Well basically Im confused and need help. There are a lot of things I dont understand and the things I seem to have the most trouble with lately are my relationships. For one, I’m single due to the fact I’m sexually confused. Honestly am I gay, bi, straight? I don’t even know anymore. It also feels like I have trouble making friends. I’m always nice nowadays and try really hard to make new friends. The people I respect and love are the ones who always break my heart. Like I said before. I need someone to talk to. Maybe that’s my problem. None of my friends are good listeners, they only want to vent their problems to me. I just keep bottling everything up.

Hey guys, It’s me, Fen. I don’t know if you care or not, but I’m killing myself. Not my human form though, sorry for the scare. I’m reinventing my character Fen. I’m changing his image in every aspect. I honestly have no interest in foxes so the fox part is being removed from his gene pool. He’s 100% wolf now. The problem with him being a wolf is his fur. This too, must go. I fear I have no ideas for the main color of his fur yet so once I find one, He will be reborn. But as of now he, along with my activity on this account is dead. All of the requests I’m taking will be finished and posted still so no worries for those of you waiting for your badges I promised. I plan to have at least two more done by Monday. If you have any thoughts of what Fen’s new look should include. Comment below. But for now, goodbye.

Alright so I’m trying to expand my artistic ability. I’m looking for a beautiful female to do a charcoal sketch of. Human... non-anthro. I’ve had an interest in sketches like this and have been working toward it. Please pimp this journal. I will draw as many as are offered. Thanks for your time. Also I’m taking badge requests. Full color and in pencil. Laminated and sent to you and everything. Comment below with a ref.

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3135618/ click there

Alright so as very few of you probably know. I race motocross. A lot of people confuse this with BMX. I hate the comparison. I race motorcycles on dirt... I guess. Anyway, I was in 2 accidents last year and spent over 2 months in the hospital. I could type up my story of last year as I went through a lot but I’ll spare the details for the sake of being you guys losing interest half way through my journal. Long story short, My first accident was in May where I hit a big jump(yet for the sake of not sounding stupid to other riders reading, A 110ft double) This jump is very big considering I race SX(supercross) Yeah like on TV. Anyway I overshot(went way to far and busted my nuts when I landed) the jump and messed my knee up(I dont wear knee braces and still dont) I ended up leaving the track with a few scrapes and finished the night off placing 5th overall in my class. My knee began to swell and I had to go to the doctors to have it drained, after a while it turned out to be infected and I had to have surgery. So after I was released from the hospital i wanted nothing more but to get better and faster at MX. I had my sponsors hook me up with new parts and one of my sponsors; Decal Works; hooked me up with the beautiful design and plastics I have in the picture here- http://www.furaffinity.net/view/7265298
Anyways, I kept racing and was getting tremendously faster because I had more motivation than before. This motivation led to another accident that took place on August 20th 2011. I was going through a rhythm section and lost control of my bike, getting thrown into a barrel roll and over the bars in an accident. I landed on the landing of one jump and made my way to the next. I ended up breaking my left Femur(biggest bone in your body/thigh) and dislocating my right shoulder. I was taken to a nearby hospital via ambulance after the medics got my leg out from behind my back.(yeah I broke my femur in 4 places and had 6 fractures) anyways I ended up spending 2 months in the hospital and rehab and another month in a wheelchair afterwards. I ended up missing school and lots of opportunities I wont get a second chance at. From the moment I crashed I still wanted to race. I happen to be a minor and my mom called it quits. My dirt scoot(Motorcycle/dirtbike/bike) is sitting in my garage with multiple injuries itself. I never let it go when it comes to my mom making me quit. I think I’m on the verge of her letting me race again this spring. I still have to get my bike fixed, I still have a few months to recover, and I need to hear what the doctor has to say. So I ask you guys... should I keep at it? Leave your thoughts in the comment section below!

Alright... I’m not going to hate on FA for this one, but one of my photos I added was removed. The reason; my picture of me on my dirt bike showed all of my sponsors and brands that I used. I think the reason it was removed was SOPA. They said since it was photography it was supposed to be original? The picture was taken by my friend... I dont get this one at all.

So today my sister, mom, and myself became involved in a bet between each other. The bet is to lose 20 pounds in a month. If me or my sister wins we get $200. Since my sister has a baby my mom didnt make it money for her prize. She will win dinner from my sister and she is undecided what she wants from me...(I said no money hehe) Anyways, I have a secret weapon.... Excercise... forgetting the fact I still walk with a bit of a limp from an accident 5 months ago, Ill take my dog on more walks and go for runs and such... Who has any tricks or ideas to win this bet? It will help! The money Im going to win from this bet will be put toward my fursuit.

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1) Do you need him / her to be good looking ?
Yes, well somewhat.

2 ) Smart ?

If the definition of smart is common sense, then yes.

3 ) Preferred age ?

Older than me. Unless its a girl then IDC.

4 ) Preferred height ?

Girls= shorter or about same height. Guys=Yes taller

5 ) How about sense of humor ?

Cant be with me if your a debby downer about everything!

6 ) How about piercings ?

I have earrings so yes, no gauges though, gauges are just nasty.

7 ) Accepts you for who you are ?

Im a romantic, romance just doesnt happen if they only like your looks.

8 ) Green hair ?

As long as it’s not staying that way.


9 ) Mushy or no ?

Uh, not to often.

10 ) Black , Brown , or White (skin color) ?

Honestly. (no racism or hate) White

11 ) Long hair or short hair ?

Depends how they look with it, mostly medium. Love faux hawks! Girls on the other hand. well if you look good with it!

12 ) Plastic or metal ?

uh... what does this mean?

13 ) Smells good?

hygiene is very important to me...

14 ) Smoker?

It honestly depends how they look with a cigarette in their mouth... And only outside...

15 ) Drinker ?

Occasion

16 ) Girl / Boy - next - door type ?

Nice to have one like that!

17 ) Muscular ?

Uh, no...

18 ) Plays piano ?

doesnt matter so yeah

19 ) Plays bass and / or acoustic guitar ?

If they can play guitar I would be very satisfied.

20 ) Plays violin ?

for a girl.

21 ) Sings very good ?

yup

22 ) Vain ?

no


23 ) With glasses ?

why does it matter?

24 ) With braces ?

Is he 12?

25 ) Shy type ?

Im shy enough, but I dont want him/her to be too outgoing to where I think theyre cheating.

26 ) Rebel or good boy /girl?

Nice

27 ) Active or passive ?

Active

28 ) Singer or dancer ?

Dancer

29 ) Stunner ?

?

30 ) Hiphop ?

....

31 ) Earrings ?

Like I said earlier, I have them too.... just no gauges.

32 ) Mr. / Ms. love letter ?

Yesh

33 ) Playful ?

as long as they know when to stop.

34 ) Flirt ?

TO ME ONLY.

35 ) Serious ?

Only when needed.

36 ) Painter ?

If he/she is talented

37 ) Religious ?

Im athiest, just dont push your religion on me and we will get along

36 ) Someone who likes to tease ?

Uh duh... I love being teased!

37 ) Computer games geek ? Or internet freak ?

Idk care as long as you go outside once in a while.

38 ) Loyal or faithful ?

Not picking one... I want both.

39 ) Good kisser ?

Really? what a dumb question

40 ) Loves children

FUCK CHILDREN.

So I guess theres no more gift art aloud once SOPA and PIPA do there thing so please please get all of the gift art you want done now. Because remember the character isnt copyrighted to you!

[] you meow/bark to get attention
[] you find pets toys amusing
[] you get hyper by the smell of catnip
[] you growl/hiss when someone gets too close to your food
[] you growl/hiss when someone you dislike is too close to you
[] you purr/shake your leg when someone shows you affection
[X] if someone tosses a ball, you chase it and bring it back
Total: 1

[X] you love to be scratched behind the ear
[X] you love fish/meat
[X] you like to stick your head out trough the window of a moving car.
[X] you like when people pet your head
[X] people can make you stop doing stuff by hitting you on the nose with a newspaper
[X] you think feathers are fun to play with
Total: 7

[X] you sleep a lot during daytime
[] you enjoy scaring birds
[] you lick peoples faces to show you like them
[] you bite people if they annoy you
[] you tend to steal food from your friends/family's plate when you have eaten all of yours
[X] milk or water is your favorite drink
Total: 9

[]you own a collar and you enjoy wearing it
[] you own a leash and enjoy wearing it
[] you own animal ears/tail/paws or a fursuit
[X] you enjoy long walks in the park
[] you meow/bark when you see something you want
Total: 10

[X] you call your hands and feet "paws”
[X] you tilt your head when you do not understand what someone is talking about
[] you run to the door when someone mentions a walk
[X] you really enjoy cuddling
[X] you stretch your body and whimper a bit every morning when you wake up
[X] you can wake up and go back to sleep right away after looking around
Total: 15

[X] you have your favorite spot besides your bed where you like to sleep
[X] you meow or bark very often
[X] you hide when you get scared
[] you run to the door to see who it is every time someone comes in to the house
[] you like to chase flying insects and try to catch them with your bare hand
[X] you tend to chew on stuff a lot
[] you like to do tricks to get a treat
Total: 19

[X] you own a wearable item/tag with your name on it (Like 4)
[X] you refer to your self as an animal(but I know Im not)
[X] your username has something to do with animals
[X] your e-mail has something to do with animals
[X] if you get a bleeding wound, you lick it to make it feel better (not very often...)
[X] you look for edible stuff often
Total: 25

[X] you often find yourself looking through the window for a long time
[X] you like to say hi to strangers
[] you like to be petted when you have done something good
[] people think you act like a pet
[] you growl/hiss at stuff you do not like
[] you like to eat grass
[X] if you get wet, you shake to get rid of the water
Total: 28

Final Total: 56%

Now multiply it by 2 and that's your %

I kind of feel like a creep...

Yeah, I never thought I would make a new character, but quite frankly I dont think Fen is fursuit material. So the new character Im making will be strictly wolf. Any name ideas? Fenreese sounds to mexican(Im white) *update* I came up with Dub-Zero or DZ for short. Anyone like this idea? the other choice is Daku

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3087734/

yeah click on it

Ok so if you enter to win this raffle, its for a tail! fist raffle Ive ever seen like this but its awesome! link ----> http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/3072742/

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/...../#cid:23876960 You should go and check her channel out and try and be a character in the comic, shes taking 5-6 more people other than herself.

So... I was tempted to write a journal about something and didnt have any ideas, then when an idea came to me, well I forgot it. So tell me. What are all of your thoughts toward me(Fen) getting a fursuit? Oh and also I will be streaming tonight and if your interested let me know so I can give you a time, as of now, Im thinking five.(3hrs from now) So if you want a free sketch, as always it first come first serve!

So I finally broke down and bought a tablet, I’m still learning how to use it and all so if you dont mind some shitty art, give me an idea.

Does anyone know where you download paint tool sai, and is it compatible with a mac(that doesnt run windows)?

Recently I was told to keep drawing by a few people. The journal I posted received comments and messages that I didnt expect. I’m very very satisfied by the results, However I must say, I am quite confident in my art after a chat with  lost-paw when he explained my potential to me. Thanks to everybody but most of all thanks to a good friend.  lost-paw

I shouldn’t have set my expectations so high, I’m not saying I’m upset about it because I honestly didnt expect to receive one as a gift, but I am no longer purchasing a graphic tablet, I see no point in continuing with my artwork any longer. I will now just be a watcher and probably wont post anymore submissions. Sorry guys, I haven’t improved on my art and it’s a waste of time for me, I have better things to do than waste my time with a pencil and some sketch paper, I value your lovely comments and for all of you that befriended me as a furry, I’m still a fur, I just gave up at drawing.

For those of you that have pending requests I’m very sorry. However the reason may or may not make you happy. I am waiting to get my graphic tablet to do your requests. This means theyll be in color and more detailed, also... less sloppy! So any comments go down below v <--- Yeah follow that arrow. Anything you want done can and will be among my approval so enjoy the holidays and have a Merry Furry Christmas! Or furry Hanukah or even Kwanza. Yeah I’m open minded!

I’m going to have official journals and side journals. And as the title of this one asks. Do you have any ideas? I’m almost done with what I still have and where should I go from there? I take requests as you’ve seen before, and if you can come up with a good Idea, well I’ll dedicate it to you! An example of my dedicated work is my TJ-Coyote request. So thanks for your time and the journal view. -Fen