Hey guys, today is the final day of this God forsaken year and now it's time to end it on a good note.

First off, I wanna say that while I haven't had too much stress outside the internet well a little from work and stuff I went through so much stress Discord wise. It started with that bullshit drama. Things were good at first until things went downhill between my best friend and all my ex friends in a previous server I was in. I won't get into any detail here. Because of all that I left and made my own server. I gotta thank them though cause all that drama is what inspired me to make my own server and invite new groups of friends. Sometimes when you go though something negative, it's good to turn it into something positive.

Not only that but in April I broke up with my ex boyfriend cause too many differences, we were gonna stay friends but sadly we both cut ties on a sour note. I hope someday I'll meet someone special irl who will treat me better.

I'm happy that I met some amazing new friends who helped me get over everything. I just hope this year I won't go through that bullshit drama ever again on Discord or anywhere.

As for goals, first off, get my house paid off and my car. I'm gonna try to get back on my diet and lose some weight. Try to find a new love partner, hopefully he'll be a thousand times better than my previous one. Of course improve on my art skills.

With that all said, happy new year my Floofs ❤

So usually I collect art I requested and put them in toyhouse so I thought I might as well show them off here cause why not? Of course I'll credit all the artists so you all can see lovely arts I requested for not just myself but my close friends as well.

I've finally done it! I managed to earn 100 watchers! Ahhh! Honestly I never thought I'd get this much cause I'm usually so underrated. Heck I never got this much back in my old account. I just wanna say thank you guys so much! It means so much that this many people actually like my stuff. For this occasion, I plan to do a free art raffle. Only one will win. I will make a separate deviation later on so stay tuned.

Hey everyone, I want thank those who helped me out with my money issue. With adoptables, commissions and just plain donations. But that's not why I'm writing this journal. I am getting a $2 raise at my job starting Monday. Breaks will be reduced a little but I'm ok with that. At least I'll pay off my house payment much easier.

If you want a free adopt check out 's raffle here:

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/44490072/

Hey everyone, I really hate to write journals like this but this is an emergency. I've looked at my bank account yesterday and unfortunately I lost a lot of money. It's mostly due to house payment, internet bill, and groceries. Gas has become expensive nowadays. Buying commissions is not an option at this point in time. If I'm becoming this broke, I best not spend any more till I get paid from my job this coming Friday and I usually get paid every two weeks. I feel bad for asking, but if you guys are willing to help a person out, that'd be awesome. I'm always open for commissions, YCHs, I made some new adoptables on my toyhouse, or you can just donate to my ko-fi. If you can't pay, the least you can do is spread this around. Or you can just ignore.

Links here:
Adoptables: https://toyhou.se/AnimaTheTigress/c.....folder:2639468
Commission sheet: https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43744473/
YCHs: https://www.furaffinity.net/gallery.....er/991010/YCHs
Ko-fi: https://ko-fi.com/animatigoriae

Holy shit, I just reached 90 watchers on here. Honestly I never thought I'd get this far. Just 10 more watchers and I'll reach 100. If I reach 100 watchers I may do a free art raffle. Seriously though, thank you all so much.

I know I promised myself I'd never make another Twitter for as long as I live cause of personal mistakes I made in the past, but some new friends I met on Discord encouraged me to come back cause they wanted to support my work. So I made two new accounts. My main and SFW account is AnimaTheTigress and my NSFW account is AniBustyQueen.

It's been almost a whole year since I created this account as Floof-Tigress. Hard to believe how much time has passed. I mainly switched accounts mainly cause I was tired of the name Alesha Zee. Back then I was a completely different person. I ran into a lot of slipups and I was immature at the time. Even after that, I ran into more slipups. Shame how I made friends in a server and now we became enemies. I never wanted this, but cutting ties was the only option. I may have deactivated my old DA account cause of my ex BF but I stayed on this one because I've grown to love this account. I won't be abandoning it anytime soon. Despite all that happened, I'm just glad that some people still stuck by me and understand what I went through. Including my bff. Along the way, I met a lot of new friends. From the bottom of my heart, I wanna thank every single one of you for sticking by me even after all this time.

Honestly I can't remember the last time I used Ko-fi. It's been WAAAYYYY too long. Anyways. I did some adjusting on my Ko-fi but if you wish to donate to me I'd greatly appreciate it. Donate $20 or more, I may give you a reward ;)

https://ko-fi.com/animatigoriae

Want a free adopt? Check out Shiny's raffle here.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43559158/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43559158/
https://www.furaffinity.net/view/43559158/

I am currently in 4 different discord servers and they are usually dead so I wouldn't mind joining servers meeting new people and check out what they're about. Note me or comment below.

What's up floofs? It's that time of the year for me, I lived on this planet for 27 years. Crazy how time flies.

Normally I wouldn't write vent journals like this expectually on FA but there's something I've been wanting to let out for quite some time now. First off it has something to do with drama that took place in a server I used to be in, having to cut ties with certain people, and helping my best friend out of all this stress. At first things were pretty good since my bff got invited in this server, unfortunately there were too many slip ups and misunderstandings to the point it got worse. He and I took hiatus for a week but got even worse after that. I then learned he was kicked out due to snapping at an admin. When he got kicked out I felt like a part of me was taken away. I hoped there was a chance he'd come back and redeem himself but unfortunately the admins were too stubborn to let him back in and decided to cut ties with him permanently. When I saw that and everyone treating him like a dangerous criminal, that was the final straw for me. It hurt me seeing everyone happy with him being out of there and I was the only one feeling miserable without him. I couldn't take it anymore so I decided to leave the server. Honestly, I'm happy to be out of there. Now that I got my own discord server, I can just do what I want without having to feel afraid to share my stuff and accidentally hurt someone. No drama no bullshit.

During all that drama I unfortunately had to cut ties with certain people who I used to call my friends for not only talking shit about my bff, but also accused him of convincing me to leave even though that was far from the truth. Even my own my ex boyfriend of all people. I thought he understood me the most and respected my decisions. But he also accused him of convincing me to leave. I told him before I left I was planning on leaving and it sounded like he understood. Sadly, he's changed and not in a good way. He and I used to be so close til he started treating me and my friend like shit. He was acting very strange, stopped talking to me first, heck even hardly said a word in my server.

One day I stopped watching one ex friend due to loss of interest, trying to avoid certain art and their attitude. Cause of that they cut ties for me. Which was ok with me because I was gonna cut ties with them anyway cause of their poor attitude. Cause of that my ex lashed out at me. It scared me. He had his moments with me but never like this. That was the last straw with him so I cut ties with him as well. I never wanted to do it. But all we seem to do is fight. The man I loved for 8 years has died and now he'd rather hang out with a bunch of strict, lying and manipulating assholes. I kicked him out of my server and disbanded the ships we made permanently. I even deactivated my DA account because of him . Honestly I'm much happier with him out of my life. That goes to those so called friends I had who did nothing but make me and my friend unhappy. But who needs them when I got REAL friends right here?

Hey so I have my own personal discord server if anyone would like to join. Send me a note and I'll send you a link.

A little disclaimer; Do NOT ask me to do rps with you. Expectually if they don't meet my preference. I've had two people who are complete strangers asking me to do rps with them. I do rps with close friends on Discord. If you're a complete stranger, sorry, I won't do rps with you whether it be SFW or NSFW. Next person who I don't know ask for some weird rp is getting blocked cause honestly, this is getting annoying.

That's right, due to how slow my current one is. I'm getting a new Acer laptop soon. I ordered it last night so it'll arrive on my door step tomorrow. The one have now is not only slower then a slug but also doesn't work on Discord VCs. I'm excited about getting this new one and I hope it'll be good for live streaming. Of course I will have to download art programs, discord and stuff.

After 7 years of being a long distant couple, and I are no longer together. It pains me to say this but the plans we had and the love we had it just wasn't going to work. Neither of us would move out of our states just to be together, so because of the so many differences, we both decided just to end it all. This time for real.

However, we will still remain good friends and of course Anitor and Winjake will still be canon as well as our Animalia universe so that won't change. But our fursonas will no longer be together.

Dawn, just know that I still love you and care about you but I feel like the relationship wasn't working out. I hope someday you'll find someone special and hope she gives you all the love just as much as I did. As for me, I will remain single until I find the right man for me.

Unfortunately my friend Kris and her husband are about to go homeless. We must do everything in our power to make sure this doesn't happen. My friend made a gofundme so please, my all means do what you can to help out. Every penny counts.

https://gofund.me/c1d2d099

My friend Is about to go homeless so be sure to read this and please by all means do what you can to help.

https://www.furaffinity.net/journal/9779927

I'm just spreading this around.

I'm not currently having any issues but I just wanna say that if you're having trouble with yourself or someone else. I'm always happy to listen to what ever is troubling you, just as long as I'm not getting dragged into anyone's mess. Yes, you're free to vent to me privately just don't drag me into it or use me as a link between others. It can get really annoying and stressful. If you're having issues with someone, talk to them directly. Unless they blocked you, THEN I'll play as the messenger. I just wanna get that out of my chest.

It really pains me to say this but... the doctors called and said Smudge's breathing improved a little but not as we hoped. Because of his asthma and possibly cancer in his lungs. When out of the oxygen tank, he had a hard time breathing. My mother and I had to make the final decision... we had to put him down. I never wanted it to come to this but I feel like it's better this way then to just sit there and watch him suffer. We said our last goodbye to him before putting him down and he died in my arms. It was the hardest moment for me to deal with. I didn't just lose a pet, I just lost a family member. Rest in peace Smudge, you were a good cat and lived a good life. I will never forget you. :( 2009-2020.

I am opening commissions because of how high priced the vet bill was. If anyone is interested, PM me and we can talk about it. Prices down below.

https://www.furaffinity.net/view/39658707/

My cat Smudge has got feline asthma and has been hospitalized last night. It started three weeks ago the first time he was breathing heavily. I took him to the vet, they put medicine in him and he was better for a while. Until earlier this week he began breathing heavily again. It's gotten a lot worse so I took him to an emergency pet hospital. Thankfully they were open 24 hrs a day everyday including weekends. They charged me $650 for hospital stay where they put him on oxygen, now they are charging over a thousand for medication. All that for one old cat! That's more then what I make at work every two weeks.

Based on all the money I'm spending on this cat, I may try to open commissions if anyone out there would be interested. That's another problem too. If I try to open commissions, no one bothers to comment, send notes, or even say they're interested.

I hope Smudge will get better after all this. If his asthma comes back, I may have no choice but to put him down. I really don't want to do that. I've had him for 11 years he's always been a good cat.

Hey, if you get pissy on whoever wins this election. It doesn't matter, this world is hell enough as it is. I don't wanna talk about politics here. It's too much drama and the reason why I stay silent on who I vote for.

Hey just an update, I am no longer on quarantine, a doctor left me a message saying I can live a normal life again. Therefore, I'm going back to work tomorrow. However I still have tiredness and my breath is a little shorter then before. But I'm not to the point where I'm suffocating. I guess I was one of the lucky ones.