I just realized I haven't uploaded a journal since last Xmas.

Life is still shit.

Also SSI apparently has deemed me unfit for employment due to my disability, so that's a thing ._.


Also I'm alive..

and stuff..


Oh, and haven't been doing art since my tablets pen has gone missing and art supplies are expensive in my situation.

I got deodorant, gum, and my mother accused me of working with the cat to attempt to murder her.


Merry Christmas.

But yeah seriously. I need to get back into the art loop, I need to make some quick cash and stuff, so let me know if you want some rediculously cheap arts. All pictures are drawn in paint tool sai/photoshop and psuedo hand-painted color wise with my tablet and some layering tricks. Im not asking for much,and the money more than likely is going to bills and replacing a bunch of stuff in my room (Duct taped headphones, chair/desk supported mainly by books and a couple old shoes, computer case has a few front ports sticking out, etc) as well as trying to get myself into my own place seeing as I NEVER have enough leftover to save anything whenever i get money.

I'll draw pretty much anything but sex stuff, i suck at drawing bits.
If I don't feel a piece is up to par after several attempts, i will charge a discount or provide a refund.
All payments can be done via paypal or moneygram. Second life lindens can be used as payment as well.

Rates are rather cheap, 10$ for a full character piece, color and all with +3$ per additional character. The best example for this sort of thing is http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5260931/ / http://www.furaffinity.net/view/8841498/

For a complete lineart, since my sketches are absolutely illegible its only 5$+3$ per additional character. Example: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9224030/ (crappy backgrounds and all!) http://www.furaffinity.net/view/3915080/

If you don't exactly like the obnoxiously bold, weight heavy line style i commonly use just let me know, I can do what i can with more normalized thicknesses.

So like, who wants 20$ worth of arts :D Im not exactly great, but i like, need the money

Im officially 22 years old now and stuff :o All ive gotten so far is an ear infection that had to be surgically removed with a tiny vaccum drilled into my eardrum ._.


But meh, yay survived 22 years, and stuff.

No seriously. Im still alive here. Just no clue what to fucking draw. For srs.

So I live with my rageaholic mother whom expects me to pay for everything, and the 600-ish dollars im currently making a month off of disability (for anxiety problems/breathing issues) is nowhere near enough to satisfy her.

Because of this I'm frequently harassed over getting a job, which i have been trying to do with no luck, along with this im yelled at, hit, and have things thrown at me whenever i prove unable to provide. I'm literally expected to be a household servant and full on provider for a 51 year old bipolar schitzophrenic. It is not a great enviroment.

Lately things have been getting worse, she has been leaving me notes telling me to kill myself, throwing pots and pans around the house and purposely making messes for me to clean, along with this phrases like 'Get a job or go suck dicks on a corner for money" are being repeated frequently towards me. I've provided her over 30 pages of proof that i've been job searching and working with welfare to try to get somewhere, this has not satisfied them.

I'm currently hoping someone out here has somewhere for me to go, whether im kicked out or not I need to live somewhere else, it's getting to a point where i have frequent panic attacks and occasionally feel suicidal. If anyone lives around new jersey and has somewhere for me I can provide what i can, i just need somewhere to be until i can find work to sustain myself.

As per my dog and cat, I currently have a home the dog can stay at if they can't come with me, don't know about the cat just yet. Just please someone get me out of here.

No I do not have any family nearby whom are willing to help at all.

Go ahead and add me on skype, just look up Lorkeh in your search box and you should find me almost immediately! Im always up to im and roleplay and such, though keep in mind if youd like to make a call to let me know beforehand, im usually busy with rl stuff or speaking on ventrillo with other friends (likely playing lol with them in that case, speaking of which my lol summoner name is also Lorkeh if you wanna play together sometime)

Spent three days without power, now ive finally gotten a shower. ~<3 heat and electricity and running water again, yay. :3

So yeah theres this thing called sandy, noone invited it and it keeps blowing everyone in sight. Funny how you can only say stuff like that about the weather isn't it?

But yeah, hurricane coming in, the kind everyone overreacts about in my area. Worst that'll likely happen is I lose power for a few days. kay~ So if I dissappear for a while on msn or skype of league of legends and stuff, thats why.

Lately, ive received a few commissions from people on second life, this is fine by me but when you pay in L$ theres a reason you shouldnt flip your shit and go "BUT I PAID TEN DOLLAH FOR THIS L$ WHY YOU WANT MOAR DAN DAT", well things get complicated when it comes to transferring L$ to cash, if your paying someone directly what you paid for the L$ then your really underpaying them if its in intent to be transferred into Rl usd$.

Heres a few reasons.
1. Fees: LL charges a 1$ fee to process credit from your Second Life account. so essentially, add a dollar to the price tag to help exclude this/

2. Buy/Sell rates: These vary wildly, in unpredictable ways, wherein 1000 l$ may be purchased for $4.35, It will sell for only $3.77 (check lindex tales yourself) in terms of proceeds, then subtract the dollar it takes to process the credit via paypal or wire-transfer, leaving me with only $2.77.

3. Time. A LL process credit, after fees and weird Buy/Sell rates, takes 3-5 business days to actually reach paypal, and from paypal it needs another few days to go into a bank account. It is certainly not a very efficient system of payment.

SO~ Sl prices currently are as follows.

Lineart: 1700l$ = $5.41 after processing.

Colored: 2950l$ = $10.12 after proceessing.


Paypal is a greatly preferred payment method for these reasons.

So yeah, FA had to go down right as I posted that journal about this stuff. But here we are again. I still need some cash at home, even the little bits i charge help ALOT with my current income. So please feel free to bother me. I may not have the greatest expertise in most species, and may not be one of the greatest artists, but Ill draw just about anything for you~ and don't accept payment til I make something that makes you happy.

Rates are as follows:

Lineart: 5$+2$ per character

Colored: 10$+5$ per character

Other stuff: Ask

If you'd just like to donate to me making my house seem less like a third world country (seriously, even the water here needs to be filtered lately) Just send funds to my paypal at sykmynd750[at]hotmail.com

So like, very strapped for cash here at home and theres just alot of things that need to be fixed I just plain can't afford anymore, So if you'd like to commission some artwork, I'd be more than willing to try. I got a busted toilet, broken sinks, and a window mostly held together by duct tape, not to mention my desk is currently being supported by old packaging materials and some dress shoes I don't really wear anymore so go ahead :D.

Rates are as follows:

Lineart: 5$+2$ per character

Colored: 10$+5$ per character

Other stuff: Ask

If you'd just like to donate to me making my house seem less like a third world country (seriously, even the water here needs to be filtered lately) Just send funds to my paypal at sykmynd750[at]hotmail.com

Basically, im looking to make some extra cash lately, I will be able to set up a paypal account once I get my bank account out of the negative so i've decided to shamelessly advertize the fact I do sculpty/mesh work on sl.

Im not exactly skilled in making actual avatars, but basic custom components, and actual builds are doable. So Im Lorkhan Eberhart on Sl if you have anything youd like me to try and make.

Meshes
These are essentially straight up fully-fledged 3d objects, with very few limits, prices do not include textures but UV mapping will be done for free on request.

Simple (such as basic building components or simple avatar mods): 300-500l$+upload fee
Basic (such as complex figures, complex avatar components, or multi-component builds): 600-800L$+upload fees.
Advanced (very complex projects that would take a long time to complete, and would require pushing my knowledge of 3d things to the edge of what I know like avatar heads and such) 1000l$+ and upload fees.


Sculpties
These are very simple, limited primative 3d objects, always equal to one prim but limited in what can be made with them.

Simple: 150-300l$ per sculpt +upload fees
Basic: 400-700;$ per sculpt+upload fees
Advanced: debatable, may as well use meshes.

I also have a store on the SL marketplace, simply look up my avatar name on there. Payments are preferred for when after I finished the work due to me having trouble keeping up with large scale projects.

Yep, Ive been wanting to commission something lately, though I don't exactly have proper means in terms of payment options. In turn though, I play SecondLife alot, and take commissions for building, and 3d models made for the game. The way the game works is the currency 'Lindens' Can be transferred or bought for Usd$ or other currency. I usually have alot of it I cant really exchange for cash so I tend to just buy stuff in game.

To get an idea on exchange rates, 1000l$ can be purchased for $4.35, and exchanged for about slightly less. I usually have at least 2k on me at most times, and can always seek to make more.

Ive been hoping to find some decent artists willing to take L$ in return for commission work.

I'm that now :U and no, still not drinking ._,














Short journal is short.

So I recently switched my ISP to Verizon FIOS about two months ago, the service was okay for a while but there was one minor issue they always refused to deal with every time I called.

All of the wires were exposed above ground..

So eventually neighbor mows the lawn, run over the wire, I call for maitinence to come on Friday, they never came Friday, apparently they accidentally scheduled me for monday instead. Monday comes, no technician.. I didnt get one til about three hours ago, and to even get that one out it took 4 hours on the phone. So go fuck yourself Verizon, im going ISP shopping :D

Only took me liek.. 2 months, gawd lorky your such an anti social lazy ass.

Im still alive.

Still lacking much inspiration to draw stuff.

Still frequently stressed and overworked and other things at home.

I got Clothes and chocolate..

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Now lets listen to dubstep http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LaIZ0mUJzr0

Add lorkeh on your oirginmacallits stuff if you wanna play :V

Don't bitch about viglink anonymously tracking link-clicks on fa til you've deleted your Facebook, twitter, Myspace, removed all apple and android products from your house, uninstalled Skype/msn, unjoined about half the forums you have ever visited, and avoid all webpages with that little Facebook F in a blue box in it too. Oh and stop making goddamn google/yahoo searches too, those record shit as well.


Just by joining Facebook your openly telling every investor in it to quietly datamine/rape you even after you have logged out. Apple/android products are both known for storing location data even when the device has the location tracker turned off (the iphone 4 being the worst of the two, seeing as it keeps it unencrypted apparently). Google ads knows and remembers every little search you've done, and some forum services track and record private messages.

Unless you plan to become amish, don't complain about tracking services, their everywhere and you just need to deal with it appropriately by not using personal information on the wrong insecure channels. Your credit card info shouldn't be used on non-secure pages, facebook does not need that picture of you sitting on the toilet plastered on it, you don't need to tweet your fucking dick length every 20 minutes. Don't bitch about anonymous clicktracking services until you realize the mountain of other shit recording everything you do, facebook administrators have probably already seen this journal if you came here from that websight.


Lol 5 bucks says theres drama in the comments :>


(oh btw, regarding the lack of art, my tablet pen has gone missing, should be ordering a new one sometime this week)

SO yeah, i have been playing Chauffeur all day for my family since im aparently the only one in the house with a 21 year old man (my brother) and a 50ish year old woman (my mother) capable of driving anyone, anywhere.


And about three hours of driving that took up the time i should of spent (and would of if these people werent so pushy and needy) having my tire replaced, and since it wasn't the tire blew out :| of course i was the one to replace it.


So here is where the randomness happens.. i open the compartment in the trunk for the spare tire.. and two katanas were sitting there with it, they look like the cheap duplicates you get at a hobby shop but still..

The sale description for the car stated it was owned by a single elderly couple and noone else..

DX THEY WERE OLD NINJAS HOLY CRAP.. i think

Stilllll here, just stressed, overworked, no appreciation , and no i still do not have a place to stay other than here, though one of the structurally insecure parts that would of led it to be condemned, has been removed. Hacksaw+ Insecure aluminum awning + hammer = no awning



Aside from that i still remain in perpetual boredome and art blockedness, so if anyone wants my msn or skype or sumthin go ahead and ask if youd like to contact me.

As for art.. still either blocked, or too busy to do it, or not in the right mood at the right time.

So, it does turn out i'll be moving soon but no time to get out of state, due to a rather serious issue...

My current home isn't structurally safe for habitation, it is literally falling apart on its own behalf, to the point i needed to put a few nails in the kitchen cabinets this morning so they wouldnt fall on me while making some cereal for breakfast.

We found this out when a building inspector came to look at our trailer my mother and i have been living in for the past couple of years. Its basically so bad the entire house is off balance a bit (which kind of explains how my computer and chair move an inch or two on their own every night, yay turns out my desk isnt haunted at least.)

Due to this, i'll be moving out sometime within the next couple weeks and hoping the roof over my head doesn't cave my skull in in my sleep.

I'll try to get a journal up before the move, dont worry if i dissappear from messengers for a few days.

So yeah, im in the rift head start right now, and to anyone else who'd like to play with me heres some info. It's quite an amazing game and definitely worth a try when you get the chance. It's graphics are very scalable and from what i've seen its even run on old Intel I3 Processors with old 128 integrated video cards with bearable frame rates. :3

But still, holy crap take advantage of the advanced graphics if you can. This game is ridiculously fuckin pretty x.x


Main
Server: Snarebrush Pvp
Character name: Lorkeh
Defiant Kelari Cleric,
Role1: Dps and off heals.
Role2: Pure Heals
Current Level: 20