So yeah.
It's Christmas Eve tonight.

The days of me being surprised by my gifts are long over,
considering that my parents have taken me WITH THEM when they go shopping
since I was 10 or so.

Though I have to say, some of my present are making this Christmas just that much better.

I picked out a medium Intuos4 tablet (I had to pay for a large portion of it),
but it's the one present I've been waiting so long for.
There's also the possibility of me getting Photoshop from my uncle,
and a couple of video games I'd been asking for.

The holiday season has never been one of my favorites. A lot of stress, a lot of pressure, and a lot of shit to deal with concerning mu own emotions.

Things are turning around.
I can only hope it stays that way.~

Merry Christmas, Happy Hanukkah, Happy Kwanzaa, whatever you celebrate.

MERRY FUCKIN KNISHMAS, MAH BROTHAS <3

Well, you may have seen me scouring through random submissions and other journals,
but over the past two weeks or so I've generally kept to myself.
I'd like to thank the people who helped me deal with the monsters I was succumbing to
and I'd also like to tell you all how much I missed FA and my FA brethren.
Trust me, I was here for the wonderful down-time.
And I was going to make my re-appearance much earlier had that not happened XD

It also looks like I've gotten a lot of views o:
Over 1k, huh?
I love you guys ;w;

Anywho, expect to see a bit more of me around, maybe I'll even upload something
like the little art whore I am XD

I might not be very active in these coming days, maybe weeks.
I have some stuff that needs dealing with, and some loose ends to tie up.
I'll try to remain as active as possible,
but in the meantime,
consider me in hibernation.~

Farewell my dears.
Monsters are taking over once more.

stolen from  saetia If you read this, you're tagged ;<

RULE 1: You can ONLY say Guilty or Innocent.
RULE 2: You are not allowed to explain anything unless someone messages you and asks!
RULE 3: Once you have finished answering all the questions, you must add one of your own at the bottom. AND ANSWER IT!!!

Asked someone to marry you?
Guilty

Kissed one of your FurAffinity friends?
Innocent

Danced on a table in a bar?
Guilty

Ever told a lie?
Guilty

Had feelings for someone who you can't have back?
Guilty

Kissed a picture?
Guilty

Slept in until 5 PM?
Guilty

Fallen asleep at work/school?
Guilty

Been suspended from school?
Innocent

Worked at a fast food restaurant?
Innocent

Stolen from a store?
Guilty

Been fired from a job?
Innocent

Done something you regret?
Guilty

Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?
Guilty

Caught a snowflake on your tongue?
Guilty

Kissed in the rain?
Guilty

Sat on a roof top?
Guilty

Kissed someone you shouldn't?
Guilty

Sang in the shower?
Guilty

Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?
Guilty

Shaved your head?
Innocent

Had a boxing membership?
Innocent

Made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
Guilty

Been in a band?
Guilty

Shot a gun?
Guilty

Donated blood?
Innocent

Eaten alligator meat?
Guilty

Eaten cheesecake?
Guilty

Have/had a tattoo?
Innocent

Liked someone, but will never tell who?
Innocent

Been too honest?
Guilty

Ruined a surprise?
Guilty

Ate in a restaurant and got so bloated that you cant walk afterward?
Guilty

Erased someone in your friends list?
Guilty

Dressed in a woman's clothes (if your a guy) or man's clothes (if your a girl)?
Guilty

Been in a pageant?
Innocent

Been told that you're handsome or beautiful by someone who totally meant what they said?
Guilty

Had communication w/ your ex?
Guilty


Get totally drunk one night and you have an important exam tomorrow morning?
Guilty

Had a total stranger pay for your meal or drink?
Guilty

Got so totally angry that you cried hard?
Guilty

Tried to stay away from someone for their own good?
Guilty

Thought about suicide?
Guilty

How about mass murder?
Guilty

Tried illegal drugs and then liked them?
Guilty

Rode in a stranger's vehicle?
Guilty

Stalked someone?
Guilty

Had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Guilty

Danced around in your underwear?
Guilty

Jumped off a house?
Guilty

Ever missed someone so much you felt like crying everyday?
Guilty

Actually want to get married one day?
Guilty

Smoked a cigar?
Guilty

Sang really loud when nobody was home just making up words as you go?
Guilty

Had dreams of your bestfriends bf/gf?
Guilty

Fallen for your best friend?
Guilty

Ever tripped on flat ground?
Guilty

Ever cheated on your bf/gf?
Innocent

Ever gone to school under the influence of drugs or alcohol?
Guilty

Had a crush on someone who was younger than you by 2 years or more?
Innocent

Wanted to tell someone's secret for their own good?
Guilty

Ever felt so confused you wanted to cry?
Guilty

Ever broke the rules on a quiz like this for fun because you over-explain things and it's annoying to answer vaguely and you're just a BAMF like that?
Innocent

Ever spent the night over at a person of the opposite sex that isnt family?
Guilty

Put so much food in your mouth you almost choked on it and had to spit it out?
Guilty

Poured glue on the wings of a bird?
Innocent

Freaked out in the middle of the night because you thought somebody was in your room, but it was just clothes?
Guilty

Held a fart in for a really long time but then let it out as soon as your friends are gone?
Guilty

Been called a derogatory name (and deserved it?)
Guilty

Been in a fist fight that ended with someone going to the hospital?
Guilty

"What's your honest impression of me based off my art and page?"

Taken from  saetia

001. Name →Jessica. I'd preffer Jess or Lola, though.
002. Nickname(s) → Jess, jessi, Jessu, Lulz, and on very VERY rare occasions, Xe.
003. Status → Exhausted

004. Zodiac sign → Taurus
005. Male or female → Female

006. Elementary → Cider Mill
007. Middle School →Middle Brook and CMS
008. High School →CHS
009. Smart → Not really. I can be if I choose to be.

010. Hair color → Blonde
011. Long or short → Short
012. Loud or Quiet → Loud and proud
013. Sweats or Jeans → Jeans
014. Phone or Camera → Both
015. Health freak → Not at ALLLL. That's my mother.

016. Drink or Smoke? → Occasional of both
017. Do you have a crush on someone? → I'm infatuated with two people here on FA, I suppose.
018. Eating or Drinking → Drinking
019. Piercings → Two in each lobe, hopefully soon to be 3 in each, two eyebrow piercings, and a tongue piercing.
020. Tattoos → None, though I have plans for the ones I'll be getting in the future.

FIRSTS:

023. First piercing → Ears
024. First best friend → Kimberly
025. First award → Something in 2nd grade. I think it was a mural drawing contest.
026. First crush → Molly, a girl I was very good friends with in 6th grade.
027. First pet → 2 lizards, Zack and Zeek, and a gecko, named Spike :3
028. First big vacation → Besides camping for many years, taking a trip to the British virgin Islands when I was in 3rd grade.
030. First big birthday → My parties have never really been big. The biggest was probably an art party, where we made our own piñatas and I had a princess cake XD

CURRENTLY:

049. Eating → Nothing
050. Drinking → Coke Zero
052. I'm about to → start the mountains of homework I've left until last minute.
053. Listening to → Welcome to the End - Celldweller
054. Plans for today →Vegging out, sketching so stuff, doing homework, making dinner for the folks

YOUR FUTURE:

058. Want kids? → If I were to spawn children, the world would implode.
060. Careers – Tattoo Artist, Art Therapist, Or something that has to do with animals

WHICH IS BETTER WITH OPPOSITE SEX? (NONE I LIKE CHICKS >:c) ((I AGREE WITH SAETIA <3)

068. Lips or eyes → Eyes. They are like windows for me; they give me a sense of the person's character.
070. Shorter or taller? → Considering that fact that my boobs can smother anyone, it doesn't really matter much XD Though I guess I could say taller.
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Romantic
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → Either works for me
074. Sensitive or loud → I'd like a little bit of both if I could.
075. Hook-up or relationship → I've had wonderful and terrible experiences with both. ((I agree with Saetia))
077. Troublemaker or hesitant → Troublemaker, or at least adventurous. Though I'd also like them to have a sense of logic and common sense.

HAVE YOU EVER:

080. Lost glasses/contacts → Nope, considering I don't wear them.
081. Ran away from home → A few times when things got really bad.
084. Broken someone's heart → Not to my knowledge. I'm always the one getting mine torn.
085. Been arrested → Been handcuffed, never taken in though.
087. Cried when someone died → Yes.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → Only occasionally.
090. Miracles → No.
091. Love at first sight →I believe in lust at first sight.
092. Heaven → No
093. Santa Claus → I BELIEVE IN PEDOPHILES, BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT SANTA IS.
094. Sex on the first date → Almost never.
095. Kiss on the first date → Of course.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now → Yes.
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life → Not in the slightest.
099. Absolutely not.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag

Just do eeeet. <3

Reply to this journal and:

1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you which song or movie you remind me of.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something I've always wondered about you.
8. I'll tell you my favorite thing about you.
9. I'll tell you my least favorite thing about you.
10. If you play, you MUST post this on yours.

So yea.

and I totally hung out yesterday.

We returned MOUNTAINS of soda cans
(This got our hands extremely rancid because of it,
but our sanitary standards are null and void.),
got watered down piss of energy drinks to have,
sat on the trunk of her car and ate sushi,
apparently caused a woman to think she was going insane,
grabbed some McDonalds,
all the while imagining the chicken nuggets were actual chicks
to get some insight on PETA's mentality.

They still tasted delicious.

We then went back to her house, where we spent the next 4-5 hours watching
the first Matrix and the third in the trilogy.
That woman can condense a 2 and a half hour movie in to 20 minutes, I swear.

Anyways, as for the weird title...
I got bored,
so I put my phone on her back while she used her laptop.
It went off.
And she felt it.
It was funny.

Bottom line: I miss hanging out with my goddamn sister.
Fer serious.

Rape-tagged by

Name five items within arms reach:
1: U.DO.It Slushie cup from the Big E
2: Spiked red leather collar
3: Black 8G Zune
4: Swiss Army knife
5: A harem of lighters 9Yes, they're female. They PMS.)

Name your top five favorite songs, in no particular order:
1: Closer - NIN
2: Ghost Town - Shiny Toy Guns
3: Caramelldansen - Caramell (THANKS CACTUS BUTT.)
4: Sound the Bugle - Bryan Adams
5: Wine Red - The Hush Sound

Name five languages that you would learn if you could:
1: French (because the goddamn french exchange students talk about me and laugh. It's annoying.)
2: German
3: Chinese
4: Romanian
5: I agree with Gina, CAT (Though considering Halloween night 2 years ago, I'd say I know more Cat than she does ;D)

Name five politicians, not including Presidents, Prime Ministers, etc:And note if you like them or not... if you want

1. I
2. Don't
3. Give a fuck
4. About
5. This section

Name five things you want to do before you die:
1: Watch the Northern Lights in The Northwest Territories of Canada
2: become a tattoo artist
3: Find out if love really exists, or if it's just a myth
4: Spend a year in China
5: HAVE GINA COME LIVE IN MY ATTIC, SO I CAN THREATEN MY CHILDREN THAT IF THEY DON'T BEHAVE, AUNTIE GINA WILL EAT THEIR SOULS.

Name five friends to be tagged

1.
2.
3.
4. ANYONE ELSE WHO'S BORED ENOUGH TO DO IT.

So, I was sketching out something in school today,
and my classmates took one look at it and said "I WANT ONE."

I now have at least 15 requests for drawings that I'm selling for 5$ each.

Also, My friend Danielle is compiling a book on CD of poems she's written over the years,
and she's asked me to design and draw a cover for it.

We've worked out a deal that I'll get 10% of her total profits from the sold CDs
for making the cover :]

JUST CALL ME MISS MONEYBAGS.

So hey.

500 page views.

Thanks, guys :3

I'll think about whether or not I want to draw anything for it XD
♥

Seriously, this is pretty fucking awesome.

From noon-time tomorrow until noon the next day,
I will be participating in a 24 Hour Comic-Off.
During this time,
I will be designing,
scripting,
and illustrating a short comic (between 10 and 20 pages).
At the end of the Comic-Off, the comics are judged for various prizes.

I'm not gonna win shit,
but I just figured it'll give me something to do.

...
And my crazy fuck of a friend Matt said he'll beat me if I don't.
He's also promised me a jumbo bag of M'n'M's if I do it.
I can't deny my chocolate craves.
No sir.

Also, it's my friend Steve's birthday.
I'm making him a cake for the Comic-off.

ALSO ALSO...

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW ORGASMIC WAFFLES MADE BY A BELGIAN EXCHANGE STUDENT ARE?!?!?!?!
I thought not.

a new bottle of Vicodin.

HA.

Sorry guys, no pie.
I can't eat solid foods still :]

Anti Swelling Meds: 0
Tylenol: 0
Advil: 0
Birth Control Pills: 0
(As a result of the last one) Midol: 0
Vicodin: 2

FSKUDHASGDFIUAHSIFUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCXXXXXXXORZZZZZZZZ.

I'm gonna be in pain today, my friends.
But you know,
pain spawns creation for me.
So ,
your second to last request
is almost completed :]

♥

So as you guys know, I got my wisdom teeth taken out today.
I can't open my jaw more than an inch,
though I can still talk pretty easily.
I'm so drugged up I can't even feel a thing.
I feel so bad ass.
Like House.
Considering that I have a full bottle of Vicodin in my pocket.
Also, I have been reading the MLIA forums far too much.

Today, while suffering the effects of laughing gas, I got a huge goofy grin on my face before they started my surgery for my wisdom teeth. Apparently, right as they were injecting the anesthesia stuff into my IV, I turned to the nurse and asked, "Am I going to Narnia?"

I was in agony for two-three hours after they surgery ended,
but now, there's just sort of a dull pain.
at 8 PM I'm taking some more Vicodin, anti-swelling meds, and a sleep aid.
I shall be dead to the world.
Joy.
♥
Thanks to those who wished me luck.
And my god, I feel so rested right now.
That anesthesia stuff gave me more sleep time than I've had in weeks.
:]

I'm gonna be getting my wisdom teeth taken out tomorrow.
I will be completely bed ridden for the first two days.
After that, we'll see.

But hey,

for an insomniac,

the anesthesia is the best sleep I'll have gotten in weeks <3

I just got 3 bags of candy corn,
a gallon jug of apple juice,
a fishnet shirt for my costume,
5 containers of chocolate and vanilla ice cream,
More batteries for my camera,
and a brand spankin' new sketchpad.

Oh yeah.
You're jealous.
I can feel it in the radiation from my computer.
♥

And it was surprisingly more enjoyable than I remember.

I bought myself a black and purple Mexi-blanket.
It's fucking huge.
AND SO WAAAARM.


I also managed to get a really comfortable pillow,
a new mood ring, and a paw-print necklace.

My mom and I went on a few rides while my dad watched a horse show.
Earlier my mom said she wanted to go into a booth run by L'Oréal to get a free makeover.

She didn't need a makeover.
She just needed to be dropped a few hundred feet on a ride :]

Anyways, it was the first time in over 3 years I've been able to do something
in a day with my parents without there being a SINGLE argument.
That's an amazing feat, considering my mother and I usually
can't go 5 seconds without one.

It's left my mind at peace, for now.
♥

**Note:
I suppose a should mention WHAT the Big E is XD
It's a huge fair in Massachusetts,
with stuff from all over New England,
like horse shows, farm stuff, games, rides,
private merchandise booths, etc.
It's just a huge carnival, basically XD

My good friend and art instructor Matt has made a proposition to me.

I'll be going to his office every Friday from now on,
because a. The guy's awesome to hang out with, and b....


He's gonna help me write a comic.

And he's gonna publish it.

AND I'll have the opportunity to get criticisms from other comic artists around the area.

-is quite pleased-

I'm bored.
So why not?

---

• × • ALL | ABOUT | ME • × •


- Name: Jessica
- Single or taken: Single. (Not looking atm)
- Sex: Female (I second Gina's feelings on this one.)
- Birthday: 12th of May, 1993
- Sign: Taurus
- Hair color: Dirty blonde with platinum highlights (SOON TO HAVE BLUE STREAKS. :D)
- Eye color: Blue (Fall+Winter) and Grey (Spring+Summer)
- Height: 5' 7" (almost)
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Women, please.

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •


- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Thrift stores and Gothic themed stores.
- Favorite designer?: Fail.
- What is your sexiest outfit?: Sexy is never a word to describe me.
- What is your most comfortable outfit?: Commando?
- What do you usually wear?: Camo pants with LOTTZA zippers n pockets. Black tanks. Scarves. Converse. A trench coat in winter.

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •


- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Pantiene would be my guess.
- What are you listening to right now?: First Train Home - Imogen Heap ((I kinda have the urge to walk over to 's house right now. I miss her like crazy. We need to do stuff.
- Who is the last person that called you?: My friend Olivia. She was having relationship troubles. And she was high. -facepalm-
- How many buddies are online right now?: Signed off.

• × • F A V O R I T E S • × •


- Food: Sushi
- Girls' names: Autumn, Lola, Luna
- Boys' names: Silas, Casey, Nathaniel.
- Subjects in school: Photography, US History, English 11H, FREE PERIOOOOOOD.
- Animals: Cats, Snakes, Hyenas, Arctic Foxes

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • × •


- Given anyone a bath?: Yes.
- Smoked?: In the process of quitting and failing miserably.
- Bungee jumped?: Sort of.
- Made yourself throw up?: Yes. I swallowed some really rank stuff.
- Skinny dipped?: Yes.
- Ever been in love?: I wish I could say no.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Never.
- Pictured your crush naked?: -shoetotheface- No. BAD.
- Actually seen your crush naked?: God I wish... AHEM. NO.
- Cried when someone died?: Yes
- Lied: If anyone says no to this, THEY'RE lying. ((Dittttoooooo))
- Fallen for your best friend?: Sadly, yes. That ended in tragedy.
- Used someone?: No.
- Done something you regret?: It's natural to regret. What really matters is what you do inspite of the mistakes you make.

• × • C U R R E N T • × •


- Clothes: Invader Zim pants, black tank.
- Desktop picture: A Luna Moth
- CD in player: ...does a boom box count?
- DVD in player: I put my DVD's AWAY, thank you.

• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •


- You touched: I hugged my friend Josh. Then he proceeded to poke my boobs and say what a gift from God they were. I punched him and laughed.
- Hugged: The world.
- You kissed: My dog. Because she's the only one worth kissing.
- You IMed: My ex. I want my shit back.
- Talk to online: The list is LONG.
- You sexed it up with: Pffff. I haven't been laid in months.

• × • A R E | Y O U • × •


- Understanding?: As much as a human being can possibly be.
- Open-minded?: Well beyond that.
- Arrogant?: Who isn't?
- Insecure?: Depends on the situation.
- Random?: Too often.
- Hungry?: I have to pee.
- Smart?: Depends on the subject matter at hand.
- Moody?: Generally no. I'm just always... I dunno... INSANE IN THE MEMBRANE?
- Organized?: PFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFAJSDFHASGJHAHAHAHAHAHA. Not at all, my friend.
- Shy?: Not in the slightest.
- Difficult?: Occasionally.
- Bored easily?: Yes. But I'm also entertained easily.
- Obsessed?: Over a select few things.
- Angry?: Almost never.
- Happy?: Not in a very long time have I been this.
- Hyper?: Can be.
- Trusting?: I've had my trust broken way too much for me to remain that way.

• × • R A N D O M • × •


- In the morning I: groan very loudly at the sun, cursing it's light.
- Love is: painful.
- I dream about: sex. Food. Death... Mainly stars and open fields. Peaceful places.
- Sexual preference: Women.
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Personality, eyes, smile, hands.

• × • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R • ×


- Coke or Pepsi: Dr Pepper
- Flowers or candy: CHOCOLATE?
- Tall or short: Medium.

• × • W H O • × •


- Makes you laugh the most: Gina, Mikaku, or Casey. Mostly Gina and Mik.
- Makes you smile: Not much to smile about these days. ((I agree with Gina on this one))
- Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: ...

• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •


- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: .. nnn.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Morning noon and night.
- Wish you were younger?: >:[
- Cry because someone said something to you?: Yes.

• × • N U M B E R • × •


- Of times I have had my heart broken?: Far to many to count at this point.
- Of guys I've kissed: 1. I LOVE YOU IAN. <3 ((He's my gay best friend. A DYKE AND A GAY GUY. OF COURSE WE KISS. It's not like my anger towards dicks and his fear of vagina's is gonna interfere, oh LORD NO.))
- Of girls I've kissed: Ummmm.... Lips: 2. Other places: NO IDEEEEAAAAA.
- Of Cd's I own: No more than 10.
- Of scars on my body: I can't count that high.

Do this only if you wish.
I'm too lazy to tag anyone.

Rules:
1) You must tag atleast 5 people at the end of the meme!
2) No retaging! D:<
3) Have fun! :D

OK lets start this thing off with somethin simple...

List 5 songs you just cannot do with out at Halloween:

1. "Time Warp" - Rocky Horror Picture Show
2. "We Are Always Searching" - I Am Ghost
3. "Closer" - Nine Inch Nails
4. "Jack's Lament" - Nightmare Before Xmas
5. "White Rabbit" - Jefferson Airplane


That wasn't all that tough was it? Now pretend you have an awesome haunted house... or have entered one >.> describe one of the scenes for a room!:

Oh god. If you really wanted to scare me, you'd segregate me from the group I went in with, or if I went in alone, just keep me that way. I'd enter a room that's completely dark, the only light coming from the door around me. When it closed, I'd see nothing. Make the room get colder and colder as I search around for an exit. Then, out of no wear, millions of rid eyes would light up, and there would be maniacal laughter everywhere.


Now for the next question. You've decided to dress up for Halloween what are ya gonna be?[eh... ya can include your fursuit in it if ya want >.>;]:

Well, besides my fursona, I've got this thing for Batman... Specifically the Joker. I'd get one of my male counterparts to dress up like him, and I'd go as Harley Quinn. She's like... my idol.
Seriously.
Or I'd have to agree with and go as the Cheshire Cat.


What is it that you hate most about Halloween?:

"AREN'T YOU A LITTLE OLD FOR HALLOWEEN?" Screw you. You're getting a fucking trick. I can take part in Halloween as long as I want. Besides, it's the only part of the year you'll ever see me with makeup on.


What do you love the most about Halloween:

Dressing up and walking around in the cold Autumn night. Honestly, I could do without the candy. I just love carving pumpkins and watching the harvest moon in the star lit sky.

Tagging:






PS: No worries, everyone: I'm still working on your requests.
Just taking a break is all.

Well, I guess I'm gonna give this a shot.
I'm gonna need some practice for sketches and drawings,
and besides, it gives me something to occupy my time.

I'm gonna be doing some requests.
I don't have the time and energy to set
up a PayPal or any of that crap. lol.
So it's free.
I'll be doing some "gift art" for you guys.

Just some ground rules before I open up the slots:
-Yeah, keep the request PG-13, alright? Porn is not my forte.
-Sorry if it takes a while for me to finish a picture: school comes first.
-Please only request one picture at a time.
-I will draw multiple characters, just please don’t request more than 3 characters per picture.

Other than that, go crazy.

Also, I have three main types of sketches:
Pencil Sketch: http://d.furaffinity.net/art/feline.....kittyuloxx.jpg
Line Art: http://d.furaffinity.net/art/feline.....f_sheet_1_.jpg
Full Color: http://d.furaffinity.net/art/feline.....efix_tanya.jpg

Send me a note with the type of sketch, what character(s), and a reference of each character if possible. You can also request writing or certain objects to be added with your character(s). You can also give me a reference for a pose, or just let my imagination take over. Your choice. ♥

Slots:
1) Various characters (Status: sketching)
2) DONE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2770360/
3) DONE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2779150
4) DONE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2774472
5) DONE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2782826
*Extra*) DONE: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/2786581

THE SLOTS ARE NOW FULL.
NO MORE REQUESTS WILL BE ACCEPTED UNTIL THE ONES ABOVE ARE ALL COMPLETED.

I will send you a note, telling you that your request has been completed and uploaded.

LET THE REQUESTS BEGIN.

I just splurged a bit.

I went out and bought myself a pair of headphones.

Not the crappy buds, mind you.
No no.

I spent $150 bucks on these babies.

All of my cat-sitting money and two allowance payments.

And you know what?
They win.
So very epically.

I've got my head in the clouds and my hopes held high. ~

Recently, I don't know what it is, but I've been in a good mood.

Sometimes I have my moments where I stare off into space for absolutely no reason.
I guess it's just my thought process pulling a blank.

I've got a lot on my mind,
a lot to think about.

But you know, I can handle it.
I'm starting to see life for what it can really be,
and not just the mangled mass of shit in the corner that threatens to pull me back under.

I'm done with that place.

I'm done with those people.

It's time for me to let go
and keep moving forward.

10 things I'd like to say to people.

1. Shut up. Just fucking shut up. I'm tired of your whining, of you claiming that you can't act the same around me. I never said you were a bad person, I never said you DID ANYTHING FUCKING WRONG. I need to fix some things in my life, and all I need is for you to stand out of the way. I deserve that, considering all the bullshit you put me through day after day. I have so many urges to hurt you it makes me want to hurt myself. Why can't we have a relationship like all the others out there? Maybe it's just your childish way of dealing with problems. Well you know what? Stop shoving them on me. I have enough to deal with. So just BACK THE FUCK OFF.

2. You know, I was dreading the day when you'd come back, when I'd see you every minute of every hour. I wasn't sure if things would be the same; I didn't you if you were the same person you had been for all those years. But now, I can truly say how proud I am to be related to you. It will take a while for me to accept the past, but I'm glad that this has become our present.

3. Do you have any idea how many times people come to me, telling me stories about how your mouthing off behind my back? I have news for you sweetheart: that obsession is over. That infatuation has crumbled. I'm not going to follow after you like some sick puppy wanting scraps. I've treated you as my friend, even my sister for some time now. To have you pull this shit, think that you can just dangle a carrot in front of my nose, makes me wish I never even greeted you with a hello the first time we met. But you know? If I can change, so can you. Make up your mind, because I'm not going to stick around and be dragged through the mud.

4. I love you. Dear God I love you like no other. You are, by far, one of the utmost inspirations in my life. You, my friend, are the stars to my sky. The fish to my ocean. The macaroni to my cheese. It seems like just yesterday I leaned across the bus isle to invade your personal space. And you know? I'm so glad I did. You and me have formed a friendship, a sisterly love like no other. I do not trust those around me with ease, but you've slipped through my radar and under my skin. I'm also convinced you've scratched your claws into my heart and soul. I just want you to know this; no matter what your mood, what you're feeling, how you're acting... I'll never push you away. Because all I can do is hold on tight.

5. Alright, I get that you have a busy life. I get that you're trying to heal from the past. I also get that you now have a girlfriend to look after. But I think it's a bit un-fucking-called for to completely ignore me for 4 weeks straight. I haven't called you in days because I gave up trying. Hearing the endless tone in the receiver makes me feel like that's all our friendship was. An endless dial to an unknown number. So go ahead. Ignore me. pretend I never existed. If that's the case, than give me back my kindness, my heart, my warmth. Give me back all those nights I stayed up with you, talking about our fears and laughing until the stars dimmed and the sun rose. This phone call of a life should be terminated. So you know what? I'm about to hang up.

6. Your face.

7. I've been thinking about us these past couple weeks... what we did, what we've been through, what we crawled out of. Regardless of how amazing it was to have you by my side, how you made me smile, made me laugh, made me happy... you couldn't stop bringing me tears. You just couldn't wrap yourself around the idea that I really, truly loved you. You ran off with chicks left and right, leaving me to wallow in my own sadness. And in some twisted sense, I forgave you. I always came crawling back. It makes me sick just think of it. Like some helpless dog doing tricks for a scrap of trash. Honestly, did you ever love me? Do you know what love is? Or was I just a lengthy one-night stand? Screw you and your apologies. I'm done with 'em.

8. There have been countless times where I've been in tears, alone, wanting nothing but complete silence. But you know? Every time, you seem to get inside my head. You may not even know the situation, what I'm going through, but each time, you call me, just to make sure I'm okay. I listen to your voice on the other end, and through choked sobs and tears, I can smile. It's because I know that you're always there for me, because I do the same for you. I have someone who I can tell my pains and fears, because I do the exact same for them. I'm proud to call you my baby sister.

9. Ever since I moved, it's like our friendship never existed. I love you. I love you so much. We haven't talked in years, and sometimes I wish I could just pick up the phone and say 'hey, come on over.' But by now, the distance between us is much more than physical.

10. You and I are tight, man. We're tight. I'm most definitely making room for you in my closet, so you can come live here. We talk, we share, we hold each others secrets. My family tells me to keep quiet, to hold some information to only ourselves. the same goes for your family, I've seen. But we don't care about that. We share what we can because we know that we won't tell. We are human diaries, getting a kick out of being written on.

Nine Things About Yourself:
1. I'm a mix of Canadian, English, Scottish, Austrian, a few others.
2. Just like going commando, I'm all out for lesbianism.
3. I'm overly affectionate.
4. I have no personal space bubble WHATSOEVER.
5. I hate my chest with a burning passion.
6. I've been referred to as "The Human Diary"
7. I usually connect on a better level with animals than humans.
8. I worry about things I shouldn't even be thinking about.
9. It takes quite a lot for me to get angry at someone.

Eight Ways To Win My Heart:
1. Laugh with me and my flaws
2. Get to know the monster inside instead of relying on what you see.
3. Just be fucking honest with me.
4. Don't dump your problems on me 24-7. I can handle it in small doses.
5. Cuddle with me.
6. Be used to my lack of a personal space bubble.
7. Be okay with PDA
8. I make mistakes, I'm only human. treat me like one. Don't put me on a pedestal.

Seven things that cross your mind a lot:
1. School work needs doing.
2. I wonder if they'll take me out driving later.
3. I feel like cooking.
4. I feel like playing ----.
5. I want a cat so BAAAAD.
6. Does real love even exist anymore?
7. Sex

Six Things You Wish You Never Did:
1. Dated someone who dragged me and my feelings around in the mud.
2. Brought my mother to a session.
3. Got shitfaced 4 or 5 times. [Never doing that again, believe me.]
4. Smiling when inside I'm being torn apart.
5. Had a few one night stands.
6. Having my mentality switch between a 16 year old, a 27 year old, and a 6 year old.

Five Turn Offs:
1. Problem dumping on a massive scale.
2. Introvertedness
3. Whining
4. Being obsessed with their body
5. Non-constructive criticism on any level

Four Turn Ons:
1. Dyed hair --> enough to be able to grab
2. Piercings
3. Smaller chest than my own.
4. Tongues

Three Smileys That Describe Your Life:
1. C:
2. -_-
3. ];

Two Things You Want To Do Before You Die:
1. Find someone who'll truly love me, and even love my flaws.
2. Watch the Northern Lights in the Northwest Territories.

One Confession:
1. Sometimes I feel so shitty on the inside, that I have to plaster a fake smile on my face and pretend like nothing's wrong. I've only ever had one person see through it. When I say "I'm fine, really.", all she did was look me in the eyes and said "Stop lying." But now that she's not around as much, people go by without a care in the world. Because I can't learn to handle my problems, I've developed certain psychological illnesses that are in the process of being "cured."