Sorry I haven't been around for many. Past few years have been a rough time for me. A lot of stress, but these strange constant illnesses that kept popping up.

Wife thought it to be an autoimmune disease. I learned to just adapt to it. I spent years going to Doctors only to have diagnosis's of anxiety, depression, panic attacks, cranial hyperhidrosis, low testosterone. Screened for Pituitary, Thyroid.

I never have wanted to others to worry. Besides I tried seeking diagnosis and always came back with nothing tangible so I ignored. Depression meds, anxiety meds, nothing stopped the random anxiety attacks or strange symptoms of fatigue.

Starting as far back as I can see which was 2007. College allowed me to get diagnosed with ADHD. Those meds only partially helped. Though was very much ADHD the fatigue continued but was manageable. Would have off days.

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Past years just after multiple Covid infections, all the therapy after FurCast's ubrupt out of the blue end; the loss of everything. It pushed harder on a problem I didn't know I had.

Last year it has became intolerable. I no longer had "Good days" mentally I felt great and wanting to do things but physically the fatigue wouldn't allow me. After a few days I'd fight and dona bunch of work and overwork myself cause it was rare to have a day with energy. But then I'd be out for 2 days.

July - December finally pushed me to try and seek medical attention or to be put back on a testosterone as that helped since I had such low T. But Was difficult to get in with my doctor and also faced the ADHD med shortages. Thought I was having strange reactions to the off brands. Nope it was more something genetic running in the family.

Before testing blood work again to see where fatigue was getting worse I ended up getting COVID a 3rd or 4th time (I've lost track as one was before available testing). Note I have been vaccinated twice by Moderna and Pyzer. Dec 23-26 I was out incredibly sick couldn't leave my bed with positive test. Was during the Buffalo wind storm missed the whole thing.

Felt better by January. Though then started getting sick again. Mild at first, but it would ramp up. I'd feel fine then it'd get a little worse. After 2 Weeks it ruled out flu or common cold as I wasn't getting better.

Mid Jan thought I was going to die. There is a possibility that I may have had a heart attack but thats up to the Cardiologist at this point. Took another week get original appointment for the fatigue related tests. Figured I had gotten a bacterial lung infection and I remember joking in the beginning of course I'd catch something else when trying to find what's been causing my fatigue.

Maybe it was meant to. Cause it got worse and was in ER Jan 28th. Difficulty breathing. They found atypical mycoplasma pneumonia. Though why they rushed me to a room was heart rate was elevated so high it set off red flags. Here I was still being my normal joking self as yeah I was in pain but it didn't really hurt that bad. Just figured needed antibiotics.

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Skip. Crazy Medical Adventure that lasted 4 ER visits and now going on 6 Dr. Visits, Cardiologist and more testing.

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Be it Covid or delayed treatment of bacterial infection. It caused what they believe to be a genetic heart condition to surface. I could have been managing it for a while but it made it so severe that the last 2 months my heart rate hasn't dropped really below 80-90 even when sleeping. Mainly staying constant at 120 laying down and if I do any activity or even get excited to do something causing a severe spike to 140-150 BPM in simply doing something like washing dishes, even higher if I move and do an activity.

Still need to be on a constant heart monitor now until they can give a complete diagnosis. But it's definitely now focused on my heart. No drugs have been administered. It's stayed at this level as I was told give it two weeks after infection. 10th of Feb was last 3rd round of Antibiotics. Still no great reduction in heart rate and extreme fatigue. Cardiologist is on vacation for two weeks. Echocardiogram can't be done until 22nd of March.

Another Dr visit on 7th that I'm going to fight to get something cause I can't get out of bed most days. Can't take more than 2000 steps in a day.

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I'm still here for now. I'll fight it. If not I'll die trying. I hope it's not that severe but how worried doctors have been haven't made me feel any less comfortable.

Just trying to keep people aware so I don't magically disappear. Want others to at least know in case it gets worse. Ive hid most from others cause no one needs to worry about someone and have more stress in their lives. Especially not me.

Just want to leave this note as a reminder to never stop giving your all. You don't know what the outcome may be. Best not give up on yourself. Cause as long as you believe you'll get better no one can take that mindset away. Even if you aren't treated quickly, or face bad doctors. Cause I don't know what my future holds, but I chose to hold the cards. It's the best I can do alone. But that's better than ever admitting defeat, even if you feel like the whole universe wants you to.

Love you all
Take Care

I should be fine. I believe in me. That's all that should matter. Well, that and some medicine. Laughter is only second best to real medicine.

Take Care now, bye bye then.

I saved the journal, but my goal was never to cause so much harm. It wasn't to call out, ridicule or even hurt a friend. It was simply a means to broadcast my emotion when no one would listen.

I was hurt so badly that I didn't know what steps to take to move forward. I want to make the show better, I just want friends that are willing to back me up and are willing to compromise. I want to talk, but I don't express emotions well and I don't want to cry in a restaurant.

Needless to say, wounds can heal , I've never wanted to cause harm to another but I'm terrible at expression of emotions verbally. When I get pissed or angry upset or sad to the point of breaking I go quiet. I can make little quips but that's my own faults. Hurting FurCast literally ripped part of my soul from me, and the only way I could react was first exposing the wound.

I'm sorry to all those close to me that in turn have been swept in this Tsunami. I will fix what I started as I'm the only one who can fix it.

Social media, even furry media has been a lack thereof in many aspects. So yeah, I know I should post more or write more but ah well.

I will be at MWFF this year so if you are going, you can be sure to find a blue fox running around causing trouble. There are so many friends I miss and people I want to meet that I know it'll be overwhelming. I look forward to seeing many new faces but also old friends.

I'll be driving in on late Wednesday early early Thursday and will be leaving Monday.


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Update on the Extra Life. I have all the winners drawn from all those who've donated. I'll try to post the winners later today so if you are attending MWFF and want me to just hand deliver the prize I can do that as well. Thanks for your patience. :3

So last minute I was able to get off for Anthrocon 2015. Issue I face is I don't have a room setup or planned so it puts me in a bit of a bind. I'm just trying to weigh my offers before quickly jumping on a commitment too hastily.

If anyone has Room Space in the Westin or Courtyard for a blue fox let me know.
Was looking for Thursday - Monday (at least Friday to Monday)

If you don't know about me a few things:
-I'm fine with floor space as in I'm not in the room that much.
-Prefer people at the age of 21 as I like to drink and tend to bring a bit of booze (respectfully).
-Are fine with small gatherings (I never cause a disturbance and very small)
-I am a Suiter, so make quick stops in the room to change/shower (though nothing happening in the room will offend me, lol)
-I'm easy going, talkative and always respectful as possible.
-I pay up front.

As long as you are over 21, I'm always willing to share my alcohol. XD

I have to say it was great meeting and hanging out with so many people. The fact that I was only up there for 24 hours it felt as if it was a whole weekend. So much fun was had and I really missed suiting for 6 hours straight harassing as many people as I could.

I can’t sleep so my next best idea was to write. I’ve just been thinking of the amount of years I’ve been in the fandom but also the experiences along the way.


When I went to my first con (granted I went to local meets since I was 16) it was the most exciting and scary event of my life. It happened to be Anthrocon 2007 soon after I turned 18. It was to say the least, overwhelming, but I felt like I belonged. I knew no one, besides locals and it was an anxiety filled event but in a good way. Surprisingly I was a shy person back then at least very soft spoken and more to myself. I hadn’t yet come out of my shell. I didn’t know what words to say or even how to fully interact without seeming somewhat foolish, pretty much I over thought every interaction. The best way I could explain would be that in my mind I could think of the most logical thing to say, but when I went to speak I’d get stage fright and almost stop, slur, or forget my sentence entirely and then feel embarrassed. I was intimidated. Everyone had their groups and here I was kind of tagging along on coat tails of others. I lacked all courage to butt into a conversation, or even try to make small talk. I felt like an ant in a world of giants. I didn’t want to disturb them for fears of what I might cause.


There were many I looked up to, or wanted to talk to but I had to build up the courage just to speak with them. I wanted to come in with a good impression so I’d sit there and think in my mind how I should say something. My heart would race, and sometimes I would even see someone and walk away because I’d worry myself so much or put into my mind, I wasn’t ready. I was so worried I wouldn’t fit in, simply because most of high school I was always the “weird one”. With friends I was the biggest jokester, blunt and funny guy but I could never meet new people. I was so terrified of saying the wrong thing or making a bad impression that I’d avoid ever making an impression in the first place. I’d dwell on a mistake I said like everyone in a 10 mile radius noticed and a beacon glowed above my head. I lacked a lot of confidence in myself. Even so I still loved making people laugh. I always, even since high school, would try to entertain. Even if it only caught the attention of one person, it always made me feel great when I made someone smile.
(Anyone reading this is probably surprised because this is the exact opposite of the person I am today)


Over time I got better. A lot of the fears stayed with me if I was alone, but when I was with friends it was easy for me to jump in an initiate conversation with a stranger. Friends gave me the confidence I needed, but I also began to learn to just be myself. Though that worry was still strong, “What if no one likes me?”, “What if I don’t fit in?” your mind races with so many “What Ifs” and you psyche yourself out. Being in the fandom was a place I felt like I belonged. It slowly began changing my life. It brought me such confidence in myself and in turn made me feel proud of who I was. I didn’t feel so outcasted, I felt as if I found a home where people didn’t care if you were awkward, or a little strange and they embraced it. Soon after starting to break out of my shell I started doing FurCast. Speaking a ton expanded my horizons but also caused me to smash the fears I hid behind and become more of a fabulous fox. (I say that jokingly as a metaphor for me really starting to be myself without any fears)


Instead of worrying about “What ifs” I worried about just being myself and making people laugh. If someone liked me great, if not I wouldn’t get so stressed over it. I was never seeking tons of friends, or to be known. I enjoyed talking with people, still do. I stopped worrying about every mistake I might make or every slip up, and just have fun. Life had too many worries to stop and think about each one. Just having a few close friends was all I ever really needed.


(Fast forward [excluding so much information] to today)


There is so much to my story that I can’t even possibly tell everything. So much is missing but it’s hard to explain all the ups and downs and self realization. Needless to say I wouldn’t be who I am today without the influence of the fandom in my life. It has helped better me in so many ways. From bringing confidence to being able to talk to, meet, and share stories with some of the most talented, incredible and most amazing people I’ve ever had the joys of making contact and connections with.


But from my past I’ve used it as away to be a better person in the fandom as well. I realize I reached a point where people do look up to me. I can say that I’m known by many and know many myself. I never aimed to be, nor have I ever seen it as desirable. That wasn’t some goal or record, nor was it ever even an acknowledgeable reason to why I joined the fandom. I’ve got where I am by just being myself and treating life as a big joke, but one you need to laugh at even during rough times. To not worry, I didn’t need to inflate myself or try to “fit in” but learn to just be an individual…to be myself. Knowing I have fans, and knowing where I stood when I first joined the fandom I’ve learned how it can be intimidating. I watched how some treated people, and even I myself were treated. It bothered me when someone acted / believed as if they were somehow better than those around them. I even seen a few outcast or push others away. Or in turn sit and make fun of others like they themselves had not a single flaw. I simply never understood that. I have never seen myself as better than anyone and really am incapable of doing so.


I guess I’m posting this cause I want people to know that I wasn’t some confident outspoken person when I joined the fandom. To those who’ve told me their shy or were too scared to talk to me, don’t be. I’d hate to ever be intimidating and I just want to say I’ve been there. I know what it’s like to stand in front of someone afraid of what to say, but never let your fears control you. Even more so don’t try to inflate yourself to match another, or be something you are not. Just be yourself. This fandom is so accepting of all walks of life, it’s the one place you can always feel comfortable being yourself. You don’t need a suit, a show or be an artist to make friends. All you need is confidence in yourself.

I've always found these a bit cliche and silly, granted it gives people information about the con but at the same time I always feel like it's the same way to contact me.

Where are you staying?
That Main Building with the Floors/Furries and Con Space.

What day are you getting there?
Either late Thursday Night to very early Friday Morning (Midnight / 1am)

How are you traveling?
Driving After work from Buffalo to Chicago

Who will you be rooming with?
 Frostwolf and two other homos

How is the best way to find you?
I tend to be a big blue fox a bunch. Granted I don't know when or where I'll be fursuiting. This year in between room parties I might sit and chill at the bar for awhile to harass BBF. You can always message me or follow me on twitter to know where I am FayroeFox

What do you look like?
A Fabulous Straight OneFurAll Blue Fox.
or
I'll look like Walsh from Firefly (Or so people tell me)

Will you be taking at-con commissions?
I can't draw, but if I drink enough maybe I'll make a mad stick figure drawing trying to impress.

What is your gender?
Last time I checked, Male. I can check again but I don't think it's changed.

Can I talk to you?
100% Yes. I don't care where I am, don't be afraid to talk with or to me. I swear if I get a person saying, "They saw me but I looked busy" or "I was too afraid to say hi" I'm going to hunt you down and make words come out of your mouth. But in the friendliest way possible.

I'm not intimidating, don't view me as such. :P

Can I touch you?
Touch How? Hugs yes, Gropes... not unless you are CJ, Sozan or Shia. Because I can't stop them.

Can I visit your room?
Maybe, Possibly, I don't know. I occasionally have friendly room parties with people I know, though that's usually later in the evening. I don't let people under 21 drink with me. If you are not from America then yeah I'm not going to stop you from drinking with me.

Can I buy you drinks?
From what I've seen a lot of people want to buy me a drink. I mean sure I guess you can, but it's not something I'd want to make a habit. I'd accept it as a kind gesture and probably sit and talk. I'm more of a fruity liquour drinker, there are some beers I can handle.

Can I give you stuff?
People do, but I always feel bad cause I rather enjoy giving gifts to others than receiving them.

Can I hug or snuggle with you?
Hugs are fine, snuggles....I've seen furries use that term in different ways. I"ll avoid that.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Yell my name. Awkwardly sneak up behind me. Whisper sweat nothings into my ear. Tap my shoulder. I'd say anything that grabs my attention really.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Chilling with friends, chatting with people, possibly stop by a few panels. Bar, Rooms, Suiting.

Will you be attending any live performances?
I might join in the Variety Show again this year. Possibly harass the Gryphon a bit. Maybe do a few interviews for FurCast

Can I take your picture?
Yes. But Tag me on Twitter or Post it on FA or Send it to me in an Email....SOMETHING. I hate playing seekers of the photos of cons.

What's your goal(s) for the con this year?
I don't really have any set goals. Hang out with a lot of people I miss. Meet new people, share moments with fans. Honestly I'm a people person, everyone has a story to tell and frankly I find most interesting.

So...had a birthday again. Jeese these start coming faster and faster. :P

Didn't really do much, though after working people started buying me shots. I got to spend the day before with friends and doing FurCast which I love so in the end it was a decent way to spend my day.

I'm going. Wednesday to Monday. Love the city, staying longer in the area than most cons.

Haven't packed yet. Did get booze tho. I'm honestly kinda unprepared. No planning is going into this one this year. Just kinda packing and heading out the door.

Sometimes more than 5 days, but I have given up all life outside of work. I still happen to make it out to places in free time, but if anyone is wondering why I'm not posting new things or giving my E3 Update, it's cause I haven't had the time momentarily.


I feel bad though, I know there are people who want to talk to me, but I'm simply just not around currently. Eventually I feel I'll get things balanced out.


Fox Updates 101

So my ticket is verified, plane ticket booked, only problem now I'm facing is Hotel / Cab Fare, though trying to work something out currently. I'd rather find someone in the area to crash with or someone else who is going and split some costs but I'm considering that very bleak.

Either way, I'll be in the Los Angeles area from Monday the 9th, until Friday the 13th. It's going to be crazy. Definitely a possibility to hang out with a few people as well. The level of excitement I have for this trip counteracts my bit of unprepared-ness. More than likely I'll be bringing my suit because how can I pass up the opportunity to do some suiting in Cali!

A lot of people want me to try and suit at E3. I'm not sure how well that might work, but the option may be present one of the days. It'd be funny to see a big blue fox walking around on G4's coverage. Haha

I guess there is some Canadian gathering happening. Some smelly bird said I should perch in his room and observe the natural habitat of Canadian Furries with their ehs and aboots. It's definitely a culture I need to study.

So I'll probably their documenting evidence from Friday to Sunday, for the American Understanding of Canadian Furs Initiative. :P


Stupidness aside, yeah I'm going up there, drinking, socializing, filming then coming back home.

I guess I'm heading down to celebrate New Years in Delaware. Fursuit is packed and it'll be great to see many people I haven't gotten to see since MFF, but also a chance for me to actually do something fun for New Years.


Party through the states!

Where are you staying?
Main Convention Space

What day are you getting there?
Thursday Afternoon! However long it takes to get to Chicago from Buffalo by Car leaving at 9am.

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Walking around convention space. The Dances. Room Parties. My own room & In the variety show

Who will you be rooming with?
Thursday Night  oddy & Friends

Friday - Monday
 AusiDogChance &  flip~ &  karcenogen

Do you do free art?
I can and will draw you mad stick figure people.

Do you do trades?
What are we trading, because I don't like trading saliva

Do you do commissions?
Nope, don't really draw.

What is your gender?
Male

How old are you?
25

Are you taken?
Yep.

Do you have a fursuit?
So many years I've had to put "No" into this space. Now I own majestic horse heads. Oh yeah and some OneFurAll suit :P

Can I touch you?
As weird as you possibly can. It's how I'll remember you from the crowd.

Can I talk to you?
I'd be upset if you didn't. Don't be afraid to scream my name half way across con space.

Can we hang out?
MFF is a busy con for me, but I don't see why not. I'll be bouncing around quite a bit from room to room, and con space to con space.

Can I buy you a drink?
If you feel the need to. I like fruity beverages but I can sit and enjoy a beer too...if I HAVE to. Though I don't like when people try to spend money on me. So if you buy me a round, the next one will probably be on me. :P

Can I take your picture?
By all means you may capture part of my soul into your electronic devices. Just remember I'll be watching you from those picture always...ALWAYS. :3

What do you look like?
My face tends to appear a lot on FA because of people screen shotting FurCast. Damn kids! But I look remarkably similar Alan Tudyk so just look for Steve the Pirate.

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Call my name. A hug. A moan. A scream. I'm sure many will molest my nipples but that is reserved for friends. LoL

Please add my twitter as a way to contact me during the con. I usually have my phone on me at all times, even while in suit. Twitter is the best if you don't have my personal number. If you do have my personal number than both work.
FayroeFox

"You can't teach a straight fox new dicks"

I blame  CJ.theHusky for telling me I need to learn to gay...


That is all.

Well it appears another year has gone by and in doing so I become another year wiser and my balls drop even slightly more. Like the pendulum of time, I've heard that's the best way to calculate a males true age. Joking aside, I have nothing planned for my birthday. FurCast falls on that day, so the show will still go on, but otherwise it appears it may just be another day. Friday night was my chance to go out and party, but kinda lucked out in getting a hold of people.

In any case, if it doesn't get celebrated this week, there is always next week. I know a Pink Husky that owes me some shots. Just a thanks to all those who put up and tolerate me over the course of this quarter of a century. To all my friends, you mean the world to me both Furry and Non. My goal in life is to keep entertaining and keep making others smile and laugh. Yes it may sound corny, but it kinda fits who I am. There is no greater achievement, than bringing cheerfulness where ever you may travel!

Staying Blue
Staying Fabulous
Fayroe

Want to thank the exorbitant amount of followers that have been stalking this blue fox lately. I usually like to thank each person personally simply because if you take the time to follow my crazy blue self, I can at least take the time to thank you!

Though here-in comes the problem of my lack of availablity. My computer has been busted lately, not beyond repair, just the internal charging part therefore not allowing me to plug it in nor charge any of my batteries. Thank god for smart phones right? Most of the things I've been keeping up with lately has all been through my smart phone, at least until I get some wire, solder and a bit of time on my hands to take my baby apart.

I diid just return from Delaware FurBowl this past weekend with Zhed, of which we met up with Comet, Blitz, K2, and many others whom of which I should name, but terrible with names ;_; Though it was great, the room parties, the suiting, and the people. Was well worth the drive. Except fuck Blitz and his Ghost Pepper Vodka, that shit. NOPE. Never again. That's a story for next weeks FurCast.

Until I get shit fixed...
Fayroe

I guess it’s just one of those moments where you stand in your shower and think about life. Couldn’t sleep so figured I’d do the next best thing, and that’s think and write. As many know my “true” sexuality is…straight. Oh my! But for me, thinking about that label makes me feel a bit ashamed. I say this simply because people look at it as very limiting or closed like I’d be offended if I ever saw a dick. Ha-ha. Quite the contrary really. I guess I can say what I base my sexuality on is 80% of who I can fall in love with and then 20% on what I’d willingly be intimate with. I break it apart on the priority, but they are numbers I just made up off the top of my head.

I could never truly have a relationship with a male, that’s kind of how I know I’m straight. Not that I’d ever be offended by it, or upset if someone hits on me. It just simply comes down to they would not be able to provide the emotional and physical support I need in life. Then comes down to intimacy...”Preferably” I’d never sleep with a male. However it’s more on the level of I don’t care really, not my thing. Just as any person who was gay could sleep with a female, honestly my straight-ness doesn’t prevent me from sleeping with a male just more so my willingness to participate.

Honestly being furry for so long, I have to say you kind of just watch labels that society puts on you dissolve and you act just how you want to act regardless of societal labels. Which comes down to the joke of when someone asks me my sexuality I just state fabulous, simply because I’m the least straight male you’d probably ever meet in terms of actions, openness and how accepting I am of any situation. Only straight part of me is that I like boobies and females. Put it this way, there is almost absolutely no situation you could put me in that I’d feel uncomfortable. Believe me many have tried. I’ve walked in on many having sex and never needed eye bleach, hell there have even been a few times I’ve walked in on orgies occurring, been handed a drink and pretty much stayed simply because I wanted to finish my drink and figured it would have been rude to have walked out with a drink. So in the end I ended up with a drink and a show. (No didn’t join, and no wasn’t excited simply just gave no fucks).

Which guess describes who I am; I care about those around me, friends, loved ones and even fans (simply because you have to put up with me ha-ha). But in situations I honestly give no fucks. I’ve been groped, fondled, walked in on any and every imaginable situation and have never regretted it. I don’t worry simply because I am completely comfortable in whom I am, and I know what I am better than anyone. It doesn’t falter because of situations, strange motions, or being groped. Life should be fun, why keep doors closed when leaving them open gives you the true breeze of life. I’d rather feel everything life has to offer, than to be afraid or offended and shut a door in fear.

That’s why I am what I am, and that’s all that I am…
A Fabulous Blue Fox

Shy-a is doing some art thing. Feel like participating, that is all. :P

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4700340/

Wow, MWFF or MFF where do I even begin.

Thursday:
Well  ctcwired and I ended up making the long journey to Chicago. We literally started packing almost a few hours before we were supposed to leave. Overall the drive was nice, no complaints, no traffic (well one spot), and even construction wasn’t too bad. I believe we ended up arriving Thursday at around 9:30pm and that’s when the furry con infected us all.
https://dl.dropbox.com/u/23879902/P.....2019.37.11.jpg
We went down to registration which was magnificent compared to last year. I had to wait roughly 5 minutes to get my badge compared to last year where we waited almost 3 hours (not fun).



I ended up getting a call from two local fuzz balls.  Toyapup ,  fritztheotter and surprise guest  Immelmann . Apparently their roommates weren’t getting to the con till Friday night and needed a room. So as the loving blue fox that I am, I opened my floor. For the life of me I’m trying to think of other shenanigans that went down on Thursday, but for the most part I know nothing more than mingling. The meeting in real life of both  Casey &  Frizzlewolf was magical. All the moaning we used to do online it was so fun to do it in person. (That sounded dirty) I felt terrible also that both Casey and Frizzle pretty much slept in the lobby for being early, but my shenanigans with them would continue throughout the week. I do know that that night was a rough sleep. For some reason our room of 70 degrees decided to hit an iceberg at 4am. Common sense would dictate that we should stand up and turn up the thermometer, but oh no. When you are tired you use caveman logic, struggling to survive the cold at any means necessarily. (Overall not a fun night).







Friday:
The day began rough with only 3 hours of sleep, but FritztheOtter knew of an amazing Pancake house and proceeded to take Me, Immelmann and Toyapup there. Twas a better start of the day. Much meandering occurred with me walking about. Friday I can’t remember much from, no I wasn’t drunk (that comes Saturday) but there wasn’t too much that occurred on Friday yet at the same time a lot. Friday like any con is definitely the day of just kind of saying hi to old friends, meeting ones you’ve never met before, and overall just kind of getting settled into the con environment.



I think after socializing a bit, I went to the room for a nap. Sleeping 3 hours before the first day of a furry con is never recommended. By all means on that first night, get a good night sleep or it will fuck over your next day. I think that’s what partially made Friday at first so miserable for me, was just that I didn’t have enough energy to do anything mid day. After a nap I managed to chill in the lobby with a few people, and I believe that was when I ended up running into  Keto &  Dbear and their posse. It was actually quite fun to say hello to someone I’ve known since about 16-17. I also have to say strange how Keto looks almost exactly like his fursona. (Less dog like though). Surprisingly I think I recognized Dbear first, and I have to say coming from a straight male like myself, he is one handsome and cherubic gentleman. It would have been fun to have made it too his room party and hang, but I was being dragged all over so sadly I missed out. Well there is always next con to party with that once Blue Dawg and his faithful sidekick Cherubic Bear. That and I swear one of these days I will make Keto draw a tit that is not on a guy.



The night was quite fun, besides trying to find a restaurant for 7 people. Ended up getting dragged out by  frostwolf with  Mortova,  RedRusker, myself and 3 others (whom I can’t remember by name). Besides hopping between three places and being told 45 min – 2 hour wait time, it was fun to find a very “festive” pub / bar / eatery to sit down at. I think the highlight of the dinner was me ordering a margarita and then this coming into play.
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It was a test of my manliness, I drank that like a champ. In the end RedRusker and I walked out of that Pub, those glasses in our hands like trophies of manliness. We were not swayed by the strange looks of other furs, nor the fact that there was a bikini on our glass. We were proud men, aiming to drink a many drink from that glass in days to come. I shall probably drink from it in our Studio on Saturday.



Back to the con I ended up finishing the night following  Frostwolf to  FizzOtter ‘s room party. It was there that I ended up running into,  AusiDogChance (Local Fuzzball) and  takodahotah I have to say that that was one of the better parties I attended, simply because it was quaint, chill and very relaxing. I remember Chance, Takoda and I going into indepth conversations of social constructs of the fandom, and different ideas involving fursuit creation and those who really bring forth a lot of character in suit, all the while Fizz was making us sushi. (Oh murr). That was the end of Friday, almost 4am….



(Saturday, Sunday and Monday to be continued in another Journal until then have a very happy Turkey Day!)

So I've gone and done it. I've let furry corrupt me to the point where my car is now the "Fayroe" mobile. Essentially I got vanity plates for my blue beast so now the plates on my car read "FAYROE". I'm sure it will be interesting seeing I've driven with the same plates since I was 16. At least now if you are ever in the Buffalo area, or at a con I'm at you can so tell it's mine.

I expect strange love notes and drawings on my windows. Hahaha

Not sure what I should do, or what I should plan but the day is upon me. The 24th year of being alive. It's not that I feel birthdays aren't as special, but to be honest family never really celebrates them anymore. So it always just seems like a day where my FaceBook is just blown up with 10,000 "Happy Birthdays" lol

Well hopefully I'll figure something fun to do. Even if it's just chill and have a cake and a few beers with those who are close by.

So on any long trip, my car always gets crazy. The highlight of most trips end in us breaking down and doing a full car rock out sing along session. This is just one of many many videos I have, but I decided to finally share one.

Would you like to experience the fatiguing nature of increased body temperature for about a 24 Hour Period. Do you want symptoms of light headed while standing, and dizziness while walking. Of course you don't, but apparently I do.

Been popping Motrin and taking showers, as well as using ice packs to keep temperature relatively stable. Current sleep time with interchanging ice packs while sleeping 10 hours. Hopefully I stable up soon or I may be taking a visit to the old ER.