?
14. sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
15. re-post this for me to answer your questions?
16. come pick me up at 3am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?
17. Do you think i'm cute or hot?
18. Do you like my style?
19. Do you think I'm funny?
20. cry if I died?
21. dance with me?
22. sing happy birthday to me?
23. take advantage of me if I was drunk?
24. strip for me?