Not here anymore I've made a big fat ugly fucking mess out of this account so i'm moving.

I seem to be tremendously ignored here anyway and I'm betting it's because I've kinda put myself out as a bit of an asshole.

good bye and if anyone does care, goodluck finding my new account

I bring this up because I'm accumulating hatemail from around the net where i post my ideas.


So I'm the crazy one because I don't believe violence or killing is ever right?
so just because I'm godless people automatically think i'm a bad person?
What is wrong with people? Atheism Is Not hard To fucking Understand.
Their religion of ignorance is astounding, more then half of this nation says atheists are the least trustworthy.
We don't need a fucking religion to tell us common sense, of course killing is wrong, oh wait the bible condones killing sorry my bad.
Of course lying and stealing is wrong it's only common sense.

I'm the bad one when they are the ones so blindly believing a bunch of bullshit and shoving it in the face of everyone else?
I'm the bad one for believing in thinking freely and being who you want to be and not what god wants you to be, while religions are mental nazism restricting thinking and driving a wedge between values and whats obviously right?

So I'm the bad one for supporting a real belief in freedom and bettering the human race and keeping our intelligence from slipping back to the dark ages?

They'err the good ones for holding faith in a fake belief that has caused the countless brutal and unfair deaths of billions? seriously? you might as well say you love hitler the way I see it

I'm a vegetarian now that's right no meat for me my food is murder free.

My sister is getting married to that crackhead fuckface and I could care more but I wont.

Family is getting together to celebrate at joes crabshackand that's the only reason why I'm choosing to go.

I've begun to slowly resent my sister for the shit she has done to me in the past, 14 years of abuse (sexual and domestic) I can not stand to be around her anymore.
Why does she get to go on and be succsessful in school and career while I'm the one strugling to leave all that shit in the past?.

Why's it gotta be so fucking hard?, seriously WHAT THE FUCKING FUCK??!

There are a lot of things wrong with us especially the rednecks and evangelicals but I am lucky to live in a place where I can have my freedom of speech.
I think the only thing america needs to work on is common sense though, yes common sense is a total fail to the majority in america also church should have to pay taxes and christians should be treated just as shitty as everyone else.
They say atheists arent worthy of america and being godless is anti american when they dont even realise the founding fathers were against extreme worship of god.

even jesus himself would be ashamed.

"God bless America is an empty self centered slogan"- George Carlin rest in piece you old fuck I love you

I'm ripping out my veins to make room for the vines I need to assert my ever so absent ego and confidence I need to realise that I have evolved above sin and so called morality. I am not a sheep I am a wolf and sheppards will not chase me away I will bark against them and bite when necessary and I won't give a fuck what people think of me.

(Q) Do you believe in bigfoot?

(A) Are you insulting my intelligence? Of course I don't believe in bigfoot the fuck is wrong with you?

(Q) what if bigfoot was actually captured?

(A) well peta will do everything in their power to protect it.
The government may want to dissect it and I suspect some furries would want to fuck it.


(Q) Do you believe in aliens?

(A) yeah but i'm not one of those weirdos who believe they walk among us I mean come on earth is fucked up and fucking dumb.
Our stupidity would drive them away.

(Q) Do you believe in the death penalty?

(A) Yeah I believe death is justice when someone causes a family a life time of pain and misery by taking away a loved one.
I also believe the death penalty should be ungodly painful.


(Q) do you believe in abortion?

(A) If the child is product of rape yes
If the pregger is 12-17 yes
If the pregger is mentally ill or just stupid yes.
It's good for the population and preservation of natural resources.
SUCK ON IT

(Q) Are you right in the head?

(A) uhhh no I have a morbid fascination with gorey pics shotgun head wounds brains splattered beheading videos etc etc...

(Q) how honest are your answers?

(A) 100% honest

(Q) what's wrong with you?

(A) well most of the time i feel devoid of emotion like i only operate on common sense.

(Q) when did you realize the world had something wrong with it?

(A) when I was six i watched america's most wanted with my grandmother.
I saw monsters who looked like every day people it frightened me terribly.
I would always be afraid of someone breaking in at night and killing my family.
I was most worried about someone stabbing a knife up through my mattress.
No six year old should have to worry about that.

(Q) this survey is almost over would you please leave a quote or comment?

(A) yeah i have a few
Fuck off and don't forget to smile
I will rape you retarded
if you say only when pigs fly I will launch a cop out of a catapult.
why not be all that you can be and join the marines so you can go to strange exotic lands meet interesting people and fucking kill them?
Sticks and stone may break bones but words will hurt forever.

(Q) anything smart and pretentious to add?

(A) Everyone's a hypocrite but once you admit to it the purpose of insult becomes moot



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cause i am

my grandmother died today at 7 pm.
we had been caring for her in our house for almost two years.


last time i saw her was at 4 30 am she was just a skin and bone skeleton lying in bed eyes glassy and almost white she was turning blueish and her mouth hung wide open gasping for air.

It was a horrific sight but i shrugged and walked out of the room.
Reason told me it's a good thing she finally gave up.

I'm not sad i'm not grieving or bottling up emotions I'm relieved.

but I'll never forget that image.

I might leave this place

My reflection stares back at me with it's empty head.
How lucky I say not having any thoughts no worries nothing to accommodate to.
It just appears every time without fail when I'm standing at the mirror.

It makes me angry I want to grab it by the hair and pull my reflection through to my shitty little world.
Take my thumbs and gouge out his eyes which appear empty and devoid of all the earthly infections that plague me each day.

But there's nothing I can do.
Infuriated and defeated I bare my teeth as my palms bash the mirror over and over breaking the glass I feel shards stabbing into them making them bleed drops of myself into the sink below and then..........I wake up.

Is the day twenty years ago I came into this world blue and not breathing with an umbilical chord wrapped around my neck.
I had recovered but since I never cried for almost 4 months the doctors told my parents I may have brain damage.

Despite that professional opinion I grew just fine learned to walk at the normal age talk at the normal age and so on.

Still never cried very much I was a silent one and always well behaved never screaming in the stores and embarrassing my mother though my sister did that a lot.

I don't know why I pulled through and didn't die after birth just chance or dumb luck I guess but it makes me want to do something to make an impact.

That's all I have to say about that.

I just want to set the world on fire and bask in the screams.
I wonder if they could be heard out where sky separates into space.

I have enough pain killers to make me feel like a statue should i take some?

Cant go anywhere cause I'm usually the only one home and therefore have to take care of my zombified grandmother.
It may sound insensitive but every time I go to give her her pills as I grab that door handle I stop for a moment and hope I walk in and find her dead.
It's fucking time for her to let go because her level of senility is taken to a new level of self degrading indecency each week.

I swear once i start losing my mind from old age I'm going to dive head first down a flight of stairs death in any form is better than what she persists to live through.
I won't even tell you the disgusting horrible things she does with her own wastes.

Die already for fucksake

I'll be serious for once flipp is not me he's a character many of the things that come from his twisted little misguided brain are not to be taken 100% seriously.
He's a psycho and I'm putting him in the back of my mind for the moment to say this.
I know a lot of the things said in his journals are offensive and sometimes just stupid or crazy but that's part of the character enjoy the psycho obscenities and if you get your frilly little girl panties all up in a bunch because of the blasphemy or cop bashing it's your fault not mine not flipps yours.

I can't remember the last time i played a decent video game.
I want to play prototype really bad but I'm a broke loser and the rental store only has one copy FUCK YOU BLOCK BUSTER! you suck.
If any of you have prototype I hate you.

my ps3 is collecting dust.

The way I figure it is if it's already dead you might as well eat it.


i watched this horrible documentary about how they raise pigs for slaughter it fucking sickened me.
they take the piglets from the mother and they scream and cry as they throw them from 8 feet away into a big bin sometimes they would hit the sides and fall to the floor.

then they unload it and if some pigs are deformed they call em junk piglets and they take em by the legs and swing them as hard as they can against a railing
some don't die right away and they throw em twitching into a bucket.

whats kind of fucked up is the fact that I found myself munching on a delicious pork dinner an hour later.

Hey it's already dead no need in letting it go to waste.

i was druuuuuuuuuuuuunk as fuck friday and saturday morning oh i'm turning 20 next month so im kinda depressed to leave my teen years behind i could seriously cry

I don't care call me goth emo artist idealist rocker faggot retard asshole cliche non conformist a dumbass a jackass a bad person mean nice condescending insensitive offensive alcoholic and etc

I'm a LOT of things so don't just fucking label me like i'm pathetic.

bleed me
murder me
burn me
break me apart
stick me with glass and leave in the shards

Nothing was meant for me
I was born as an outcast.
But chosen to be your trash.

I know you know the way innocent children play.
but I had my innocence taken away.
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America still the same
still stupid
still repulsive
still clogged with fast food
still ignorant
still Gods favorite country
still blind with empty pride
still the land of retarded miracle food that looks like that cunt jesus
still puts miracle food items on the national news.
still repeats history
still corrupt
still childish

does it take to slowly insert a chainsaw into someones ass?

or cut off all their fingers rip out an eye and shove it all up their asshole sew it shut and force feed them a fuck load of ex lax?


I'm writing a story on yiffstar and it's going to be fucked up!

scary friday for my poor little liver.

i may have gone a bit too far with my last journal I really shouldnt use the internet when i'm drunk