Strange title, right? Hehe. Anyways, let's start with... okay, both are pretty big news. But- HRT! I should be starting soon! Within the year! Which is, like, holy fuck. All of a sudden its within my grasp. My first steps. Damn... it's refreshing. I'll be so excited~

But also... publication. This is kinda the big thing I can write more about. My original idea of publishing through a local publisher is a... well, problem at the very least. It would be thousands of dollars to get only a thousand copies, and as it would have to have a kickstarter for it- it would probably be 1000+ backers to reach that, maybe- leaving no more copies around, not to mention I don't think that company ships. :-/ But I could keep it published wherever I wanted, which is certainly a positive.
Now, I've been looking into other paths- specifically, a bigger publishing company. Baen, actually- not sure how likely I'd be to get a book with them... BUT Divine Wasteland fits all their criteria. Sci-fi or fantasy and between 100K and 130K words (DW is 111K). They also have a tendency to publish series of books, and, well, book 2 is in progress. They may not pay 100% royalties but the costs of getting published with them will be much lower if not free and many more copies will be out there, perhaps even in major book stores.
Can you imagine that? Divine Wasteland in a Barnes and Noble or something? My gods, it sounds glorious. Praise Ventus? Hehe.
Baen's a pretty big company for the genre, and has actually published several of my favorite authors. They also pay at a higher rate than the industry standard which is surprising, and so if there's a large amount of books out there I may just make my first step into the world of publishing.
But I can't have it anywhere else, and that means taking off the amazon listing and even off of FA. Maybe- how likely would it be for them to find it here? Ah... I would have to remove it as to avoid the risk. Sorry about that. But the horrors of the holy will keep coming out if I do get published with Baen!
So, I need your thoughts. Take a shot with the big guys?

I've been looking into simple animations... you guys have any suggestions on what to use? GIMP would work but it's very slow and a bit complex for anything more except talk cycles. I want to try simple hand drawn animations... now, I do have Adobe suite cs4; not sure if that's all in there, but if it isn't can someone suggest what program to go pick up?

Correction- will.
I've been working on lots of personal pieces, but now that I went out and purchased some packaging envelopes (20 to start off with) and a bit of E600 to hold the parts of the jewelry together, I'm going to start selling! Each piece will be heavily steampunk inspired, full of interchanged gears and durable metals.
There will be necklaces, buttons (Or brooches depending on what you use them for), and maybe a few other things that I have planned. And they won't be too expensive; the most pricey may be 15-20 dollars plus shipping. Brooches may max out at 8.
Whatdya say? Interested?

Yeah! So, it took awhile, but it's up~ (This is for the American Region, others will be later.)

https://www.amazon.com/dp/B01M6XJJMY

The thing should go down in price by a dollar later today (To 6.00$)and if you wanna support me please feel free to purchase a copy. (Or better yet, pay for a commission.)
What's the differences from what's here and the amazon edit? Well, it is an edit- so all of the typos are (I hope) fixed. Also, several plot points are changed, more events are added, and a few connectors to book 2 are within as well. Still got 100% the Gladius-on-Daemon combat, hehe.
Going to start working on a physical publication now, with illustrations, even more text, and other goodies.

So, I went to a county fair yesterday, the 24th. Apart from getting several awesome patches and a gigantic scroll-like poster, I also spoke with a publishing company that had a stand there- they may be my answer to things and to getting the Divine Wasteland out there.
I investigated, and I realized that this little company, Maine Author Publishing (Creative name, right?) will publish books in hard copy limited to a certain number and will also do ebook for an extra fee (Which I want to shoot for as well)- and guess what; Authors keep 100% royalties, which is absolutely insane. The company makes all of its cash from the pre-production.
And there's my problem, though. I need cash to get this working. I sent in a form which should give me an estimate of the base publishing price, but that does not include ebook or their editing service (Which has to be done with them). This easily ups the price by almost 800$, most likely. And publishing's a lot as well, most likely several thousand due to the size of the book.
But, amusingly, this would be an extreme for what this publishing company's ever done- they've never even done a sci-fi or fantasy. Closest was a story about vikings stealing a baby, damn it!
But, in the end, this also means I may be trying to start a kickstarter or something to get this published. I also need every dollar I can get for a few other things; such as body shaping clothing to help combat my dysphoria. That stuff isn't cheap either, but it's certainly more reachable!
So, amidst these days of college work and other things, do you reckon I'd be able to rally people together and help get the Divine Wasteland published...?

~~Wanna help me work towards this goal? Purchasing a cheap commission may help! You can see the info here. http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/7803154/ ~~

Alrighty, so I've been struggling with prices and everything for my commissions, trying to figure out where I went wrong. First, I attempted to do it with a single piece I'd just show off each stage of, but then I realized that wasn't gonna work. I need examples of actually commissions.
So, I've come up with a few types I'd like to be able to sell, and these'll go up on a new commission sheet in the future. So, here's the types.

1. Sketched Upper Body Cheapest One! $3

2. Inked Upper Body/ Full Body $5/$8 Slot for Sheet complete.

3. Colored Full Body $10 Slot for Sheet Taken

4. Experimental Digital Color Full Body $10

5. Full Color+digital Addition Image with Full BG and One character. $25

6. Ref Sheet with front/back, clothed front, and two focus items plus bio. $35


I hope you guys are interested! Send me a note or claim it here if you are. Bbbuuuttt if you want another like one that is claimed, feel free to still ask for it, it just wont be on the commission sheet and it may be a bit of a higher price.

Because, basically, I have deduced that most people seem to think my art is worth fuck all. Apparently the pieces I work on for 25 hours are worth about as many dollars as I spend in hours. 25 dollars for 25 hours of work... Wtf? What am I doing wrong?
So here, let's use an art piece for example. This one. http://www.furaffinity.net/view/20276151/
How much would you pay for it or something similar? Please, I have to know. I don't want my expensive materials and years of practice to be worth fuck all...

So, the past few days have been hectic, tense, and fun all at once, spiced with a sense of awkwardness and a chance to be more myself. So yeah... it's been weird.
Basically, I have finally moved into college. Properly. My roommate's good; he's bi and fully understands my being trans and all of furry and all of that, but he's a car nut to the max (Which can be annoying, haha). And so, we're trying to get used to living at Unity college.
We also went on the NOVA trip, which was five days of camping, and my first time out. Mine was about Yoga and Meditation, so it was interesting- and it was all girls! Yay. <3 Only two actually knew I was trans tho, but one eventually became a close friend of mine (We even came from the same high school and had mutual friends, surprisingly!), and she's even offered to help me with all the girl things, show me some lotions, shaving tips, ect.
The trip itself tho, was fun. We went out to tons of beaches, including the easternmost point in America; all it was was just a stubby, short lighthouse with a tiny museum bolted on. But the park around it was great with massive cliffs, lots of smooth rocks, and all sorts of other interesting things. Yoga and Meditation was in there somewhereabout.
Also, on the way there, our van broke down two hours out and we ended up doing yoga, games, and making food in a parking lot of a closed autoshop. We also met a fat dog that we eventually named Meatlog, tehehe. Never knew his actual name.
We also eventually met a friendly bulldog named Jeana who was a rescue dog and now a therapy dog who was super excited to see us, and even gave dog hugs! (Front legs over your shoulders and licks all over the face. So great! ^^)
But eventually, we did get back. College has been interesting. Wifi was a bitch to get on my computer- had to install several programs, remove my antivirus to install their's, and a few other things including three restarts. Took two fucking hours. Works tho!
But I'm also stranded, for now, on an all male floor. I shouldn't be here. It almost makes me ill, seeing these super-masculine men around me who just walk around with no shirts showing off their six-packs and shit... ugh. Not to mention it's the worst dorm building by far. At least I'm finally making some progress to transitioning. Already went out and bought some tall, knee high socks and some cool fingerless knit gloves, tehehe. They're great. <3
But anyhow, it's been crazy. Gonna try to keep working towards things, keep doing art, and everything. Still working on art and writing, and part 14 of DW should be out in a few days, along with a new art piece.
How have you all been doing? I hope you've been fine. Cheers. ^^

Yeah, so college has begun and things are decent. Although I'm on a all boys floor, which is horrid. But I'm writing this from my iPhone because we're about to head off on the nova trip, as its named. Basically, I'll be in the woods with no tech for... Well, until Thursday. You may be lucky to see me on Friday.
So, wish this floofbutt luck! See you all soon. ❤️

So yeah, things have been moving on with me. Been doing my best to survive depression and all, and just barely. But help should be coming soon. Hopefully.
But anyways, colelge begins for me on the 20th! A new step for me, haha. My roommate's understanding of my gender identity and seems like a good guy, and my college in itself is a good place for anyone LGBT. Things look good on that end.
Also, the year begins with a five-day camping trip on the 20th... so I wont be around for those few days, most likely.

But next, as I've been packing up my room at home to move to college, I've put all of my drawn work into one pile, and I realized... holy fuck, there's a lot of pieces I never finished or just flat out never posted because they weren't good enough to me. Some never got beyond the sketch phase (a few barely that), while others are line work, a few partially colored, and yet a few more are complete characters without any reasonable backgrounds. And yet a few more could have been finished, but I must have forgotten about them and now my style's changed too much to finish.
So, what'dya say? You want to see those?

And lastly... can I just say, thank you to all of the Fandom? You guys have always been so friendly to me, and if I didn't have you all, I dunno if I would even be alive right now. Depression would have taken me long ago, I'm sure of it. So... thank you, all of you.

<3 <3

Alright, so things have been going wonky with that project of mine. I did have to drop pretty much all of my original ideas for the game, and so I came up with new ones. And it would work... if I can figure out things. I want to turn it into a vicious, hand drawn, platformer, but things have been rough even setting it up.
And there comes my small crew.
One, Stritchy, a friend of mine, has been going through serious medical problems. He can't help anymore, and was only able to add a bit to the original game before it all went to hell.
And then there's my other two; non-furs, one stritch helped me find and that guy helped me find the other. One's trying to learn pixel work and scripting, and the other one is a quite competent scripter... and where their from is my problem. They're both from Turkey, and that's one of the most homophobic countries in the world where trans women are quite literally killed by police for getting near. Hate crimes are common there too. Now, I never mentioned the fact that the main characters in both ideas were lesbians and so I have no idea what his thoughts are... but fuck me. My fourth member is a good close friend of mine who is my music maker; he doesn't know I'm trans but I'm sure he'll understand. But it seems like he's all I've got left...
Does anyone want to step up to try to help me build this game if the large portion of my teams explodes in a burst of homophobic fury? Ugh, everything always goes so, so, so wrong for me. Always, it seems...

Divine Wasteland's part 13 has been done for several days, but FA's been having problems. It won't seem to accept Docx files, which is what my work is saved as. I've sent in a trouble ticket and apparently the tech team's got the error in their que. So who knows when it'll be fixed, hrm?
This does suck tho.

Boom, Headshot? Nah, not that sort.
Basically, I just want a bit of face practice. Throw some interesting characters my way, and I may draw them. Goodness knows how many I'll do, but this isn't first come first serve. Basically, I determine it on the character itself and how much one may need art of such a character. Mostly. Probably.

... Hrmph, just gave me some refs and I'll draw faces! (Make sure you're watching too.)

Should've done this a long time ago.

https://www.weasyl.com/~yumifukui

Anyone else got one so I can go follow you there?

So, I was thinking, after looking at some other artists who have done T-shirt design, I thought; hey, why don't I do that? I've had plenty of ideas and I would draw them if I could get them on a shirt... so now, why don't I actually do it? Going to use the Redbubble site; it seems the best source for such things, and I could make an alright profit off of it. So, would you guys buy T-shirts from me? Am I even worth that much?
But, if you think it'd work, any pieces of art here you'd think worth for being on a T-shirt, and if not (Probs not), what sort of designs do you think I should do?
Cheers.

I've tried Sofurry- no luck. Deviant art- no luck.
Where do you guys suggest? I want one where I can actually get noticed by at least one person in three months. Please?

Life has been falling apart for me. I've barely been happy at home, school, anywhere because of my dysphoria bringing upon serious depression and other mental troubles. I don't feel right in my body at all, ad that leaves me in such a horrid shape some days... Fuck me.
I had the chance to get some professional help from one of the school psychologists yesterday, because a friend told him about the shape I've been in. While in there, I got scared, frightened. Fuck, I didn't even mention the transgender stuff, the dysphoria, any of the major stuff in my life that's driving me mad and into deep depression, I just said that my family's faltering finances had me on edge. I freakin' lied when I could've started to go get some help when I needed it by far the most.
But now, that same friend has corralled me into going to get help, and soon too... and it scares me so much. What if he accuses me of faking it? What if my parents find out because of this? What if this sends me into a spiraling series of events that just make things worse... I am so, so, so very terrified. My hands and keyboard are tearstained as I write this...
Oh gods, anyone, please, help me... What am I going to do...? the thought of speaking to someone about these matters hurts. Because of these irrational fears...
I am so wrong. A fucking failure. I couldn't even get born in the correct body. Why can't I bring myself to get the help I know I need...?
I'm so scared...

I dunno; I want to try to sell some sort of art, and I think a YCH may be good at the moment. It's be probably ten-fifteen bucks a character, in some sort of action-y pose... would you guys be interested in doing that sort of thing?

Really, I do. Alone mentally, emotionally. Lost in my own damn body. I feel like my mind is slowly cracking, be it from one-part the body/gender dysphoria, one part from my lack of a shoulder to cry on if I need it, and one part from the trauma I put myself through on an almost weekly basis just writing some of that stuff.
Shit, I broke down just earlier tonight. Some days, my body just feels too damn alien for me to take, and what's worse, I just seem to have no definitive direction of where to go in my future, apart from a college and a loose major. Not to mention, getting set up for that's been a pain...
Fucking hell, I'm just so lost. I don't know who I should be, what types of people i may fall in love with... I just don't know at all.
I'm just so, so lost...

So... I could of had a paypal months ago. You know, without a bank account. Because I missed a fucking single button to "Skip this step" for the debit card.

*Double-uber-facepalm*

I could have opened these months back. I'm so, so sorry! I apologize. I don't know if anyone's interested in this, but we have it- I was finally able to open this damn thing. So, for now, visual and story commissions are open. We can chat about payment info if anyone's interested.
And, for right now, there's going to be a three-space cue. Cheers guys, glad to have finally been able to do this!
I want to commissions a few of you guys too, but I need to do a few commissions of my own first, hehe.

Prices here: http://www.furaffinity.net/view/19394393/

I feel like my life has been a farce. I've felt like this revelation would come to me as soon as I had a word for it, and even before then I knew I wasn't just another guy. I've had to grin and bear holding this facade of masculinity, but fuck me, I can't do that anymore. It's only finally fully surfaced for me recently- I sure as hell don't want to be associated with the average male, nor do I want to with the normal female. So..
I've come to the conclusion that I should associate with the gender identity of, well, gender-neutral. So does that count as a gender identity? Heh, I don't even know.
Hell, for years and year I've just not been like the other males. Damn it, I don't even like my dick- I'd rather have a surgeon chop it off and give it to a transgender man who could actually use it. That feeling's been around for awhile, but even before that I was just never the manly man people expected from me. I had to force it and fake it, for years. When you're six foot two with broad shoulders and a voice that could, apparently, be used for just about any sort of announcing or narration, you have to. I can't even be myself without being punished or not even being allowed to come close! Thankfully, I only have a few months to wait before I head off to college; I can start anew there. At least, as best as I can...
And there's another problem. I was given gifts that I don't even fucking want. A strong male body and a powerful, again masculine, voice- gifts that so many would love, and I just want rid of the fucking things. Even the voice, which can net me a lot of money if I play my cards right, is unwanted.
I never liked my body much, but now after this revelation, I hate it even more. I don't feel like I belong. Why did I have to be like this...?
The only thing I can do right now is edit Yori a bit and go by them/they pronouns. I think that's the only thing I can ever do. Fuck.
I'm tearing up... I'm just going to go cry a bit...

Alright, some of you may know, I am attempting to construct a game. The entirety of it will be made in pixel art, and it was originally going to be just me and  wererstritchy doing the large portion of the work, with a third man doing the BGM.
But Stritch is a professional in the medium of pixel art (Seriously, he's working on a (Different) official game and has done a lot of work for other mediums), and thus is always rather busy. If it was just him, production of this game would take months and months, if not years. That's where you guys come in.
Stritch has already offered to help teach anyone if they're an amateur at pixel art, and he's more than willing to work with others. I can personally attest to his skill, but we do need more people on the job.
So, what's in it for anyone who's willing to help this project? At the start, not really much. I don't have anything to offer but my thanks. But, once the game is finished, I intend to aim for a platform like Steam- and thus, I will be selling this. Everyone in this little team I'm assembling will get a portion of the income, not to mention such things would look good on a resume and it could be an excellent way of getting your name out there. You'll also have a big say in the way this game goes, and will probably be able to design a character to appear in game as a party member. (Most fursonas probably won't work, sorry.) But hey, you got benefits!
Also, if this team becomes more than the three it is now, we may need to come up with a name for that, hehe.
I eagerly await to see who's interested.

So, I finally got my learner's permit. The DMV finally worked with me, and I got the damn thing. And I've already set to start getting a bank account next weekend... which means a paypal, and commisions.
Final-fucking-ly, I can start making some money off of what I love to do, bring it to you guys who want some, and maybe even buy a few off of others as well. Almost six months to get to this from when it should've happened.
Now, we have a lot of things I'll be offering. Thing is, not sure how much these should be priced by. So, if you can suggest things...
Basic Pen
Traditional Color and Pen
Full Traditional/Digital
Full Digital (May or may not)
Stories
And text adventures. (Yes, these are new and highly complicated.)

So, price wise, what do you think these should be? Also, would you be interested in buying something? (We can start discussing these things now if you so wish.) I would love to know these things. Thanks.

It's been a dream of mine to make a text-adventure game. And holy shit, I found some software to do it with.
Alright, so maybe a bit more than possibly, I know it'll happen at some point. But here's a question; what do you guys think it should be about? Give me some ideas, guys. Cheers.

Shit. I didn't think I'd ever reach this day. Wow, does that mean people are actually, somewhat, noticing all of my work?
Haha, no, not really. It's taken me four and a half years to get to this point.
Oh well. It's a milestone, eh? Yay...
*Celebrates Alone*