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In other news I'm going to AnthroCon in july

Its that time of year again. Maybe this time I won't get covid.

As usual I'll be in and around the boardgames room for a large part of the time, mostly with Azul, Codenames, and Flamecraft

Less people that I know are going this year so I have more time and interest to meet new people, if anyone else is going and might want to say hey

I'm thinking about activities that are good to meet people
But most of the people I'd want to meet are probably gamers, notorious for not going out to activities.

So what about arcades?
They're a place to get some pizza and play old games for a while.
What would be the downside?

Its a few months away but bookings are happening now
Excited to go again, this time going to see more people
Anyone else going?

Oh boy next week is ANE

finally a con I don't have to take a plane to get to and instead can just drive for like 2 hours to get to

Anyone might want to meet up?

As usual I anticipate spending a lot of time playing Flamecraft and Codenames in the tabletop room

I'm going to be at the big con next week and it might sound weird to say this but one of my favorite convention activities is playing boardgames with friends

I'm bringing two to this one
Flame Craft is a placement game about cute little dragons going around town at different little shops collecting and spending resources

Bloodborne is the tabletop of the ps4 game, hunters fighting enemies to track down the boss beast before the blood moon timer fills

So i guess i should ask if any followers or friends are interested in meeting up or are planning to go to any of the panels that seem neat?

it finally happened, almost surprised it took this long but it isn't something i was looking forward to

I don't use flist and dont really RP; I made an account https://www.f-list.net/c/farath/ just to reserve the name and to catalogue some things, any other account is not me

now to go track down like 50 individual image posts to fill in the very large takedown request

Getting in the car to go to the airport now

Nervous


Should be fun though

I say as I pose narcissistically, attempting to pre-emptively bask


For the occasion, might be neat that, if anyone has anything they want to say to me or anything they'd like to ask, I can guarantee to answer here

I'm going to go to my first conventions next year!

Anthro New England in February, probably just for a day or two because its just barely too far away to want to make the drive multiple times but also just barely too close to feel like a hotel is worth it

Texas furry fiesta in March. Going there the whole time since like 3000 miles trip have to stay around long enough to make it worth the trip


If anyone else is going to be at one of those and wants to meet up at any point, let me know :o

Anyone know of an artist that I can/should buy a new feral dragon reference sheet from?

There are a lot and its hard to ever like, decide on things, but I'm wanting to get an updated pic, and got a pretty decent budget


So, anyone got recommendations?

wow the numbers match

a little intoxicated just a bit

happy birthday to everyones 5th or 6th favorite blue and grayish dragon


ask me any questions or say nice things about

oh guess i forgot to upload anything for two years huh

the raffle that was here www.furaffinity.net/journal/9115710/
used the random number generator and the win goes to http://www.furaffinity.net/user/rebeccajohnson/

thank you to everyone else who expressed interest though

I bought into a ych from fuzzamorous yesterday ( https://www.furaffinity.net/view/31225265/ , clip 3 ) but I'm looking to see if anyone wants to get in on the female slot.

I'm already paid up for the whole thing so this is just "post ref here and I'll spin a raffle wheel to decide who gets in", female characters only



I'll close chances tomorrow night

trying to meet people is really difficult, especially when crowds cause choking anxiety attacks, but I got to try to expand my social cross section a bit, since its probably one of my largest obstacles
the other most important obstacle, barring any currently unidentified fundamental likability issues, is probably all the lumped parameters that can fall under the umbrella of self improvement. Really got to try to get less fat but got to keep chocolate around as a safeguard during emotional downswings, if you know how that goes. Also trying to exercise more but I always get discouraged by slow or invisible progress and give up, even though the rational half knows not to expect visible progress in short timespans.
The reasons those are brought up is because I'd, in the past, followed a line of thought of, fix my problems first, and stay secluded where nobody has to look at me until im Done, and then start to try to meet people. But lately I'm thinking more that there might not be a good reason not to work on both sides in parallel? The possible drawback is that it might affect the "rate of progress vs rate of giving up" struggle, but maybe it won't.


So to get back to the subject line, anyone have experience with like, Howlr, or other similar platforms?

thanks for caring enough to follow i guess



i feel like i should do something to celebrate but no idea what

For anyone who cares about this sort of thing, this is the game I waste most of my time in.

My character's name is Flib Jib

Faerie server, (Aether datacenter) omnicrafter, dps main

I haven't done too much EX or Savage content beyond Byakko and Train/Painter, more due to pug anxiety than being bad really.

I play Summoner and Black/Red mages mostly (Samurai is the most fun but nobody really likes to see them) , lately been branching out to try to learn Ninja and Bard, and leveled up Dark Knight and White Mage a bit just to get into more groups tbh.

I'm in an FC with a small friend group already but always interested in teaming up with more people

also sorry to anyone annoyed by the "everything i can remember commissioning in the last 9 months" flood

anyways i guess im officially an old decrepit old man now and my life is almost over



guess ill take this opportunity to reflect on my progress for my goals this year and the positive and negative things that happened. full disclosure i am currently under the influence of a prescription drug that is used for short-term anxiety attacks and it does make me a little loopy

+ About a month ago i moved to a new apartment and its a pretty significant increase in my quality of life because i don't have frustrating loud roommates, no more mold, there's actually AC, and I don't have to worry about keeping quiet because of busybody brogrammers living on all sides of me is pretty great

+ (?) I got tricked into reinstalling warframe and it is taking up so much of my free time but I'm still enjoying it. Still no static in ff14 but I've managed to sometimes get pug/pf clears which isn't bad I guess. I like these games a lot but I've still got a massive pile of other games that I need to get through, but then I get home from work and end up just logging into an mmo or other forevergame like stellaris. WHOOPS

- I almost lost my job due to a combination of severe illness and depressive episodes that left me stuck in bed for almost 3 weeks back in January. I think I'm mostly better now. Changed antidepressants, and the apartment change helps a lot too.

- Around the time I was recovering from that, I was still missing work a lot and being late and all sorts of that sort of shit, culminating in an episode where my boss was yelling at me and I wound up passing out from anxiety and hyperventilation and spent the next two days in the ER due to collapsing on the spot in the office. It wasn't a great time and sometimes I still feel it coming on but through medications and new strategies around breathing and anxiety management it hasn't happened again. As a fun sidenote while I was there we discovered part of why I get sick so much and it turns out my blood cells are too small to do their job right. Its interesting but kinda lame

~ I never did found out a less bad way to phrase that "year goal : get a date" part. I'm not quite Actively working towards it so much as not even knowing where to start like where the heck do people even meet people how does any of this work at all aaaa i never learned how social works what even are girls

+ I spent my tax return on a roomba and a high quality mattress and it sounds weird but its hard to describe the quality of life change form having a clean living space and a comfortable bed like, even before i unpacked the bed and frame and stuff and just had it on the floor at this new place it was already better than my old boxspring. good carpet here too. i guess this sort of softness must trigger some tactile stuff in my brain or something

- my roomba keeps getting itself fucked up on my 100ft cat5 cable that i have coiled in the corner because i apparently never got around to buying a shorter one

+ I'm thinkin of buying like a stationary bike to sit in front of my tv. its a small studio apartment but its not like im usin the space for anything else. also thought about buying weights but didnt realize what they cost so it might be a longer term buy

+ also thinkin of starting to learn a language like german or something. heard its an easy language for english to learn


wow hah its like 2 am now goodnight people have great weekends wow i really lost the thread here

Hows it going

2017 was alright for me, I guess. Lot stayed the same. Good videogames, though.

Whats the same since 2016:
Same boring job (but do get paid more)
Same apartment (But will be moving within a few months)
Same tfwnogf (but that's my new years resolution)

Whats new:
Some new friends
lost a few though, too
Started an antidepressant prescription for the first time a few weeks ago and I think its probably the biggest positive change in a long time


Last year I was intending to write a story every month and if I write 10 more in the next 2 days I'll be on track. Guess that goal didn't work out, was hard to line up motivation and inspiration and time. Oh well, though. My "resolution" or goal for this year is to at least get a date. Hopefully that's not unrealistic.



Hows anyone elses' year been?

hello friends and enemies
i want to do a NICE THING since i got a bit of spare money so

if you got an idea in mind of whatever variety toss it down here and on I guess saturday the 20th ill put them into a picker


its probably helpful if you have an artist in mind but we can figure it out after

basically a raffle towards me paying up to 150$ towards your good idea

edit for clarity: in case it wasn't clear this is more of "im buying a gift art for the winner" , me or my characters don't need to be involved at all

i drank a bunch(mentolhmint) and i cant really stand up ery good so that means its time for introspection

first full year of having an acount here and doing sdtuff thats kinda neat i think
went the full entire calender year without trying to kill myself thats pretty good too tbh

im gonna make a commitment to try to post a story eevry month, maybe some might start out with some rewrites of things from 2015 onsofury that werent very good

iw as gonna hang out with some people but im feeling bad and sick and stuff so going to bed now goodnight

it mgihtt be fun to do, that i wil answer on this jounral any question in or out of character when i wake up or whenevr, in case anyone has one but its alright if dont8 you are all beutifl crush 2017 in your mind vice

im not like a big person and its not objectively that big a number but i think its somewhat of a milestone for me- so I guess "thank you" to whoever saw a thing and felt like seeing at least one additional thing and a corresponding "sorry" to anyone who forgot about it and then got annoyed by this watchlist clutter

am i supposed to do something about this? Does anyone have some suggestion on what I should do about this? I genuinely do not know what people tend to do I'm still pretty new to this area