Wouldn't satan have sympathy for the damned?
Don't forget he too was damned and hurt by god.




What I don't understand about westboro church is they fear god but believe he and all his judgements are perfect and to be celebrated as such.
For example aids cancer murder hit by car what ever.
I dont understand that sounds like a horrible thing to do. Why are such despicable atrocities worth this worship?

and what happened to free will?
I thought free will was a gift why does god care so much about who we love?
His judgments are meaningless really who is he trying to impress? why does it matter?

It's my free will I'll do what I want with it.

If someone gave you blender as a gift but punched you in the face every time you used it wouldn't you think that person is a dick?



where is the breaking point? why can't they question if they are the ones being lied to? What if they are being deceived by the devil in disguise what if god is the father of lies and satan is a scapegoat?

my best friend was in jail all week got caught in michigan with an ounce of mushrooms.
I just talked to him he sounded shocked and upset when i told him the truth about how i feel at parties surrounded by every type of drug


i dont think we connect much anymore
because i said a party with 30 people shrooms pot alcohol pills and coke dosnt feel right to me.
he took it harder than my coming out to him


everything is fucked i'm fucked my friends are fucked my family is fucked my life is fucked i cant hold it back anymore the tears are pushing against my ayes harder than ever I want to cry i know its good to but something wont let me the fucking dam is breaking the bombshelter is caving in.


im sorry for the emotional outburst but i cant reach out to anyone

i'm not happy i never truely was and i have more problems than i let people think


can i tell you about everything thats been eating at my life?
sigh
ok get ready

social anxiety in my teenage beginning of life made me depressed cause not only was i afraid to talk to people but i was also gay which added to my fear of rejection


I've always felt a preassure from my great grandmother she always told me i was gonna be a succsesful man a doctor with lovely children. I would be a living american dream.


I i feel like I'm a disapointement in every way to my mother cause i wont be giving her grandchildren i dont believe in god and i think america is a nation blinded by abused rights to pride

i hate kids


no i often find myself fantasizing about slapping the hell out of screaming babies in public places

any way......
I lost innocence at age six due to menal and sexual molestation.
I've been haunted by things from an early age but it never goes away its hooked to chains around my neck my wrists and my ankles and may have a huge part in my social anxiety
also was always frightened of someone shoving a knife up through my matress.


my best friend of 14 years who lived across from me. we were friends since we were three fucking punched me when i told him i was gay

my sister was the devil to me when we were growing up and even made me to believe satan posessed her and i was an ignorant stupid fucking worm and feared for her even when she was strangling me

on top of being molested by my sister and slapped around by my parents.
catholic school added a new preasure.
Be good and get into heaven the priest is here to help but all he did was judge and make you feel worse

and i was young i believed what the priest said was entirely true cause he was a man of god

i saw my dad die twice i saw him beaten beyond recognition once I watched a guy attempt to rape my sister and i stopped him.
people have been bad to me but no matter how bad they are I have been good and helpful but does it matter? no it dosnt cause time after time i got fucked i got jumped and beaten


oh have i been beaten and each time i lost more and more respect for the black man I AM semi prejudice even towards the fellow white devil we all have faults. but dont jump the gun and call me a ignorant racist i hate racism and i even have a black friend who agrees with my prejudice.


i thought i had friends but they threw me into a ring just cause they wanted to see a fight (in school)

i have lost a lot of faith in humanity by my tenth fucking birthday


my sister had a friend she was fucked in the head she stripped me a lot and the first time my best friend came to the campground with me the cunt stripped me in front of him and tried to make me suck her pussy I was fucking 11 at the time and she was 17

not only have i lost faith in humanity by that time but the reasons to hate kept stacking up

i prayed in those days i prayed to god i wanted a miracle but i got more shit.

i told my mom about it told my dad about it they dont really believe it they say i'm making an excuse

and if it did happen its just kids messing around

we act as if it never happened i guess we have a unspoken agreement about her trying to have sex with me and my liking of diapers and tthe diapers thing came before the sexual abuse so throw out the bullshit theory that traumatic experiences create strange sexual desires

if it ever surfaced in a conversation i know for a fact we would never be able to make eye contact or even say hi to eachother

grandma made me sleep in a crib til i was almost ten cause i was small every time i got caught with diapers she broke wooden spoons on my ass and told the whole fucking family what dhe caught me doing

i'm just glad i have someone to tell this to and i'm glad i didnt wander through life blind and ignorant like a religious dick that believes christ is responcible for their destiny


with god anything is possible! THEN GET YOUR HOLY ASS DOWN HERE AND FUCKING DO SOMETHING YOU LAZY FUCKING DOUCHE!


clean up your god given bowel movement and show us a public restrom toilet can shine like the fucking sun!


im happy i can still be creative even when i'm breaking down

shit has never given my family a break even when we come into a lot of money and things look bright somthing happens financiually that fucks it all up

things were looking good the past couple months but when everyone was starting to feel comfortable my mom got into an accident fucked up the new axle on the car some dick dented our truck in several places and today the dog attacked my grandmas nurse and ripped her hand open

he may be getting put down and i dont care i also dont give a fuck about my grandma shes old shes a god damn skeleton with a big humpback she needs to die already

i dont care if i sound heartless i have a fucking right to be like that shes making my family miserable with more debt
i seriously considder smothering her

my aunt who is dying of serosis of the liver fled the hospital didnt pay and is missing and i couldnt give a fuck if you payed me. cause she has stolen my college money and lied to me my whole life shes even come on to me quite sugestively

I absolutely fucking hate guns.

I hate hunters (traumatic childhood experiences).

If your a kid who wants to be a priest or nun I hate you and your parents/foster parents/grandparents/legal guardian/ whatever.

I hate mustaches and full out beards.

I Hate people who believe a pitbull extermination is in order.
and fuck the media for helping to make the situation worse they never blame the god damned owners of the dog.



I hate when a woman thinks its okay to have 8 or ten children.
You selfish bitch the planets crowded with enough people and we dont have resources to last for ever so tie your fucking tubes.


I hate when someone says rap is poetry.
There is nothing poetic about rhyming ass with cash.


I hate bullshitters.

I hate scary movie epic movie date movie and meet the spartans.
Youd have to be twelve to think they are hilarious.

hate moms who let kids run a muck in stores.


I hate everyone who believed that the marry cheese sandwich was a true miracle.

I hate onions.

Can we murdder the mullet please?

seriously what kind of diluted mentality makes some one think that hair style looks good?

I am caged I am held back by my mental barriers and my sometimes crippling anxiety.

it's smothering I feel helpless I'm 19 and already feel like I've hit a dead end in my life.
How do I travel back to the fork in my path and take the other route?
I feel fucked in such a bad way.

My mother tells me some annoying shit.
for example she said her angels helped her find some meaningless item, now i love my mom but some shit she says and believes makes me roll my eyes.
I asked her why would her prayer to find some stupid 5 dollar item was answered while some one was undoubtedly most likely being raped or murdered maybe a mile away.

of course her answer was god works in mysterious ways. *BLEH!*





hates guitar hero?
I hate it! keep it away from me please.

up in a smile he loves what he's doing I hear him moan in delight and he smiles wider with each loud gnashing bite.
teeth digging into my hand i feel the skin and muscle tear .
Theres a loud crack followed by a snap as those sharp teeth break through the bone.
I'm completely willing and it makes him happy I smile back at his eyeless face his mouth my new home.



just having fun here

thats all i really have to say at the moment

I hate my friends irl really i fucking hate them all but one who is like my blood brother to me he used to live in my basement and i miss him a lot.

i dont care about my other friends their not friends and i want new ones maybe ones who arent so hopped up on too many drugs

my fave hobby besides abusing myself with illegal substances and attempting surreal art.

and raped mother Teressas corpse with it

Its dark and your numb how can you tell when you lost too much blood?

i was walking down a narrow rust stained hall.
lights above flickered and swung from wires.
it was dark and to the left there were infants heads bloodied and impaled on hooks embedded in the walls.
the spinal chords still attached.
I looked to my right and noticed the same had been done but with heads of those well into their 70s or 80s.

the hall went on for ever forward and back millions of heads on each side all dripping blood billions of little droplets could be heard echoing through the dark path and the wind blew against me with the odor of rotting flesh.

the lights went out leaving me in complete darkness and i kept walking.
suddenly there was wailing and crying all around me it was the pained moans of the elderly and the crying of babies.

It was so loud so unbearably noisy my ear drums rattled painfully.
i kept walking through the noise and the stench my ears soon caught the sound of metal dragging on the floor coming towards me slowly . my heart raced and i felt a panic attack but i kept walking towards the sound that was heading for me.

and then a light flickered way down the hall and i saw it

His neck was twisted around and his head rested sideways on his shoulder
he was bald his eyes were empty sockets leaking pus and blood
his jaw was long and sewn on lazily with leather lace.

he wore a robe of human flesh tied at the waist with long intestines that dragged with the tails of the robe behind him. i could see rotted fingers breasts and penises in the skin of his robe.

The heads on the walls near him were not wailing or crying instead they stuck out their tongues and frantically whiped their bloody spinal chords around as if trying to touch the beast.

the light went out and the heads wailed and cried but i kept walking forward.

see? absolutely nothing special here.

my wings have scales their heavy like lead.
jagged and sharp are the horns on my head.
flipping the bird is is my pleasure middle fingers remain in that extended rude gesture.
dont get me wrong but its hard to get me right.
i sleep in the day and i break the world all through the night.



shut up i'm bored it's 6 am

[01] Do you have the guts to answer these questions and re-post as The Controversial Survey?

No I sold my guts on the black market.

[02] Would you do meth if it was legalized?

Fuck no I'll do pot or acid once in a while but never fuck with meth.

[03] Abortion: for or against it?

for it and all the pro-life protesters should worry about their own damn lives. sometimes an abortion is just the right thing to do.

[04] Do you think the world would fail with a female president?

i duno I hate politics.

[05] Do you believe in the death penalty?

yeah I do but i believe it should be done in a fun way launch the fuckers out of a catapult.

[06] Do you wish marijuana would be legalized already?

theres nothing wrong with pot and I believe it should be legal cause apperantly there are countless good christians who follow the book and in that fucking book it says god has gifted us with every plant tree and herb.


[07] Are you for or against premarital sex?

Let the kids fuck! family values and abstinence are bullshit.

[08] Do you believe in God?

No I dont believe in god or prayer.
But if there was a god then prayer would be moot anyways because god apparently has a plan and what you pray for is not in his plan and it's selfish if you think he will change his plan for you and since god has planned our lives and our deaths that must mean he planned the deaths of fetuses from abortions as well

[09] Do you think same sex marriage should be legalized?

Of course i do I'm gay and I'm tired of hearing assholes whine and bitch about the sanctity of mariage when every one knows damn well 60% of them fail.
The bible thumping assheads are just afraid we'll do it better than them!


[10] Do you think it's wrong that so many Hispanics are illegally moving to the USA?

I dont mind but i hate when paople bitch about it.
.

[11] A twelve year old girl has a baby, should she keep it?

Hell fucking no I knew a twelve year old who got knocked up three fucking times over the course of 4 years and it made me sick cause her mother thought it was the most wonderful thing
Fucking disgusting



[12] Should the alcohol age be lowered to eighteen?

i wish it was but i think a lot of teens drink like fucking idiots and will either kill someone or them selves while driving or doing somthing extremely idiotic for youtube.
I started drinking at 14 theres nothing to do here but vandalize or get buzzed.


[13] Should the war in Iraq be called off?
yeah we need to fix us first.

[14] Assisted suicide is illegal: do you agree?

if you want to die then go ahead although i think suicide is a dumb fucking thing to do I told my friends if any of them killed themselves i would fuck their corpse.


[15] Do you believe in spanking your children?

god yes your kids are little monsters smack the shit out of em

[16] Would you burn an American flag for a million dollars?

Fuck I'll do it for free I'll burn the bible too while I'm at it

[17] Who do you think would make a better president? McCain or Obama?

they both suck

[18] Are you afraid others will judge you from reading some of your answers?

I'm not afraid to express my beliefs

dont like it then rim me!

I'm tired of people complaining about emo kids I mean come on whats the big deal?
Atleast theres variety in our youths culture and not every white kid is going around acting like a gangsta/pimp wannabe rapper if they were I would fucking kill myself.
I already have an urge to walk out into the middle of a feild far away from everything and everyone and scream until my throat bleeds from the inside.

by the way all the emos I met so far are the coolest nicest people i've ever encountered.

yes furaffinity is back and i didnt die during the down time i'm sooooooooooooooooooooo happy!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i think any one would have been as pissed off as i was waking up at five am to here it full volume on surround sound
windows were rattling the house shook
wtf is wrong with my family?

so my family freaked when they noticed i replaced all the pictures of me from catholic school with photos of marilyn manson fredy mercury and davey havok

haha the pic of me standing in front of the statue of marry was replaced with a pic of manson making it look like twiggy was giving him head.

THIS ISNT APRIL FUCKING FOOLS DAY!
i knowi just thought these pics were better.

lol they still remain on the mantel

i would like to do a prank involving penis cake but i cant find any.

I think T.V mostly sucks so I usually read or try to find a good cartoon.
i am not partial to chocolate I'll only eat it during intimate moments.
other wise the only candy i eat are things like jolly ranchers lollipops gummi worms/bears anything thats fruity and suckable lol.
I can put away a ton of food and still remain like a stick figure (god i hope i dont have a tapeworm that would be disgusting) *shivers*
i do meditation and I've been reading books on astral projection since i was 14.
i started drinking when i was 15 since there was nothing to do on weekend camping trips except for steal beer from redneck's coolers. though my first time drunk i was 7 O_o
i got kicked out of the campground for breaking curfue and being an acomplice to picnic table arson i threw the match (like i said it sucked up there the only thing to do was drink and burn shit.
after that there was no reason for any more vandalism cause i was now at home happily playing videogames and hanging out with friends.
i don't usually get hang overs but when i do i just slam a few drinks (if i can fight my gag reflex which i'm pretty good at lol perv! ) eventually the pain stops but i'm drunk again so i go to sleep wake up head ache free.
i can activate my gag reflex with out probing at the back of my throat but i dont do that any more cause it's gross ok maybe on occasion i will do it to get my squeamish friend to throw up too just for laughs(hey i did describe myself as a childish pyscho with an odd sense of humor.

a few more perks and quirks
i have always been frightened of the ice cream man (but i think all children should be)
cafeteria food has made me shiver
i steal trafic cones ( i have too many though so about 7 of them are buried in the back yard O_o)
i cant resist the urge to climb things when outside
slaping sounds in pornos used to make me laugh
i love viva piniata
and i have a tendency to write garbage like i'm doing now