The start of November, on the fourth, was the beginning of my work place's busy season, which means 10 hour shifts, non-stop flow of collard greens, mustard greens, turnip greens, kale, and the most important, organics. It's a rush on things, having to keep the flow of product on a timed production, filling orders, shipping them out, you get the idea, but for me, it means a ton of cardboard and plastic crates, as well prefabricated boxes. Lots and lots of work, getting pallets loaded with flat boxes pulled, working a pallet-jack, stacking, loading, this and that... Good thing I'm built tough and enduring...

Nobody listens!!!!! Nobody is focused!!!! My box room workers are slack as hell!!!!! Bad management of the people in charge!!!!!! And I'm having to hold hands and put myself through nearly triple the workload!!!!!!

However... The hours of overtime and getting a bonus for being the box room overseer, plus ensuring my tasks are complete before the end of my ten to twelve shift, is worth it. I've also been allowed to work extra days that I would have off, so that's more for me, plus it'll allow me to get everything proper in my box room and have things ready for the coming days others are off. So, it works out, sorta... Just tired of having to retrain or show others what to do, even after they've been there for a month now.


Now for the fun stuff ^^
I have been able to get things done around my house/homestead, cleaning up, organizing, getting my yard right (nearly), and taking the time for my own personal wants. I've gotten back into my WarHammer 40K figures, both building and painting some, even sorting through my Pokemon/YuGiOh cards. Cooking out a little more with my evening hours, hitting Netflix and Prime, even getting back into collecting strange things.

All in all, it's been a wild, rough, enduring first week for the busy season, but I believe in the long run, it's going to pay off for me well.

Life is... Good, really, yeah ^__^

Work is going good for me, promotion and getting to be put on a handling focus of things, basic assistant supervisor really, I'm now having to oversee other people that do the work duty I once used to do. It's kinda neat, being the one who sees others do the job tasks I used to do, even give them orders, correct them, train new hires, all that. Hell, it's sweet being in charge... >XD

Also I've been doing good to get things in order with my life, one being which, no more drugs. Nope, the party days are over for this wild hare. Even my friends are kinda trying to be like "Aahhh, come on man, one hit or such.", nope, done, clean. I rather keep that dollar in my pocket and enjoy what I love, me, myself, and I... Plus, being able to pay my bills on time, even get ahead, it's sweet. ^^

Bought a new/used car, some fixing up, but worth it, been saving money, home is fine, family too. I want to redo my driveway, but it's a matter of filling and covering with gravel or going the extra for some paving, blah, it's about time to redo my plumping under the house too, had a pipe go bust from the bladder tank twice in the same year. You got to love having to plan and decide, right. LOL

Anyways, hope everyone that knows me is doing just as well, life is just life, but it is fair.

Hope the best for you all and love. ^^

Random, but I'm going to try it... Feel free to drop in and comment ^^

Playing Bio Mutant

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Random, but I'm going to try it... Feel free to drop in and comment ^^

Playing Super Animal Royale

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To all those that care and know me, Merry Christmas from the very bottom of my heart and truly pray for blessings of wonderful bliss to all of ya. The winter starting is cold, windy, even freezing to the near bone, however, the glow of spirits and love of passing lives is warmth that slowly blankets us from above, from the high heavens in the stars. So much has been lost in this year of 2022, I shall not speak of things personally, just we've ALL lost so much, but I digress, in losing so much, we've been allowed a chance to gain anew of... I leave that in your hands, for that plate is yet to be filled by you, not others...

In the coming new year, 2023, the year of the hare/rabbit is to be for me, a chance to luck-out, to push my chances some, even dip my toes into some new waters. I pray for the coming blessings of the new year to bring me two lost feelings, while also allowing me to release two held items (Personal, but they are needing to go <_<), and to spread my luck of good to those around me. My needed allies for these blessings are the goat/sheep and the hog/pig, maybe I should try some simple offerings of dried straw and greens.

On another note, I've happen to come to terms with DEATH, yes, it's a subject we all fear, yet, it's an everyday thing that comes about. I've come to see that even in death, new life is allowed to gain a foothold in the starting path that is the future, so...

My good MEEPS out there, please stay safe, stay strong, and build for you, not others, for by building yourself, you're laying out the foundation of path for others to take the same steps on...

Waldo the Forgotten and Undesired out... >P

After taking a two month long vacation away from things, I have finally returned home and boy am I happy to be home. I spent about two weeks in Gatlinburg, which is in Tennessee, hiking the mountain trails for one week, then spending the second week touring and spending money on relaxing. Took a lot of hiking pictures, saw some deer, a small herd of elk, visited the black bear pens, hit Dollywood up, and so-on. Traveling from there, I headed to Spartanburg NC, having stayed at the Holiday Inn for another week, more touring, plus went fishing, though very little luck with catching anything. <_<

From there, visited friends, some family, cookout and all that, by mid-October I slowly made my way home, checking out small towns for antique shops, which I landed some blue china stuff.

Blah blah blah and all that, I'm just so happy to be home now.

I have this to say... Good fucken bye 2021, hated you and hope it's put in the oven to burn like paper being dropped into a flaming pit.

A week ago, a young black and white furred dog, a two year-old shih tzu that was named Prince Cooler, was found dead out in my backyard, near the firepit.
I brought this young prince into my home and raised him as my own, having traded some pills to a stupid road-whore for him and his brother. I gave the brother shih tzu to a damn good friend, while keeping Prince Cooler for myself, having fallen in love with the little pup's playful behavior and desire for attention. I fed him like he was my son, eating a share of whatever I ate, giving him hotdogs, good canned food, hell, he even had steak, ribs, chicken from the grill, fresh water or milk. I loved this little prince, giving him toys, his own little bedding, my father even fell in love with the little fluff ball of white & black fur...

From what I gathered, upon finding him, it was either a fox or coyote that ended the young prince's life, having broken the neck and ripped open his belly. It seemed like a quick death, the little prince went down fighting and even as I type this, tears in my eyes and hands shaking, he will never know pain again. Prince Cooler is free now, running through the woods, along his little trails, sniffing, barking at other wild life, even marking his spots, making sure they are still his.

I ask for only a short prayer for this little prince, cause he was a true Prince. He was my son, family, a friend, and the brightening light at the end of my day.
Thank you for reading.

Well, here I am, 34 today and still around... I made it...

I did it, in life, I guess, having said when I was turning 21 years old "I'm not going to live to see 30, I bet ya.", but here I am, 34 years old today.
I own my double wide trailer, fully paid off last year, own three acres of land, own two vehicles, no debt, taking care of myself, and able to do whatever I want. I made it, truly...

Happy Birthday to me, Waldo the Forgotten and known by other nicknames.

Well, I'm going to start putting money up for a fursuit. Yup, totally doing it. Been thinking about it for two years now, planning, pondering over what I see myself as, and finally came to the total idea...
I am an Eastern cottontail, a big, tall, tough, meat-eating cottontail that loves his booze, enjoys the water, and can't wait for Winter.
My goal is starting today, already putting $110 to the side and plan on putting $100 into the pot each week after paying bills and all that. So look out, I might be posting some RL pics of my suit in the future when I get it shipped in and try it out for a few days.

First, wow, I mean wow... When I was 16 I thought I wouldn't live to see 18, hitting the streets hard and slinging, if you catch my drift. When I turned 18, having been put in jail 6 times, not bragging, I decided to get my GED, get a job, save some money, and try to build a life, sorta... I told myself I wouldn't make it to 21, still kinda slinging on the side...
21 years old, got a mortgage with a double-wide on my father's land, working to get my driving record fixed with two DUIs, got locked up for two'n'half months, and thought to myself... 'Wow'...
Here we are now, 2020. Been a long run, truly, handling life, working hard, paying bills, keeping my nose clean, lost the taste for hard drugs, and seem rather happy about it all. ^__^

Two weeks ago, I got my notice that I'll be getting laid off from my good job, not cause of poor work-habits or anything bad, but cause the company is going to be expanding out, needing to shutdown so they can allow removal of machinery, pressure tanks, air line runs, and cleaning up, which I'm helping with till it's done. They want to keep me, but I refuse to move, so, the manager, who I like and likes me as well, wants to rehire me in three/four months time, after the shop, with warehouse, is fully redone. I'm going to be jobless in a week's time, but I've already looked into two other places, one wanting me back badly cause I was the only one that kept things cleaned up. Hopefully, with some praying to higher-powers of the sweet heavens above, things will not be too hard on me, even though my father done promised to help with my mortgage payments till I start working again...

Gaming is going well, still a hardcore Fallout fan, as well as Elder Scrolls lover, with some RTS and simulator games that hold well to me. Commissions will be on hold, needing to save every coin/sheet of currency till things get back on track.

To all those that have given watch, favorites, comments, even simple views, thank you for all your support. ^^
It truly has meant a lot to me as person, fantasy thinker, and writer. Seriously, thank you so much for your support. I will be around, no worries, I'm not going anywhere, just needing to focus on what is at hand.

With Loving Hugs and Tender Kisses:
Fiona_Grace/Hellgan/Waldo_the_Forgotten

Does anyone have any good ideas for some commission artwork? It's come to my attention hardly anyone likes what I think of, so I'm open to suggestions and even willing to use other characters with mine. Leave a message or drop me a note.

Also, to those two rude people that noted me the other day, shame on you and NO, I'm not going to give in. Sorry if I love art.

I got the black hoodie, black t-shirt, and pin in today. I love them, they all fit well, loose and hold a good feel of love.
For anyone who wishes to get the same gear, go to Shark Robot and get what you like, while they last. I know I'm happy with what I got.

I kinda feel like a failure with how my commission ideas have been, well, not being so good and really not as eye-catching as others. So, thinking things over, with a few drinks too, I'm going to try and type up more on my comic idea, showing the inside of Septhis's lifestyle, as well as how he'll run the legion of daemonic forces under his command.

I am still trying to get things typed up, having a few comic pages good, but as of now, having reached the writer's block, just as I get Page 11 nearly done. Wanting to continue and finish up the comic, cause I really want to explore my character's fucked up world, I am looking for someone to help me along with the comic and it's storyboard layout. I'm needing work through scenes, get the flow going once more, and see how Septhis will come out, leading to his raise of taking over his Oma's Red Four Army.

Seeing how no one cares to play an RP with me or with any of my characters, nor be interested in joining in any ideas of commission work (I'm happy to pay for), I'm totally done with this whole game of trying to make friends... Maybe I'll get a new hobby or just go out and... Whatever... Seems no one likes me for my personality and kindness, even caring means, then I'll just become a selfish ass like many others I've come across.

Meep to my Meeps, still around, living, and yeah, missing you all ^__^
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Still doing good, working hard as a mechanic, family is doing good, getting along with life well, and simply still thinking of everyone I care for (Online/Offline).

Miss a number of y'all, I know we all have our personal lives to live through, be it building up skills, spending time with loved ones, even just wanting to get away from it all, still miss you. Number of RPers/Players have left, hope they're doing wonderfully, others that are still playing their characters, wish we could spend more time together, but life is just... Well... Life XD

Getting along good with my family, father is proud of me, mother is still trying to baby me (I can't turn down her cooking after work ^///^), brothers and sisters are the same, and so-on, so-forth... LOL

Still gaming, still typing, still commissioning artwork I like/love, yeah, I found an art-style I simply love over all others. ^____^

Anyways, hope the best for all of you, love all those still around, and for those who don't like me... Still love ya, cause it's either love or hate, I pick love. Xp
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Fareweel my Meeps, hope you all have Meepful days ahead, as well as joyful Meeps to come. *Kiss Kiss* Hope we can play and get some art together soon.

I'm back, just been hiding out and doing whatever the hell I want. Still getting my game on, working hard, getting art done, and simply enjoying life.

After having a horrible Christmas, being alone, being dupped, not even so much as a thought towards me, I'm taking a break from it all. Till I get my new internet up, I'm off line, so bye and thanks for nothing. I'm not going to be someone's tool, at work, in RPing, and others personal fuck toy.

I'm not holding any grudges, people are the way they are, guess it's time for me to stop trying to think of others and think about me. Dorp notes, comments, whatever you like, I'll check in once here and there.

Goodbye and hope none of y'all feel as bad as I do.
Hellgan...

P.S. - I just ordered an art tablet, going to see if I can get back in drawing myself. Going to be freehand drawing till my tablet arrives.

Well,normally my holidays are good and pleasing, things sorta sliding my way some, plus holiday cheer coming from my mind.
Well seems my Christmas spirit isn't warmed up. With having to find a new service provider, nearly burning my savings on gifts, mother getting in the hospital for a kidney stone infection, and being slightly shaken like some piggy-bank, I'd say this Christmas break is turning to T-otal shit.
I going to drink and game my holidays, maybe spend my New Years the same, just to stressed, feeling used, and going to shut out the outside world. I'll be back after New Years, hopefully everyone else has a better holidays than me...

Having to change providers, going to be on and off the net. Can do notes on here, but RPing is off, so sorry. Love you all, Merry Christmas, Happy New Years, and will return...... I always do.

Tuesday evening, around 10 pm, I was driving home from the store, having gotten some soft-drinks and such for the house, and decided to take one of the back roads they recently paved. Coming around one of the farm-fields, nearing a sharp curve, a deer jumped out the woods, right in front of me, and I panicked some, and jerked the wheel to the left. Hitting the ditch, failing to press the breaks in time, I hit head-on a telephone-guide post, totaling my truck's front.

I am okay, a knot on my head from hitting the windshield, my feet a bit scarred from not having shoes on, and a bit shaken up, still feeling sore as hell though. <_>

Sorry for being way too busy with my life and trying to better myself. I'm now going to school to learn about the automotive industrial happenings, so, my RP time is very little to none, so sorry <>

I got two acres of land, wood land now, and been thinking about doing some clearing a few trees out, mostly brush with small pines. I for a slight valley, I think water once ran in a means of small creek-bed, but it's all dried up, plus good vegetation hold, with shrubs and undergrowth.

I'm thinking maybe a goat or two, I can afford the hay for a year, to allow grass to grow some, even get some thicker growth proper for such goats.
For the goats, I was thinking meat stock, male and female, not sure which tastes better, but I'm very well willing to give it a go. ^_^
I'm not shy about killing, skinning, buttering too, just wondering if there is a difference in taste between male and female goat meat.


I got chickens, but here lately, I think another local fox has moved in and has been killing them at night. Now I can't stay up at night during the weekdays, with work and all, so I'm going to set some small-game traps out again, and hopefully trap/kill the chicken-killer. If there is, I'll get him/her, might be a wild dog or even a coyote, but I'll get it.


Finally, life is okay, sorta, still holding strong, busting ass during these hot days, having little time in the evenings, taking care of my father like a good child should, and simply trying the family life good. Plus I'm going to be 30 in September, never thought I'd be 30, thinking I get shot, crushed, ran-over, or something in today's world. Life is very funny and picky about who lives'n'dies... XD

I played it for six hours, doing side missions and having new weapons developed, plus building my team up greatly. Games saves, all is good, listening to tapes on the helicopter... Power goes out... Okay, game saved at last checkpoint, plus main saves too...

I get power back, turn my X-Box One, sign in, wait for game to load... .... ......... What in the blue fuck man... All that playing, lost, like it didn't even save...

As of a minute ago, took the game disc out my X-Box One, put it in it's proper case, took it outside, and blew it away with 12-Gauge buckshot magnum...

You know, those people, relatives, blood, people that know you even though you wish to be somewhere else...

Here lately I've been dealing with them... Really... I love them, but also wish they would just leave me a,one... So... ... ...


I'm busy with real life and I'm unable to be on more. Sorry to all...