https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/4806230/
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go to this guys page and give him a watch and a repost for a chance to win! - http://www.furaffinity.net/view/9838384/

Hey guys... If I don't post another journal or piece of artwork here it's probably because I did something stupid. Personally, I can't say there is a good reason for what I might end up doing today but I know that it is what I want. I've thought about it day in and day out. The only thing worth living for right now is well.... friends. I've never truly known any of the feelings I want to and feel like I never will. The only reason I've made it this far is my fears. I'm not afraid of death or the pain that comes with it. I am afraid of hurting the people I care about. I know there isn't a good reason for committing suicide. Life is what it is. It's like a card game, some people just get dealt shitty hands. Well - I was given a second chance and I screwed up. I am back to the hand I originally drew. In life and possibly my passing I want nothing more than for people to appreciate what they have and the things I enjoy(ed). For those of you that care about me. Let me live on by doing things I liked. Enjoying some of my past-times, looking through my art work, and so on and so forth. I've made it this far... Why not go further? A question I am often posed with - expected to answer. I don't really see anything wrong with my life at the moment. I don't look forward to the future because there isn't anything for me to predict. I am lost and always will be. You can shine the light and lead the way but I won't know the difference. Don't let me lie to you. I am happy. Do not cry for me because that isn't what I want. Just smile for me, smile like I do. - Right now at this very moment I am losing my sanity. My words are making less sense as I go on. So if I do not return I bid you all a fair well and a good rest of your day. Goodbye for now. I AM INSANE. I AM ALONE. I AM LOVED. I LOVE. I CARE. I AM CARED FOR. I AM FRAGILE. I AM WEAK. I AM ME.

If you are worried you sure have a funny way of showing it...

If you are worried you sure have a funny way of showing it...

Taken from  kwolf13

Fell in love?
15 (first and only time)

Lost your virginity?
(X)

Lost someone close to you?
3 (My dad)

Consumed alcohol?
14

Received a kiss?
Haven't yet...... (I want to)

Went to the hospital?
I was born in one.

Had a broken heart?
Every day since I first fell in love.

Lost a pet?
Idk

Got arrested?
Haven't

Broke a bone?
14 (Femur in a motocross accident)

Got a job?
14

Got a boyfriend or girlfriend?
Forever Alone

Went to a concert?
Haven't gone.

Met someone famous?
Never

Got in a car wreck?
16

Dyed your hair?
14 (And I did again yesterday)

Flew on an airplane?
Once when I was 7

Went to another state?
3

Got a tattoo?
Haven't yet but hopefully soon

Had a piercing?
14 (My ears)

Smoked pot?
Never did and never will

Smoked a cigarette?
Never did and never will

Went to Disney Land or World?
Never

Had A Long term relationship
Hope I have one soon.

Dated somebody of another race?
Never

Passed out from drinking
Never

Were dumped
Never

So guys... ask me questions and I'll answer them with a drawing if i can. Anything you want to know.

Taken from  aricub


HOW OLD DO YOU ACT?

[ ] You know how to make a pot of coffee.
[ ] You keep track of dates using a calendar.
[ ] You own a credit card.
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car.
[ ] You've done your own laundry.
[ ] You can vote in an election.
[x] You can cook for yourself.
[x] You think politics are interesting (More annoying than anything)

TOTAL: 2

[x] You show(ed) up for school late a lot.
[ ] You always carry a pen/pencil in your bag/purse/pocket.
[ ] You've never gotten a detention.
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday.
[x] You like to take walks by yourself.
[x] You know what credibility means, without looking it up.
[x] You drink caffeine at least once a week.

TOTAL: 6

[x] You know how to do the dishes.
[x] You can count to 10 in another language.
[x] When you say you're going to do something you USUALLY do it.
[x] You can mow the lawn.
[ ] You study even when you don't have to. (I don't usually study when I'm supposed to... xD)
[x] You have hand washed a car before.

TOTAL : 11

[x] You can spell experience, without looking it up. (LOL)
[ ] The people at Starbucks know you by name.
[x] Your favorite kind of food is take out.
[x] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need.
[x] You understand political jokes the first time they are said.
[x] You can type pretty quick.

TOTAL: 16

[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment.
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party.
[x] You have realized that practically no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job.
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay.
[x] You have been to the beach.
[x] You use the internet every day.
[ ] You have been outside of your home country 3 or more times.
[ ] You make your bed in the morning.

TOTAL : 19

[x] You have filed a tax return
[x] You have used a pay phone
[ ] You have been served alcohol without being ID'd
[x] You have purchased stamps at the grocery store
[ ] You have purchased a lottery ticket
[ ] You still have and use a VCR

Total: 22

Hey guys, if you're reading this I'm proud of you. But thank you guys for being with me for the long haul. I recently got a new tablet. (Intuos 5 Medium) and now I'll be drawing more often. I'm still accepting offers for freebies if you want one let me know.

As we get older, we pay less attention to the world's beauty and more to our shortcomings and simple problems. But sometimes you must take a moment, a moment to watch as the crisp orange leaves fall gracefully from the trees as summer comes to an end, a moment to breath in the ocean breeze and feel the waves of the ocean caress your body as it gently pushes you toward shore, a moment to breath in the cool air that comes in along with nightfall as you watch the sunset, or the warm light breaking the horizon and heating your body that comes from the sunrise. Take a moment, take a deep breathe. You only live once.

I'm growing bored of FurAffinity and even a little bored of being a furry, I'm not really socially involved with anyfur and I don't really care all too much for the art anymore... I made a deviant art quite a while ago and have been posting all of my art on there ever since. Maybe I'll have more journals on here and even post more art, but until then, I bid you all farewell and wish for the best of all of you. -Yours truly.

I've been painting for the past two days, comment if you want to see how my very first painting is coming along! And in addition later tonight I will be completing some of those badges I promised. After all, it is spring break!

stolen from  huskers

What color is your underwear?
white

Do they have a design?
plaid

What color are your socks?
not wearing any

Is there a design on them?
^

Are you a virgin?
yes

Happy that way?
idk

What is your favorite sex position?
doggystyle

What is your sexuality/sexual orientation/What the fuck do you consider yourself?
Probably gay. But Bi at the moment

Do you look at hentai?
No

Real porn?
Not regularly

Do you read smutty/porn stories?
no

Do you read/watch/look at gay porn/hentai/stories?
Only once

Who was your first kiss with?
havent had one

Are they of the opposite sex?
^

Have you ever kissed or had sex with someone of the same sex?
No, but that's the way it's going to happen anyway.

Is there any one of your friends that you would ever consider having sex with?
Yeah.

Do you have any piercings other than your ears?
no

Do you have any tattoos?
Not yet. I'm considering get one to cover some of my scars.

Have you ever got a girl pregnant?
Um, dont intend to.

Ever done any illegal drugs?
No and I'm proud of that.

Have you ever cheated on someone?
Hadn't had the chance and never will.

Ever been cheated on?
^

Have you ever been called a whore/slut?
Everyday twice a day.

Do you own any sex toys?
no?

Have you ever had a sexual fantasy involving a relative?
YUCK

Have you ever masturbated?
Hmmm.... Probably

Have you ever taken a naked picture of yourself?
Yeah

Have you ever taken a naked picture of someone else?
no

Are you on any form of birth control (the pill, the patch, etc)?
Do I have a vagina?

Have you ever written/drawn smut/porn?
Yes, and I regret it.

Do you swear in front of your parents?
Naw man I dont swear not into that shit (but yes)

Are you uncomfortable yet?
No.

Are you taking this quiz of your own free will?
No I'm being held against my will in a gay bar and have about 20 snipers outside the building to make sure I finish. (yes)

I'm looking for more time to be active on FurAffinity. School is really weighing me down lately and i haven't been very fair to my watchers. I'm trying to show humility right now for my mistakes and taking so long on your requests. I realize they're free but I said I'd have them done. And I will. Furry Honor.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3279853/

This is a free icon raffle! go check it out!

Alright so my fursona is 15%fox 25%german shepherd and 60%wolf... what do you call this hybrid... So far I've been sticking closely to Shepolf.

Ok so I'm whitening my teeth right now, like literally as we speak, and I'm doing the top right now. It kind of burns a bit but I cant wait to see what each treatment is capable of!

I'm actually moving from central America to the east cost. This move is taking place in the beginning or middle of summer, I honestly don't know if I'm nervous or not seeing as how I've never switched schools or had to make new friends but I'm confident it'll all be chill. I think I'm a people person, and I'm moving to a big city anyway so it wont be hard to find a group I belong to. I hope I can keep in touch with some good friends here but I love the idea of moving to a new house for the first time since I was about 4. I actually used to live in North Charleston until I moved here to Chicago. I think it's funny how after so many years we're moving back. The reason is mainly because my mom is purely and utterly tired of the people in this town and wishes to move around the same time my sister, brother-in-law, and niece move. It's still undetermined whether or not I'll live with my sister or my mom for the first few months since our house isn't going on the market for 2 more months and their moving this month. I wont move until summer though because I have to finish this year of school and then I get to pick up next year at a new school, who's probably a little bit behind academically compared to my school so it should be easy... I'll technically being living in the south which, with out a doubt is slower than up here. So the main reason I didn't want to move is because for the past year(when I joined the fandom officially) I've been getting ready for MFF, i will most likely miss this year of MFF but will however be able to attend 2013's FWA which I believe is going on like right now. So here I come South Carolina and I'll see you in a year Atlanta!

Alright so I actually have a lot of requests left to do and it would be epic if I had more time to do them, I intend to finish a few more this week, I know I've been really slow but I just dont feel like drawing lately.

alright so one of my first furiends is doing a raffle. He drew this for me last year- http://www.furaffinity.net/full/7049548/

Here's the link to his journal to enter- http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3240464/#

I can't really tell whether or not this is true I'm believed to be moving away from Chicago and back down to my birth state of South Carolina. I cant say I don't want to move because South Carolina is a nice state and I'm already familiar with it, but I dont want to leave Illinois. I was really looking forward to attending my first con in the great city of Chicago, this is still a possibility but it just seems a little less likely. So since I'll be moving I wont know anyone. Any SC furs or people in the area? Oh and also, do any of you guys know of any cons or meets down there? I'm moving to Summerville if that helps...

Ok, so as most of you know everyone at one point or another wants a fursuit, I’ve wanted one since I joined the fandom and just recently started saving up. There are many other things I would like to do with my money at my age but as money becomes harder and harder to come by, I continue to make the same decision to just save up for my fursuit. If you know me well or are one of my little stalkers, heh, you know that I used to race mx. This is no longer a hobby for me since my accident last year and I would like to bring to attention I am selling it once fixed. The money I am getting back will be put into my funds toward my fursuit, which as many of you know is expensive. My dirtbike on the other hand is worth far more than any fursuit I’ve ever seen. So the point of this journal is coming up right about now. I will in fact have the amount of money I need to purchase a suit from whom ever I choose. The question is, and I would appreciate a comment on your opinion of who is a good suit maker. Who do YOU think i should go with and why?

I feel like crap.
Not like I’m sick but honestly, kind of like a dick.
I can’t say I made a poor decision I just didnt put the other person’s feelings into account. I hope he can forgive me but until then. Forever alone.

Alright, well guys, I’m getting a fursuit, I broke down and told my mom. I was expecting her reaction to be a little more pleasant than it was but she said she doesnt care since its my money. Now that I have the ok and the money will be here in the next month or so. Who should I commission? I’m on the fence when deciding between Kodimade and DHC. I’ve heard both good and bad things about both of the creators(mostly good). So, I ask my watchers, which I believe none of you are suiters yourself, but still. Who is the winner between these two? Should I become a DHC doggy or a Kodimade suiter?

1.  koi.
2.  victoriathecheeser
3.  rikakittywolf
4.  ValkyrieSevenwolf
5.  Krystal_AristoKats
6.  littlelostkitten
7.  Minou_DeChat

These are for both badges and carcoal sketches. Like I’ve said before its fist come first serve!