It was yesterday, heh, was busy and forgot to write about it. Not that it matters all too much!

Happy Birthday to  Hasani cause we were born on the same day!

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A fursona is much like a persona, a mask which we put on. A way which we represent ourselves to the world. Some would end it there, on the character itself, but I do wonder about other elements.

Whenever your character is some idealized character with a perfect body, or some comedic weakling. Whenever it stands as some power fantasy, or a mere representation of yourself... There still is the person behind it. The truth, and the whole motivation behind the mask that they're putting on.

What motivated the look of your fursona and how you present it?
-You wanted to feel strong?
-You wanted to look cute, maybe sexy?
-You wanted attention? Fame?
-You wanted to express yourself?


What about the images of your fursona?
-single images of the character posing?
-funny silly images?
-comedic comic strips?
-long comic stories spanning many pages
-art depicting fetishes (whenever they be adult rated or not)
-pornographic images or comics

Now of course I'm not trying to judge here. I enjoy all sort of artists online, and wouldn't say that one approach is better than another. Even among each of these there can be more layers, more things to consider.
-creating beautiful art could be done by someone who just wants fame and money
-and someone who only has fetishy art in their gallery could just be a kind and innocent nice guy, who just likes stuff of that kind, heh

Why am I even talking about all this?
... well, it's because I look at myself, at my gallery and question what impression they get. Of course I draw what I want, and share what I want, but I kind of stop and question how different things would be if the face that I presented were different. I could present more fetish art and be adored by specific groups of people, but I don't of course. Other images and projects take priority, and I don't want to give the impression that sexuality is that big of a part of my life. Many deviants would probably consider me to be a wet blanket.

Sorry, just venting things out of my head, cause I'm overthinking again... seeing other artists do what they do, get big famous, not even with some ill greedy intentions, but I still pass on following the same path, because it does not feel like it's the way for me to go.

Anyway, be sure to stay hydrated everyone!

I spontaneously got an idea for a movie , a comedy (let's not get too deep into how realistic this would be, it's more about the situation itself and the concept of it).

A furry guy falls into a coma, and wakes up with amnesia. He remembers nothing about who he is. His family is trying to bring back his truly important memories, and that does end up working, but the guy has no recollection of what furries are. His friends proceed to try and re-educate him, and he's just weirded out by. They proceed to try with Yiff /porn, cause it seems like something that would be easier to get, and the guy was into some exotic stuff like VORE, which isn't something the others in the group are into… and so you end up with a scene where the guy is watching vore, not finding it appealing, and questioning his friends
“How can you people find this appealing?!”
And they go
“We don’t, it’s your kink, you perv!”

There, that’s it!

More of the exact same stuff, even the link is the same

 lightning1tot

It seems to FAV the same exact pictures that the other account did yesterday

Ok, something weird occured. Someone FAV'ed one picture of mine, watched me, followed me, and has send me a Note, in which they've offered to help my profile grow, get exposure on social media. Offering to give me some analysis of potential benefits and stuff like that, sending me a very short link to who knows where

I politely rejected the offer, because I don't care about exposure, plus I felt like a link like this would be potentially risky, so I ignored it.

However then I looked at the person's profile, it was created today, they were following hundreds of people already within a day, seemingly filling their favorites with 1 picture of each artist they caught this way. I presume they send them the same message as they send me.

A few hours later, the profile has been deactivated.

Since I'm 99% sure it is a scam of some suspicious sort, I am putting up the name of said person and urging people to be careful:

 wickabjkp

On September 5th 2005 I followed the advise of a friend, and began to scribble away and attempt to redraw pictures from a bunch of Magic the Gathering cards. With how well that went, I decided to become an artist, and draw my own comic.

This is a rather important anniversary to me, even if I don't always do anything fancy for it.

Keep on working hard everyone.

In the middle of 2018 I bought myself a desktop computer, the first one I had since years. However I have had constant trouble since. Already after a few months, the machine slows down tremendously, and it seems like formatting is the only way to fix it. I have used diagnostics tools and it seems like its impossible for any hardware to be at fault. It seems to be software related, but I don't do anything different than I did on any laptop throughout the years, and those never had any issues.

Does anyone have any guess as to what could be causing this?

I've made a video, trying to think back about what a wonderful friend  Tauros was, and how sad I am that now he is gone.

https://youtu.be/ymfdGeIq60A

Today I've received news that on August 1st,  Tauros has passed away due to complications from pancreatitis.

He was a good friend of mine, who visited me in 2012. I was hoping to visit him sometime as well, but ... now he's gone.

He will be sorely missed.

I hate how political people get on all sort of social media platforms. It's often mean-spirited, divisive , and doesn't lead anywhere cause it's not meant to convince anyone, but just to ramble on and on.... preach to the choir. All sometimes done by content creators or entertainers who really have no need to do this.

Why do I bring this up? Cause seeing some of that has made me self-reflective. I have gotten a bit political in the past. I have been part of protests, fighting for causes that were important to me, and I was even actively against certain politicians, and even if they're probably not popular to begin with, it all altered my worldviews to something that not that many would accept.

If you can't tell what I'm even talking about, then that makes me happy, cause it means that I'm not rambling like a madman, annoying/frustrating the life out of my watchers.

I'd like to mention something that always gets into my heart and mind when I see people posting stuff that I do disagree with: fear. I always fear that said person would hate me. That me having a different view would mean they hate me. It might not always be true, but it's there.

In any case, if I ever get political, I want to say: I do not hate you for disagreeing with me. We all have our thoughts, our ideas. If you feel differently than I do, then I'm not shocked nor upset. Let's live in peace

I notice how many stereotypes exist in the realms of straight men dating women.
-incel
-simp
-cuck
-white knight
-virgin

All the many things that guys can be called. They're not as much in use in terms of gay relationships, cause being gay is considered "easy mode". However I have some trouble in this field, and don't even feel that motivated to try at the dating game. True, I'll probably have to someday, but it feels like such an annoyance. Men are so hard to approach.

People speak of "voluntary celibacy" (opposite of an incel), and I wonder if I'm not falling into that camp over time.


.... just venting frustrations.

So the presidential elections in Poland have come to an end, and the candidate that I voted for didn't win (to be fair, my candidate lost in the first phase, so I was voting for someone else in the second, but whatever, even that guy didn't win).

What's my reaction? Well, it is the typical close-minded and extrimist attitude of respecting the will of the people and accepting that this is who takes on the role for the next couple of years.

It's just what what I do....

We live in crazy times. 2020 became this seemingly apocalyptic year where everything goes wrong. The News, YouTube, people all over the place are constantly speaking of how bad things get...

I recently had to think about how.... I tend to feel sad. I keep hoping to someday feel like I have the right job, that I'm in the right place, surrounded by people who I like, with whom I can be honest and happy...

but meanwhile I see all this negativity, all this hate, aggression... people being upset, demanding everyone else to share their emotions, and it feels ... exhausting. Life is so short, and yet to some, a minute of not being sad or angry over something, is a minute wasted. It never feels like they have an end-goal, something to get, attain, and be happy.

I may not have a plan of how to surely get where I want to be, but I have a message to share with all my followers who hate this time: Someday it will pass, and we'll be back to normal. Don't let other people make you feel bad, especially not out of a sense of guilt or a sense of obligation. Better days are ahead of us, so let us look forward to them, whenever they may come.

It looks like I got myself a job as a Software Tester in Warsaw, the capital of Poland.

I wish to declare that I have finished the first page of the next (and final) chapter of Seven Pack. I have not been too active, and yeah, I should probably be totally ashamed for this sort of slow pace, but ...... whatever. Here we are. It's a start.... we'll see if I finish the chapter before the end of the year!

A battle against hatred is futile, when its fueled by hatred.

Soooo, it's Pride Month. For the first time I'm in the month as a gay person. In the past years I was in the "I'm bisexual, maybe I prefer girls!!!". Now I know that I do prefer guys, so I'm probably better off labeling myself that way (not that I like to use labels. That's such a MILLENNIAL thing to do!).


Either way. Here I am, and you know what? It doesn't really make a difference. Much like being a furry, being LGBT is a part of me, but not enough for me to just blend in with the crowd, especially since I'm a giant weirdo.

And I mean what's with the name "PRIDE month" anyway? I'm not proud of who I am. I am embarrassed by it, so why isn't there a month called "EMBARRASSMENT MONTH" ? .... well, to be fair, the way some people act during June is embarrassing, so maybe the name would work for it too.


WHATEVER, Happy June people!

With the whole launch of Warcraft 3 Reforged, my best friend had asked if I'd make a video about the original. Really shameful to say that the game came out at the start of the year, and the video, despite its terrible quality and simplicity is only being released now, but maybe someone can enjoy it:
https://youtu.be/D-hQ5S1qwbA

I notice that the rules of whenever or not it's ok to make fun of certain people is very arbitrary.

Sometimes I hear voices of "you're only allowed to strike above", like that you're not allowed to mock those who are below you in the terms of the class system. You can only make fun of people above you. But then as soon as someone mocks some Hollywood celebrity, it's not ok either, because "making fun of people just because they're rich is bad too", which really sounds weird coming from people who preach socialism.... Also seeing high city folk make fun of people in very rural areas comes off wrong too, because .... how can these high-society folk claim to be "striking upward" when mocking the poor.

I guess it's another case of "I am allowed to make fun of anyone I want, because I am so smart, and I have the right to arbitrarily say that other people do not have the same rights as me, when what they say doesn't suit me, because they are stupid, not intelligent, their jokes are mean, hurtful, and should be censored"


Sorry, just got reminded of that again and felt like rambling