I have 2 slots available for Megaplex. I am gay, friendly, and very playful. Please message me if you are interested in the room.

Thanks

All my life has become is one great moment followed by a moment of misery. Its been this way for the last 6 years. Since New Years, it has been getting worse. it has gone from misery to full blown depression.

As a result, i am considering leaving the fandom. The fandom has always been kind to me. It welcomed me when i didnt think i had anywhere to go. i an truly a furry at heart. But i have reached a point in my life where I dont believe i deserve to be a member of such a great group of people. I also feel that I dont deserve to have the friends the I have made since i joined. And most importantly, I dont feel that I deserve to have a mate. The one fur that I am closest to (you know who you are) informed me that he had taken a mate the day before I was going to ask him to be my mate. That was 5 weeks ago, and it has been downhill ever since.

Those of you who know me well enough know that I dont make decisions easily. It will be some time before I decide whether or not I am going to leave or going to stay. As for looking for a new mate, I dont believe that there is someone out there who is right for me.

Over the last month I have had my ups and downs. One of these almost cost me the friendships of several of my closest friends. If you are one of those people, I deeply regret every thing I said and/or did to hurt you. But my life is starting to turn for the better. I'm happier than I have been in months and I'm meeting new furs and making new friends.

I'm still dealing with the emotional issues left behind from my last relationship, but I am in the process of dealing with them.

School is getting easier, yay, which means I have more free time than I did before.

If you wanna hang out our just chat, send me a note or contact me on Skype at nick.jacobs97

I do want to thank those friends who have helped me every step of the way, you know who you are ^.^

I hope to become more active in the fandom in the near future and meet even more new furs.

for those of you who know me, you may have noticed that i have been pretty distant lately. this journal will tell you why. my mate and i broke up. it happened shortly before megaplex. he is an amazing person. fun, caring, playful, the perfect mate for me. we had been together for almost 5.5 years when we decided to end it. it was a long distance relationship so i only got to see him for all of 2 days the whole time we were together. since we broke up, i have been lost in the pit of my own heart, thinking about him. even though we broke up, i still love him, and i always will. but the real question is why. why do i still love him? my ex has asked me that on several occasions since we broke up, and i have asked myself the same question almost every day. to be completely honest, i don't know. i don't know why i still love him. all i know is that i love him more than anything, and that i would do almost anything to get him back.

so if i seem distant for the next few months, you will know why.

if my ex is reading this, there is something i want you to know......i forgive you.