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Tornado/brush with death
Posted 7 months agoI live in south central Missouri.
One of the tornadoes that touched down here narrowly missed my house.
I could feel the debris against the metal siding along with hail
I spent an hour huddled under the kitchen table because I don't have a storm shelter. If it had veered two miles to the north I might not be here.
I am safe but shook to the core.
lot of folks to the North in Rolla and out towards Bakersfield and Springfield were not as lucky. Many lost everything. Some lost their lives.
Local flea market's roof got torn off.
Storm crumpled an electral sub station like a kinex set.
Just really happy to be safe.
A lot of folk
One of the tornadoes that touched down here narrowly missed my house.
I could feel the debris against the metal siding along with hail
I spent an hour huddled under the kitchen table because I don't have a storm shelter. If it had veered two miles to the north I might not be here.
I am safe but shook to the core.
lot of folks to the North in Rolla and out towards Bakersfield and Springfield were not as lucky. Many lost everything. Some lost their lives.
Local flea market's roof got torn off.
Storm crumpled an electral sub station like a kinex set.
Just really happy to be safe.
A lot of folk
Sliced (trigger warning blood/ injury)
Posted 10 months agoTrigger warning: blood/workplace injury
Last Sunday I cut myself at work. I have been working as a cook for around two decades now, this is the worst time I have ever cut myself. I sliced a chunk of the nail off of my left index finger along with part of the fingertip. There was so much blood. I haven't seen that much blood outside of having a blood test done. I bandaged myself up the best I could and went to urgent care. By the time I got there I was slowly becoming lightheaded and delirious. They got me in very quickly. They gave me a compression band and told me to change it in 24 hours. When I changed the dressing the wound opened again. Later that day (Monday) I went back to urgent care and they put this anticoagulant on me that they described as being almost like an antiperspirant. Meaning that it would cause the blood to clot. The resulting pain from the anticoagulant....... No words can describe.......
. I like to think I have a decent pain tolerance,
I was ready to break down and bawl my eyes out., and I came very close to passing out.
Yesterday I had a milestone, I was able to remove the gauze by soaking it for upwards of 2 1/2 hours and I'm able to use regular bandages now in conjunction with The latex finger condoms we all used to joke about in culinary school. My employer has been more than helpful through the entire process. Part of the problem is I was using an incredibly dull knife. A dull knife is far far more dangerous than a sharp knife. The good news Is I didn't actually hit any bone, I came really close.
Still in occasional pain but it's definitely getting better. At the end of the day I am just very thankful this wasn't any worse. I'm glad it did not require an ER or OR visit. One other thing that I found really amusing. The doctor that saw me the second time with the anticoagulant, he used to live in my old hometown on Long Island, back in New York.
Somehow we both ended up in southern Missouri.
Anyway besides almost chopping my finger off things are well
Last Sunday I cut myself at work. I have been working as a cook for around two decades now, this is the worst time I have ever cut myself. I sliced a chunk of the nail off of my left index finger along with part of the fingertip. There was so much blood. I haven't seen that much blood outside of having a blood test done. I bandaged myself up the best I could and went to urgent care. By the time I got there I was slowly becoming lightheaded and delirious. They got me in very quickly. They gave me a compression band and told me to change it in 24 hours. When I changed the dressing the wound opened again. Later that day (Monday) I went back to urgent care and they put this anticoagulant on me that they described as being almost like an antiperspirant. Meaning that it would cause the blood to clot. The resulting pain from the anticoagulant....... No words can describe.......
. I like to think I have a decent pain tolerance,
I was ready to break down and bawl my eyes out., and I came very close to passing out.
Yesterday I had a milestone, I was able to remove the gauze by soaking it for upwards of 2 1/2 hours and I'm able to use regular bandages now in conjunction with The latex finger condoms we all used to joke about in culinary school. My employer has been more than helpful through the entire process. Part of the problem is I was using an incredibly dull knife. A dull knife is far far more dangerous than a sharp knife. The good news Is I didn't actually hit any bone, I came really close.
Still in occasional pain but it's definitely getting better. At the end of the day I am just very thankful this wasn't any worse. I'm glad it did not require an ER or OR visit. One other thing that I found really amusing. The doctor that saw me the second time with the anticoagulant, he used to live in my old hometown on Long Island, back in New York.
Somehow we both ended up in southern Missouri.
Anyway besides almost chopping my finger off things are well
Thanksgiving
Posted 11 months agoThe stars have finally aligned, I am going to visit my father's family for Thanksgiving. It has been six long years since I have been able to see him in person.
Moving from long Island to Missouri was the last thing I had wanted. In retrospect it was the best decision I could have made. I literally had to rebuild my life stone by stone. Things are great, these are prosperous times for me.
I won't elaborate but I am increasingly worried about the state of things after the election.
Anyway in a brighter note expect a new recipe in a few hours
Moving from long Island to Missouri was the last thing I had wanted. In retrospect it was the best decision I could have made. I literally had to rebuild my life stone by stone. Things are great, these are prosperous times for me.
I won't elaborate but I am increasingly worried about the state of things after the election.
Anyway in a brighter note expect a new recipe in a few hours
No Subject
Posted 11 months agoThe stars have finally aligned, I am going to visit my father's family for thabksgyl. It has bee
General update
Posted a year agoI am still working on the cookbook. The entire process is taking a lot longer than I would have expected. I have to go back and redo a couple of the recipes and get some pictures. All in due time I'm not rushing the process. I've also returned to working on the novel I started when I was 14.
These have been strange strange days. After rereading some of my older material, I found myself reliving a lot of dark things. There is a lot of unresolved real world trauma coded throughout it. Once in awhile I tend to forget that I'm neurodivergent, then the universe forcefully reminds me. The last week and a half has been particularly rough. The entire process has been a healing experience . I'm happy to report I have been doing considerably better over the last 2 or 3 days.
Recently I've become obsessed with the board game harvest. Highly recommend playing it if you get the chance. It's a worker placement game that reminds me of a combination of everdell, Agricola, and honey buzz. All of The characters are anthropomorphic critters. Surprised that I haven't found any fan art yet.
In the meanwhile, enjoy the tomato tart recipe I posted. Until next time
These have been strange strange days. After rereading some of my older material, I found myself reliving a lot of dark things. There is a lot of unresolved real world trauma coded throughout it. Once in awhile I tend to forget that I'm neurodivergent, then the universe forcefully reminds me. The last week and a half has been particularly rough. The entire process has been a healing experience . I'm happy to report I have been doing considerably better over the last 2 or 3 days.
Recently I've become obsessed with the board game harvest. Highly recommend playing it if you get the chance. It's a worker placement game that reminds me of a combination of everdell, Agricola, and honey buzz. All of The characters are anthropomorphic critters. Surprised that I haven't found any fan art yet.
In the meanwhile, enjoy the tomato tart recipe I posted. Until next time
A time of manifestation
Posted a year agoI'm very excited right now. A project I've been working on for the better half of the last 10 months or so, is finally done. I'm not sure what's going to happen. There's a chance this could get published. I'll have an update in the coming days and weeks.
Still around
Posted 2 years agoHi, just wanted to let everybody know I'm not dead. It's been a wild couple of years . The job opportunity I thought was perfect did not pan out . After changing jobs a number of times I have come full circle. I had quite a difficult time getting a house built on my property . The entire process from buying the property till now took 2 and 1/2 years All is well. I moved into my new place back in October . Due to life I haven't had a chance to post anything really really long time. Plus I have other obligations that make it really difficult for me to actually write anything however, this other obligation is writing oriented. I have been cooking tonight expect some Moroccan food very shortly. This has to be one of the strangest recipes I've done in a long time it is B'stila B'djej and it is sort of like a chicken strudel I'll post the recipe sometime shortly , Hope you guys are doing well
Flourishing
Posted 5 years agoSo yeah, the job at the assisted living facility is going fabulously. I am one of two cooks. I am loving it
Also i am quite literally holding my breath here guys..........it looks like i am going to be buying a house.......i have slowly started the process. I hope to be able to move come early December.
I am blown away how quickly this all manifested.
Despite the fact that this year was horrible in many, many ways, i am doing great right now. This job was the big break i needed, and i am grateful on how the stars aligned so to speak to make this all possible.
On a darker note my grandfather is not doing so well he has some serious Alzheimer's and he slips away more and more each day. He doesn't have much time left. However my family has more or less banded together we will get through this.
But yeah.....if you had told me five years ago that i would be living is southern Missouri and working in assisted living i would have laughed in your face.
However here i am.
The next few weeks should be interesting
Things have been put into motion and right now all i can do is strap myself in and enjoy the ride
Also i am quite literally holding my breath here guys..........it looks like i am going to be buying a house.......i have slowly started the process. I hope to be able to move come early December.
I am blown away how quickly this all manifested.
Despite the fact that this year was horrible in many, many ways, i am doing great right now. This job was the big break i needed, and i am grateful on how the stars aligned so to speak to make this all possible.
On a darker note my grandfather is not doing so well he has some serious Alzheimer's and he slips away more and more each day. He doesn't have much time left. However my family has more or less banded together we will get through this.
But yeah.....if you had told me five years ago that i would be living is southern Missouri and working in assisted living i would have laughed in your face.
However here i am.
The next few weeks should be interesting
Things have been put into motion and right now all i can do is strap myself in and enjoy the ride
New job
Posted 5 years agoI have been in talks with a assisted living community that was just built in my town. I just received an official job offering today. It's a dollar and change more per hour than I already make. This has been an ongoing process since mid-February, everything was put on hold due to covid-19. Thankfully I am safe in all of this. Everything has me drained right now. Just wanted to let everyone know I'm still alive, and quite well might I add.
Kami
Posted 5 years agoThe fields have been tended
The sake blended
The tea is on the hob.
Oh inari okami,
Lord and lady prosperity
Thine foxes gambol in yon' fields.
The meadowlark flies forth in June,
not to the sound of thunder but brother usagi pounding on the moon.
The sake blended
The tea is on the hob.
Oh inari okami,
Lord and lady prosperity
Thine foxes gambol in yon' fields.
The meadowlark flies forth in June,
not to the sound of thunder but brother usagi pounding on the moon.
Ragequit
Posted 6 years agoWell long story short I quit my job back on the first. Quite spectacularly might I add. I ragequit, I have never done that before. I am not proud of what happened but it was nesicary, I had reached a breaking point and snapped. It surprised everyone, myself included. Whole thing happened so quickly, it is a bit of a blur. All I can concretly remember is telling my manager (who was in the process of berating me over mashed potatoes) to find a new @#$% grill cook, karate kicking the door open and driving off into the night like a bat out of hell. The good news is I found a new job within a week. I should have more free time from now on. At the end of the day I am happy.
Things have a habit of syncing up. I just finished several different projects. Expect some uploads in the not too far future.
On an unrelated note I will never dremel bone ever again it smells atrocious
Be back again soon
Fay
Things have a habit of syncing up. I just finished several different projects. Expect some uploads in the not too far future.
On an unrelated note I will never dremel bone ever again it smells atrocious
Be back again soon
Fay
Alive
Posted 6 years agoSorry for dropping off the face of the earth again. Due to extremely high turnover at the restaurant where I work I have basically been promoted to head grill cook.
This is not what I had expected this job was bestowed upon me.
However I am quite proud. I cant believe that I have been doing this chef thing for 13 years.
Let alone the fact that I will have lived in the state of Missouri for a year as of the 17th.
I do not have internet yet or even a TV at this point in time.
I practically live at work.
I hope to be back again in a semi regular basis.
These are tough times.
All that matters is that I am well. I will be back again someday in the not yo far future.
Till next time
This is not what I had expected this job was bestowed upon me.
However I am quite proud. I cant believe that I have been doing this chef thing for 13 years.
Let alone the fact that I will have lived in the state of Missouri for a year as of the 17th.
I do not have internet yet or even a TV at this point in time.
I practically live at work.
I hope to be back again in a semi regular basis.
These are tough times.
All that matters is that I am well. I will be back again someday in the not yo far future.
Till next time
fully moved in/ limited internet acess
Posted 7 years agoHi everyone just wanted to leave you with an update, i am fully moved into my new place. this was the third time i have moved in eight months.
new place has no Internet, or kitchen for that matter.
I need to financially recoup for a while
all in due time
all is well
till next time
fay
new place has no Internet, or kitchen for that matter.
I need to financially recoup for a while
all in due time
all is well
till next time
fay
Boxes
Posted 7 years ago#lifeinboxes v 2.0#boxlife#boxesforever#helpimdrowninginboxes
On the upside I am more then halfway moved
On the upside I am more then halfway moved
i need everyone's positive energy right now (good news)
Posted 7 years agook, so the boss approached me, and by boss i don't mean the kitchen manager, i mean the owner.
he said "hey i know you can bake, take some frozen peaches home and make us some cobblers i want to see what you can do."
omg, this is great i could wind up doing desserts too, that is more ammo for a raise..........
i have done everything that i can physically do at this point
it is in the universe's hands
they are in my oven right now
one has just a standard crumb topping and one has an oatmeal walnut topping
i am hoping that this manifests into me doing more desserts XD
my head is still spinning over the fact that i got a new place in under two weeks
time to reap what i have sown
he said "hey i know you can bake, take some frozen peaches home and make us some cobblers i want to see what you can do."
omg, this is great i could wind up doing desserts too, that is more ammo for a raise..........
i have done everything that i can physically do at this point
it is in the universe's hands
they are in my oven right now
one has just a standard crumb topping and one has an oatmeal walnut topping
i am hoping that this manifests into me doing more desserts XD
my head is still spinning over the fact that i got a new place in under two weeks
time to reap what i have sown
moving again
Posted 7 years agoNormalcy, whats that?
just settling down into my apartment aaand my 6 month Leese is up.
i found another place that is a full 174$ cheaper per month and the location is much better
Doing better day by day, my personal finances are still a dumpster fire HOWEVER i am guessing i will be in the clear within the next three years.
there is only one huge downside to the new place, there is no kitchen.......
going to get a hotplate and a small wolfgang puck oven or something.
what really sucks is that i am so used to things going south that now i constantly look over my shoulder. things are doing well for once, i don't want to lose that, the feelings i had back in New York, i cant go down that same road again it would destroy me.
on a much brighter note i am extremely exited for this fall and winter. My grandparents are emigrating from Germany and my brother is coming from Brooklyn..it will be like old times........
also i have never seen the Ozarks during the fall. this should be interesting
all i want is stability and i seem to have found that here.
till next time
fay
just settling down into my apartment aaand my 6 month Leese is up.
i found another place that is a full 174$ cheaper per month and the location is much better
Doing better day by day, my personal finances are still a dumpster fire HOWEVER i am guessing i will be in the clear within the next three years.
there is only one huge downside to the new place, there is no kitchen.......
going to get a hotplate and a small wolfgang puck oven or something.
what really sucks is that i am so used to things going south that now i constantly look over my shoulder. things are doing well for once, i don't want to lose that, the feelings i had back in New York, i cant go down that same road again it would destroy me.
on a much brighter note i am extremely exited for this fall and winter. My grandparents are emigrating from Germany and my brother is coming from Brooklyn..it will be like old times........
also i have never seen the Ozarks during the fall. this should be interesting
all i want is stability and i seem to have found that here.
till next time
fay
update new writing ext.
Posted 7 years agohi.
working a lot of hours to get by
exhausted
new writing is up
weird stuff really, i wasn't really sure i could get the concept to work.
basically toxic relationships and whatnot.
also realizing that i AM in a much better place now.
my only issue is it is too quiet.
don't really know too many people yet.
what i REALLY miss from long island is the seafood and bagel shops......
confusing feelings, ambivilence even. i am proud of myself for where i am now but i am still really bummed out over everything
all in due time
also i almost forgot my mother and aunt adopted a stray kitten for me his name is scout.......he is my tiny feline brother >w<
till next time
working a lot of hours to get by
exhausted
new writing is up
weird stuff really, i wasn't really sure i could get the concept to work.
basically toxic relationships and whatnot.
also realizing that i AM in a much better place now.
my only issue is it is too quiet.
don't really know too many people yet.
what i REALLY miss from long island is the seafood and bagel shops......
confusing feelings, ambivilence even. i am proud of myself for where i am now but i am still really bummed out over everything
all in due time
also i almost forgot my mother and aunt adopted a stray kitten for me his name is scout.......he is my tiny feline brother >w<
till next time
all is well
Posted 7 years agolots of ideas but once again short on time due to work hours and life in general.
egad i cant believe that i have been a Missourian for six months.
time has flown, my finances are still a bit of a dumpster fire at this point however there is a light at the end of the tunnel
No wine before its time
depending upon my hours over the next few days i could possibly have another written piece up quite soon...
Going to stay closed lipped at this point but i have been flirting with this idea for a month now, i have never been so on the fence about something.
I don't know if this is complete and utter lunacy or a brilliant idea.
only time will tell
egad i cant believe that i have been a Missourian for six months.
time has flown, my finances are still a bit of a dumpster fire at this point however there is a light at the end of the tunnel
No wine before its time
depending upon my hours over the next few days i could possibly have another written piece up quite soon...
Going to stay closed lipped at this point but i have been flirting with this idea for a month now, i have never been so on the fence about something.
I don't know if this is complete and utter lunacy or a brilliant idea.
only time will tell
Like a phonix I arise.
Posted 7 years agoWhere should i even begin....
so much time has passed,
am i even still the same person anymore after everything that has transpired?
For starters winter 2016 was tantamount to open heart surgery.
Long story short the girl i was living with broke up with me on new years eve....
then financial blunder after financial blunder and job after job....i can speak candidly about this because enough time has elapsed. i was put into a very nasty situation and did something i deeply regret i betrayed the trust of my own family.....The guilt and the fact that i was (and still am) in debt.....
There were several weeks where i literally wanted to die i am far from being suicidal but let me tell you i understand quit a bit more about chronic depression now.......it is a thief it will steal and sap every ounce of life from you until there is nothing left ....i was stuck in a lease (that was for to expensive) with an ex girlfriend.
I seriously thought i had burned my bridges.....that is all in the past now....i suffered through my own personal version of hell... I am happy to report that no bridges were burnt. When my lease ran out I made a very difficult decision, perhaps one of the most difficult decisions i have ever made. It was time to cut the cord, to hit the reset button so to speak....i am now a resident of Missouri.....my mothers side of the family is here. I have been here since February 18th. It took quite a while to get over the culture shock. I have had my own place since April
i got a job at the first place i applied to (southern bbq ftw)
and i finally got working internet yesterday. Things are actually looking up
i received a minor promotion at work because 2/5 of the kitchen staff walked out mid service and left 4 of us (including the owner) to serve close to 300 people needless to say it was mayhem. afterwords i got a tiny raise and a promotion.
I will rebuild my life stone by stone if need be.
returning to a sense of normalcy was quite a challenge.
also on a side note, I am not going to talk too much about religion because this isn't the time or place to do so, but do to the fact that there is a decent sized pagan community here the transition hasn't been quite as hard. there were times were faith was all i had left.
in short i am back guys i have some stuff to post...nothing earth shattering.
but damn my head is still spinning just four months ago i was in a terrible situation and struggling to get by now i can pay rent and actually have a tiny surplus..
it has been a crazy few months but i will be back again soon...thanks for putting up with My peculiar brand of insanity...until next time
so much time has passed,
am i even still the same person anymore after everything that has transpired?
For starters winter 2016 was tantamount to open heart surgery.
Long story short the girl i was living with broke up with me on new years eve....
then financial blunder after financial blunder and job after job....i can speak candidly about this because enough time has elapsed. i was put into a very nasty situation and did something i deeply regret i betrayed the trust of my own family.....The guilt and the fact that i was (and still am) in debt.....
There were several weeks where i literally wanted to die i am far from being suicidal but let me tell you i understand quit a bit more about chronic depression now.......it is a thief it will steal and sap every ounce of life from you until there is nothing left ....i was stuck in a lease (that was for to expensive) with an ex girlfriend.
I seriously thought i had burned my bridges.....that is all in the past now....i suffered through my own personal version of hell... I am happy to report that no bridges were burnt. When my lease ran out I made a very difficult decision, perhaps one of the most difficult decisions i have ever made. It was time to cut the cord, to hit the reset button so to speak....i am now a resident of Missouri.....my mothers side of the family is here. I have been here since February 18th. It took quite a while to get over the culture shock. I have had my own place since April
i got a job at the first place i applied to (southern bbq ftw)
and i finally got working internet yesterday. Things are actually looking up
i received a minor promotion at work because 2/5 of the kitchen staff walked out mid service and left 4 of us (including the owner) to serve close to 300 people needless to say it was mayhem. afterwords i got a tiny raise and a promotion.
I will rebuild my life stone by stone if need be.
returning to a sense of normalcy was quite a challenge.
also on a side note, I am not going to talk too much about religion because this isn't the time or place to do so, but do to the fact that there is a decent sized pagan community here the transition hasn't been quite as hard. there were times were faith was all i had left.
in short i am back guys i have some stuff to post...nothing earth shattering.
but damn my head is still spinning just four months ago i was in a terrible situation and struggling to get by now i can pay rent and actually have a tiny surplus..
it has been a crazy few months but i will be back again soon...thanks for putting up with My peculiar brand of insanity...until next time
Not dead
Posted 9 years agoJust working seven days a week at two separate restaurants
I have to keep reminding myself that the summer is half over. The hours are killing me. thankfully I am making quit a bit of money right now. I need to stockpile resources for the winter. I keep receiving job offers, if my hours get cut it will be easier to find work
Love the new apartment, this is legitimately my first place.
For all those who also live on long island I now reside in middle island.
I have to keep reminding myself that the summer is half over. The hours are killing me. thankfully I am making quit a bit of money right now. I need to stockpile resources for the winter. I keep receiving job offers, if my hours get cut it will be easier to find work
Love the new apartment, this is legitimately my first place.
For all those who also live on long island I now reside in middle island.
Moving
Posted 9 years agoToday I am moving.
I have lived at my house for over 28 years
I am really happy that my girlfriend and I found this place
Now comes the exhaustive process of unpacking everything. I am dead tired.
You really have no concept of how much stuff you have until you have to move wish me well
I have lived at my house for over 28 years
I am really happy that my girlfriend and I found this place
Now comes the exhaustive process of unpacking everything. I am dead tired.
You really have no concept of how much stuff you have until you have to move wish me well
i can't even
Posted 10 years agoso all was going well with the renovations
we are done painting the carpeting is laid
just three problems
1 we still don't have any lights picked out
2 all of the doors no longer fit we tried to cut them to fit now they are too short and now none of the doors fit at all
3 we just discovered that we have termites in the boiler room
guys ....i don't even
i am like seriously bugging the frig out here, to the pint where i think i made myself sick.............................................
(no puns srsly)
but holy cow......................................................................................................
way too much crap at once
what am i going to do i am tapped out my mother is tapped out
they say bad luck comes in threes
her's to hoping and praying that solutions come in threes
girlfriend is coming first week in November
and i am hoping for some kind of miracle here
we are done painting the carpeting is laid
just three problems
1 we still don't have any lights picked out
2 all of the doors no longer fit we tried to cut them to fit now they are too short and now none of the doors fit at all
3 we just discovered that we have termites in the boiler room
guys ....i don't even
i am like seriously bugging the frig out here, to the pint where i think i made myself sick.............................................
(no puns srsly)
but holy cow......................................................................................................
way too much crap at once
what am i going to do i am tapped out my mother is tapped out
they say bad luck comes in threes
her's to hoping and praying that solutions come in threes
girlfriend is coming first week in November
and i am hoping for some kind of miracle here
still around
Posted 10 years agoi haven't had much time lately
everything is due to the fact that my girlfriend is moving in the first week of November
i am exited
(a tad nervous and/or terrified)
but excited
everything is due to the fact that my girlfriend is moving in the first week of November
i am exited
(a tad nervous and/or terrified)
but excited
not dead just working a gazillion hours a week
Posted 10 years agoall is well just the busy season as usual
exhausted
i am working on average 10-14 hours a day 5-6 days a week
the payoff is going to be amazing
on the upside catered several large parties and they loved the deserts i produced
can't wait for fall eight more weeks to go
exhausted
i am working on average 10-14 hours a day 5-6 days a week
the payoff is going to be amazing
on the upside catered several large parties and they loved the deserts i produced
can't wait for fall eight more weeks to go
hi
Posted 10 years agook so a lot has happened over the past few weeks
my house needs a new roof because a racoon quite literally decided to eat existing one for dinner
my girlfriend is most likely moving with me by November ^w^
also what the heck are we sure it is June? The weather we have on the island reminds me of March or September. I am actually happy the kitchen is far more Bearable in this kind of weather
how are you guys?
my house needs a new roof because a racoon quite literally decided to eat existing one for dinner
my girlfriend is most likely moving with me by November ^w^
also what the heck are we sure it is June? The weather we have on the island reminds me of March or September. I am actually happy the kitchen is far more Bearable in this kind of weather
how are you guys?
