I am quitting art completely I just don't have the drive anymore lately life has been kicking me around so I just don't want to do it anymore......

hope you all understand

so for the past few days i have been fighting my internet which has hampered my gaming...

i call my internet provider and this IDIOT answers the usual what is the phone number my name etc.

we get to where you have to do that freaking speed test and a little back story to that


i called my internet company many times before for my family cause they dont want to deal with the brain dead idiots trying to make them understand

ok i called them every time and for the past few times it has helped ONE THING THOUGH

about 2 days ago i call and things go good it was just a server issue with it switching us to bad servers and slowing internet down badly that issue was fixed that day

i call TODAY AND TOTAL IDIOCY TAKES OVER

uugh first i do the usual speed test and we are supposed to get 50MB connection on download and 5-10 upload

i ran a speed test late in the night last night and only got 28MB download and 2 upload

then she tells me to run it and i get a 44mb with 3 upload now listen to this lol

NEXT i ran my own test (ran a download in Steam) a 22GB download and guess what!!!

next i tell the her I ONLY GOT 2MB CONNECTION jumped up to 4 while i was sitting there listening to the idiot on the other end

she tells me that the download will run the connection down uuh YOU DONT THINK SO!?!?!

I KNOW THAT I WAS PROVEING A FREAKING POINT! running a download would not drop the speed down by 40MB so ur the idiot not me i wanted to say that SOOO BAD TO HER worthless waist of my 20 minutes of breath, time and all

so that is a freaking idiot company i wanna freaking hit them sooooooooooo bad right now i am just boiling with anger good thing i got a new game to play to vent my anger -_- well that is it *stomps off steaming at the way the world has become*

yep stolen from  Clemikou

Name: "Need to know basis"
Nickname: Fire
Location: Mississippi, (Near Jackson not telling where though)
Age: teen is all you need to know
Height: roughly 5-6 i haven't checked in a wile"
Any pets: Soo many, 3 dogs a cat and a hedgehog yes i said it a "hedgehog"
Favorite thing about yourself: Meh (skip)
Worst habit: Nail biting, Saying weird stuff that does not even make sense.
Fun Fact: nothing here LOL

Identity, Sexuality & Personality

Gender identity: Male
Sexual preference: Straight
Romantic preference: skip lol
"Kinsey Scale" score:0 (Exclusively heterosexual) umm..... Lol... honestly had to look this up, didn't know what it was. xD
Relationship status: Single

Routine

"Early Bird" or "Night Owl": Both i wake up sometimes at 6AM and then sometimes at 2PM
Bath or shower: Shower
First thought in the morning: What time is it? What day is it? Am I supposed to be somewhere? xD
Last thought before falling asleep at night: Must go to sleep Xd

School/Work

Do you work or are you a student: Homeschooled
What do you do well: Gaming Xd
Where do you see yourself in 5 years: A game designer Video maker on YouTube (dream) Lawyer or at least have a job xD

Habits (Do you…?)

Drink: No may in the years though so far no.
Smoke: I will kill myself if i do this NO JOKE
Do Drugs: same as above unless i have an illness and it helps it *medically*
Exercise: Generally, nope.
Have a go-to comfort food: Hmm soo much to much to list off (i was hungry when wrote this).
Have a nervous habit: Nervous eating. This is probably number one. If I start getting anxious and worried, I find something to snack on an it somewhat calms me down. Problem with that... yeah, diets don't help LOL.

What is your favorite…?

Physical quality (in yourself): ...........
In Others: ......................
Mental/emotional quality (in yourself): Get angry if someone offends me, and a big crybaby i guess xD
Drink: Pepsi or Mountain Dew: MOUNTAIN DEW!!! if nothing a root beer will do :P
Animal: Dogs although i am interested in wolves for some reason xD
Artist/Band/Group: Breaking Benjamin, Five Finger Death Punch, Sabaton (it's a world war 2 band)
Author/Poet: cant say i have one :/
TV Show: Lizard Lick Towing (TruTv) *Hey i'm southern what you expect XD*
Actor/Actress: The Rock (see if you can guess who that is xD), meh i don't know of any others well yeah 1 more... meh i can't remember :/
Blogger: is FA considered one? if it is then that lol

http://www.furaffinity.net/user/greywolf914/

please give him help on how to do his story

he has noted me and said he is doing a inflation tentacle story (from what i heard, you may have to ask him yourself if i am wrong,)

he is a good writer he is going through a hard time lately just like me. or if you don't know that kind of info, note him someone who could give him advice.

So i am back i am going to chill out over the next few weeks and probably just stop with my commissions requests ect. to anyone that did any of these while i was gone or was tempted to and to  King_Kangaroo i will have to cancel your request sorry

life just hates me i guess

so i guess that is right i am back i think i will just look over what anyone posts that i watch and fav any of them i like or catch my eye

still hate my life -__-

meh I stole this from  NightlySnow thought it might be fun


Comment with an assumption about me and I'll comment on whether or not it's true.

good luck

i am watching Full Metal Panic right now it is a anime yes i did say anime if anyone does not know i was listening to my fav band and found an anime film in it watched a tribute video or request video (forgot what is was) and it was world war 2 kind of stuff (i am a freak for world war 2 stuff) then i came across the show and now i am addicted to anime o_O is this normal?

please someone tell me i am ok with watching this

so i am starting my first RP below is the list of things i will do in a RP and thing i will not do


things i will RP
inflation
weight gain
medievel
war
really anything related to history
vore (depends on what kind)

things i will not RP
scat
watersports
really anything related to well you know from the above

if you want to RP just comment below have fun

WARNING

note me first if you do any kind of adult rp so i can see if i am ok with it

so i havent created a journal in a week so i thought i would explain why

well my internet is going and crapping on my day for the past week recently i got watch dogs yeah that game omg i love it LOVE IT although i hate hackers that go into your game and hack you AND YOU PASS THEM 20 MILLION TIMES its so annoying

but that was the gamer news now for life news

omg where do i start for starters ;_; my uncle left 2 days ago and UUGH i have never seen my mom cry so much i went to the bathroom and well did my buissness anyway, when i came out i saw them there hugging eachother tight and crying i never seen anyone in my family do that before

ugh and other then that nothing really "new" happened


so how has everything been with ya'll?

the more i see about the FAU 2014 i want to go X_X

the reasons i cant go is

1 i am not really a "people person"

2 THE FREAKING HOTEL IS 100$ A NIGHT OMG

3 cant go cause of family, may try to convince her to let me go to these kinds of things on my 16th bday tho :D

and lastly 4th doing with reason 1 i also would not do it without a fursuit

i want to go sooo bad ;_;


just wanted to leave that to anyone that may want to read heh

*curls into a corner and goes to sleep*

so i told my mom a certian *thing* i do no i am not going to announce what that is but..

i told her in a note on her pc because she wanted an explanation

I HAVE TOLD HER THE BEST ANSWER I KNEW 5000 TIMES

so i gave her a link and told her my best explantion and i told her in my words "i will be on my pc listening to music ect. knock on my door once if you sorta understand 2 if you do understand 3 if you dont understand at all" GUESS WHICH ONE SHE LANDS ON -_-

she started getting REALLY out there you know like wierd like some kind of freak

and i told her in the note IF SHE BRUNG UP ANYTHING THAT I WOULD GET UPSET AT HER OVER OR ANYTHING WIERD DONT SAY A FREAKING WORD *my exact words again*

so now she shut me out after i shut her out I WARNED HER OVER AND OVER AND OVER SHE CANT GET IT THROUGH HER FREAKING THICK SKULL BECAUSE SHE IS A DUMBA**

ugh i had to vent that im sick of it


so can anyone tell me WHAT I AM DOING WRONG!?!?!

sigh i am sick of creating vent journals sometimes but...

so now my life is just revolving around sh*t everything that happens is sh*t to sum it up my life is you guessed it sh*t

just GOD im sick of it sometimes i wish things would go right in life NOOOO it dont let me you know what SCREW YOU KARMA IF I DID SOMETHING WRONG I AM SURE ITS PAID BACK NOW LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!!!!!

so the moral of the story is

my livestream procaster does not work it flopped on me last week UUGH so now i have to decide what to do does anyone know of a streaming service like livestream that i dont HAVE TO FREAKING PAY 500+ FOR!?

that just makes me want to cry 500+ for that when i could *if i wanted to* setup my own kind of livestream setup for even freaking cheaper sigh

so the thing is livestream support is saying it is an internet problem so far IT IS NOT

the internet is still going strong on my Wi-Fi i pick up 1MB+ *that connection is good for the area i live in* and on the main pc just one more MB and that is the only one i can do livestreams on but the thing is its the family one and sometimes i think if i do it i will get my head bit off for it >_<

so now i have a delema i cant livestream but the thing is i have a requests and stuff open and for some reason i do better with livestreaming it i suck when i dont because i guess when someone watches it they can tell me if i am doing it wrong or not.


so i guess this is the end of this vent journal god im sick of this crap well cya everyone im going to play some video games to calm me down

*NOT PLAYING CALL OF DUTY OR MY BLOOD PRESSURE RISES TO DANGER LEVELS* just saying

so i decied to do one of these i did 1 back on my old account but i only did one so :/

ask away :P

so it got too hot and plus my family *1 member* hates extreme heat so when she stepped outside it was "no"

so i guess i will start on commissions and stuff again if you want to enter go ahead i have plenty of slots

http://www.furaffinity.net/journal/5768121/

8 more hours I want to tell all of my watchers I will be having my commissions request and PWYC's open again 1 spot in requests is taken by  King_Kangaroo so his will be done first

that is right I am leaving fa for a week or more mainly because I have a lot to do and the family wants to go somewhere (we don't know yet) for the week so I have no clue when I will be back >_< well bye

I have a question to ask

does anyone or anyone they know do free ID cards such as in these links

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10896160/

http://www.furaffinity.net/view/10085277/

i was looking to get one for my gaming systems and time zones such as in the second one

so the family and me cut a deal so i have my pc *so far anyway* and 3 months from now i will have it for good so i guess that's it

UPDATE:

also i will start on my commissions and requests soon need to get some stuff done i will probably be done with my stuff in a month or 2 i don't really know :/

hello everyone so i have not made a journal in a few weeks so... i am doing a opening for well you know if you read above. i am doing all of those 3 things here is what i have avalable

VERY FEW SLOTS




SLOTS

COMMISSIONS

1.
2.
3.
4.
5.


REQUESTS
1.King_Kangaroo
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.

Pay What You Can

1.
2.
3.

well that is it good luck everyone and try to get a slot

i have the right to refuse any requests or stuff that is not my taste do not offended by anything i turn down

WARNING
on commissions and "pay what you can" payment is not to be made before i have gotten your ref and request and when i do i will not start until payment has been recieved

(side note)
i am also starting story writeing so don't hesatate to ask about that

EDIT: forgot to mention i only do NSFW story wrighting not good at art

Natural Hair Color:
[X] Brown - $10.00
[ ] Blonde - $7.50
[ ] Black - $1.50
[ ] Bald - $0.50
[ ] Other - $5.00



Eye Color:
[ ] Brown - $5.00
[ ]Green - $10.00
[ ] Blue - $15.00
[ ] Hazel - $7.50
[X] Other - $1.50



Height:
[ ] Over 7′ - $20.00
[ ] 6′8″ to 7′ - $17.50
[ ] 6′0″ to 6′7″ - $15.00
[ ] 5′5″ to 5′11″ - $7.50
[X] 5′4″ to 5′10″ - $8.50
[ ] Under 5′4 - $9.50



Age:
[ ] 50 to 56 - $17.50
[ ] 46 to 50 - $15.00
[ ] 41 to 45 - $12.50
[ ] 31 to 40 - $10.00
[ ] 26 to 30 - $7.50
[ ] 21 to 25 - $5.00
[ ] 19 to 20 - $2.50
[X] 0 to 18 - $10.00



Birth Order:
[ ] Twins or more than twins - $75.00
[ ] First Born - $32.00
[X] Only Child - $25.00
[ ] Second born - $15.00
[ ] Middle child - $10.00
[ ] Last Born - $10.00
[ ] third born - $55.00
[ ] fourth born - $30.00
[ ] fifth born - $40.00
[ ] sixth born -$21.50



Drink?
[ ] I did like once - $40.00
[ ] Only Holidays or Occasions - $25.00
[ ] Sometimes - $21.50
[ ] YES - $20.00
[ ] only weekends - $30.00
[ ] Every other day - $5.00
[ ] Once a day - $1.50
[ ] I live from the bottle - $Bankrupt$ [[back to $ZERO]]
[X] No - $60.00



Vision?
[X] perfect vision - $40.00
[ ] need/have glasses/contacts but don't wear them - $20.00
[ ] No correction - $10.00
[ ] Glasses - $5.00
[ ] contacts - $2.50
[ ] Surgical correction -$10.00


Shoe Size:
[ ] 13+ - $30.00
[ ] 12 and a half to 13 - $25.00
[X] 11 to 12 - $40.00
[ ] 7 to 10 - $50.00
[ ] Under 7- $45.00



Favorite Colors (two):

[ ] Green-$75.00
[X] Red - $60.00
[X] Black - $10.00
[ ] Yellow -$47.50
[ ] Brown - $30.00
[ ] Purple - $22.50
[ ] White - $40.00
[ ] Aqua - $35.00
[ ] Orange - $30.00
[ ] Blue - $30.00
[ ] Pink - $10.00
[ ] Other - $50.00



Letter your middle name(s) start with:

[X] a-f - $5.00
[ ] g-k - $17.50
[ ] l-p - $30.00
[ ] q-u - $35.00
[ ] v-z -$25.0



Bedroom walls- select all that apply!
[X] white - $11.00
[ ] green - $33.00
[X] black - $11.00
[ ] purple - $22.00
[X] orange/red/yellow - $33.00
[ ] blue - $22.00
[X] other - $35.00

yes my walls are all of these colors mainly yellow but half white XD and just a hint of black


First letter of the person you last talked to

[X] a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i - $10.00
[ ] j,k,l,m,n,o,p,q,r - $5.00
[ ] s,t,u,v,w,x,y, - $20.00
[ ] z - $25.00



Did you use a calculator to add it all up?
[ ] Yes $0
[X]Nope- $100.00
[ ] some- $75.00

Total $471

So heh i am back i have not been on in a wile art wise :P so i was thinking about the vlog i may not do it cause i don't feel like i am even ready for it

and in other news my uncle is in town but i have a mood to make art now so for the next few days you may see me just doing random crap lol.

i may go back and finish stuff that i ment to a few weeks back but never did

so yeah that is pretty much it i may even stream later of course i have been sleepy for the past 2 hours (it will be 12:13 when this is posted) so yeah keep your eyes peeled for my streams


also i will have some freebie slots opening so keep on the lookout there will not be many so grab yours while you can!

So i was reading a few other artists i watch and i have been looking on my Emails and there is a new hacker bug out its called the "Heartbleed" bug it must have been just found because on one of my gaming websites said i needed to change my password and i have been seeing journal after journal about it

so to everyone you may want to change your password on whatever you think may be hackable and once again Google is in the crosshairs of hackers and from fights still raging about You Tube and all of the other stuff. They can barely keep the roof over their heads now because they have millions angry with the whole You Tube fight stuff

Also I am making my own VLOG on You Tube and Livestream so be sure to be on the lookout for that

that is all for tonight remember... CHANGE YOUR PASSWORDS

MY FAMILY NOW HATES ME so i am done with this crap i do everything to help them and they just f'ing hate me i do everything possable to help in any way.

I am just.... i need help badly (if anyone thinks to say family consulting i will block the comment and block them completely i do not need that kind of words being thrown around just...please stop from saying it)

my mom needs to figure out that i help her more then she thinks

sometimes i just have hate stirring inside me every day she does not get that and she thinks i hate her.

I'm scared that one day i think i may snap and not be able to control myself my dad just tries to stay out of it and it is good because i do not need someone else ruining my life.

i guess i will see you all in the next few days, weeks or months i don't really know :(

you heard right i am slowing down on art i have not had my drive that gets me going to do it and plus i have not been getting requests -_- also i got a new game on steam Space Engineers it is fun like minecraft but harder and more realistic the graphics are way better then minecraft but minecraft was ment to be a pixle game so this is just a future version of it the name hence you play in space build space stations ships etc. and i have having fun on it another game in the violent game department is an old one Combat Arms i am stuck on that game now if it wasn't for hackers i would play it every day in fact almost every hours lol but anyway that is the news for today also give a good happy early bday to my friend (on steam) DarkSWordLegends next month is his bday and i gave him a special early bday presant I LOVED HIS REACTION he was shocked because he never expected to get it today much less expect to get it before his bday. *yawn* well that sounds the end of my day good night everyone or good morning in some places

(end of journal *curls into a corner and goes to sleep*)

So i am back on FA for right this second but now i have a MAJOR issue my SAI program stopped working so ugh!!!!!!

I think it is my pc because lately i have been playing a lot of games (downloading new ones and trying them out) and i think it slowed my pc down or something because when i try to run SAI it closes it right when i load ANY files even try to start a new one same thing so i will hopefully be getting it fixed wednesday or later next week (fingers crossed) so when that is fixed

i will stream in a few minutes to show what happens when i load it so maybe someone can help me out i have tried to re download it (nothing) reset the computer (nothing) so yeah... but anyway i will be streaming either my games on  mygamingforlife or (hopefully.. got my fingers crossed) art so until then requests and AGAIN my reserved art raffle winners are on hold