So, I've attended my first convention, revamped my profiles, linked everything together, mostly fleshed out my fursona, and just got inspired to make a family which I quite possibly will start writing stories about. I'm finally opening up about interests I feared others would judge me for, mostly because of such a warm reception from most other furs. In general, I'm kicking things into high gear for the most part, so hopefully everyone will be seeing a lot more of me than they have in the last ten years!

Was brainstorming psudo-code for a Firefox extension to help automate the download of FA galleries or scraps and was curious if anyone else was interested.

I haven't written a journal here in quite a while. So here's an update in a nutshell for those who want to know.
Posted a quick but "finished" Pic I did of me, officially became addicted to buying the weekend deal on Steam, grandfather died, a bunch of doctors are reconsidering what's wrong with me, and I have progressively deepening depression. I'm keeping up my spirits though and trying to motivate myself to get out.
Signing out and still on the path to finding oneself.

I decided that I'd post some WIP stuff I'm working on so I feel some sense of accomplishment. I have 4 research papers I need done this week, one of which I need done, at the latest, by 1:30 today. I really don't like research papers, I'm probably going to get a D in the class because of it...
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... Back from dark dreariness in my mind!

A few friends at school have been wanting me to do drawings of them as furries since I got my new Wacom tablet >^.^< So I decided to post the progress here to see if anyone who actually was interested in furries had any input. It would be amazing if Kaputotter would comment on kyla. I love kaput, she seems nice. I think there are a lot of nice furs here.

I realized, I'm extremely uncomfortable drawing exposed breasts or anything with definition in the groin area. As much as my friends have lowered my self conciousness, I'm still pretty shy, and I think that has a lot to do with that.

Boob curve is hard to draw when your a guy... at least for me. :) I have no ready refference. I don't have a girlfriend to model for me, and when I stare at the random womans breasts for 20 minutes to get the right shading I get slapped. :D
I don't really stare at random girls boobs, just the boobs of the girl I'm doing araya for... and I have express permission for that. :3

I want to be cute and cuddled! No one cuddles me!

I hope anyone that reads this is laughing their tail off by now or at least utterly confused my my topic jumps. If so, MY LIFE IS COMPLETE!

Who loves ADHD!?!?!?!

This is a blast!

My classes are not too difficult and mostly enjoyable, (except "college success") I'm not a complete oddball, and I'm finding friends at every turn.

I wonder if there are any other furs already at NHTI?

I also have a new job on the campus in IT, so I can finally put my classes and experience to good use.

(grins mischievously) mabey I'll convert some people to the furry side... or mabey I'll be good this time.

I need to stop jumping topics or people will think I was talking about converting the IT's; I meant other students.

I'll be a good foxy though. I won't try to convert people, I'll just guide those who are interested. :)

College is fun. :D

So... graduation.

Am I the only one who didn't feel the planets align and a mystical voice say, "you are ready to go out into the world."

I just graduated high school and I still don't feel ready to go into the real world. I fear interacting with other people.

I probably wouldn't use this if I really thought people would reply. I've never PMed anyone I didn't already know on Yiffstar and never PMed anyone on FA period.

I'm rambling in my own journal so if anyone did read it they'd stop by now.

For those committed to finish my ramblings I applaud you as anyone who can follow my short attention span has listened to a diagnosed case of ADD and came out sane.

This frazzled fox has no idea why he started this journal but I had a fun time writing it!

Yip! Yip! Yip!

I am somewhat relived that the fur that was pestering me on Yiffstar does not even know my ex, unfortunately it appears I may have offended him by the accusation that he was her new boyfriend.

I once again suffer from "paw in muzzle" disease. I did apologize to him for the misunderstanding and explained the situation and hope that he accepts my apology. I do not want to burn any bridges that don't need to be.

Thank you for the support and advice through my self induced crisis. I'm sorry to everyone that I jumped to conclusions.

... but that still dosn't explain what he ment by, "I know what you did."...

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It turns out both of us were mistaken in who each other was. He apparently had gotten a distressed call from his lover and had mistaken me for the fur that got him in such a state. we both have come to understand this and it is now water under the bridge.

Talk about Irony.

I had a girlfriend that was a little... off.

She had a few issues but I stayed with her because I thought I could help her. The biggest problem though was that she was a habitual liar.
Eventually she lost interest in me and wanted nothing to do with me, which caused some problems because there were still possessions we had of each others. Because I wanted my things back I got a little hot headed in an argument, she tried to get a restraining order put on me for a reason she would tell no one. (because I hadn't done anything to warrant one)

So, I took my stuff as a loss so as not to further stir the pot and just decided to stay clear of her anyway. End of story... right?

Wrong, she has a new boyfriend, and now though I haven't heard or seen anything from her, it appears her boyfriend is now pestering me through PM's on Yiffstar with comments like, "I know what you did." He's creeping me out and he would have only heard her half of the story; this does not bode well.


Anybody who actually reads this, Please Help.

It appears I'm not quite active enough for anyone to visit my page... this stinks.
I was hoping I'd get some comments on something. Is it that I don't have anything interesting on my page yet?

Please! Someone comment!


I feel lonely.

I figured out why I'm so shy and lack confidence!

I fear delusions of competence.

I'm afraid that I'll start thinking I'm good at something I actually suck at so I end up not thinking I'm good at anything.

For example: I had a choir concert the other day and I had the entire opening song as a solo. I got complements and the first thing I said after thanking them was, "did I mess up?" I immediately assume that I did something wrong.

Well, no more!

I'm going to stop second guessing myself! If I want to do something, I'm not going to let the fear that I suck stop me if I enjoy doing it!