Hello to anyone who reads these!
I just thought I would mention I will be doing a little more than attending anthrocon this year. I will have several woodwork pieces in the art show and I was able to get a spot in artist alley! I have a few spare woodwork pieces I'd like to sell to loving homes rather than have them collect dust at home. Expect pictures on my SFW FA account (Felix9) later today as they will be entered tomorrow morning.
I hope to meet lots of new people too so stop by and say hello if you wish!

Hello to all my old and new watchers! It's been a long time. I sincerely apologize for being silent so long. I never truly left but I have found it difficult to work on projects the past few years. Being an adult sucks... as I'm sure many of you can relate.

I wanted to post an update though letting everyone know (and as an extra reminder and incentive to myself) that I intend to buckle down and renew my hobbies this year. I want to write at least two new chapters and final edit two more of Luca. I also intend to enter the Anthrocon art show in 2017 with some scroll saw works. So thank you for your continued support over my hiatus. I truely appreciate it and I hope to please you with writings in the coming year.

On a little more personal note I would like to try and make some more friends. I edited my profile but I'll add it here too. I recently picked up the telegram app. I adore the sticker function!!! If anyone would like to talk or perhaps rp once I get to know you, feel free to send me a greet. I will warn though that because of my troubles with my writings I won't be taking requests. It pains me to have to say that but I just can't find the proper time. I am also trying my hardest not to become hardened like I find a lot of popular artists are. They tend to assume people just want free stuff. I think that's a shame but I do understand.

I hope the new year has been treating everyone well! Take care!

Sooo... of you who have seen the new Lucario Mega evolution. What are your opinions?
I have to say my first reaction was a fan girl scream. ^^; I rather like it. However, I'm not sure I like it enough to permanently evolve a Lucario to it. I am very curious as to the mechanics surrounding this new umm... mechanic. ^^;

I will say this though. The fact that Lucario and Absol got new mega evolutions has given me a bit of a kick in the ass to work on the luca prequel and sequel. XP It has given me quite a few new awesome ideas, especially since Kylee's time is supposed to be flooded with hyper powered pokemon.

So what does everyone think? I'm curious and I'm kinda in the mood to talk or something. XP

Hello everyone,
Sorry to have been so absent and inactive with my writings and works. It's been a bit of a hectic ride the past couple months.

1st, our plumbing finally crapped out in the basement, which led to dad and I having to smash up most of the basement floor to replace the pipes. This house is so old the pipes were all terra cotta! Well... Doing so destroyed our one working shower, so I've had to shower at work for two months. x.x Well finally the plumbing is replaced, the floor is filled in and the shower is being rebuilt tomorrow. So by the end of the week things should be back to normal in that issue.

2nd, While I had fun at AC, I managed to hurt the feelings of two very good friends of mine. So I've been a bit down in the dumps because of that... And since AC I've been trying to make things right and haven't really had much luck. v.v

3rd, Balloon season is throughout the spring summer and fall, and amidst these other life troubles we've had two balloon festivals to attend as well! This was a little bit of a nice escape and pick me up as somehow we avoided the high stress of Canton's high competition flights due to a rain out that weekend, and we placed 3rd in our other festival despite our plans for dressing up falling apart.

4th, This kindof ties into the second festival as my sister got asked to step in as a substitute in a baton group she used to twirl with in high school. Her groups won all of their enrolled events but my dad went with them halfway through the country to watch, leaving me in charge of a balloon glow that thursday. Of course I don't mind so much, it was rather fun, but dealing with people operating family equipment when I'm the one responsible for making sure it's not damaged... well that's a little stressful. ^^;

So now that I've vented a little to anyone who cares to read, I have a bit of a request. ^^; I want to get back into writing and editing my stories but I am having a hard time sitting down and doing so. I feel like I've taken enough of a hiatus and I really do want to write again. Anyone have any suggestions or comments? Also, I've added my tumblr to this account. Be advised, it isn't canon. It's just a fun little board I set up to RP sometimes and to look at cute pictures. ^^;

Well now that I've gotten all the kinks worked out and I know how this works, maybe I can do it right. I'll be on for about an hour from 7:30 pm est if you care to watch. http://livestre.am/4dURR Just be warned, I might not reply in the text quickly at all. ^^;

So I've gotten used to my tablet for a while. One reason I wanted to get this neat gadget was so I could possibly stream my scroll sawing once in a while.

So I tried today with an app called Ustream. I was not impressed with it... I can't interact with viewers without the app shutting off if I switch programs on my screen. I was hoping some of you out there might be able to help me out. What can I use to stream better on a tablet? Does anyone know? And perhaps a more important question... does anyone want to even watch someone sit in front of a saw cutting the things I do? Not much point in figuring all this out if no one cares right? ^^;

Anyway, comment if you wish. Take care everyone!

So i finally got my hands on a transformer infinity. I absolutely love it! It's wonderful to use.

However I'm looking for some apps and having difficulties. Does anyone know android apps enough to suggest a good drawing program? I checked scetchbook pro and wasn't too impressed though it might work. I might try to draw at some point but i need to be able to make layers and trace pictures to make scrollsaw patterns.

Second is i have to decide whether to deal with this polaris office to write or get something else. Can anyone suggest something? I really hate to go around asking artists "Hey what do you draw with!" Seemed distasteful to me. x.x

I'd love any help! Thanks all!

Hello everyone who listens,
Guess I'm feeling a bit lonely here as this weekend comes to a close. So I suppose I'll share how it went.
First of all it was a great weekend. Had a balloon festival in Meadville and my friends came to crew. We had two great flights with no incidents and wonderful performances by the relatively new crew. ^^ We even got compliments and thanks from my dad for such a great job Saturday night, which is actually a feat! So it was a great weekend with friends.

Unfortunately... one of my favorite events of the year was also this weekend. ;.; Anthrocon was moved to this weekend to accommodate the NHL draft Pittsburgh wished to host next weekend. I'm quite bummed I didn't get to go and spend some time among fellow furs, see all the wonderful art and perhaps find a few more lovely fur books. : Goldfur: I am sorry I couldn't come to see you and check out your writings. Last year I bought your book "Life's Dream" and by the end I was crying. It is well deserving of the awards it received. I do hope to attend next year. With any luck my mother won't think me a freak again. All she knows is I didn't go this year. Not sure she realizes why and that I still wanted to go... So to all of you that got to go I'm glad you did and I hope you had fun. : )

Now... I suppose I owe all of you an explanation as to why I haven't posted in a long while. I am sorry. It's been a few months but I got a new job. I'm finally out of that dumb lab at the minor circuit board makers. I'm a research tech for an international company now and making a bit more. Plus it's a LOT less stress and I occasionally get chances to write. Sitting at a machine for ten minutes at a time to do two minutes of work is awesome! ^^ Unfortunately I don't have too much done. v.v I've been doing a final edit on the entirety of Luca, I'm through two chapters but I don't want to post and then be gone for another year. v.v Also Kylee's story is getting work as well but it is slow going because I'm having to put more thought and planning into it. It's a little less of a love story at the moment. ^^; At present only the first chapter is done on it but I need to make sure the time line is finalized before I can post. v.v

So if anyone wishes to share their anthrocon stories and/or experiences I'd like to hear them. : ) I'm still whining that I missed, visiting my favorite artists, getting a couple commissions and generally hanging out with the fur community I love.

Edit: Oh! I forgot to mention the wonderful surprise I got from my sister when I got home from the festival! It really made me smile and indulged my fur side to make up a little for missing anthrocon. I know she had no idea I missed the convention but she and my mother were out looking for a St. Francis statue to put in Lady's favorite sleeping spot outside in the gardens. Our little way of remembering her. While they were there my dear sister found an absolutely wonderful fox statue. He is gorgeous and I love it! I just have to figure out where to put him now. : )

Oh my god this is hilarious! Unfortunately I don't think I'll be able to go to AC this year. With the date being moved it conflicted with a balloon festival in Meadville that my family attends. The best I could do is put in an appearance on friday but I'll be honest that would hardly be satisfying since I love the con and all it's amenities so much.

However! While looking thorugh the Anthrocon.org website I came upon this little gem of knowledge.

http://content.usatoday.com/communi.....1#.T0Ot4ExAbNB

This was an article published in USA Today which lists the top ten reasons you should visit our wonderful city of Pittsburgh.

1st Bridges (We've got a s*** ton. x.x)
2nd Andy Worhal Museum (Sure if you like that kind of stuff.)
3rd (And by far the freaking best and the reason I'm writing this...) ANTHROCON!

USA Today rates Anthrocon as the 3rd best reason to visit Pittsburgh! I about died laughing in pride and amusement. Despite still not having found many supporters in the real life that surrounds me I'm very glad to see the city seems to support the con so well. They're even expanding this year! They now occupy two halls. I was quite sad I wouldn't be able to go.

Anyway... Just thought I'd express my joy. XP I hope to have some writings posted soon. In the process of proof reading since I rinally got settled into my new job.

(This is the last posts of a pokemon tabletop RPG I'd been playing in for... probably more than a year now. We had a lot of fun with it. XP I do hop ewe one day continue it but I think a break would serve it well to keep the game fresh. Just thought I'd share the sad but awesome piece of fun I had. ^^)



So, several days after the tournament ended.. The party is back at the town square of their home town. The place where they rescued that hophip all that time ago. Over the past year, they have truely matured into full adults. Now they all stand proudly, cyrus included, on a pedastal in the town square, the whole town cheering for them. Alakazam approaches them, Lopunny, Hophip, and the three legendary dogs by his side. Lopunny hangs a medal around each of their necks, one made out of a red iron, polished sttel and never melting ice. Alakazam starts to speak to the crowd, listing each of their achivements.. Summoning Lugia, liberating the ice shrine, saving a villiage full of eevees, Freeing Lopunny and a city of slaves.. He says that they are heros in every sense of the word. Each of the dogs roars appreciatively, Lopunny and Felix's mate and child are all crying with pride. The spirit of the ninetales the team freed says thank you to them in their minds.. Even Shadow the Mightyena makes an appearance to see his old friends before leaving again to resume his soul searching. It is truely the best day of their lives. Alakazam goes on to say that these four will be immortalised in a statue in the middle of the poke town square.

Felix smiled, blushed and rubbed his head. He never could accept himself as a hero. As his daughter cheered though he smiled and picked her up to his shoulder so she felt like she was being cheered for as well. Embarrassed to be part of the center of attention he still couldn't help but smile in pride with all they had done and gathered.

Hello to everyone out there who reads these. I know I have a few regulars when I catch their attention. XP Sorry again for not having been around much and for not having made or written anything in some time. I am still getting small opportunities to though and make some progress.

I would like to ask for some help though with my major project in Luca's sequel about Kylee. I have a lot of time to just brainstorm at work while I'm running my tails off trying to do everything. However, I'm having trouble rationalizing a few things I had thought of and was hoping all of you out there who wouldn't mind knowing a few tidbits could help.

So first... SPOILERS!!! If you don't want to know anything about Kylee's story before you have a chance to read it don't read below! XP

And second... What little I have in setting. It's several hundred years in the future from Felix's time, but in the same region (I know I never named it specifically. XP). In that time technology and society have changed a great deal. I'm working on some technology aspects though it's not going to be the focus. Such as the pokeballs being a bit different, the visor Val has, Obediance collars, etc.

Now, I'm having a bit of trouble with the society part. Being a kind hearted person I have trouble being mean and making hostile environments sometimes. XP But basically, pokemon battles have become rather brutal. They're more entertainment for humans, and many trainers do it for fame and money. I had thought of making two leagues, a professional, and an amateur. And I had wanted to make the big secret bad guy the head of a major corporation. However... I'm having trouble with his motivation and attitude. :/ I never was good with people that just hate the world.

Also in my head I had the main story based upon a rebellion against the whole power structure to... actually that just gave me a bit of an idea for the motivation of the protagonists... Thanks for letting me talk it out. XP But that's beside the point. I need some help with details to these questions.

1. How would you explain 80% of the world coming to see pokemon as nothing more than animals fighting, and wanting to see spectacularly overpowered pokemon just beat each other senseless?

2. What motivations would you give to a main antagonist with a secret, powerful "Minion" aid to his dark ambitions. (Other than to rule the world and money because he has pretty much has control of the professional league and can buy his way out of publicly blowing up a children's hospital filled with little girls and Eevees...) Or does he need a motivation other than just seeing pokemon as beasts for our entertainment?

3. How would you rationalize actually bringing two armies of trainers together to fight for their beliefs? One led by Val and Kylee and the other by the antagonist CEO. (This is the big one. I have an amazing idea for this line but for the life of me I can't explain, 1. why they would fight in the country somewhere without a city or anything around, where I'd want them to, 2. Why there'd be two huge groups of people and pokemon just out right fighting like it was the stone age rather than holding some kind of gentlemanly tournament. XP, and 3. Why the CEO would even mass a group the size of a small army and respond to Val and Kylee, other than because they defied him.

So there you are, have at it if you wish and I'll try to discuss things with you as much as I can. If you think I don't need to worry about anything you can argue that point too. I have a lot on my mind about this series that I just haven't been able to sit down and piece together. And I hadn't even mentioned the sub plot about the heritage that will be forced on Kylee throughout this. Mainly because I have that pretty much figured out and I don't want to spoil everything. ^^

ALRIGHT! I'm done now. help me storyboard as much as you like! ^^;

Oh my god I just wanna cry! ;.;
It's so sad, the warehouse is such an awesome place and I just loved it!
Why did that have to happen!?

I guess it must seem sudden for me to be posting this... I posted my last journal yesterday morning and when I got home my parents pulled me aside to talk. As I said I knew it was time... She could barely stand up on her own and would bite at anyone that tried to help because it hurt. Still... it wasn't any easier...

This morning at about 9:10 AM my loving pup Lady passed away with her head cradeled in my hands at our vet. I hope she heard my last I love you's and goodbyes and I hope she's in a better place now. She's not in pain anymore and may she rest in peace.

I will admit I'm a bit of a wreck right now... I barely slept and haven't been able to stop crying for very long since I got home from work yesterday... I woke with a migrain headache but I couldn't abandon her and went anyway.

I will never forget you my sweet puppy and I hope you know I will always love you dearly. Stay safe wherever you are and I hope I will see you again when it's my time...

Hey everyone... I'm truly sorry I haven't been around or active lately... v.v I feel horrible I haven't been able to give you guys anything for so long. I just hope after this is all over I can find it in me to relax and write again...

First I want to say I'm sorry to the two people I owe requests. I have started working on them and I promise I will get them done. Again I'm sorry it's taking me so long.

Second... I'll get into the reasons I'm writing this journal... In a bit... First let me say I don't know what I'm looking for in reply. You can ignore this, post friendly, post angry, I probably deserve all of it since this seems to be just another poor me journal... I just didn't know where else to go. Anyway, I have sad news... We're going to have to put Lady down soon... like soon soon... within the week... I said I'd never give up on her and I won't and I don't want to do this but... she can barely get up on her own and she needs encouragement to do that... let alone she can barely walk and falls a lot... Despite her eating and drinking she's... lost a lot of weight. Poor girl is so thin...

As you can imagine I'm having a hard time with this... She still is and will forever be my sweet puppy, I can still see it in her eyes but... I just... can't put her through this pain anymore... she's limping, stumbling, wasting away... I feel terrible that I'm doing this to her. In a way I feel like I'm giving up just by admitting to myself we have to put her down, even though my family tells me I'm not… I will and would do anything for her no matter what but... I don't want to make her suffer......

My parents have said it's time for several months now... and I knew it was coming, and I know it's time too but... I just can't let her go... I can't make the call to stay home from work and take her to the vet... But I would never forgive myself if I didn't go with her... She means so much to me and I'm ashamed I only realized it fully in the last year... I just hope she knows I love her... and though I feel like I'm giving up I just can't make her suffer for me anymore...

*sighs and wipes away his tears* While that's the main part of my absence, sadness and frustration there's still more, though I admit I think this part is rather stupid too... Work sucks… I hate all but a select few of my co-workers, the job just sucks anymore, the company is stupid, the management is stupider… And I can’t seem to escape… I’ve had a few interviews but nothing has been better then what I have so I’m forced to stay at this place where after two years I’ve yet to have any mention of a raise. Let alone it feels like they string me along with false hope of minor promotions. Though I see now that is never likely to happen…

Maybe this is me just being stupid but… I looked up at the stars the other night and just got this feeling that there was something out there for me… not necessarily out among the stars… but something I wanted. But… I got frustrated a little because I just don’t know what to do anymore… I don’t know what to do to get to someplace better. I’m trying, but nothing seems to work… I know I have obligations, things to do and stuff to take care of and I can’t ignore them. Which is why I feel a little like my hands are tied. I have school loans that I need to keep paying and at my present job I’m not making any extra at all really… Add to that the fact that I feel lonely constantly, have trouble engaging anyone to talk, and I’m losing Lady, my best friend of 16 years… and I just don’t know what to do anymore…

Anyway… I hope life is treating you all well. I’m sorry to be a downer and I don’t know if you care but if you read this I thank you. Take care everyone and I’ll keep trying to get things done. It’s the least I can do for fans as nice as you guys usually are to me.

Once again just a random journal. ^^; Ouros managed to get me hooked on Starcraft II again after I had set it down for a few months. x.x Was just wondering if anyone else out there played? I'm not all that good in my opinion, though Ouros thinks I'm decent. No idea why... XP Anyway, I've played a few online games but I like playing with others, so if you play and want to, add me. : ) My number thingy is 331 I believe. I'll edit when I get home if that's wrong. x.x If you could help me be better that'd be awesome. XP But really it's just a speed issue I have in the beginning. ^^;

Anyway. Take care everyone. Hope everything is going well for you all. Lady is doing ok still. She rests a lot but she is old so I figure she's earned her rest. : ) And she's still young enough to bark and warn those other young whipper snapper dogs to get off her lawn. XP Still. Please keep her in your prayers. Thank you all again and take care everyone. : )

D-damnit... I... I should never have kept watching that movie...! *Can't stop crying.*
It was such a cute movie but... all I could see was Lady at the end... ;.; God I'm such a baby... but she had a bad morning with a few accidents today and... i-it just feels like we're gonna have to say goodbye soon... That darn movie was over half an hour ago and I'm still crying writing this... It didn't help that yesterday my dad landed the balloon near a house call vetinarian and mom has been talking about it as an option when the time comes... I kinda think we should but... I just don't want to think about it...

*Takes a deep breath and sighs.* I'm sorry... I don't know why I'm hitting post... I hope you all take care of yourselves and the ones you love, whether it be family or our fuzzy friends. Make sure they know you care... though in my opinion nothing is ever seems enough to to show it...

Hello to everyone who reads these. : )

I just felt the need to update people on how my experimental Anthrocon went this year.
First let me say... I will DEFINATELY be entering the art show next year! I can't thank everyone there enough for their support and love for my pieces. All six of the pieces I made sold, and I think I got a nice base on how to price future works as well.

I'd like to say thank you and congradulations to : Suzi:. I got a chance to meet her and her : Renfox:. They were wonderful people and very kind and supportive with their suggestions and compliments.

I even got to meet the man who inspired me to enter the show in the first place. He had entered the show for the past few years with scroll work I could really only dream of one day making.

But looking forward I am going to try and choose and work on things earlier for next year. If anyone has suggestions for pieces or featured species or something of the sort please feel free to let me know. : )

Other than the art show I had a wonderful time around the dealers den and the artists alley. Such nice furs. I hope they all got home safe and sound and are doing well.

Anyway! Take care everyone! I'm in a good mood after this weekend, so I'll be trying to get things done. A gew requests I owe people, some planning for other real life things, and of course scroll work since AC really gave me confidence in that branch of art.

Thank you again to everyone I talked to and who supported me. I hope I get the chance to meet you again as well as any of you other nice people out there I haven't had the chance to meet.

P.S. As always, please keep Lady in your thoughts and prayers. She's still with us and doing alright. Of course she still has her accidents and is occasionally ornery, but she's not giving up so neither will I.

You know... I really should apologize for almost never posting anything uplifting regarding Lady in my journals. :/

Poor pup had a hard weekend. I couldn't get out to get her pain meds on saturday and she was having some trouble getting around sunday. She had some accidents so naturally... dad was pissed. (Sorry for the pun... >.> Though thinking on it... I could a worse one... ^^; ) It didn't help that my grandmother had come to visit... Well she got back up and around but... the past three days she hasn't been eating much if anything... Mom keeps saying she thinks it's time and... I'm ashamed but, I'm having a very hard time disagreeing... I was with mom in that if she kept eating and drinking we'd never give up on her but... she wouldn't even take a treat of sandwich ham this morning mom said...

I don't want her to suffer but... I still can only just bare the thought of having to put her down... I know I've said all this before. I know I've whined to you guys before, and I'm sorry to do it again. It just sucks and being able to let it out somewhere and possibly hear back from some of you guys helps.

I've still been writing and working on my projects but it's been hard the past few days worrying about Lady and helping her around so much so I hope you guys understand and can forgive my posting hiatus. If not well I'll try to work harder. ^^;

Anyway... that's the update. I'm still feeling a bit down, but I've managed to talk some of it out and I'm feeling a little better now. At least I've stopped imagining going to the vet and making myself nearly cry every hour at work... Hehe. ^^;

So sorry but that's what I have at the moment. Comment if you wish, but please if you've read this, keep Lady in your prayers. Thank you!

(Edit) Well when I got home today I got a pleasant surprise. Lady was up and about and more like her happy self! We gave her some can food alone and she practically licked the bowl clean! It was a great relief to both my mother and I. Thank you everyone. I can't prove it but I believe your well wishes helped her. Thank you all!

Normally I would be talking about work driving me nuts but tonight it's something different and more meaningless. XP I'm not sure if anyone else out there watches Stargate Universe. It's one of my favorite series though, and it's canceled! Tonight is the last episode, and I've read it ends in a cliffhanger because this wasn't supposed to be the last season. ;.; This sucks! I honestly wish they had the support and money to continue the series. I thought it was just starting to hit its stride. Bah this sucks. XP Take care everyone! I'm working on lots of things both writing and woodworking.

My sister just got word she is one of the feature twirlers at her college! She's a FRESHMAN starting in the fall and I couldn't be happier for her. ^^ After the hell of a year she's had with her current instructor she truely deserved this and to be one of... well I'm pretty sure less than five when there's no squad other than the features. Well it's just amazing. Mom has told me she is always trying so hard cause she thinks she has to catch up to me. God if only that were true... She's kicked my ass in every aspect of life so far by age compairison. ^^; Anyway... just wanted to share the news.

Hello everyone, not sure how many of you would be interested in this but I recently enrolled myself in a pokemon tabletop adventure game (Beta books and forum site link are here. http://1d4chan.org/wiki/Pokemon_Tab.....top_Adventures ) and was allowed to take a sword. At first I wasn't going to take it but... after thinking I wondered if I could make some kind of aura sword for my Aura user character. XP So after thinking of it I thought about a sword with the blade in the shape of a Lucario's tail, with the sharp edge on the side the bend at the end points. I wasn't sure what to do with the hilt other than a casual handle, but the guard between the handle and blade I'd thought of. A four pointed star with a teardrop dangly at each point, in the center a solid metal spike that tapers to a tip with the blade coming from the center. I'll post a crude paint drawing of the guard but I don't have the time right now to draw the whole thing with my extremely limited skills. ^^; I was debating having the guard be a little fuzzy yellow kind of like the fluff on tetsiaga from Inuyasha, or just a golden metal. (I probably butchered spelling there... sorry.) The blade I was thinking of describing as a blue steel, perhaps not as dark as a Lucario but a darker colored ice or light blue.
Here's the sketch I did of the guard.
http://www.furaffinity.net/view/5604447/

I'm not sure what I can offer as a trade but... if anyone wants to trade I can try to talk with you to see if I can take a request. It would have to be just a little one chapter thing but you guys know how my chapters are... ;>.> And I don't mind doing... naughty things if you come to me with a good scene idea. ^^; I have a request I still haven't finished so it might take me a while but for this I would try my hardest to do it quicker. Just thought I'd put it out there for people cause I was curious if anyone would like to help. ^^; Also... I would prefer not to do a request for every submission. I might end up buried and suffocating. >.> Though it could end up as a group thing if people want to be in the same thing... ^^; Not sure how I'm handling it cause I'm new to this and I'm by no means trying to scam free art so don't offer if it's a bother. Anyway, comment as you like.

Not sure why but I feel I'm too closed off towards most people. So here's my attempt to open up and let you all know something about me. ^^; Plus as Blackfury said it, I enjoy reading these from people.

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- Name: Felix Ikida/Felix
- Single or taken: Single
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: December 21st 1986
- Sign: Last day of Sagittarius
- Hair color: A Darker Brown!
- Eye color: Blue
- Height: 5'11"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Straight IRL, though I'm open if it's the right people.(Not sure how to explain the right person though. >.>) Seems I'm Bi online though. ^^;
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- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Suave for men, though I should be using some kind of shampoo and conditioner separately since I've let my hair grow out...
- What are you listening to right now?: Sonic Colors Orchestral Theme (Inspired me to think of an epic story scene. XP)
- Who is the last person that called you?: The lead chemist from MC Products about a job I didn't take. ^^;
- How many buddies are online right now?: Umm... I have no idea I'm at work. >.> <.< Don't tell. XP
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- Animals: Canines (Sept a few dog breeds. ^^; ), Dragons, Dolphins and felines. I love lots of animals.
- Color: Blue
- Drink: Sweet Tea
- Element: Of the four element system, Water. Of the periodic table... I'd say Rubidium for no other reason than that's the one I signed when I graduated college. XP
- Food: Meat! Seafood, chicken, beef I just like meat but I don't like to kill it or want to see it killed. ;.;
- Game: Several different ones now and again. I often get addicted for a day or two to fun flash games. XP
- Movie: I don't watch many movies sept the random ones I catch on TV. But I like anime movies with a good plot and scifi, lots of scifi. XP
- Song: Umm... I'd have to say Canvas by Coolon. I don't know the lyrics really, the song just tugs at me and was the main inspiration for the one major story I've written. ^^;
- Subjects in school: Chemistry always fascinated me. If Physics wasn't so hard I'd love that too because science is awesome. Also any kind of woodshopesc class.
- T.V. Series: The various Stargate series. Of those, Stargate Universe! Satisfies my love of super advanced alien civilizations and lost civilizations in one go! ^^
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- Given anyone a bath?: Ummm... Maybe my sister when she was a baby? Too far back to remember, other than that, only my puppy, Lady.
- Smoked?: Nope and never plan to after grandpa died of severe emphasemia. (I think I spelled that right...>.>)
- Bungee jumped?: Nope. Too chicken. x.x
- Made yourself throw up?: No way... I always fight it cause it's gross to me. x.x
- Skinny dipped?: U-uhh... y-yes... J-just not with anyone...
- Ever been in love?: I... think? It's hard to say considering a crush feels like love.
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: At least not that I can remember. I have a hard time crying now. I was labled a crybaby in elementary school because I was sensitive and I hardened myself to not cry so those ass holes couldn't get pleasure out of seeing me cry. Guess maybe I went too far. ^^; v.v
- Pictured your crush naked?: Umm... Have you!? I admit nothing! >.>
- Actually seen your crush naked?: Heh, no but I umm... was always too shy to ask... and thinking about it I'm too shy to look. ;>.>
- Cried when someone died?: Yes, but not as much as I would like... v.v
- Lied: Yes
- Fallen for your best friend?: Now that's complicated cause I have trouble saying who my best friend is at any time. I've fallen for friends before. ^^;
- Used someone?: In a way... yes. Though not maliciously. Really I have my job now because I was familiar with the person who was doing the hiring. So I guess that counts, though they got a cash bonus out of it when I stayed for 90 days so we're even.
- Done something you regret?: Indeed I have...
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• × • C U R R E N T • × •
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- Clothes: A shirt with holes dissolved in it from acid splashes and work pants. XP I am at work after all.
- Desktop picture: Alienware schematic desktop.
- CD in player: No CD in it.
- DVD in player: Nothing in there either. XP
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• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • × •
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- You touched: Probably mother when saying goodbye this morning.
- Hugged: Mom
- You kissed: Like a peck on the cheek? Mom - Like actually kissed... w-well... Noriiiko...
- You IMed: Hmm... Well I replied to a note from Ouros. ^^
- Talk to online: Uhhh... Ouros again? I don't see how this is different from the last. >.>
- You sexed it up with: >.> <.<; Pass! (*Mutters to self* Shut up nobody knows that!)
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• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
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- Understanding?: I like to think I am very understanding.
- Open-minded?: Again very, jsut don't try to force your views on me is all.
- Arrogant?: I don't think I am at all.
- Insecure?: Depending on the situation I can be quite insecure... My trouble is actually staying steadfast when someone is telling me I'm wrong.
- Random?: I can be yes. ^^;
- Hungry?: Food!? Where!?
- Smart?: I don't think I'm that smart... but people say I shouldn't put myself down like that when I have a chemistry degree I did in four years...
- Moody?: Depends. Usually not.
- Organized?: *Laughs hysterically to the point of crying.*Wooo... Good one. XP
- Shy?: Very... I may seem confident in person and in text but I am a very shy person about certain topics and when it comes to affection in person. It... has been much more of a curse than blessing. v.v
- Difficult?: Depends on the situation. XP Most of those times I try not to be.
- Bored easily?: Kind of, yeah. But if I get engrossed in something good luck getting me away from it. XP
- Entertained easily? It seems so. ^^;
- Obsessed?: I suppose you could call my love of Lucario and canines an obsession. >.> Though it doesn't interfere with living my life.
- Lazy? Hmm... Most times I just get tired from working and doing things. So I wouldn't call it lazy. Occasionally I'm not too motivated to do things so sometimes yeah I am. ^^;
- Angry?: Openly? Very rarely. I tend to stew privately, talking to myself to vent my frustrations. Sometimes I get so mad and frustrated all I can do is laugh, which is when my family considers calling the looney bin. Hehe. ^^
- Happy?: Generally I'm a happy person. ^^ I tend to hide sad well when I'm not happy though.
- Hyper?: Give me a large Mcdonald's hazelnut iced coffee with a squirt of liquid sugar in the morning and watch me go till lunch. XP I've finished a days work in half a day before because of those things. Hahaha. Otherwise I'll rarely have my hyper moods. ^^
- Trusting?: I am very trusting... perhaps too much in most cases. It has backfired on me more than a few times. v.v
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• × • R A N D O M • × •
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- In the morning I: either drag myself up to go to work or go right back to sleep.
- Love is: Something I one day hope to find.
- I dream about: Getting a ground breaking research job. (What I actually dream about at night though... is whatever pops into my head, which is rarely anything sadly. ^^; )
- What do you notice first in the sex you're into: Face/head
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• × • W H O • × •
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- Makes you laugh the most: Whoever says something I find funny. ^^; It's hard to pick just one.
- Makes you smile: My dog Lady, and all my friends.
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• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
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- Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: In a way I have before, but lately I've been too busy to wait all night.
- Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: I umm... y-yes... I'm comfortable with my sex but that doesn't mean I can't wonder what the other side is like... right...?
- Wish you were younger?: Yeah... I have but people don't realize how old I am as it is so mostly no. ^^; (I'm 24 and I got carded on St. Patrick's Day. And I don't mean the "You're obviously 21 I'm just checking." kind. The "Ok two beers two peopl... wait! Are you 21...!? *Eyes suspiciously.*" XP)
- Cry because someone said something to you?: I used to. A lot, but lately no. The last thing that came close was my mother telling me about Lady doing something in the morning that made mom think we were going to loose her...
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• × • N U M B E R • × •
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- Of times I have had my heart broken?: I haven´t completely given it to anyone yet so, zero. (I'm just gonna steal Blackfury's answer here. >.>)
- Of guys I've kissed: 0
- Of girls I've kissed: 1
- Of Cd's I own: Music... Game... what kind are we talking? Oh hell I'm not counting anyway. XP
- Of scars on my body: No big ones. I count two small ones, one on each of my hands. I probably have a few tiny unrecognizable ones on my arms from concentrated sulfuric burns. ^^;;;
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And that concludes our show. Hope you all enjoyed the peep show into me. ^^;

Well I'm back from my trip. It was a nice trip, and the job sounded interesting, and would pay much more if they offer it to me which from what I saw they will. After going out I'm pretty convinced everyone talking to my mother was right. I'm not sure they have anyone else in mind at the moment, or they were just good at schmoozing me. >.> Thing is, the offer they have in mind (the one guy told me what it was.) would leave me a little worse off than now... And if I managed to talk them up to what would be a fair and suitable salary, I wouldn't be much better off. :/ Also... After meeting and getting to know the people I'd be working with they seem... a little snooty. The family of owners work there, the company is about 25 total employies, and the dumb part is I'd probably relate more with the grunts downstairs making the batches than the people I'd actually work with. x.x It's not because their work was similar to mine, it's just the kind of person. I don't know if anyone has realized but I'm not that highbrow of a person. ^^; Finally I'd be living alone in a new town... with probably just my fish if they lived through the trip. Of course I'd have you guys and I know and truely appreciate it. : )

So after going out, spending the days with the employes and owners, looking around at what housing would cost me, and getting to know what my true responsibilities, tasks, opportunities would be with the company... I believe I'm just gonna have to say no and keep looking. v.v I do feel bad they did so much and I don't think it's right for me, but my mother has convinced me that's just the game. ^^; Sooo... April is raise month at compunetics. I'm hopping for the best... but not holding my breath. ;>.> I did get called by someone else, so I'm going to call her tommarow and see what she's got to offer. All I know is it's a lady and a local company that found me on monster. ^^; but hey. Local paying more is much better no matter what the job is so long as it's with my degree.

So anyway! I'm done ranting. XP How have you all been? I was like overwhelmed when I got back to check my backed up lists of watches and things. So much happens in four days. ^^; Just wondering what's up with everyone.

So... I'm headed out to Rockford Illinios for a job interview. I fly out tommarow morning.
Maybe I'm just nervous, or paranoid or any other kind of fearful, but I keep trying to figure if I'd be able to live on my own with the raise. The conclusion? It'd be very tight living. x.x I thought this would be a better opportunity but now I'm just not sure. In any case I suppose. Wish me luck. ^^; Take care everyone. I hope life gives you all easier choices and better options.

Hello everyone who cares to read these. I hope life has been treating you all well. I'm not sure why but I just wanted to post something. I guess I just haven't had enough time to sit down and talk with people as of late. And for those of you who do talk to me I am sorry I haven't been around much. v.v

But anyway, a little about what's been going on lately. I've picked projects to make for Anthrocon and have started on them. I am registered and sent in my reservations for the art auction, I requested a panel and a table. I do hope I get to go though. I am flying to chicago illinois in two weeks to interview for a job. I'm not sure it's right for me but they contacted me so I'll take a look. It will pay a lot more than what I make now but I will be living on my own if I do take it. And if I do take it I might not be able to get the time off so quick to attend AC. But I will try my best as I always have fun at AC. :)

In any case, what's going on here? Well As I said I started on my first anthrocon art submissions, which I hope will be well received since I think most of you have watched me for my writings. ^^; Lady has been doing well. She's on a new medicine that seems to work better. She has accidents still but we're being very diligent to make sure they aren't the liquid kind... She's tired most of the day but she will always get up to come see us and to follow us around the house. She's drinking a lot like she usually does, and she's eating regularly which is all good.

Other than that not too much has been going on. I've picked up a few manga, thought I only seem to get interested in the ones that have some kind of animal reference. ^^; I just finished Inukami, which I thought was adorable, and it gave me an idea for Senyn's story. It would be a big change but I think it would work well. I've been finding some time to write but not too much unfortunately. Of my writing projects there's a few one timers I have started, a few miscellaneous spin off scenes from Luca, and two other series I have in my head but need to write. I am curious as to what everyone is interested in and... if anyone actually liked the intimate scenes? I get some compliments but I get so many more about Luca in general I'm wondering if I'm wasting my time with them, if people like them, or if people are appalled and avoid me because of them. A little confession... *Blushes.* Personally... I enjoyed writing them.

On a more personal note. I'm at a little bit of a low at the moment. I don't know if anyone cares but then again, if you don't you don't have to read right? ^^ I'm feeling a bit lonely for some reason, which is perhaps one reason I'm writing this. Also, I've been looking around at the characters and fursonas on FA here and I couldn't help but be a little jealous of how beautiful they are. I'm disappointed in myself for never really being able to think of defining markings and creating this image of myself when it is something I enjoy being a part of and seeing myself as.

Several years ago I was debating with myself whether I was a wolf or a fox. I haven't thought of myself as a wolf in a long time, I think just because they seem stronger than I am in both heart and body. Perhaps also... because I'm just a happy and often silly person, which I attribute more to a fox. ^^; But beyond that... I really don't know. I had arbitrarily picked a Kitsune with three tails (Though I have met Kitsune who don't feel they deserve three tails which has made me feel bad for just picking it.), and had once thought of myself as an arctic fox, but when I was together with Noriiiko she always said I was a red fox, so that's what I've been going with for a few years now. Beyond that... I know I like my hair long now, because I feel like I actually have a tail with my hair back. XP I wear glasses because I like how I look with them and I have blue eyes naturally so I've kept them in my fursona. But in terms of markings that's hardly defining in my opinion considering all the amazing examples of fursonas around here.

But anyway. XP I'm done complaining. Talk to me if you wish if not oh well I'll live I suppose. :) And if you have suggestions on the stories I have in the works feel free to suggest. ^^ Take care everyone, I need to go get ready for bowling now. I hope to hear from you all soon.