So, today I feel like posting something i've never really done before.. well I've made posts but i never really had them tie to me because i feel like I don't want to show my true feelings to others because i feel that I am being weak in showing that I can but upset too sometimes. Most of the times I just feel that everyone else have more of a reason to feel upset but for mine they are not worth being upset about.. But I can't seem to drop the feelings.. So here is the deal.

I had a friend.. this friend I met at a con and she (MtF ) used to talk with me all the time... This friend I was close enough to where we talked everyday on VR chat almost and I even fell asleep on it with them x.x. We weren't dating or anything like that. but we were just friends. Long story short this friend of mine always had problems with other people and i was always there for them. trying to make them feel happy, trying to remind them that there are more reasons to not want to kill themselves, to just keep pushing forward to just stay positive. This became a repeated thing to where it was like clock work where I was always there for them... I never let them really get close to me because they never really.. wanted to know who I was.. It bothered me for a while.. but I soon enough let it go.. But to keep going with it. Is that I was always trying to make them feel better because i am a nice person and I wanted everyone to remain happy or ATLEAST Okay. We had mutual friends that they stopped talking because of situations they had towards one another. but I told them both I dont pick sides. that i am going to be friends with both sides until one does wrong by me. Which is fair... So to bring this in full circle.. just a few months ago, me and this friend had one final talk where they were talking about ending it all and I said, "you need to stop that because people care about you." to which they didn't care about what i was saying. I went on to saying. "Listen I have been here through the thoughest shit with you and still you treat my answers like trash. When will you move on from those that hurt you and see the future? You have been doing so good, you were happy, with your boyfriend.. why do you go back to what you used to have with that person?" And they said, "because they are happy without me." I responded, "And? you were too without them! You don't need to worry about that shit and just move forward."

This went on for about three hours until I had to go.. and i said "I'm glad there isn't a reason to block me right.. so I'll see ya tomorrow." to which I wasn't expecting to be blocked and everything.. Like.. Maybe because i said something about it, I tempted fate?

Like.. Yes.. They didn't treat me right as a friend, at all.... but.. the fact that right now.. I feel pain thinking, "am I really a good friend? Am I just too hard on people that need to be spoken to softly and not harshly?" Like.. I asked em.. everytime if they want my honest no filter truth or my sugar coat.. They asked for the all out truth and I gave them the truth every single time..

I find it so funny that.. even to someone that hurts me like this.. I still feel sorry and feel that it is my fault that people leave. That I am being too hard on people... I don't know.. I'll stop typing now.

Alright guys, I have been on a low hiding profile for a while and there are reasons behind that, because of the whole COVID-19 my job has been on high demand since the beginning of the issue. So I've been working endlessly and none stop. Next to that situation at hand I have a couple things I'd like to update you all on because; after reading my last journal I said I was getting a couple things.

For starts, I have officially paid off my very own fursuit!!! Yay!! So Once that starts to get made and such I'll be able to do more with it. Also for the last thing I was remodeling a while ago last year. Has been on the back burner, because I don't have the correct place for me to work on it. I am hoping to get my own place soon so I'll have a specific space for me to work on that sort of thing. Plus get my videos, photography, art station and gaming station set up, so I can be more.. Me!

The last few years has been really rough on me, and I am now starting to pull myself together, so I can do better for myself and my kids.

At last, for now I am going to keep moving forward, and moving up. Until the next journal or so, see you all next time.

So, I know I haven't been here much and when I am it's a couple days later or so. I have somethings I need to share that can explain it.

Reason number one:

I'm a single parent of two girls, I've been raising them to the best of my ability to make sure they are growing up well.. it's a struggle but I'm doing my best.

Reason two

I work a lot, and trying to get my life in order.

Reason three

I havent been writing or drawing.. like I wanted too and as for the head I was making.. I kinda just stopped because I wasn't liking how it was going... when i get a space or so.. i might try and finish the thing. But will never know

Reason four

I was sadly in the hospital over the weekend, had three heart attacks, x.x not fun... I'm okay though, no issues but i am taking some medication.

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Now for some good news officials.

ILL BE GETTING MY OWN FURSUIT!!

I'm in a queue! So all I have to do is pay and do the ductape stuff and then wait for them haha. I'm so excited

Alright, I know many of us do this every year, and have done this time and time again, Well this time I'm actually going to do what I say I'm going to do so here we go!

1. writing again (already started actually!)
2. practice my drawing, so I can get better
3. Dance more, so I can become better
4. sing more, so my voice will get better, so I can sing better
5. create music, I've had the program for two years and haven't touched it.. I need to do that again.
6. Live streaming, I've actually started this for my PS4, I think I'll do it weekly, for a thing to do on Friday nights... It will give me better communication skills.
7. Take control of my life... I've just let it go by without actually taking responsibility for my reasons why I can't do nothing.. and instead of blaming the world around me, It's my own time that I need to take care of.
8. Lose some pounds, to return to my normal weight.. I gained this year because my wife had a kid so I got lazy haha.
9. Raise my daughter.
10. Increase my photography skills
11. Get back into video production

These are just eleven things I'd try to do, which will take time and effort, only I can make these changes and no one else can for me. I have to grow up x.X.

Hello everyone, I have a little thing that I'd like to say. My story named species will be rewritten, and possibly renamed. The characters will be renamed and there are some new characters, groups, scenery, and the plot will be revamped for better understanding. I will also try when I have everything in the background done, make a posted timeline of when I will post the next chapters.

What I need some help with are some last names! Hint, there is every species within this. So have fun!

Alright everyone, this year will be the year that I will actually do things that I aim out to do. I will get back to my drawing, writing, painting, dancing, and now SINGING! Yes I sing sometimes but I don't make my own music. So I'll most likely just be making covers. As for me dancing, I will post some of my dancing here or on my youtube page. I'm trying to break out of my shell finally, and by me doing this I also want to make some friends that I can share life stories with, new experiences, and pass on as well as receive advice. So please don't be afraid to talk to me! As I will try not to be afraid to talk to you.

As you noticed that I'm actually posting things, and it's been a long time since I've done it so. I'm going to try and post something atleast once a week. That's my goal in trying to better myself. All and all

THANK YOU! ~~

Hey everyone! I'm now live streaming at!

https://picarto.tv/site/dashboard

Come all com see, I also do free commissions because I'm trying to get better :D

Hello, my Furry friends, I've now gotten into the streaming days! you can now watch me draw! soon enough you will be able to watch me play games and hear me throw a fit at them. :D Won't that be fun?

The stream is stream.me/AlisterKaldra !! Come watch me draw :D

It is now two days after con and I miss it, I had a lot of fun meeting up with friends that I haven't seen in a year. It's a good feeling to know that people still remember me and it's a good feeling that I can still remember them. That means we are close :D no?

I got a couple awesome sketch books and pictures that were drawn for me. I also got some cool accessories that have made my day!

Overall, I know this is extremely short, but hey! I can't think straight but how much I miss con and all the excitement that came with it. Now I have to go back into the work field of school and work.

All in all.. .Stay furry my friends

BASICS
What day are you getting there?
Thursday!!

How are you traveling?
by my little black crayola 2003 jetta

Where are you staying?
Main hotel babie

Who will you be rooming with?
my darling mate  azurekitsunechan  azazelivylynn and Dave

How long are you going?
Thursday to Sunday, then have to go home for school and stuff


PERSONAL
What do you look like?
Brown skin, glasses, black straighten hair


What is your gender?
Well... by the looks of me I'm a male

How tall are you?
5'6 short man walking

Can I talk to you?
Sure ^^ I'd love to talk to anyone I can ^^


Can I touch you?
taps on the shoulder to get my attention, handshakes, high 5s, and finger touches are okay


Can I hug or snuggle you?
Hugs I can do for anyone, snuggles are for my mate and close friends :3


Are you nice?
I am nice :D

ART
Do you have an artist table?
Nope

Do you do trades?
Never done it

Do you do badges?
If you want one, I'll try and make you one

Can I look/draw in your sketchbook?
If I have it out and carrying it and you ask, SURE!

CONVENTION
Will you be fursuiting?
Q~Q I wish

Where will you be most of the time during the day/s?
Every where


What is the best way to find you?
Red and white tail, camera, and the name Alister :D

If I see you, how should I get your attention?
Ali! Alister!, Wes! Firepaw! Yo Ali!

Are there any panels you might be attending?
hmmm depends on the ones I find :D

Will you be going to parties?
Never been to one owo

Will you be performing?
nope

What/where will you be eating?
Not sure lol

Can I come with you for food/fun/etc?
Only if invited!

Can I visit your room?
^^; Probably not

Can I buy you drinks?
Sure thing :3 why not ^^

Can I give you stuff?
What is it that you want to give me? I normally dislike people giving me stuff because I have a need to pay people back ^^;;

Can I take your picture?
Why not :3 I Love taking photos ^^

What are your goals for the con this year?
Make some new friends, Have a lot of fun, and just enjoy the community :D

Hey everyone,  azurekitsunechan and I were driving when we were rear ended by another person and the repairs cost $6,000 that we don't have, insurance won't cover, and the person who hit us didn't have insurance either.

geez x.X

Details here: http://www.gofundme.com/FixingTheVWJetta

If you can help, please! Even signal boosting will do SO MUCH. We really need this car, or I cannot work. And that is a problem. Thanks guys so much if you can help or pass the word. <3

I normally don't do this but today I have decided to do it because I feel that I need to let off some kind of stress into a journal... Normally I just keep it to myself but..why not give it a try here ya know?

Well let's start off in the beginning of the reasons why the earth has decided to pick the right time to screw me with the right amount of force, that sent me more than an "o" face and tears but into a side of wanting to say "fuck it.." Which I will not do by the way for those who are reading...

Anyway, What's happening is our car is totaled, ants are infesting our home (We are clean people.. I clean a lot.. o.e can't stand mess), our tree just broke.

Well let's start with our car... YAY IT IS TOTALED :D! I JUST GOT IT AND IT'S ONLY BEEN A MONTH AND SOMEONE HITS ME IN THE BACK!... RIGHT TO YA... this person totaled... my car with one hit.. and it really really REALLY pisses me off, because I loved that car.. Now I have to choose to either get a new one or keep the one I got.. Note that if I get a new one I most likely will have to get a 1990s car that will be worth 2g that they want to give me for getting a new car -_-; well I'm planning on keeping my car and think about getting it fixed myself because it's stupid... What's kind of damage is there to it? Well... the back panel has to be cut out and replaced.. They have to replace my trunk.. For some odd reason... My left light doesn't work, and for the amount of damage to the car.. it's a 6g repair.. note.. I got this car for 1200 and it is a 2003 Jetta Volkswagen, black with tented back windows, the internal lights are the same colors as my fursona.. And I found this just off crigslist... HAHA yeah no... I'll find a way to get it fixed on my own...

Next.... Note if you are a criter creature congrates to you, I'm just saying me and your friends don't get along to well... I mean they are trying to take over my apartment -_-; That's fighting situations.. Well what was told to me, by the bug guy who came out to my apartment was nothing.. He said nothing.. but he did make a call to his boss.. So the fact that he had to make the call directly to his boss means it was BAD.. We pulled back the carpet (we are on the ground floor) and there are HOLES IN OUR FLOOR FULL OF ANTS! o.e I mean... OMG I lay on the floor and.. ugha?! Well right now... He put traps down... to try and kill them...but the nest is so freaking large he has to do more treatments than just one.. Note.. we do clean them up as soon as we see them so no one really knows that they are there.. and to say this.. We (I'm faster at it tho) clean them up... hourly... I feel like I'm working in my own house getting paid 1000 ants/hr ... well maybe not by the hour but.. over night before the bug guy came our fucking sink... looked like there was growing stripes... Note the sink is clean o.e I mean.. what the hell are they finding in a clean sink?! I wash them down the sink and make little voices of, "I'm drowning... help me." and I laugh evilly at them.. mwhaha..

Number 3! My damn tree broke!... We are trying to getto rig the tree to stay up... and we will get it standing for a while then it falls again... I honestly want to set the tree on a table and flip it into a volcano.. or sparta kick it into a hole.. Which ever comes first...

Also, there were others complains that I've had butttt... they got solved and fixed before I could even post this (YAY) So this looks like a big old waste of time <.< but I'll post it anyway! why? because I can!

1. Choose some of your OCs
2. Make your OC[s] answer these questions
3. Tag [3] other people

Note: I haven't Roleplayed in a long time.. I hope you enjoy.

OC 1: Alister
OC 2: Firepaw
OC 3: Winter

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1. Introduce yourself?
"Good evening, I'm Alister Kaldra." He speaks clearly with a slightly deep voice.
"What's up baby, I'm Firepaw." A much feminine voice compared to Alister's spoke as he sits with his legs crossed.
"H-Hello, I'm Winter." Said a white board held above a white and black male.


2. Do you want a hug?
"Hugs?... ugha... Not really.." Alister responds with slight irritation, as he was interrupted by Firepaw shouting, "Hugs?! I love hugs, and 'hugs' if you catch my drift." He giggles softly winking at the interviewer.
"I am too shy for hugs." The white board had written once more as it was written oddly.

3. Are you a virgin ?
Alister pushes his glasses up to his face, "I am not.. I have a mate, and her name is Azure."
Firepaw rolls his eyes and slightly leans towards Alister and says in a teasing way, "I wish I was.. because then this big boy can take my virginity anytime..." Followed by a wink, Alister moves his seat away from firepaw slightly, "Stay away from me..."
Winter on the other hand had his head down and holds up the board with one hand hiding his face in his hair, "Yes..." Firepaw sees this and leans towards Winter and bites his own lip softly, "Hey... Wanna lose it today?" He tries to seduce Winter. Alister takes note to this and gets up from his chair with an irritated look on his face and grabs Firepaw by the ear and forces him to sit down, while this is happening Firepaw mocks him with moans and phrases like, "mmm I like it rough." as he sits down with his left paw on his lap swaying left and right shyly. Winter sighs in relief of being saved.

4. Do you have any kids ?
Alister looks up at the bright lights above them and has a confused look on his face, "I believe we are in process of having one... Well trying too." He sighs softly,
Firepaw leans back in his chair and holds his paws up counting on his fingers, "Well... I wouldn't know..." he shrugs his shoulders at the thought, "If I have any, I'll just make some more." He chuckles.
Winter sits there and glares slightly, "I don't have to answer this.." The board stated with a glare face at the end of it.

5. What is your favorite food or drink?
Alister thinks a tad bit about this, "Well my favorite drink is Tea.. and my favorite food i-" He was interrupted by Firepaw, "I have lots of favorite food and drinks, I love meat, and I love Sem-" He was interrupted with a smack on the back of the head which was from Alister, "As I was saying my favorite food is Hamburgers, and his favorite drink is sprite..." Alister adds as Firepaw rubs the back of his head pouting and whining from the pain, "That hurts.. Not cool.."
"Good.." Alister remarks, as he glances at Winter's board, "He likes nachos, and he likes to drink Root beer." Winter only smiles and nods to it.

6. Have you killed anyone?
Alister looks away and sighs, "...To many to count..."
Firepaw's ears went back as he got irritated, "I had too.. That fucker touched me without asking... So I killed him.. That'll teach him to never touch the merchandise." he Huffs and sticks his nose in the air.
Winter looks around and shakes his head in the 'no'

7. Do you hate anyone?
Alister shakes his head 'no', "I have no reason to hate.. Unless you given me one..."
"Don't you lie!" Firepaw says loudly as he leans over against him and does a kissy face at Alister, "You hate me sexy.. You say it a lot remember." He giggles and then turns to the interviewer, "I hate those who don't pay." He giggles. "Actually... I don't hate you... I just can't stand you... There is a difference..." He annoyingly responded while pushing his glasses up once more. It didn't take Firepaw long to pounce Alister and nuzzle his face against his, "AWWWW YOU DON"T HATE ME!! HOW CUTE!" Alister tries to get Firepaw off of him as Winter sits there watching those two 'fight' and sighs softly shaking his head 'no'.

8. Love anyone ?
Alister Manages to get Firepaw off of him so he can answer, "I love my mate, Azure... My friends, Winter... and that numb-skull Firepaw over there.... Sometimes.." He says with a sigh of relief
Firepaw 'tears' "I love everyone! Who pays the right amount of money." He winks at the interviewers then at Alister and Winter, "And these two.. I just wait for them to agree to us having a threesome with me in the middle... That will be lovely..." He drools slightly as it went quiet for about... 5 minutes after his statement.
Winter and Alister shakes their heads to get the thoughts from their minds as Winter nods to him loving someone, He points to Alister and.... Firepaw, then he writes down, " The people who are close to me."

9. What is your job ?
Alister looks at the interviewer glaring with a cold look, "If I tell you I'd have to kill you..." His tone was dead cold.
Firepaw rolls his eyes and fans Alister, "You big bully... You can't even kill a fly... Well for me.. I'm an Entertainer!" He says with pride, As in writing Winter wrote, "He is a stripper.." Firepaw sees this and stands up stamping his left foot, "I'm not a stripper! I'm an entertainer!" He argues and folds his arms. Winter only rolls his eyes and erases what he wrote and writes, "I'm a computer tech."


10. Favorite season?
Alister, "I love the Fall."
Firepaw is now laying in the chair with his legs hanging over one set of the arm rest and his head resting on the other, "Summer, because of the hotties," He says in boredom.
Winter sits and writes down, "Myself.." In a sign of irritation.

11. Who's your best friend?
Alister, "That's debatable.." He answer and refuses to give any more response
Firepaw blushes, "well... my best friends are, Mr. big and Miss Light." Winter's left eye twitches and writes down " Eww... but I have no best friends."

12. Hobbies?
Alister looks at his watch and responds egerly, "I love to read, draw, fight, and tend to my family."
Firepaw smirks as they have now reached his favorite question, "My hobbies? welll.... I Love to give and receive, I love to dominate, I really love to be dominate.. sometimes, depending on my mood... ahhh I love to play with toys, and I love love love to just please, and be pleased." Winter's left eye twitches again as he moves his seat away, and draws on his board a picture of video games, drawing, writing, reading, nature, and cars.

13. What are you going to do when this tag is over?
Alister, "I am going to go home... And tend to my Mate's needs.. and get read for work tonight..."
Firepaw, "I'm going to talk to you Interviewer.. when we are done here." He winks
Winter, Shrugs his shoulders

14. What is your eye color?
Alister responds with joy, "Grayyyy"
Firepaw matches his joy with excitment, "My left eye is right eye is greeeen and my left eye is blueee!"
Winter glares at both of them for he can't speak and writes down, "Sky blue."

15. Are you good? Or bad?
Alister shrugs his shoulders," Depends on what you mean by good or bad..." Firepaw responds with a smirk, "Are you good in bed? or are you bad? because if you are both sweety, I can make you better." He winks. Another smack went to the back of Firepaws head from Alister, "That is none of your business..!" He glares as Firepaw gives him a smirk, "I bet I'm better..." He giggles as he gets up running away from Alister as he was being chased around the room.
Winter sits and looks innocent and smiles with a sign above his head of a halo.

16. What is your greatest fear?
After he sits down and sighs heavily after dealing with Firepaw, "I fear loosing my family..."
Firepaw sits down pouting as his fur was ruffled up from getting his ass kicked, "I fear... Well.. I fear nothing.." He says never giving eye contact.
Winter sits there and could feel Firepaw's pain and pats him on the shoulder softly, before looking at the interviewer. He reaches behind him with his free hand and holds the board up as it says, "I fear losing people again."

17. Does your name have a special meaning?
Alister, "My name.. Well I haven't really looked it up... It was given to my by birth.. I never cared what it meant."
Firepaw laughs, "NOPE!"
Winter glares and nods calmly as his board stated, "Winter.."

18. What do you think of your parents?
Alister thinks and shrugs, "My mothers are good to me.. They really didn't raise me as I would like them too but they cared."
Firepaw avoids the question,
Winter shrugs, "I can't remember them right now." His board said with a sad face added at the end.

19. Any siblings?
Alister thinks about this and shrugs his shoulders, "I have a large family."
Firepaw shrugs his shoulders as well, "I don't know my family.."
Winter nods his head, "Yes I have a half sister who is currently away on vacation." His board said with a happy face at the end.

20. Straight, Gay, or Equal Opportunity?
Alister thinks about it, "Well I have a female mate.. and I love her.. so I'm straight." He chuckles
Firepaw raises his right paw, "I will say this, anything that has a hole or a penis that wants to fuck or be fucked by me I am gain!"
Winter facepalms to Firepaw's answer and writes down on his, "I honestly don't know yet haven't found the right one yet."

21. Any last words?
Alister stands up and shakes his head 'no' as he was getting ready to leave. "I'll be waiting outside for ya Winter, Thanks for the interview." He says politely.
Winter shakes his head as well 'no' and puts the board down and leaves the room.
Firepaw sits in the chair and pulls out a sucker and grins, "I told you, I wanted to talk to you alone... Hehe.."

Tagging:  Natsufox ,  porin , and  KatAttack

Yesterday i went to cedar point with  azurekitsunechan and it was the best thing ever. I have been there once before but i never got to really explore it.. now i went on all the rides even with my fear of heights. She got me on the rapter, gatekeeper (my favourite) , maxair, wicked twister, snake river falls, iron dragon, gemini, mavrick (second fav), witches wheel, mantis, milinum force (highest i been on and was afraid of x.x), shoot the rapids, and the giant wheel.. and i believe thats it. The dragster i wasnt ballse enough to get on it this year but for my first first time getting in the rides i say i did good x3 she gave me the best time in my life. And i had a lot of fun. Thank you baby ^^

Stolen this from  Natsufox who stole it from  KatanaRedwolf


- First, how did you tell your parents that you are a furry?
Well telling my mother about me being a furry wasn't much of a struggle, I one day just decided to bring it up to her because the day before she asked me what was I into. She just out of the blue asked and told me that she wouldn't judge me. So I told her. She to this day encourages me to be who I want to be, but to just be safe within it because not everyone is who they say they are right?


- Do your parents know about your fursuit(s)?
I don't have one, but she knows I want one. She makes jokes here and there where would I put it because of the cats I have (2) and the dog.


- Does the rest of your family know about you being a furry/having a fursuit?
Well I only have my brother and sister (don't count my step family as family for reasons) Yeah they know, and they also don't really care.


- Did you explain/told your significant other?
Nope, she was already "being one" and when I told her the real bases of it, she became one for real :3 So nope I didn't have too.


- What did your friends say, after you show/explain it?
When I told my friends back in high school, they made fun of me by saying, "So are you going to go grow a tail and ears now?" but it was more of I was new to the school and it was during art club where I would try and draw furries. One of my guy friends who everyone called my twin because we looked alike (We wear the same kind of clothing, glasses, he was a little bit taller than me, and that's about it I believe o.o)


- Did you tell people at your work/job about it?
Nope, because I work direct care and I like to keep my life outside of work field for multiple reasons, like it's not a good time, also I'm dealing with those who are unstable, and I don't want them to get the fandom or themselves hurt.



- You have facebook, do you keep your furry/fursuit things separate from friends/family/colleagues?
Nope, I post whatever I can within the fandom that I am doing, I do post photos, and for those who doesn't want to know about it and/or doesn't like it. They are free to delete me and go about their day because I do run my own club within school (Furry Club x3) So everyone knows who I am within the first moment of meeting me.

Alright, I haven't done much on here and I see that I need to get back to posting... So I ask this of everyone, WHAT SHOULD I DO?! The summer is coming, so school is out! (may 5th) so I am asking should I start posting journals, drawings, writing, poetry, or anything that comes to mind... I am trying to get my creativity back because like everyone in the world stress has managed to take over my life for a couple years and right now I am fighting back! I am trying to get my youtube working so I will be posting video's there soon (in hope). So please if you have any idea's of what I should start doing, do tell comments below ^o^

WE ARE AT MCFC today is Saturday.... well Sunday to be technical we danced a lot x3 it was fun. I made video!

Today is my birthday! I am finally 21 I can drink now! I'm so glad to finally be up there in the world to do something for my self and try not to get wasted to the point where I wake up naked in a parking lot! That would be the one thing that makes my life excitement but still! I don't want to do that haha >w> Anyway I'm going to make my wish and hope it comes true.

FCW4adfrsw A+ C+ D++ H+ M- P+ R T+++ W Z Sm+ RLMH a cn+ d e f++ h++ i++ j++ p+ sm+

I just made one xD hey check me out I have stepped up in the world in making one.

HEY there everyone I've been home from FCN but I know that I am late on posting it x3 welll I had a blast I went to FCN with my girlfriend and a friend of ours. This was her first furry con so I was really excited to show her around the place. Also me and her got our Commissions for the con as well so we wait for those in the mail. <3 FCN was awesome but it could have been some type of better.

Hey there everyone this is my second time going to a furry con ^^ I had fun in my first time going but this time I'm bring two maybe three new furries to the Fandom.. They haven't really been into into it like I have been but this is their first con so I'm excited to bring them ^^ Be on the look out for me :P OOOH and there is a new change to myself.. I have flat ironed my hair o.o I'm shooting for scene hair styles and I've got a lot of good talk about my hair style.. they say it looks good on me but the typical emo look doesn't suit me because they said I look like the typical bitchy emo kid o.o... >.>... yeah I don't know how to respond to that but thanks for the honesty x3 maybe it's because I look like it but I'm completely not like that kind of person. Anyway.. Do be on the look out.. Short hyper, wears a white and black tail.. Not hard to miss unless you are extremely tall and never looks down -_-; xD anyway yeah.. I got to get back to creating something at least.. I may just take photos of what I'm going to be doing soon.. I got my painting tools and I'm slowly getting better at writing. Yay a double plus also I'm in film so that is a triple plus. I'm going to see if I can loan a camera from my school to use for FCN :3 I got to get into my career and to do that is I have to step forward which I'm going to do. So yeah! Well I'll be seeing you guys later

Ali

I have a question for anyone who reads this.

What type of style do you use for when you're about to draw, write, or write music... By style I mean do you start head to toe? inside then out or what ever else there is for drawing. As for writing do you like to do a outline or something else before you get the real details into place. Lastly, for you music writers do you start out with a instrument and work your way from there, or do you do vocal first and come with the music later? :) Do just list them or explain.

My style for writing is that I have music playing and get a blog out of what I want to do.. But I always start with a title to get the picture into my head on how I want it to be put together for the mind.

My style for drawing?
This is tricky because I'm just a beginner and I'm slowly getting back to drawing from a long time of procrastination. I just got started with drawing a line figure and working to the details. So I always start with the nose and work my way out from there.

My style for writing music?
I don't write music yet but I hope to get into it.

Okay everyone I'm coming up with a new story and is wondering what you think would be great for it currently it's about a sercet corrperation that specialize in mixing humans with animals, The corperation is called BHA ( Bionic Human Animal) The government knows about the corperation as normal in the world but the public doesn't for the "humans" walk among the humans, Separating themselves from humans best way possible for they don't know what may happen to the ones they care. The BHA project is to create animal humans as killing machines. They have a special word that is spoken to each and everyone of them and that sets them off to a killing spree.. So my ladies and Gents here is where your help comes from ^^

list if requirements
- A few character names
- Fightting sytles (currently using Crouching tiger and drunkin monkey)
- Animals for I can only name a couple xD
- Places
- and last the fellow readers :D


Also Happy valentines day to you all ^^!!!

Okay I'm having a major brain melt down I'm currently stuck on what to say about a my stories that I'm writting, I'm attempting to try and not make it to confusing but this block is making my own writting confusing for myself x.x any help on how to get rid of a block this is murder

This is my first comission so please bear with me. I'm going to do story comission sence i can't do much fort drawing. I can do all around story making, Just now getting into making adult writing, Thus it's going to be free so anyone want some short stories of their characters with others. Let me know and I will put you on the list.


Also I will only do.. 10 at most for I have to work around school and also time of days

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