So I'm closing my Furaffinity account. Things have gotten busy and I don;t draw much and I don't have much time to check all my stuff online anymore. I'm also deleting a few other things too.

Follow me on Deviantart though if you want: my user name is Bad-end89.

The other day I posted a journal about needing any good artists who would be willing to draw up a tattoo design for me. Well, now I've changed it up a bit.

I'll do art trades with any artists who want to enter into this and, depending on how good I personally think you are, I might pay, but I'd rather not.

Whichever picture/sketch I pick to go on my body forever will end up getting some money. How much I'm not sure....maybe around $20-$50 depending on just how much I love the art.

For details on what I want in the design see my previous journal.

And thank you to everyone!

Hey, someone should draw me a gemini tattoo design. Preferably with 2 wolves, but without works too. I just want something original and something GOOD. No naked girls designs please. I hate seeing those, cause it doesn't work with me since the girls are all thin and sexy with long hair and I'm NOT. I was thinking if not wolves, maybe a cartoony but awesome looking geshia design, but whatev. Give me something PLEASE!!!

Also- If you know someone good who would draw it up, but for a commission, send me the link and let me know. I'm even willing to pay at this point, but ONLY if it's good and something I'll use. I'm not paying for crap that I dont want.

Ok: update number one: there's no milk in the house so I just used blueberry juice in my cereal. lol.
Anyhoo- I'm working finally. I've been working since....Thursday. The job is great except that standing all day is causing me great pain. So last night I got some shoe insert thingys and that should help me out a lot, except that now my shoes are too tight around my toes, but I can deal with that. I work in Walmart, but not for walmart if that makes any sense.
I am an event specialist, more commonly known as a demo girl. I'm the one with all the samples of food you love so much and all the brochures for cleaning supplies that you don't. It's $10.50 an hour and it's part time and I like it a lot.
I also made a new friend. Chanda. I work with her and we are like clones of eachother. It's pretty much awesome.
I also took out my own birthcontrol so I'm happy and healthy now and my body got its own regular schedule going which is fine by me.
The world is looking brighter!
The only downside is that I currently live in a house that also houses a VERY annoying and extremely rude 8 year old. This kid is a little shit with no manners AT ALL and I want to punch him. So instead I just go to sleep and he leaves me alone then. ANyways, that's all. Will draw on my days off. Bai-bai!

Today is my 21st birthday! I'm super excited and so happy about it too! I got to work today, which is like my gift from the universe and James bought me alcohol. The people at the liqueor store even sang to me! Lol.
I'm so happy right now. I miss my little girl and I've been TERRIBLY upset about it for the longest time, but right now I'm happy and just so thrlled that everything is working out for me finally. So wish me luck and a happy birthday and I'll see y'all later!!

Fuck you Mirena. I am so tired. I am SO TIRED!!! But I can't sleep because I am SO FUCKING MISERABLE!! Because of Mirena. Mirena is an IUD birthcontrol implant. It lasts for five years. It's supposed to make your periods go away. It's supposed to have almost no risk. Fuck you Mirena.

Mirena has attached itself to the wall of my uterus. It's also trying to puncture its way through said wall. If this happens, I'll never be able to have kids again.
My doctor appointment to get it out isn't till June 24th.

Mirena has also somehow caused me to be pregnant without actually being pregnant.
I'm either very hungry, or not at all. I'm irregularly nauseous and throwing up. I'm hormonal as all hell. I'm having hot flashes that keep me from being comfortable and being able to sleep, thus the being SO TIRED. I'm also still bleeding, only it's also irregular.
Fuck you Mirena.

My birthday is June 11th.
My appointment is June 24th.
I'm going to be this fucking miserable on my birthday.

Right now I want to just pull the fucking thing out myself. I wonder how much harm that would do....websites say it can fall out by itself, why can't I pull it out....? Maybe maybe.

I am so tired....and I really want to cry because of all this.

Hey-o! Clink the link and vote for Adam. Even if you aren't from here and don't listen to the X, vote anyways! Adam is the nicest guy, a great friend and super funny. He would rock this job like it ain't no thang. So vote for Adam yo!

http://www.xrock.com/articles/91653079.html

Hey all, if you like my art, but maybe want to view my photography, check out my deviantart: http://bad-end89.deviantart.com/

So, I moved awhile ago. It's nothing horribly permanent, but it will be for a few months. I've moved with James and we're living in Nokomis, Il. It's absolutely lovely here. I mean LOVELY. The weather is warm and sunny and everything here is green and grows so fast. The town is small, only 2400 people, but its nice that way. It has everything we need here and the other towns aren't too far away anyways.
I've got a job already at the local gas station/general store/liqour store. Minimum wage is here is way higher than it was in Idaho and gas prices are hella cheap out here too. I love it so much. I'm so very happy.
We've even got a little place of our own already. It's small, but cozy. This place is...perfect.
I'm even able to get the pills I need at the local pharmacy.
That's the only bad part though, the reason for the pills. My lupus has come completely out of remission, and so has the crones disease. In Idaho I couldn't get the pills, here I can.
So I'll be better soon. Anyways, just updating.
Luv you all.

So the title really has nothing to do with my journal, I just needed something as a title. I hate leaving them blank.

Well, let's do a little update shall we? I'll try to be clear and concise, but there's no promises since my mind is all light and feathery from my pills.

So here we go!

James and myself were evicted from our apartment in Boise, Id. We were living with Gothic as well, but he had packed up the week before and gotten the heck outta there. Which at the time pissed me off because he gave us less than a days notice and also didn't clean up his room or bathroom (he offered too later in the future, but I declined and just did it myself, which sucked because there were hair colour stains everywhere that had to be soaked in bleach). so we got evicted, moved everything out and then James left. I stayed behind for a few more days to do the cleaning and get to work easier (it was a block away). Well, then I left and was allowed to go stay with Jen aka Silver. My first day there, my alarm didn't go off and I was late for work. They fired me. Everyone at Jen's was very nice and supportive and I really liked that.
I washed all the floors at Jen's and did my laundry. I had fun and kept things clean. I didn't eat their food except one box of mac and cheese and everything was pretty sweet. James in the meantime had moved to Melba to live with his aunt and uncle. Now everything at Jen's was going well and I was having a ball, being around friends, smoking, drinking and just having fun in general. I hadn't had that for a long time, but I should have figured it wouldn't have gone well for forever. Well, one night after drinking sweet lil Goat started alternating between being horribly sick, and crying hysterically, so Cyrus and I stayed up with him out in the living room. We wanted to keep an eye on him. We ended up falling asleep side by side, but not touching, on a bean bag chair (something actually called a love sak) in the living room. Len saw and flipped out. She jumped to the conclusion that something was happening between Cyrus and myself and called James. I woke up and sensing the impending doom of drama I headed out for a walk. Gothic hunted me down (he was also living at Jens) and we went back to the trailer. I called James and cleared things up, but I knew that there was no way I could continue living there.
You see, once Jen gets something in her head be it an idea or a perspective about someone, it stays there. For example, the next day she and I went to a few stores. Now my skin is very sensitive and marks easily, when my necklaces press hard enough into my skin, it will leave a red mark, the same goes for when I wear my purse strap close to my neck, or even if I just barely scratch an area. Well, this had happened, leaving a bright red mark on my neck, Jen automatically assumed that this mark was a hickey that had been left behind by Cyrus. I didn't hear anything about it, but he did, which made me depressed.
Well, the next day I left there, packed up a majority of my stuff and came to Melba to visit James. What started as a visit has turned into me living here. I got the rest of my stuff from Jen's and am staying in this lovely house that his aunt and uncle own. I got my tax refund and my first paycheck from work, so I have a phone for at least 2 months. I have newly updated tags on my car and a full tank of gas. I also have a few fun things now too: some new movies, a new pair of jeans, a hat, a Tru Blood shirt, oh and a collectors edition keepsake box for New Moon. (there's only 35 in all of Boise and Nampa.)